Cate's Diary

Tru- 2kg down is a great way to start my year. Very :D about that!
Mands- Scroll down to the bottom of the page & click on contact us & ask for your diary to be moved. Include a link to the first page to make it easier for them. I have found the moderators to be exceptionally helpful with any requests I have made. You can do this sweetie. I know you can. Glad I can provide you with some extra motivation xo Cate
Maryann- Glad that you liked the CPL post & printed it up. I am always looking for reinforcements & it all helps. Staying positive & determined is the key. We have to want this more than we want to eat unhealthy food! I am going to Skype our YS again this morning with the grandkids. They will be a good tonic for him. He seems to be loving Canada a little bit too much for my liking!! LOL. He is now talking about selling his house here in Tassie & buying one there! GULP! He changes his mind all the time. Before he left he couldn't imagine living anywhere else but near us & his brother, niece & nephews. Now he's talking about not being able to live without his new friends & family(my niece & her husband.) I do miss him & want him to be happy but also would like him to come back home, hopefully by the end of this year. He seems to be always searching for something & not quite finding it.
I have to go as the GK's will be here in a sec. Lots of love xoxo Cate
 
Had a long Skype chat with our YS yesterday. There's method in my madness. I thought he had almost forgotten how much he loves them, & they, him. He is moving out from the house he has been in & that may account for him being so down lately. He is not easy to live with but also is inclined to make 'friends' a little bit too fast & perhaps isn't the best judge of character. Hopefully he will settle down emotionally soon. Hmmm. We would be able to help if he was back near us.
Our ex-DIL is driving our OS crazy with her text rants re the Mormon church. He forwards some onto me but said not to mention anything to her & just to drop the kids off & get away fast. I just gave her a kiss & said how much I love having them on Sundays.*sigh*
While we were in the park yesterday a man gave me the creeps, appearing near our GD, watching her. It really was scary. I have never experienced that feeling before & I do trust my judgement. He was on a bus of tourists from Queensland. The 3 kids were up high playing on an old steam train in the park & he climbed up the stairs to it & just stood watching, but didn't speak to them. The 2 boys had moved away a bit, but he stayed there, watching her. 'A' looked at this bloke & then moved, with his arm around his little brother, back to his sister. I walked over & called out & said "let's go for a walk" & we moved away.
About 10 mins later, we were just sitting by the river & the kids were climbing on a fallen tree & he reappeared again, just standing nearby, without speaking. It really gave me the creeps. He had sunglasses & kept his head lowered, but I felt sure he was watching our GD. We left soon after, but I came away feeling quite ill.
One thing about it, it gave me the opportunity to have a really good talk to them about 'stranger danger.' Our older GS said that he had felt uncomfortable with the guy also. He said he keeps a good eye on the littlies & he is a really smart kid. I also had a good talk to him about his Mum as he can sound quite harsh & intolerant of her & tried to explain to him that his mum is emotionally vulnerable. I think I got through to him to contact me by text or FB if they get in another situation, like the day they were not fed. He knows that I am not hard on her & that I do support her when I can.
I won't go back & edit all that. Sometimes it helps just to let it all out. Yesterday was quite stressful.
After I dropped the GK's off I visited my Mum & found her in a bit of a daze. To cut what is already a long post short. She was sitting in her chair, her bed was a very untidy mess & apparently she had pooed her pants & got it on her bed & had just scrunched it all up. I cleaned it up as best I could, opened the window for some fresh air, stayed a while (not long) & came home. I rang the home up & told a staff member about it. I don't think Mum will be long in the low care home. These incidents are becoming common. :(
I'm staying home today & will get on my exercise bike, do some gardening & have a lovely leisurely day. My LH is working, earning some spending money for our trip :D
Thanks to anyone who wades through today's long post!
xoxo Cate
 
Hey Dear Cate - luv your long posts... U are such a neat lady.

Sorry to hear about the creepy fellow in the park - ...glad nothing further happened & you were able to use it as a teaching opportunity for your GKs....

U are being such a good stable support for your ex DIL and your grandkids - hugs to you Cate for being strong and positive for them all.

A day at home with some exercise bike, some gardening , some rest-leisure- sounds perfect ...I gotta work ! am jealous.... You must be starting to get a bit excited about your trip, !
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cheers, Maryann C.
 
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Hi Maryann, that was a really sweet post, thank you! I really did enjoy yesterday! It was lovely. The home is in lock-down today with gastro, which is what Mum has apparently! :( Poor old thing! I had a funny day really, but it's ok. I dropped my LH off at his golf & was about to visit Mum, when I got the call re the gastro & then when I went to Tai Chi, no-one was there. Apparently the others got a text. I basically just filled my day in wandering the streets! Mind you, I did manage to buy our GD's next birthday present. It's in July but I couldn't pass up the opportunity. When I popped into one of the op shops they just had an arrival of about 50 Barbie dolls- Snow White, Rapunzel etc & I bought 8 for $4 each, plus a bag of accessories for only $3! A BIG bag. It was amazing value. I would never waste my money on them new, but only $4!!!
I'm playing golf tomorrow & can't wait. I'm actually playing 9 holes on Thursday too & then another 18 holes on Sat! That will sure burn up some calories.
Glad to see your diary over here Mands! I'm not home for long today so will catch up properly when I am. Thursday?
 
Don't post for one day, at your peril, at the moment. Hope the momentum keeps up & that all the new activity continues! Oh, for NY resolutions being followed through LOL.
A great day today. I really enjoyed it. Had a great day's golf, in good company. It was hot & humid but nice.
I'm feeling good. No stress today :D
Cheers, xo Cate
 
Glad you had a stress free day. I would give anything for a warm day as it is soooo cold by us I just don't wanna do anything as I'm getting too cold to move :)so I'm not burning too many calories but at least my weight is dropping as I'm sticking to Cohen's like gum to a blanket.

Hope you have another great day!
 
Hi Tru, Mands & Jen R, I did really need a stress-free day! It is so important to find a way of tuning out to stress! (drug-free of course lol.) I just have to steer the women off any family related stuff. My MIL used to play & was Captain, president etc & from what I hear was as bossy at the golf club as she is among the family. Someone asked me how I get on with her yesterday & I said that I get on well with her these days but don't let her bully me anymore & that she has been "the mother-in-law from hell"! From that moment on the room seemed to lighten a little. They were probably too scared to mention anything about her. I don't want to get into any bitching sessions about anyone but that may have cleared the air a little. I feel as though I am finding my way in the golf club & that the women are accepting me as I am.
I think I will have to cut out drinking wine for a while to drop some more weight. I know everyone says they are empty calories but..... I just have to do it, or I will be going away with no leeway & coming back overweight & I can't have that.
One thing I must do soon is go see a funeral director & organise to have Mum cremated. A friend suggested it as she may die while we're away. It was a good thing to mention & I must do it in the next week. I rang her last night & she was feeling much better, thank goodness.
I have the day at home on my own today. I might start doing my weights again. I love the muscles I am getting from golf!
Bye for now xo Cate
 
Had a great day today! Feeling relaxed & not faintly stressed. Spent the day in town with my LH. I had a dessert, after having a really healthy lunch. It's a long story & I tried cancelling it, but it was too late! So I have gone all month until today, without having a sugar added dessert....I think......& it is soooo not worth it!! I LOVE a good wine, but sugar added, gluggy desserts leave me feeling really bad! I should give them up forever! A strawberry never makes you feel bad. A glass or 2(even 3) of wine never makes me feel BAD. Will I be learning lessons forever about what I should NEVER eat? Probably...
Anyhow, I won't lose sleep over it.
18 holes of golf again tomorrow! I LOVE my life!
xoxo Cate
 
Hey Cate! Don't lose sleep over it - just get back on and eat right again. You have really done amazing and a slip now and again isn't thaaaat bad as you are almost at your goal weight hey?

Me ....I have a long way to go so will stick to the plan and not deviate until I've dropped the 40kg.

Have a great weekend and enjoy the golf!
 
Hey Cate!
What a great statement"I love my life"!! You are on top of things, and sorry for the sugar dessert, but sounds like it was a good lesson learned and reminder that the added sugar is just not the way to go. You are so right...a strawberry never makes us feel bad! I heard on the podcast I listen to "dishing up nutrition" that sugar is one of the biggest inflammatory substances we can out in our body, so it's no wonder we feel bad when we put it in. For me it's more mental than physical...when i have had a bad day (thankfully mot with sugar in a long time) I go into hyperdrive on self loathing and never feeling I'm good enough... I read a quote that really fits me: when I don't feel good about myself, I see the faults of others all too clearly"...so true for me, so when I'm self aware (on that rare occasion), I notice when I'm starting to criticize, I have to look at me first. (Sucks, and not easy, especially "in the moment", but necessary!)
Not sure what led to all that today! Just wanted to pop in and encourage you and thank you for being a great source of encouragement for me, and know that I will be coming to your side of the world in a few days! Our cruise will start in Auckland, NZ and end up in Perth...18 days of pampering...can't wait to see some of the country you enjoy every day!
Cheers!!

Sarah
 
Hi Mands.. I know, I know, I am so hard on myself!. I had a lovely day & played well & was in great company. I'm in a good place now, but can't help the feeling sometimes that I'm teetering on the edge of going back to where I once was. It's such a fine line. I do know that I won't let myself, but I KNOW that I have to be vigilant. Eating sugary desserts make me feel bloody awful. It's mental AND physical. They make me feel fat & horrible. Truly! I sound like a nut case I know......I'm glad that you are back & focussed sweets. Thanks for visiting my diary xoxo Cate
Sarah- I do love my life! I think we lose sight sometimes & get tangled up with the nitty gritty of life. Overall I am one very lucky person. I wish you were coming to my part of Australia & that we could meet up. Hopefully we will one day! Perth is a LONG way from Tasmania & the climate is almost opposite. Perth people though I think are very much like Tasmanians in that we live a long way away from the rest of Australia. We usually get along very well. I hope you have a lovely time on your cruise. I'm always happy when you pop into my diary. I agree with you on the self-loathing when you over-indulge. I dislike myself for being critical of others and their bad food choices or lifestyle choices. I don't think I was ever like that when I was fat. I should have empathy. We are not perfect but I don't like to be critical of others. I have been in their shoes & should know better. Eating sugar-laden food leaves me being someone I do not want to be. Sarah I think we will continue having insights into our psyche forever. The day we stop learning is the day we die. It's much better than stagnating or not caring. I DO love my life & I should take pride in what I have done & how much I have changed my life. There is always the shame that I let myself go so much in the 1st place, but I am happy with who I am & what I have done. Enjoy your cruise my friend. You deserve a break form what must be a high pressure job, xoxo Cate
 
I just read back that last post. It's strange how we can go through moments of vulnerability. I mostly feel quite strong but obviously I didn't last night. I have the GK's again this morning so had better go & spend some time with them. Their time spent with us has to be more fun than at Mormon Sunday school! Bye for now xoxo Cate
 
So when did colour reappear? NICE! I popped into the forum today to type a quick post & saw that my old(young ;)) buddies, Alta & Ivette are back posting. How lovely! I do feel that 2013 might just be the year that we strengthen our resolve & feel that we have taken control of our health & well-being. I have started my year feeling confident in the future. I know bad things will happen but I know that life is good. I am loved & loving & life is well worth living. I am not making unrealistic resolutions any more. I am going to keep on doing what I am doing with confidence & with self-love.
I have a doctor's ap't today, just for my regular scripts & then I thought I would head out to the golf club to have a hit on my own. I want to learn how far I can hit the ball with each club as I really don't have a clue about that. I also want to practise my putting. Have I told you how much I LOVE golf. Ha ha. LOVING it, loving life....
xoxo Cate
 
Practised golf for about 90mins yesterday & felt I learned a lot. Tomorrow I'll put some of it into play. I needed to establish some sort of pattern with my putting as it has slipped lately. I have been getting onto the green in 2 or 3 shots & then 3 or 4 putting!!:blush5: It seems everyone putts differently & I will find my own style. What I tried doing is having a ritual & sticking with it. Sorry.....I have probably bored you, just like talk of golf used to bore me! :blush5:
Today is day 2 without any alcohol (Awesome Day 2- for Sarah & Kate) & staying under my calories, which of course, will be MUCH easier without wine!!
My doctor said he thought my sore thumb was Osteoarthritis. I think it may ne arthritis as the tops of my feet have been a bit lumpy & throbbing at the end of the day, in the heat. I also think that I have been gripping the clubs too tight & probably squashing my left thumb. There are so many little things to learn...but I love it.
Today I am staying at home & doing housework & maybe riding my bike. I would like to get back into doing my weights but don't seem to find the motivation to actually start. I used to love doing them.
Today is going to be quite hot. Mum's home is still in lock-down so I can't visit her. A day at home will be nice.
Bye for now xo Cate
 
Hey cate, thanks for stopping by.

On the putting, probably the biggest key is the wrists. You just can't break your wrists. However you accomplish that (most of the crazy putting styles are designed to prevent that from happening) and is still comfortable is what you need to go with. I putt traditionally and use my back foot (right foot for a righty) as a sort of guide for how hard I hit the ball. Golf is either a lot of fun or completely infuriating and I never know which it's going to be until I get out there.
 
Hi Mr Vee, when you say you use your back foot as a guide, do you mean you position your right foot further to the right to hit it less distance? I am having trouble getting my head around it. So many things to learn.....I think I need more lessons! I love it though & will improve as I go as I'm so keen. I have only been playing 3 months. It's a great leveller. Thank goodness for handicaps! Cheers, Cate
 
What I mean is, take the putter head back to where it's level with your back foot, and then hit a putt. See generally how far that putt will go. Once you know that, you can then adjust the distance from there using by using that foot as a guide when you take your better back; a little shorter than your foot will hit it shorter, a little longer than your foot will hit it longer.
 
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