Cate's Diary

Thank you, Emily & LaMa. I have had a lovely day. I sometimes wake up anxious & get better as the day goes on. I have no idea why.
 
Having loose clothes again feels really good LJ. I felt good enough to actually take a photo (my new avatar).
Feeling better as the day goes on is certainly much better than feeling worse Rebel :)
 
G & I were out at the golf club yesterday from 7.30am until 2 for a charity day. Usually, we stay all day, but because we have a new barmaid (the new captain's GF) we decided to leave at 2, so as not to interfere with her new job. This guy is being really nasty to G & it is really hurtful to us both. I feel like telling him what I think of his behaviour. G does not have a nasty bone in his body. It's just jealousy, but it is just too much. It is making us feel sick. The whole time we were there yesterday G was so uptight & uncomfortable. It can't continue.

Today we have the 8-ball singles titles & that should be an ok day. I could stay at home if I want to, or I could go & go for a nice, big walk around town & maybe do a small shop. G wants me to go everywhere with him. Tomorrow he goes in for another procedure ( cystoscopy) to check out his plumbing. We'll have to be up early as it's at 7.30am in L city.
Yesterday has me feeling a bit down. It will be a long year, with this d'head as captain!
 
It sucks that the new captain is an unpleasant person, but there´s a good side to it: it´s a reason to really only go there to play. When people ask you about anything club-related other than the game you´re playing you can smile and say "O, I wouldn´t know about that/I don´t get involved in that, I think it´s important to make a clean break when you make room for new faces." The best club is worthless when you´re tense about going there.
 
cate said:
Having loose clothes again feels really good LJ. I felt good enough to actually take a photo (my new avatar).
Feeling better as the day goes on is certainly much better than feeling worse Rebel :)
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That's awesome cate! :)

Just wondering: what are your goals, and where are you now?
 
I know you're right LaMa, but it is really hard to actually make that break as we are so involved with the club in other ways. We're both on committee until October at least, G is co-captain of the vets, I am secretary/treasurer of the vets & bar manager. I really think G should stop helping them. They have no respect for him at all, so they don't deserve any help.
Thank you Han. You're very sweet. G's appointment went exceptionally well. He had a Cystoscopy & the 2 doctors he saw were very happy with the results & so is G now. He needed that reassurance I think.
Thanks Tri. My goal is just to keep getting fitter & to lose another 4kg. I feel really good how I am but I regain weight easily & need to keep an eye on it. 4kg less, if I could manage to maintain it, would be good, but it's not crucial.
 
cate said:
Thanks Tri. My goal is just to keep getting fitter & to lose another 4kg. I feel really good how I am but I regain weight easily & need to keep an eye on it. 4kg less, if I could manage to maintain it, would be good, but it's not crucial.
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Ok, good to know! So nice that you are so close to your goal and that you feel good about how you are! :) Also nice that you don't make it obligatory, but that you see it as a bonus goal. I think that's smart, and that relaxed attitude may in fact help you reach your goals. I am sure that focussing on learning to maintain it by continually improving your lifestyle will get you there.
 
Sorry to hear you have a fun-vacuum for your new captain, Cate. Seems like G should definitely find a better use of his time. Battling his illness while dealing with an anus is not a way to live.
 
And ill health is ALWAYS a reason/good excuse to lay down your tasks. Pretty sure getting off the committee before the end of the year does not actually get you flogged and banished.
 
Thanks, Tri. I have been "close to my goal" for about 5 years now. :blush5: It's OK. It's way better than being a long way off :)
I know LJ. He isn't worth getting upset over, but it is worth telling him I think. I hope G sticks up for himself without exploding!
I know LaMa, but quitting is quitting & someone has to do the right thing, especially when others aren't.

I'm fasting today (5:2- <500 cals) as I just can't seem to drop any weight, without doing a fast at least one day a week. I don't feel fat at all (I'm not skinny by any means) but I do want to drop at least 3 kg. It's G's vets golf day so I won't be tempted to have a delicious lunch with him & I woke up not hungry.
 
Not every day can be a good day. I have felt really emotional all day, grumpy, out of sorts & close to tears. It happens sometimes. I'm only human, it's only temporary. I scrapped my fast midway through the day. I don't think I'll attempt them anymore. I feel very sensitive on fast days & it's just not worth it.
 
cate said:
quitting is quitting & someone has to do the right thing, especially when others aren't.
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That´s only true when you have an honest chance to make a difference. Otherwise, when you do what you can, don´t criticize them openly because you want to be decent and generally make nice you´re just legitimizing the new ways.
 
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