Cate's Diary

Christmas Day- Was not much fun. My MIL treated me like a servant for most of the day. Not one please or thank you, only rudeness. It's time for a talk very soon. The morning was nice as our OS & family came around at 8 for breakfast & we had 2.75 hrs with them, my mum & YS before we had to head for Launceston. They were spending their day at home with their kids. Nice.
I'm not very well so it's not helping the being positive thing. My mum & our YS really don't have anything to talk about. I wish I had him here for at least one night on our own without mum. I think she drives him up the wall. I have trouble I must admit.
I feel very full still from lunch yesterday. I would hate to eat Christmas food every day. The day after is yuck!
OK- Mum's back from having a shower so I had better go. I'll be back to being sane(ish) next week when they go.
I do hope everyone had a good Christmas Day. The focus should be on small kids on Christmas day and I think from now on I am going to try to organise to be with my grandkids and not all of my husband's family.
 
Relaxed now after Christmas. Took mum shopping in Devonport had lunch there, called in at D'Anvers chocolate factory, called in to my DIL's so mum could see the great grandkids before she goes back in the morning. Our OS is here at the minute & my LH, OS & YS are chatting away about their 8-ball calcutta last night. Not much sleep in our household or any other one last night.
I had better go & join in & chat to mum before she goes too.xo Cate
 
Mum's gone, our YS's gone, my house is peaceful again. My LH will be home soon and he now has 4 days off work. Nice.
I have found a new toy & won't be in here as much. I'm on Facebook & am working it out. I have decided to only accept friend invites from people I really want as friends. I'm not interested in it looking good. Already I have been invited to be a friend by someone who's a horror so I said no. I'll plead ignorance/newbie mistake or something if I ever see her again. It's unlikely. My son was too scared to say no to her.
I have already made contact with an old work friend & US friend so that's fun.
Looking forward to re-comitting to Cohen's in the New year. I haven't set a date yet but it will be very soon. Bye for now, cate.
 
I forgot to weigh this morning before breakfast so will hop on tomorrow. I feel really relaxed & quite happy today. I always feel guilty about how I feel about my mum after she's gone. I will miss her a lot when she's gone but I do find her incredibly irritating & that bothers me.
I miss our son. Each time he stays it gets easier as he grows a bit older. He's nocturnal and very messy but I love having him home for a few days. It was a pity I didn't get any time with him on his own though. He'll be going O/S in April so we'll have to visit him in the next couple of months. He'll come home for Easter just before he leaves.
Hope everyone had a good Christmas and spent some quality time with their family & friends. Cheers, Cate
 
Whoopsie doopsie- GW+7.5kg! :eek:
I have to decide when I'm back on Cohen's.
It may be the 1st of Jan. I have a wedding to go to on the 25th of Jan. Mmm.. Decisions, decisions.
Meanwhile I'll cut back on the dreaded carb's.
The Beck Diet Solution arrived yesterday & I've made a start reading it. I think it would be especially good for someone starting out on Cohen's. I'm going to read it & follow the advice, eg get some index cards & write down the reasons why I want to be slim. I think affirmations are a good idea. We all slip. We all need reminding that we are worth something and not to put ourselves down. I'm my own biggest critic.
Facebook is a bit of fun but it's hard when someone askes to be your friend and you're not sure who they are even. I said yes to one & then regretted it when I kept getting invites to poker games, so I am going to be very careful.
Hope everyone had a great Christmas, cheers, Cate
 
What a lovely New Years Eve!
Volunteered to look after the 2 older GK's. Actually offered to have the 3 of them but our OS & DIL said they would have the baby as he's been waking a lot & very hard to settle.
We had a very sweet night with the 2 of them. They are gorgeous kids. We put our GD to bed at 8. Tried keeping her up as long as possible..."too tired to read Nan" zzzz
We decided to watch a DVD as nothing much on tv. Watched "School of Rock" with our 9yr old GS. He loved it! I think it's the 5th time I've watched it. I love it. Great movie. My BIL(late sister's husband) just loved it & I watched it for the first time with them in the US. He was an avid movie watcher.
Hey, is everyone having such a wonderful time that they haven't time to type in here or have you all gone on strike? I know CohenInAz is partying in Times Square but what about everyone else. I mean really.........
Only kidding. Hope you're having a ball & that 2009 is all that you want it to be & more. Happy New Year from Cate!!
 
Went to bed at 12.30am & almost immediately our GD was yelling out for Mum. She wasn't upset but decided she didn't want to go back to sleep either. At about 3am without any sleep I told her I had a cramp & had to go take something for it (I did) & crawled back into my own bed & went to sleep. I have no idea how long she stayed awake. She was quite happy, just wide awake! She then didn't wake up until 9.30am. Our son & DIL had a great night & are suffering somewhat today.
Have stuck to Cohen's food today, even though I baked some Muesli cookies for the little fuss-pot eater. I didn't even have a warm one out of the oven!
Our son came up to let his wife have a nap & then our GD needed another sleep so he has now gone home with the 2 GS's & she is asleep here. I'll msg him when she wakes.
I do feel very tired. I won't be up late tonight. My LH has to go back to work tomorrow.
No-one's about so I'll say good-bye to myself, cheers, Cate
 
2009-
I had made a NY resolution which I have been thinking about for a while & formulating exactly what it would be. I am going to lose some more weight & get fit. I have a set weight that I want to get to and I am going to write in a journal everything that I eat & what exercise I do each day. I am also going to follow most of the advice from the Beck Diet Solution book which is all about cognitive thinking.
Cognitive thinking- Most of it is common sense but we do need to remind ourselves of the basics on a regular basis. I'll go into my action plan more later as I don't want to bore you silly. Some of the important basics though are-
To make a list of all the reasons I would like to be slim (or like being slim) & read them every day to re-inforce them.
Always eat sitting down
Eat slowly & mindfully
Give yourself credit
There's obviously lots more but I am getting a loose-leaf folder together & doing a graph of my current weight & am going to weigh each week until I get to the weight I would like to be.
I am following Cohen's original weight-loss plan, but without weighing my food, for the moment, just to see how I go. I am not eating any of the re-feed foods such as pasta, bread or rice. You are meant to have a diet coach but I have decided that the forum can be mine By that I mean I am going to be honest about what I eat & do.
This is my own plan, not a Cohen's one-
I am going to incorporate exercise as part of my program as it is more a maintenance program. I want to set myself a standard as an every day thing that I will be able to stick to.
I am also not eating the weight-loss amounts because of the exercise. This may change if I do not lose weight as quickly as I would like. Mind you, I'm not trying to hurry it along. I want it to be sustainable. I may go back to 100% Cohen's for a while but I am slowly working my way towards that & only if I need to.
I hope 2009 is going to be a great year for us all. May we all be healthy, slim & happy and have love in our lives.
(Facebook is a pain I decided so I have de-activated it. I decided I do like it here & I can be useful. We all need to feel useful! Speaking of which, I do so want to have a part-time job that I will like & will suit me. (!?)Cheers, Cate.
 
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3rd day of 2009 & my NY resolution's looking good! Down 1kg & feeling a little less sluggish. Have had an active, reasonably sociable day so far but have not exercised much (as such), mainly leasurely walking.
I have started compiling lists and instructions in a folder, mainly from the Beck Diet Solution book and am keeping a food diary.
Last night I had a little pumpkin with my evening meal but otherwise 100% Cohen's original food in re-feed quantities. No wine, no chocolate, no cake or biscuits etc. Yay!!
I'm taking every day as a bonus that I resist the pantry which is loaded with sweets from Christmas. I opened it this afternoon at 3pm (my worst time for cravings) said to myself "Are you hungry or are you just wanting to eat?" answered "just wanting to eat something sweet". I then said "shut the door, walk away" and did. I can do it. I feel so much better for not caving in. Every day that you stick to Cohen's food & resist the processed carb's the easier it gets as the cravings subside. Thank goodness. I'll get there. I have obviously overloaded my body over Christmas and it's complaining. Not good. I do feel in control again. Well nearly!
Time for a quick read before my LH gets home. He works on his own at week-ends & will want to talk to me about it so I had better be able to give him my undivided attention. He's worth it! Cheers, Cate.
 
Good luck on losing the excess :) and as for FB...some ppl get so addicted. I am on FB but i only go there if someone msg's me. I hate/ ignore those stoopid applications and find it useless. Seems rather childish to me when someone sends a hug..u think awe..that's so nice..just to then find out it was fwd'd to everyone on that list...SOoo now i just leave my profile on as a means of contact in case someone who i haven't seen in yrs would like to make contact :).....Seems like some of those on FB get a kick by letting others know how many friends they have....are we that desperate? Hope not :)
 
GoldenRose, I agree about FB. I am only going to confirm friendship requests from genuine friends. What a load of tosh! Surely it's a status thing for some. If I offend someone I'm afraid it's too bad. It is a good way of keeping in touch with some US reli's & friends but I won't be getting hooked on it I know. My OS calls it "stalkbook".
Thanks for visiting my diary & congrat's on not being far off re-feed. Cheers, Cate.
 
Down another .5kg this morning & starting to feel more comfortable. I went to bed ravenous though & figured I didn't eat enough for breakfast or lunch. It was very hard resisting the pantry last night but I did! I must give myself credit when it's due.
It takes a while to get back in the mindset of watching everything you eat. Thinking twice before I put food in my mouth.
Only eat sitting down.
Eat slowly.
Am I hungry or is this just a craving?
It's amazing how you can slip back into bad eating habits f you lower your guard. Already I feel so much better mentally becaue I am not caving in to cravings. I feel so much stronger and in control.
This will have to be re-inforced for the rest of my life or I will end up fat again & with low self-esteem. I do not want to go there ever again.
I have the day ahead of me once again & am thinking about what I will do. I really should be vacuuming. Ugh!
I'm back on Facebook as a US friend of my sister's is on it & has communicated with me as has my nephew's wife, also in the US & I want to keep in touch with them both. I have decided to re-activate it but will "ignore" anyone I do not wish to have as a genuine friend. I don't think I will type much in there at all though, if anything, about what I actually am doing. It's too open. There's only so much I want to share with the people I know well. I'm not sure why that is really but I have always been that way.
I had better go do some chores & then get on my bike for a while. I think I will do 15 mins every day on the bike. I am also going to wear the pedometer each day just for fun.
I have picked up what I think are some good tips from a woman on another forum who I really think I would like a lot so if I sound like her occasionally that will be why. I feel I don't belong in that forum though so never type in there, only read posts, especially maintenance diaries. It's good to know that most of them go through similar things to me. I'm very open to ideas & tips as I think we can all learn from each other.
Cheers for now, Cate
 
Once again I'm setting myself tasks that are just a tad more than I should. 15 mins on the bike every day is too much. 15-30 mins of exercise every day would be good.
Another good Cohen's day. Once again have not eaten any "empty carbs", no bread, rice or pasta, just crackers & a little bit of pumpkin with my chicken & vegie dinner. Have resisted the choccies, the muesli biscuits, the Anzac biscuits, the fruit cake, the festive fruit cake. OMG. Why did I type that? I can do it but I had better not remind myself what's there like that.
I can do it. I can resist. 4 days now....not once have I given in.
I'm back on track. I have made a huge fruit salad & am waiting for my LH to come home from a golf meeting before I have some with yoghurt. Yum. It has lots of mango..Mm mmmm
Quiet again today in here (hello to anyone reading but not posting) but I'll stick with it, cheers, Cate.
 
5th day- still going strong. In fact getting better by the day, as it does. Cravings are subsiding. Will is strengthening. Up .5kg but that's to be expected if you weigh daily. Usually not a good idea but I won't become despondent as I expect fluctuations. I want to be able to assess the previous day's food intake/exercise output to be able to adjust it if I think it's necessary. Yesterday I ate well but probably didn't exercise enough. I didn't feel like it. That's ok.
I feel really good about myself again. I think I was starting to feel a little bit ashamed of the way I was eating over Christmas. By most people's standards I was not eating badly but I felt like I was letting myself down. I must always feel in control of what I am eating or I fear I will spiral out of control. It's not an OCD thing. It's just that I know myself well enough to know that I must be very careful about what I eat for the rest of my life. That won't stop me enjoying what I eat. On the contrary I plan on eating only what I enjoy eating & taking notice of everything I put in my mouth. It must be good, healthy, nice food. Nutritious, tasty etc. You get my message. If you eat "crap" you feel like crap. I'm going to buy organic wherever possible from now on whenever it's affordable. I'm replacing most things(flour etc) that run out with organic. We already grow a lot of our own vegies & herbs. I must expand the garden if I can, without spending any more on fencing.
Tai Chi Wednesday I am really looking forward to now.
I feel 2009 is going to be a really good year for me & for my family. I feel very positive about it.
I had better get the heck out of here & get my house clean though as it's not going to self-clean. Pity. I am making a big effort to have meals organised when my LH gets home from work even though he is a far better cook than I am. After all he's earning the income. I don't have a lot of confidence in my own cooking though as I'm inclined to forget the basics, like salt & pepper on a roast. Whoops- that was last night. It still tasted OK. I don't really enjoy cooking for my LH as he's so good at it. Lucky me really.
OK- Vacuuming!
Cheers, Cate
 
what was that you said...

Keep up the good work cate..

Some one wise once offered me this advice...
"Nothing tastes as good as slim feels"

:hurray: Day 5 is amazing you will be in the swing of things before you know it... Perfect gw cate is on her way...

better go my kids are all to quiet...

May the water be with you....

TTfn
Chelle
 
Thank you Chelle

Chelle, Thank you for being sweet, friendly, funny, positive and basically like a breath of fresh air. Your children are very lucky to have a mother like you!
I'm taking a quick break from the vacuuming/dusting/house re-arranging. Phew!
I forgot to have lunch until 2.15 when I glanced at my watch! Ate a small, healthy lunch of fritters & vegies, followed by a kiwi fruit. Lots of water, Chelle, lots of water....
Cheers, Cate. Loving this feeling....Have been listening to the Rolling Stones, 12x5 & Ike & Tina Turner, Live at Carnegie Hall. I know, I'm an old rocker but I love it! There's nothing like the music you grew up with & partied to!
 
Hi Cate,
It's so good to be back on line. It seems like forever since we lost the internet connection.
You sound like you are doing really well and back on track. Day 5 is great and it sounds like those "feel good" hormones are kicking back in again. I have not been at all good over Christmas and New Year. We (my sister and I and my kids and her grandkids) have just been up to the Gold Coast to do the theme parks and although we didn't eat as badly as we could have, we also didn't eat as well as we could have. I am in desperate need of getting myself back on track but won't try too hard till next week as I have both of the girls birthdays this week (one on Wednesday and the other on Friday) and I know it will be dinners out etc so I think it is better to wait and minimise the temptations.
Your posts are reminding me of how great I will feel when I'm totally back on track and you're inspiring me to get myself focused again.
So good to "see" you again and I look forward to joining you back "in the zone" again soon.
Take care
Beck
 
Hi Cate
Great going on getting back on track..Are u just eating cohen friendly or actually weighing? Do u limis the spices as well or use spice mixes? Just wondering for the future :)
 
Hi Cate,

Just wanted to drop you a note to say WELL DONE on your progress with Cohen's! I just looked at your before and after photos and it is such an inspiration. You look amazing!!

Keep it up girl! :)
 
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