Cate's Diary

AOh Cate, the time with your three grandkids sounds exhausting! You describe the situation so well, with the dobbing and the being naughty and crabby, etc. :) And I can imagine your LH sitting there with a smile on his dial watching the world go round. :) I know you love them to bits, but I can just imagineit! haha. I imagine this is what school holidays must be like....

Great job being alcohol free until you feel totally better. I initally started my alcohol free stint (holy cow... it was EIGHT MONTHS AGO!!!!) as a way of detoxing and trying to feel healthy... it did wonders. I think your body needs to just focus on getting better without all the other stuff to process in the meantime. Great decision :)

Your resolutions - I love that they are so specific and achievable. And that you've included real life mental-health balancing ones like allowing yourself to go over your calories once a week. You're such a smart cookie! With your alcohol-free days, my parents do exactly this. They love their wine but they now do Mondays and Wednesdays alcohol free. And I think I've told you how much you remind me of my gorgeous mama... So you can do it! Maybe just make it when you are home. If there happens to be some social event on those nights, then that doesn't matter.

:D you are going to learn to love your legs. :D spread the love!!!!

This was a really beautiful post to read, Cate. So much positivity and desire for self-love.

xx
 
AHeya Cupcake

:iagree: with Joh.

I love reading your diary, it is like reading a good book. You're awesome :)

My brother has three kids. A girl who is always dobbing her brothers in and the boys are alway fighting and arguing. As an auntie watching i find it really funny!!! But i can see it's hard for my sister-in-law as my brother works away alot. I don't have to put up with it as we just have Jack and we don't argue and he isn't too stroppy, i am so so lucky :)

I love your resolutions, like Joh said they are great especially the mental well being ones. And how exciting the you are gonna have a go at running. Take it easy to start with, use C25K it really does make each session totally managable.
I have entered The Great South Run today!!!!!! 10 mile organised run, thousands of people do it!!! So excited and scared too. It's in october so it will make me keep on track and i am going to have to seriously work on my distance cos i have only done about 5 miles straight so far, i have time though, soooo looking forward to being able to run that far!

Sending you lots of love & hugs Xx
 
Aw Cate I think those new years resolutions are the BEST ever , so REAL and achievable just GREAT!

I like the Not worry for everything that happens , detox on the alchol

and be mopre tolerant on religion........Specialy the last one...Correct me if im wrong.Tolerant means to be thoughtfull?more understanding?You mean that you will try to be more understanding of people who are religious AND relion itself?



You made me smile with the kids situation!!!I can oimagine them around you , you trying to be patient and your husband just sitting there with a smile on his face!!!
 
Well girls :grouphug:, this post is being done for the grand-kids because I read out part of my yesterday's post to them & they LOVED the smileys.

Ella :santa:says- "We may have been a bit full-on earlier in the day :party:We behaved much better later in the day & were very good at bed-time." :newangel::newangel:

:iagree: Nan says "that's right. By the end of the day all children were good! Very good!"

Charlie :auto:says " I am not really a naughty boy. Just sometimes I get a 'little' bit naughty & sometimes I do get a little bit angry." :banghead:

Alex :cool: says "Charlie is cranky & Ella is annoying but I do love them really." :smilielol5:Nan insisted on the last little bit!


Joh & Kate I can't concentrate on replying to you lovelies with kids climbing all over me(almost) so will pop back tonight after they have returned home. They are lovely kids & I am one very very lucky woman. Love you two, xoxo Cate
 
Jess I didn't even see your post sweetie. We must have been typing at the same time. One of my S's-I-L accused me of being intolerant of Christianity just before xmas. It came out of the blue & took me by surprise, I must admit. I don't know which church she attends or care what religion she follows. I am not religious at all. I don't mind people having their beliefs. Why should I? I had thought that I had kept my views to myself but she must have picked up on something & taken it as a personal insult. Perhaps it was my 'liking' Richard Dawkins on Facebook. Oh well. I have many religious friends & I never discuss religion with them. I think that I am tolerant of other people's beliefs. I'm not going to stress over it but thought it wouldn't hurt to try to be even more tolerant. That SIL is particularly sensitive since splitting with her husband about 8 years ago. It rocked her foundation to the core.Re; my husband. If he had been sitting there benignly smiling I would have been ok with it. The bugger was reading a book & ignoring the kids totally!! Love that you went running sweetie!! Good for you Jess!! xoxo Cate.


Quoting Joh "And I think I've told you how much you remind me of my gorgeous mama..." How sweet!! Your mother seems like an absolutely darling so I will take that as one of the best compliments I have ever had. :biggrin: "This was a really beautiful post to read, Cate. So much positivity and desire for self-love." Thank you sweetie. We really MUST learn to love our-selves. I spent almost my whole teen years, 20's, 30's & 40's thinking I was not attractive or good enough or loving enough or worthy enough. That was so wrong!! Joh, you will be the best mother/woman in the world if you realise, I mean really start believing, just how smart, attractive & lovely you are. You are going to be one, fantastic mother. You really must trust your instincts more & have faith in yourself. Please try to worry less lovely lady. Your baby has such a cute little nose & face. WOW!!!! xoxo Cate


Kate- Really? "I love reading your diary, it is like reading a good book. You're awesome" :svengo:I rant & rave & rabbit on but what you read is how I am. TOTAL NUT CASE!!

I did say I am going to TRY running. I am still scared to REALLY try running you clever little chickadeee. You hit the nail on the head when you caught me out, thinking I was too old! :blush5: You are a darling, you know that? I'll have a look at the Couch 2 5K or whatever it is some time soon. I have a pain under my left heel & am booked to see the podiatrist in early Feb. I'll wait until after that before I try. I can't remember what it was you said in Joh's diary but it was pure Catherine Tait. I LOVE her!! I often think I sound like her or think like some of her characters. I remember "How very dare you!" LOVE IT!!


Love you guys!! xoxoxoxo Cate


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ALol 'how very dare you' is Katherine Tate She is awesome, i especially like Nan 'fucking liberties' I will never forget the first time i saw her doing that, i very nearly wet myself!!!

Jess went for a run today.........Your turn Cupcake!!!! Just try it for a little bit. I am too impatient to wait for you to start in Feb. I want you to start now!!!! :toetap05:

Love and hugs Xx
 
Kate, Sweetie, walking is a little bit painful at the moment, so running won't be happening any time soon. Last year I tried a little run here & there when I went for a walk but when I said that I am going to try running I meant actually doing what you did initially & gradually building it up to where I will be able to run a fair distance. I think I have a Calcium spur under my left heel & by the end of the day it really hurts. I have a feeling that it may be diet related so, once again, I should make that appointment with the Naturopath. i don't know why I'm struggling so much to make the call! Grrr. Katherine Tate cracks me up & the same thing happened to me when I first saw the granny skit. That woman is a comic genius!! I need to make a few calls so will go write a list. First haircut, then Naturopath. No!! Can't make an ap't for hair cut UNTIL I have made the Naturopath's ap't. I will pop back later & report. That's a promise. Oohh. Now I actually HAVE to DO it...... Don't delete, don't delete.....Say 'bye for now, xoxo Cate
 
I rang the Naturopath & left a message on her answering machine with my details. I won't make a hair ap't yet as, if I am going to see her in Launceston soon, I can get my hair cut at a place that doesn't have ap'ts & only does cuts (no smelly perms.) I'll give her a week but then will have to get a hair cut. I'm not going as short this time. I feel like something a little different.

I had a very active day doing lots of housework & didn't need to use my puffer once!! I was coughing up a bit of muck (sorry-tmi) but was really happy with my day. I am de-cluttering like you wouldn't believe. In another month I should be able to say that there is nothing in our home that I don't want there. That would be a great achievement.

I am really looking forward to Tai Chi tomorrow. Can't wait!! :biggrin:

I still have another 2 days of antibiotics. I may have a drink on Friday night and/or Saturday night. I haven't made up my mind yet. We are considering (probably ) going out to listen to music on Friday AND Saturday night. A couple we know are singing on Friday night & we have missed them the last 2 times & another couple who are about to leave Tasmania are singing on Saturday night. Both nights are at the pub our son is at. I have had quite enough of being house-bound & feeling ill.

I must share a very funny experience. I wore a pink shirt to the funeral, with black slacks & sandals. It wasn't until I went to get undressed last night that I noticed that I had 2 totally different ear-rings on. Both had pink in them but that was really the only similarity. The funny thing was that someone said how they liked my ear-rings & I couldn't remember who it was. I commented on it on Facebook & a friend told me which friend had said it & she said that she really liked the left ear-ring! FUNNY!

Lots of love to all, xoxo Cate
 
AHi lovely! YAY for calling the naturopath!!!! :) Do you know that my sister is a naturopath? I know that she has truly changed so many lives... she says she gets frustrated though, because only about one in every twenty clients she sees actually does what she tells them to do, and then they all whine that it isn't working. I suppose using natural remedies takes a little longer than some more traditional medicines, but I can imagine her frustration! Dunc was having major gall stone problems a few years ago and had seen three specialists, all of whom said that he needed to have surgery.. instead, he religiously followed my sister's advice and in one month he had no problems any more, and now, years later, there is still no sign of a problem.

AKA I am so glad you are going to see someone!

MEANWHILE I HAVE BIG NEWS for you :)
You said "I spent almost my whole teen years, 20's, 30's & 40's thinking I was not attractive or good enough or loving enough or worthy enough. That was so wrong!! Joh, you will be the best mother/woman in the world if you realise, I mean really start believing, just how smart, attractive & lovely you are. You are going to be one, fantastic mother. You really must trust your instincts more & have faith in yourself. Please try to worry less lovely lady. Your baby has such a cute little nose & face. WOW!!!!"

I went to bed last night thinking about how beautiful I am, and what a lovely and smart person I am. :) I also felt kind of self-righteous and arrogant, but who cares. I felt great. :)

Too bad I woke up this morning with poohead emails in my inbox telling me I'm not very nice. GRR. Long story (it's in my diary) but I am going to try to do the same thing tonight - imagining myself as you see me, and dunc sees me, and trying to truly feel it. I know that's what I'd want my Beanie to feel about themselves, and also about me! haha. So I'm doing it. :)

You're awesome, you know? (little cry :) )
 
Hi CAte!Had a good day i see!thats nice! i love decluttering my house!i dont do that too often though.Only when things start fallinmg out of cupboards

111no , but really i do clean hysterically

11and that is one of my new years resolutions Not to stress over house ork.And i really can say i am sticking to it so far!my house isnt perfect from the start of this year , its a little messy all the time though.I dont stress...it bugs me a bit but i try to ignore it.I used tio be so upset because i pent all my time cleaning!....Not anymore!!!!hope i dont turn in to one of those ones from "How clean is YOUR HOUSE!!!"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


When u say your fre\iends are singing at the pub ,are they singers both of them????sounds like something nice to look forward to this weekend!

Thumbs up for calling the naturopath!Must not delay doctors appoinments!(thats for me to hear aswell!!!)
 
AHeya Cupcake

Ok, i'll let you off :) I'm sorry for being so pushy, i just want everyone to have that awesome feeling i get from running :blush5:

Well done on taking the step with the appointment :) and Yay, you seem to be feeling a lot better and managing to do stuff too without your puffer :hurray: :hurray: That's awesome!!
 
Hi Jess, Joh & Kate. Copied & pasted this earlier today

“I LOVE you girls, you know that? I was in a mad rush yesterday & didn't have time to reply & was hardly home at all. I'm suffering a bit today because of it, with a sore throat & am very snuffly & quite tired. I had Tai Chi earlier than usual as my teacher said it was a combined class. As it turned out I was the only one from the Intermediate class & I joined the Advanced. She told me a few times during the class that I did exceptionally well, which was really nice. I had tried following a couple of the others but they made mistakes so I then just winged it & did well. She was calling the movements & I knew most of them.

After class I went & picked up my mum & we went to lunch at the Deli. Then I took her to do a little shopping at the supermarket, dropped her back "home" & then went back & did a huge shop for us. I have emptied a freezer & moved it & am re-stocking it. I am getting ready for when the few bits of furniture from Mum's house arrives. I have no idea when that will be but at least I'll be ready for it. A big, pine wardrobe has to be moved from my spare double bedroom into our garage, which is pine lined also. I'll use it to store other people's clothes & things & camping gear. I've always got stuff that belongs to other members of the family. That's what parents do, right? I have been gradually getting the bedroom ready for my sister's visit, which will hopefully be in February. I'm quite excited about her coming. My poor LH won't get a word in edgeways when she's here. We'll do touristy things when she comes &, of course, visit Mum regularly & take her out. My sister has to wear a mask in public as she has M.C.S. (Multiple Chemical Sensitivities) So do I but haven't worn a mask yet. I tried one & couldn't breathe, with my asthma. I've been putting off having to wear one, but feel it's almost inevitable. I don't like the idea at all as I feel like enough of a freak as it is, always having to explain that I am allergic to most fragrance. It seems no-one really takes it in anyway or makes any adjustments.

Must share a Mumism- amongst Mum's shopping list, which included mundane things such as bananas, a black pen & elastic, was motor bike. YES- MOTOR BIKE!!!! She had no idea what that was about. It cracked me up!

My LH's 8-ball resumed after the xmas break & I realised that we had to take supper so when I got back from town I started on that & also cooked veggies to go with our dinner as it was COLD, way too cold, to have salad. We're in the middle of Summer & we get an arctic blast. Brrrrr!

We just got a power failure & my screen goes really dark. I can't use my laptop without power, because of that, which is a pain. It's also years old. Pity my LH doesn't work for Google!! I can't bring myself to save for a new computer when I have one that does the job(just!) I'll have to save this & come back to it later.

I realise I haven't replied to any of your lovely posts but it's getting too hard on my eyes to read the screen. I'll save this now to a word doc & come back later when our power is restored, xo Cateâ€

OK- we have power back! We can’t get water out of the tank or boil a kettle or go on the Internet, (except on my iphone) so are really limited with what we can do. It’s ok when you know it’s going to happen but they messed up & accidentally disconnected us!

I had better go get some exercise as I have eaten over my calories for the day (I have already counted what we are having for dinner, but haven’t added the fruit yet.) OUCH. Sunday is meant to be my scheduled going over day. I have eaten raisins & some dark chocolate & some smoked almonds. I got the munchies, probably because I am tired. When I am tired is when I feel like SWEETS. EEK!! I have stopped though & didn’t go CRAZY!!

I just hopped on the exercise bike but after 2 minutes was a bit puffed & also thought “how boring.†I’m going for a walk outside.

Tonight we are meeting in town & going to a 90th birthday party at the deli. A friend yelled out to me yesterday & gave me an invite. She has been keeping an eye out for me for a couple of weeks apparently. I really MUST go & will.

I got a call back from the naturopath to tell me that she was no longer practising as one & she gave me the name & phone number of a woman that she recommends. I said I would ring her immediately & I did & have an appointment next Monday.

I HAVE DONE IT!! I will take notice of what she says Joh. I have thought long & hard about what I want to do about my health & I feel a Naturopath is the best way for me to go. I’m one of those people who think long & hard before I make a decision, but when it’s made I usually follow through, unless it’s sheer quackery, like the allergy doctor I went to.

I had better copy this & post it.

Lots of love to you lovely ladies, xoxoxo Cate

PS Joh- I don't really want my LH working for Google. I see him little enough at the moment. He's either at work or at golf :(

PPS- Just got back from a 40 minute walk, very puffed but I DID IT!!
 
90th- Was lovely & our YS came along too for an hour. I asked for about a 1/4 of a glass of champagne, just for the birthday toast & drank it, but didn't enjoy it at all. The break from alcohol has been really good. It's so much easier to keep within your calories if you don't drink wine. It was lovely to catch up with old friends and I am really enjoying my new, sociable life & my friendships. When we ran the pub it felt like I didn't have 'real' friends but now I know I do. I always have but was way too sensitive & guarded. Now that I am prepared to really share my feelings & not worry about what people think I find that I am making new friends or strengthening friendships all of the time. I'm a little bit like blokes who have lots of friends that they really like & get on well with but don't have to have the 'in your pocket, almost like being in love' girl-friends that young girls seem to have. It's the best way for me. I have a large network of friends and that suits me. I used to feel that I wasn't a good friend because I didn't have time to spare for them, but realise that friendships with demanding conditions are not true friendships.



Food- I have been enjoying having extra food because I have not been drinking, but I over-did it yesterday with the raisins & sultanas I'm afraid. I went back for more. Once I start on sweet things I turn into a sugar demon, or one takes over my body. They are to be avoided at all costs! From now on Sunday is the ONLY day I allow myself chocolate. The strange thing is that I woke up really constipated. Go figure! Resisted all savouries at the 90th, except for just a little cheese(aahh cheese- that could be why) & a little smoked ham. I think I need to take cheese out as an every day food & just save it for special occasions, say when we have visitors. It is so high in cals & low-fat cheese tastes awful to me.


Today- I have to take our OS's car into town & watch our GD do a swimming class & then I'll bring the 3 kids back to our home, where our OS will pick them up later today. Our DIL has sent me numerous text messages this week & has been angry at our son, saying that she thinks it's unfair that he has been "palming their kids off onto reli's" & should be having them himself. I got through to her in the end that all I am doing is bringing them back here so that as soon as he gets back from his camping trip he can get them home quicker from our place & that they will probably only be here for a couple of hours. She's on the warpath it seems. It's probably that she wants to know where he is & who he's with I think. If she tries to find out today I will tell her that I did not ask as I feel he's entitled to a private life. Their split was a joint decision but probably a little more hers than his as she found a rental home & then told him that she was moving out. I try to offer her support whenever I can as she has little from her family but it is not easy & you always feel that you are walking on egg shells with her. I am now grateful that they are separated. I still want to be able to get on with her as she's the mother of our grand-kids. I try hard not to take offence at some of the things she says & am very careful to support her in front of the kids especially.


I feel like I have too much on today & really could do with a day at home. There was lots of perfume in the deli last night & I'm wheezy this morning & still coughing. I have finished all of my medicine but have a feeling I still haven't kicked the bug. Apparently it has a habit of coming back. Ouch. Looking forward to the visit to the Naturopath on Monday!


Lots of love to all, xoxo Cate
 
Hey Cate,

Thanks for stopping by my diarly...it is so small compared to yours! It will take me a month to read yours! Congratulations on your successes...together we can do this!
 
AHeya Cupcake :)

Motor bike!!!! That's brilliant!!!! that really made me giggle.

Wow you have been a busy lady the last few days, don't over do it hun.

Ooooh how exciting, you have an appointment on monday. Can't wait to hear how you get on.

Sending you lots of love and hugs Xxx
 
Hi Sarah, I don't think that, with your very busy life, you have the time to read my diary, but that's sweet that you suggested it. We are all in this together & it makes it easier when we can share our doubts & our achievements with one another. Friendship & support really do help! Thanks for your return visit. Imagine this is the green tea. :beerchug:that I am currently drinking, cheers, Cate.


Hi Kate, I am going to take it easy today as we are going out tonight to listen to a couple who are about to leave Tasmania & do the festival circuit. Our YS heard them in a pub in Hobart & booked them for his place & they are playing tonight. We missed our friends who were singing last night, but our OS didn't leave with the kids until 7.30pm & we didn't feel like going anyway.

I knew that you would get a giggle out of the "motor bike" on Mum's shopping list! :smilielol5:What a crack-up! I am really looking forward to my ap't too. I hope that I am impressed with her knowledge. There have been too many quacks that I have seen over the years I'm afraid. I'm not by nature a sceptic so am hopeful though.


The taking it easy is a little difficult as I now have the kids again tomorrow. Our son forgot to ask me & didn't factor it in to his arrangements with his ex-wife. He works Sundays(double time) so that he can work one less day a week to have the kids. I know it's hard for him to manage so I said yes. It means I'll stay home instead of going into town to see Mum. I'll ring & explain.


My DIL had asked me if I could have the kids next Sat as she has a party she'd like to go to in Hobart but I told her that we have my LH's sister's 60th in Launceston to go to. Later on I said to our son that if he has the kids on the Sat night then he could drop them off on the way to work on the Sunday & I could have them just for the day. So, it looks like I now have them the next 2 Sundays. It's not for the night so is a bit easier. If it makes our son's life & his kids life better then it is worth it. My DIL was apologetic yesterday for her "ranting & raving" & we got on very well. she said so in a text to our OS afterward. We had a good talk during swimming & the littlies stayed on for a 'free swim' after the lesson so we spent quite a bit of time together(a few hours.)


Today- I'm going to go for another walk. Hopefully I won't be as puffed as I was the other day. I didn't get much exercise yesterday. I was on my feet for most of the day but went over my cals for the day because I shared a bottle of bubbly with my LH. I enjoyed it but it was more enjoying the idea of having a bubbly, rather than the taste. I think I will drink better wine, less often. I think Mondays & Thursdays will be my alcohol-free days every week & I'll try to also have others.

I must go back & copy my resolutions & print them up. I like to have things that I look at to remind me. I have a list that I made up when I was really stressed in an office job I had a few years ago(when I first lost the 36kg.) I have placed it in the front of a folder that now sits next to my laptop.


A little of my list-

How can I best use the present moment?

Be Kind.

Do not judge and rate. Give people the benefit of the doubt.

The more you worry, the more you worry. (Every thought has a karmic effect.)

Rejoice & immerse yourself in other people's happiness. Listen attentively, be genuinely interested in others. Feel sympathetic joy.

Listening requires concentration, restraint & a degree of silence.

Do not waste time with gossip, but speak to the purpose or be silent.


Breakfast most days atm-

2 slices gluten-free toast with Praise no-fat mayo & a little home-made rhubarb chutney, 4 asparagus spears & half an avocado, salt & pepper. YUMMY!!


Love to all :grouphug: xoxo Cate
 
omebody hasnt updated today.....................~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


How old are your grandkids cate?


that list seems really nice , and human.It is not easy for everyone to do thise things ,or even think of making a list like that.

You really are a wonderfull person!
 
and you are a sweetie Jess & you're right I haven't updated!

The grand-kids are -OGS is 12 & 1/2, GD is 5 & 1/2 & our YGS is just 4. I have my OGS vacuuming my house at the moment for $10 pocket- money. I hate vacuuming & he wants money. A good deal!

Last night- was BRILLIANT!!! The couple that we went to listen to were so sweet. The harmonies were brilliant! They do lots of their own stuff which is great so we bought their CD. A Scottish guy got up & sang a couple of songs & he was better than brilliant. Our younger son just messaged me to say that he has him playing this afternoon from 4-6pm & I am going to take the kids. I had better scoot as it's bedlam here. Our OGS seems to like vacuuming wherever I am & the littlies keep running backwards & forwards & squealing so I think I give up!

I'm not good at multi-tasking or noise. Gahhhh!

Lots of love to you all, xoxoxo Cate
 
AHeya Cupcake

I love the fact that your OGS is up for doing the hovering!! I am really lucky (and i'm proper embarassed to say this) Mark does all the hovering and most of the housework :blush5: We kinda have a routine during the week, whoever cooks that's pretty half and half but then after dinner Mark will do the dishes (we have a dishwasher but all the pans etc) while i do the sandwiches for them 2 for the next day. We do the housework at the weekend but seeing as i go out running on a sunday morning Mark uses that time to do it then so i don't have to do it. And also i can get away with not feeling lazy cos i have been running!! Result. My excuse has always been that i work longer hours than him and i do mega, ultra obsessive cleaning at work all day!

Really looking forward to hearing how you get on with your appointment tomorrow. :)
 
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