Cate's Diary

Some people aren't happy unless they're miserable. In the long run I think you'll feel better for having gone because otherwise you would've wondered if it could have made a difference. Big hug.
 
Cate am I wrong in thinking that your brother in law has little time to live . Don't know where I got that idea from but it sounds like a really awful home to visit . Hope his wife enjoys her new career I'm sure it will be rewarding . Welcome home btw x
 
Thanks, Marsia, LaMa & Petal.
My SIL hinted that we should visit soon so that's how we read it too. He could live for years I think, but I hope not, for her sake. That sounds really hard I know, but I am being truthful. She's already worn into the ground & she could maybe re-build her life.
I'm glad we went, though.
G got a call from one of the older vets (his favourite)asking him if he wanted to play at another course on Thursday. You should have seen the look on his face :D I'm so glad that happened. He rang another guy who is going to play with them & texted another who couldn't but was friendly.
We also booked ourselves in to play at another club next Sunday in a couples event. We have always enjoyed them.
I dreamt last night that we were on our holiday & I got lost in this huge place, like a market & couldn't find G anywhere. I eventually found myself outside & could see our bus in the distance on the other side of the road. I was walking along talking to a Japanese woman & the bus started up when I was almost there & headed back to where I had been. Then I woke. I told G & he said "so you're cranky with me, then. " My dreams are so vivid! I usually take a low-dose anti-histamine at night, that sedates me, but I ran out. Our local chemist didn't have any. I would rather not take them, but I dream too much without them & my dreams always feel so real. In my dream, I kept thinking they have no way of finding me as I don't have phone access. Maybe it's my subconscious telling me to get a sim card when we go to Greece. I don't usually when we go to another country, but I'll go check it out now.
Ok. I found what looks to be a really good option & have saved the link. I could order & get it now(it doesn't get activated until a pre-set date & is valid for 28 days from that date) but will ask my BIL & SIL on Friday what they do when they go OS as they travel a lot.
We are going for the quarterly G's family lunch on Friday. :( We don't want to talk about our visit, but it's inevitable. G's 2 brothers went into business together a long time ago & have been "at war" since. I will have to stop G saying too much if I can. Both of his sisters visited their other brother in recent months.
I had better do something physical. Bye for now xo
 
cate said:
He could live for years I think, but I hope not, for her sake. That sounds really hard I know, but I am being truthful.
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I know what you mean and sometimes it really is the only thing you can hope for.
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G got a call from one of the older vets (his favourite)asking him if he wanted to play at another course on Thursday.
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That´s great to hear!
I get extremely vivid dreams when my histamine levels are high as well. Calmed down tremendously since I lowered my intake. Curious to see if the dreams come back in pollen season.
 
Cate I have started to have really deep vivid dreams again since I started to sleep properly . They are like stories or a movie . Most of them I like to forget though . I think your right stuff that's on your mind comes through .
I have roaming on my phone for when I travel and it's capped I think at €2 a day . But I seldom use.
Well at least you have visited with G brother. It's sad he is like that and has made it be that no one cares for him but it happens a lot I guess in life . You won't regret having made the visit at least .
Glad you are sorting golf games for yourselves . Enjoy .
 
I didn't dream quite so intensely last night but took half an antihistamine(non-sedating). I slept fairly well, but do have a slight headache. I'll buy some more of the others I think when they are available. I thought I would try a week without & see if I could manage without them.
Roaming on my phone in Europe is incredibly expensive, but a suitable sim card for one month I can get for $37 AU, which is fine. It has 6GB data, squillions of free calls & texts within Europe & can take incoming calls from Australia without any cost to me. It means if I get lost or need any help I can ring our tour leader. It will be an inexpensive way of having some peace of mind.

Marsia- I have started back on IF today. It's exactly 3 months from today that we fly to Greece :) I'm going to take my BP meds at lunch-time. I had asked the pharmacist about a month ago & he thought it should be ok & I don't want to wait any longer. I'll still check with the cardio when I get to see him. I couldn't make up my mind between 5:2 or 16:8, but will try 16:8 as I didn't have great success with 5:2 last time. I think the 500 cals 2 days a week is too few calories for me. I know my GP thought I shouldn't be doing it.

I have been enjoying pottering around the house since we got back & feel my time is better spent at home. The house is certainly looking nicer. I even did some repairs yesterday. G loves getting wood, even in the heat & I love pottering about.
 
I think so too, LaMa. I had no trouble with it today. I set an alarm to take my BP meds at 12.30 & didn't have lunch until 12.45. Just had dinner & will go get a small bowl of nuts I think. Nothing after 8.45? Should not be a problem.
 
Let me check the 16:8 means eat within 8 hour time frame . I think that’s very achievable . So you could do 10 am to 6 pm . Or similar .

The prepaid card sounds like a fantastic idea . Whatever plan I’m on I can use roaming for 2 or 3 Euro a day . I have used when I go to the states . Although I think in Europe now there’s I see no extra charge .

Sounds like you have a tidy house and mind right now . Pleased to hear it
 
That is what it means, Petal. Today I had 1500 cals between 12.45-8.45. I'll track my cals for a while as well. I'll weigh myself on Mondays & Fridays I think.
The house will be tidier when I put everything away again! Whoops. I have tomorrow home on my own so will finish the job I started today.
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Hi Cate! Great you are starting on the 16:8. When I get enough healthy fat in my diet, this is really easy to do, and I feel so much better doing it. I restarted again today, as I felt shaky the last week or so, and didn't fast for a few days just to make sure I didn't completely crash. It actually makes me mentally sharper doing IF, so love going back to it full time again.

It's lovely to hear you and G are having a good time golfing now - you get to just have fun and not be responsible for other people now - you both really deserve that!! I am starting to focus on my house now, too, and it feels great making it just how I want it! It sounds like you are having a nice relaxing time, and it's cute that G likes getting firewood in the heat. I wonder how much of the BP was from stress - it seemed to coincide with a lot of stressful stuff.

G's brother seems lost, and it's really sad that his wife is also lost. I hope she at least figures out her life and finds some happiness. I know what you mean when someone is so bitter and blaming that they just seem like a lost cause. Such a waste of a precious life.

I want to lose my last weight before our vacation in late spring, too, so will take IF extra seriously and join you!!!
 
Hi, Marsia. I had better concentrate on getting the healthy fat into my body too as I was very hungry when I went to bed & again when I woke this morning. It's funny but my body has been crying out for Avocado. When you allow your body to actually get hungry it seems to tell you what you need. I'm quite excited about doing it. Taking my meds at lunchtime seemed to work ok yesterday. I didn't get light-headed or have palpitations. I think my high BP was connected to the stress. Our lives feel so much better now. Stress can be all-consuming. I'm glad we found a way out of it. Making a conscious decision not to worry about R, our younger son helps too. I see what he says on FB & pretend that I haven't seen most of it.

I am really enjoying tidying up the house & am going to keep sorting stuff out. I really do need to find a way to sell some stuff. I am happy to give things away as well & do that all the time, but some of our stuff is quite valuable & it would be nice to have the money.

I think I learn something from every situation & what I have learned from G's brother & SIL is that I never want to live as they do. I hope she does figure out how she can live her life well. Life is precious & should not be wasted re-hashing everything that has gone before. I sometimes rue having such a bad memory, but I also think it's because I do consciously try to put things behind me & move on.

I have the day to myself which is nice. I am going to get on my exercise bike (that's what we call them in Oz) & maybe even do some strength training (Barbie weights only). It has been a while. They make me feel good.

Time to get moving!
 
Hi Cate! Avocados are the holy grail in keto-land. They are good fat and have more potassium than bananas. I made this yummy avocado dressing that I should find the recipe for and make again. I love how satisfying they are to eat!

It's great how much you have turned stress on its head. I am learning to let my kid make her own mistakes, too. If she doesn't take my advice about homework and such, I just let her do things how she wants to, and then when the assignment comes back with the same comments I made, she listens more next time. It's an interesting process letting someone make their own mistakes, and getting out of the way so they can learn what they need to. It's getting easier each time, but for me it's just with little decisions. I imagine you doing a lot of deep breathing reading R's FB page!

I did some Barbie weights today, too! Great we can lose the last pounds together. I still have a lot of toning up and getting used to cardio to do also, so it's probably going to be a whole year project getting healthy again, but just getting the weight down feels so freeing!!!
 
Cate sounds like the 16:8 will work better for you . Are avocados expensive over there . I buy a lot of them but last week they were €1.95 each . So I cut back but my husband eats a lot as he is diabetic and they really fill him . I love one chopped up in my salad.
We call them exercise bikes too . Glad your stress is easing . Do you ever think of having a few days away from Fb . I deleted mine and I don't miss it one little bit .
 
Avocado is amazing. About a Euro a piece normally but worth it in my book and I hardly ever eat a whole one in one sitting anyway.
 
I think it's sad that G's brother and his wife seem so miserable. It's good that you recognise what the problem is. Dwelling on the past keeps you stuck there.
 
I just read back over my last post. I didn't get on my bike or do any strength training. I did, however, do lots of house cleaning/tidying up & was active all day. Then I put everything that was left back away in cupboards. I got rid of so much stuff. My Mum used to say "stuff" a lot. eg "So much stuff" & I find myself doing the same. Mum was the ultimate de-clutterer.

Marsia- I absolutely love avocados & always have them, regardless of price. We didn't have any while we were away & I missed them. They are an essential food item. My stomach just rumbled very loudly!
I am getting better & better at not absorbing R's FB posts. It has been his major outlet for quite some time as he has been without a phone. He rang me last night & it was a lovely conversation. There is a blues festival on in Hobart that we would have loved to go to but had the vets tournament on 2 days later so had told him that we couldn't go. He twigged that we may now be able to & that is why he rang. The people I wanted to see most were on 2 different days we thought, but now it has been confirmed that they are all on Sunday. R is going with a few of his friends, who we really like & he was hoping that we could now come. I checked with G & bought tickets last night. It is an outside concert so will be better for me fragrance-wise. Instead of having stressful things ahead we now have 2 live shows & a catch up with an old friend of mine(including meeting his new GF). Happy days :)
I'm liking 16:8 so far but will like it, even more, when I lose some weight. Only 2 days down though :)

Petal- Avocados are inexpensive at the moment, but when they are expensive, like you, I just cut down a bit. FB is my only way of keeping up with friends from afar. I have a look each day, but keep my "friends" to a bare minimum. I do a cull every now & then & unlike a lot of pages that I once liked so that I don't get bombarded with nonsense. I'm quite happy with how I have it set up at the moment.

LaMa- Avos are worth every cent!

Em- Dwelling on the past does seem to keep you there. I'm glad I'm not in a time warp.

We're off to G's sister's place (the bossy one) for the quarterly family lunch. I don't enjoy these much, but today I will try to. I had better get moving. I can do this. I am wearing the paisley silk scarf my sister gave me. It's blue, pink & purple mostly & I have a purple silk shirt, blue pants, blue shoes & a blue merino cardigan on as it's cool today! Yay! I'm not really looking forward to Winter, but a respite from this really hot Summer is nice. Hopefully, the cooler weather will help ease the bushfire crisis in Tassie.
 
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I just read back over my last post. I didn't get on my bike or do any strength training. I did, however, do lots of house cleaning/tidying up & was active all day. Then I put everything that was left back away in cupboards. I got rid of so much stuff. My Mum used to say "stuff" a lot. eg "So much stuff" & I find myself doing the same. Mum was the ultimate de-clutterer.
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I have sooo much difficulty getting rid of stuff lol, my stuff usually gets moved to the shed, which is not great, one day I should sort it out.
 
I love getting rid of stuff too . And I say stuff all the time and so does my daughter . It covers a multitude. If you recall I did a huge decluttering last summer but I think I could do another mini one now to keep on top of it .
Enjoy the concert and also the quarterly lunch . I think that's a great idea to keep in touch with family .
 
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