Cate's Diary

Hi Niyah, I don't know anyone who has done Cohen's & kept it off. In fact I hardly know anyone who has done any program & managed to keep it off. I am so determined that I will do it. I will not let myself be fat again, even if my friends & family might think that I am obsessive. I think I have to be!
You are so right about the need to think like a slim person! We must. Would a slim person eat that? Would a slim person go back for seconds? Would a slim person eat chocolate every night? Would a slim person eat fried food? Would a slim person eat supper at 10.30pm?
Do I love being slim?
OMG, do I love being slim.
Do I feel so much better mentally & physically when I am eating original Cohen's food? Sigh.........Too right! Do I ever!
Cheers, Cate.
 
I think that is so vital.. to have that change...

If you always do, what you've always done, you'll always get what you've always got...

If we go back to eating poorly, like we had, we will become fat again... if we eat resonably and follow the guidelines there is no reason for us to not maintain and stay slim!
 
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Hi Niyah, I don't know anyone who has done Cohen's & kept it off. In fact I hardly know anyone who has done any program & managed to keep it off. I am so determined that I will do it. I will not let myself be fat again, even if my friends & family might think that I am obsessive. I think I have to be!
You are so right about the need to think like a slim person! We must. Would a slim person eat that? Would a slim person go back for seconds? Would a slim person eat chocolate every night? Would a slim person eat fried food? Would a slim person eat supper at 10.30pm?
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Hey Cate! It's so SAD! I know of slim people who just do everything that you say and remain SLIM or should I say skinny!!!!! :toetap05:
 
It's true that there are some skinny people (including my husband, unfortunately) who can actually eat anything and not stack on weight.

It used to annoy me so much, but I realise now that I just have to accept I'm NOT like that, I'll NEVER be able to eat garbage and not put on weight. No point worrying about what's not fair - what I have to deal with is the fact that I've been seriously overweight, it's not good for my health, and just keep plodding.

Our guess bodies like ours were once good at surviving famines. That's about the only consolation!
 
Hey Cate

I just want to thank-you for being so sweet, lovely and welcoming to everyone on this forum!

Your a real inspiration and you voice how a lot of us feel and think! I have been reading through your posts and I just love your honesty!

All the best for your re-feeding, just stick to it and you will never, ever have to do it again!!!


xxxnicole
 
Caz- "If we always do....etc" is right. We do have to change our attitude or we will go right back there. We know that we have a problem & we always will.
I don't care or mind that there are people out there who can eat whatever they like & not get fat. Good for them, I say. I'm not like that. I don't think I will ever be that way & I don't mind. I'm over it. Getting closer Caz, getting closer....re-feed together?xo Cate
FlaMie- It doesn't matter that there are people who seem to eat whatever they like & not get fat. Often if you look at what they eat overall you will find it's less than overweight people. I know I used to eat way too much & all the wrong things. I don't ever want to eat to eat that way again. I have food back into perspective. It's to nourish us & to keep us healthy. It's important for this journey to be a learning one, not just a weight-loss one. If I have not learned that I had a problem with my attitude to food & to myself then I have been wasting my time for the last 2 years. Always learning, always learning......Sorry to go on tonight. I'm very tired & will not read back over this or I'll just delete most of it, xo Cate
Niyah- My husband can just about eat whatever he likes also but he is very active & fit. He's a gem actually. I typed in your diary sweets & didn't comment on your beautiful grandchildren. How sweet they are! Enjoy camp, xo Cate.
Nicole-Sometimes someone says something to me that makes me feel so good I'm almost lost for words. I just read your post out to my husband & I felt a little teary. Thank you sweetie! You have made my day. I am so very tired though that I am going to make an exception & take myself off to bed right now. Before 10! Believe me, that's tired..
Good night my forum friends, xo Cate
PS. Nearly forgot. Weighed this morning. Back down 1kg (1kg over LW.)
Be back tomorrow to tell you about my day spent in Launceston, mostly op-shopping. Fun but very tiring..zzzz
 
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Last night's post. Was gibberish. I was over-tired & I rarely make any sense when I am.
Weight this morning- Couldn't help myself as I felt lighter & was. LW+.5kg again. It has taken me a week to lose that 2kgs again. I never considered going off plan on my initial journey for that reason. Thank you to all those before me who showed me how not to do Cohen's. I really did learn from them as we learn from one another now.
Yesterday- My LH & I did some shopping for the golf club & the 8-ball assoc'n(trophies etc) & then I dropped him off at golf in Launceston for a Veternans tournament. I then drove into the city & parked & then spent a few hours walking around town, searching for a Tai Chi DVD & doing various errands, including one for my MIL. I found one & am about to watch & do it.
I then headed out of the city to an area with lots of op-shops & after eating my Mozza, tomato, celery on crackers lunch spent the next few hours looking at clothes etc. I did it systematically & found a pair of black pin cords which look great & fit me perfectly. I won't bother going to most of them again as they seem to be full of the last season's clothes, which I thought were rubbish. Most of them were a cheap nasty version of the "hippy" clothes I used to wear in the 1970's. I'll stick to the little local ones I think. I did buy a beautiful, pink SB doona cover for my GD. She's pink mad!
I bought quite a few 1/2 price books & some very healthy vegie seedlings at Bunnings Warehouse, which I had never set foot in before. I love big hardware stores but showed great self-restraint because of lack of finances. I had been looking for lemon-grass for ages & found some!
I picked upmy LH from golf & then we had to go to the golf club to unload the chips & soft drink, then go to a pub to take their trophies & then call in at a park to give someone his meat tray that he won in a raffle but hadn't bothered staying for the presentations. Then we had to go via the MIL to drop off the brooch that I had a safety chain put on for her & we got home at 6.30. I was starving but had a salad plated up & just had to quickly cook some chicken breast to put with it which only took me a few minutes. I have it down to a fine art.
That is why I was so tired. I was running around all day. I spent < $50 in about 8 hours. I think that may be a personal best!! Wee Hoo! The joy I got from finding a pair of seemingly brand new Winter pants, that fit me perfectly & look excellent, at an op shop, for $7, was far greater than any I have ever got from an expensive clothing purchase.
I have the day at home today thank goodness. I will go do the dishes & washing before I watch the Tai Chi DVD. My LH is at work today after 3 days off. He is playing golf again tomorrow & on Sunday we are going into Launceston again to watch both our sons play in a State 8-ball Teams event (playing in opposing sides)just to see some more of them & our other 8-ball friends. I like a lot of the 8-ballers.
Ok, Cate, stop shirking the housework, bye for now, xo Cate
 
I did some housework but also read a book. I didn't watch the Tai Chi DVD. My Lh is watching the NAB Cup GF & I have very little interest in it, except to hope that Collingwood don't win, just because they're Collingwood.
No-one's about yet so I might come back later. I have to type a recipe for pickled Zucchinis for a neighbour. I thought I had it saved but not on this computer. Cheers, Cate.
PS. I have been having trouble eating yoghurt lately for breakfast. I've almost been gagging. How strange!
 
What a wild day it has been! A wild, wild storm, dogs freaking out, power went out. I love storms!
I really feel like talking to someone today as my DIL has me worried. She says they had a huge "blue" last night and our OS slept on the couch. She says they're going through a very rough patch. This has made me feel miserable. I do think our son is spending too much time away from her & the kids, playing 8-ball mostly. I can see both sides as usual which makes it very difficult. He's 28, has 3 kids & a wife, trying to live on 1 income in a very small house. Not at all easy. I have to stay away from her as anything I say will be used as ammunition, especially if I agree with her on anything. I hope they sort this out.
I have to be very careful with him as he has so much pressure at home & if I say anything that may seem faintly critical he's inclined to really snap at me & I can't cope with it at all. I think he's in a very tough situation & I also remember well what it feels like to be home with small children & little income. Sigh.....
The power has come back on so I might stick my head in a book & tune out. I know it's being an ostrich but sometimes you have to hide your head in the sand!
Catch you later, Cate.
PS If ever there was a day where chocolate or alcohol would be tempting this would be it but I won't give in!! It wouldn't help or make a scrap of difference anyway. I wish my DIL wouldn't tell me whenever they have a fight & actually give me the details. I would never have considered telling my MIL. Is it just me or is this strange? xo Cate
 
Heya Cate, so sorry to hear about your son and DIL's rough patch. I guess things will work out eventually. It is also so true that these are times when we give in to our temptations! Good job for you to be so determined to hold on! Best of luck ahead!
 
Hi FlaMie, I stopped worrying about it after a while as there's no point. I think they're ok but it's just that my DIL tells me too much. I will say something to her one day soon & let her know that I worry too much when I hear all about their tiffs. I don't think it's serious.
Today- I have spent the entire day watching 8-ball & I'm really tired. I came in here to tell you that I got on the scales this morning & my weight was the lowest it has been, post Cohen's. GW less .5kg!!!!! A P.B!!!!!! Wee bloody hoo!!
That's it, xo Cate
 
It's amazing how adult children still have the power to derange us! I used to naively think that once they became "adults" (whatever that is!) I would stop worrying about them and they would get on with living their own lives.

Not so in our house! I worry about everything almost as much as I ever did when they were growing up.

Congrats on getting to your PB! I'll be looking forward to a few months time when I'm there too!
 
Hi Cate

Hi Cate dropping in to say hi...sorry to hear about your son and dil and yes it is strange that she confides in you like that, considering your the MIL.
Well I hope it works itself out, no marriage is easy it just takes time, patience and understanding.
And I see you've lost -well done....it's a an ongoing battle that is for sure.
Well I've had no joy on the scales even with being 100% and exercising everyday so I've decided to take a break from everything...diet, scales and forum.
I know I don't have alot to lose, compared to how fast I lost on Cohens 16kilos in 4 months.....but 2 years is rediculous, wouldn't you say????
I'm not sure what I'm doing wrong but I'm perservering as much as I can....I did have a weekend away and I "ate".....so that will be an increase for sure this week.
Anyway I just wanted to pop my head and see how you are and I must say you sound busy with the grandkids and 8 ball.

Wow!!!!! I've still got my ticker up on here....but I'm actually sitting at 73kilos I can't seem to move off 71kilo:banghead:....I know when I do it will fall off but when that day will be is any ones guess:toetap05:.
Keep well now - Sam:)
 
Hi Niyah- Thanks for visiting me in my diary. I had a day off from it yesterday & think I'm suffering a little from "forum fatigue". I over-do it sometimes & then need a break (the story of my life). You did well at the week-end, considering what happened. It's great to know that we have the strategies to cope & adapt, even when things go wrong. Re the kids- I have a feeling that we will always worry about them. It's our main job! Oh well. I'm going to try hard not to. Re the PB- I'm looking forward to you getting there too. It's almost a pinch myself situation! xo Cate
Hey Sam! How are you my friend? I have followed what you have been doing(not for a little while though). I think most of the other alternatives are not as healthy or as balanced as Cohen's nor do they work as quickly. It always seems to be such a battle for people doing Atkins in particular. It's not for me. I tried it many years ago and would never consider it again. Cohen's works Sam and you can do it as you have done it before. It's worth knuckling down & just doing it(me since 26/01, with a break in the middle), doing re-feed (next Monday) & then actually following the maintenance guidelines forever & staying slim forever. I'm mainly telling myself this rather than anyone else. I need to re-inforce this to myself every day for the rest of my life! I will still enjoy every morsel of good quality food, in moderation, that I put in my mouth or I figure it is not worth eating it. No rubbish just good healthy food. It's really nice to hear from you, sweetie. Thank you. Take care Sam and love yourself as you deserve to be loved. Enjoy your lovely family and your life, xo Cate.
 
Yesterday- I had a really full on day & decided to have a day off from the forum. I have a tendency to do things full on & then am exhausted. It's the story of my life. At the moment I am really tired & lacking in energy. I know that my body is telling me I need more food and I am trying hard to get through until next Monday before I start re-feed. I am hungry an hour after each meal.
Off topic- Stimulus Package- I just had a quick look back & can't believe that I didn't tell you about my call to the Tax Office. I rang, not to see if I was eligible for the tax bonus but to organise how I was going to have it paid only to find out that I am not eligible at all. I was so upset. I thought, that at long last I was actually going to get something back from the government. I was given a long spiel "blah blah blah" it sounded like and she went on and on. They deduct tax offsets and other credits from your tax on taxable income & if the total is less than zero you do not get the tax bonus. In essence I do not qualify because my income was so low and, apparently I did receive the low-income tax offset last year and therefore I do not qualify for anything at all. She didn't put it quite so clearly. I got this info from the newspaper. I put the phone down & burst into tears.
We were able to get a low-income Health Care card for the last 6 months & that has really helped but because my LH earns more over Summer we are not eligible next month as they take the 8wks up to late Feb which puts us just over the limit. So....not eligible for Health card, not eligible for Newstart (just over the limit), only one income, which is not very big and about to reduce over Winter. Think I had better try harder to get a job! What a time to be trying to do that! Thank goodness we no longer have a mortgage. I don't think I'll be taking my LH to Vietnam for his 60th but that's ok. I'll have a re-think.
If I sound really negative here I'm actually not. I'm a bit pissed off with the Government as I think they could have worded it a fair bit better because I'm sure there will be a lot more like me who will be just as disappointed. My husband who is such a sweetie the other day asked me if he should give up his job as he thought we would be better off financially as you are entitled to so many discounts. It almost made me cry. He is so good at his job & loves it & I think it's sad that he should be even thinking that way. I asked him if he wanted to give it up & he said no. I told him he should keep working as long as he enjoys it. He contributes so much. It's a funny world though, isn't it, when people are made to think that way. We have always put our self-esteem & values above any financial gain we might make from doing something that didn't sit right. It means you sleep better at night but does not mean that life is easy.
OK- enough whinging. I'll get over it. I let off most of my steam by emailing the ALP but without any response so far. I might have to start targeting local politicians but I detest their gobbledegook usual responses. Cheers, cate
 
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Bad news about the package, Cate. I thought the whole idea was to give lower income earners some cash. As you said, though, once the Government red tape gets going, they'll make sure they give as little of it away as possible, I'm sure.

It is crazy if the net result of Government policy is to cause people to want to quit work rather than keep their jobs. But that is always how it seems to be.

We've been stinging at school because they reworked the formula under which our school was promised money, and from one day to the next took $600,000 off us. Youch!

Well, not much we can do to show our annoyance to K Rudd, so I say take it out on the scales! That's much more satisfying. (They'd better move this week!).
 
Hi Niyah, It's so hard not to get crabby about politics & politicians but if I let it get to me it's a waste of energy. Letting off steam in here helped. It doesn't change things but I won't dwell on it. It hurt to hear my husband say that though & that was the hardest thing. The Health card made quite a difference. I'll ring Centrelink & see if I can re-apply next month as I think we'll be eligible again after this next pay.
Your school-ouch! $600,000 is such a lot to give with one hand & take away with another! I know I would have mentally spent most of it as I'm a bit of a dreamer.
It's hard not to be a cynic sometimes, especially regarding politicians, but I have managed not to be so far. Being an optimist might mean that I am stupid!
My day so far- Being an absolute lazy bones except for a steep walk down to the letter-box & back. I've hardly done anything.
I came on here to order a book from the library & saw all the new posts as, of course, this forum is my home page!
Cheers, Cate
 
The really disgusting thing for us is that we'd already received a fax saying how much our school would be receiving, already gone to our parents and community saying what we were going to do with it - then bang! A new fax arrives saying "Sorry, formula is now different" and we get $600K less.

Never mind, I'm over that now too. It isn't my personal money, but we were definitely dreaming of bigger things!

It would be much harder to be in your position and for it to be a personal thing and matter so much. If I ever get any money from the Rudd Govt it will just be paying off debt, despite their pleas for us to rush out and spend it. We have a horrifying mortgage, and at approaching 50 (me and in 50's husband) it's starting to get scary. Years of shifting around and then moving back to Perth have really done us in financially. We came back to Perth on the back of seriously rising house prices. Once one of the cheapest cities in Australia, it now rivals inner Sydney. I just live from day to day - as long as I have a roof over my head today and the sun is shining, I keep going! Any money I have been able to scrape together has gone on helping my daughter, her husband and kids have a roof over their heads. None of my kids can or want to move out as they are so put off by rental and house prices here that nothing seems like an option these days.

I'm changing what I can - and that's my figure - and that feels good, so generally life is good!
 
No Niyah, I don't think it is any worse for me. I'm ok. We'll be right. If you're the sort of person I think you are you are probably hurting more because of the loss to your school. I think I'm right.
Isn't it wonderful to be taking such positive steps for our health, especially at our time of life. We are being good role models for our grandkids and doing what we can to see them grow up. I cherish my family more than anything at all, including money.
Thought I'd pop in quickly just to say hi before Dr Who so will now say goodbye, cheers, Cate
 
Dr Who- I just love it! David Tarrant & Billie Piper are fantastic. I love the "making of' segment afterwards.
Weight- didn't weigh as want to hold on to that LW minus .5kg! Chicken I know!
Re-feed- Only 5 more days, including today. Yay!
Paul Kelly concert- Sat. Yay!
Nothing much to say- obviously!
Laughing at self, xo Cate
 
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