Cate's Diary

Our YS rang & his work shift last night in the bar went well. He said that he thought he would stick with it & not work further at the restaurant as it did not feel right for him. It is very trendy & upmarket He then had to ring the restaurant to say that he was going to give the bar job a good crack, but thanking them for giving him the opportunity(ie don't burn any bridges). He rang us back to say that the owner had offered him whatever hours he wanted & to name his wage! He has since rung him back again to say that he feels the bar job best suits him. This will help re-build his confidence. The owner of the bar told him that customers were saying how glad they were that R(our YS) was back working there. It was also good because R also told his boss how nervous he was about working, which really shocked his boss. I don't think he really knows our son at all well. If he lets him down again I will personally be going down to Hobart & giving him the worst ear-bashing he has ever had!

We are going down there at the end of September & helping him settle into his house. He may not NEED us to by then, but we will anyway. I want him to know that if he keeps one room free of paying tenants then my LH & I and his brother will come visit much more often. We can set it up. I might buy him a couch that converts to a bed & he can have it as a private lounge so that he retains some personal space. He will need one tenant to help him pay the mortgage. Hopefully he won't have someone move in the first week as I think it would be good to have it set up nicely 1st.

It was such a relief to hear him sound more positive today. He nearly had me flat as a tack.
I had better get moving & do some housework. I have done no exercise today! I don't think I will be below 1400 cals today as I sure want some wine tonight!
Cheers, xo Cate

 
I'm glad you son's bar work went well. That's a relief I'm sure! And it's nice you will have a visit from your grandkids. My nieces and nephews are finally all living close to me so I will get to see them far more often (my older brother's lived nearish to us for a year or 2 but my younger brother JUST moved back after 3 years living 8 hours away)
 
Thanks Mystic. Family is so important & I think it's great to spend time with kids. It's good for the kids & it's good for the aunts & uncles etc & helps the parents by being an extension of a loving family. We're having a quiet bubbly before they get here! Our YS has been looking at my photos on FB today. I know what he's doing. He's taking strength from our love. He text me a photo of us back in 1972 & said how much he loved it! I'll see if I can find it & attach it. xo Cate
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Hadn't heard about your brother before and I'm so very sorry. It's a horrible thing that far too many people have to go through. I really wish we were further ahead in terms of mental health as we are in other areas of medicine.

On a better note: lovin the 70s pic. Very groovy. Also good to hear there's some positive things going on for the son.
 
Thanks Vee. It was a long time ago & seemed like a bad dream at the time, as I had just had our 1st baby, a little less than a month before. I compartmentalise so many things & then they pop out from time to time. I did go see a psychologist after I lost weight as most of the things I had shoved away into the recesses of my brain seemed to come tumbling out. I am much more inclined to talk about any problems now & face them better. I have had the talk with our YS about a year ago, that if he continued with his risk-taking behaviour, that even though the intention may not have been the same as my brother's (I actually think it was similar) the end result was likely to be the same if he continued & that we would be left trying to cope with the loss & that would not be fair. It was a heart-wrenching & emotional conversation & was hard for all of us, probably hardest for him, to hear, but he took it onboard & has really modified his drinking. I do wish I could get him to a psychologist, without him feeling that it's a weakness. There is such a stigma associated with mental ill-health. He's gorgeous, but probably somewhere on the bi-polar spectrum I think.

I love that photo too. We have been so much in love & for such a long time. I know that can sound very corny. I'm so very lucky! Luck plays so much part in whether or not you find that someone. If I had got into Teachers College I would never have met him. Luck! It's crazy really that so much can depend on luck.

I'm feeling so much better today & just got an excellent surprise. I ducked down to get the Saturday paper from our letter-box before my LH took the car to golf(it's raining & a 1km return trip) & guess what? We have a new addition to our family! This is our first ever! :D We only have 5 ewes , 1 wether & a ram on loan from a neighbour, who will have to go home now that he does the deed. Well done Cecil! :D The other ewes look very pregnant too! I'm so excited! I don't think I could possibly eat them, so they will stay on as grass munchers! :D

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The ewe has been keeping away from the others, with her lamb & I feel like an old mother hen. We thought we would put our raincoats on & go for a walk & find her & give her some food. Trouble is the other sheep would follow us! We are also going to have to learn some animal husbandry quick smart!

Our YS rang last night as he saw a photo I had put on FB of his Dad's shot off the tee & onto the green yesterday. He was ringing on his break & sounded really cheerful! :D
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That's his second similar shot in one week. He's never had a hole in one, but has come very close & is playing very well lately! It's a great game! We're playing together next Saturday in a 2 person Pinehurst. I play well when we play together.

It's a rainy day today & I think we'll have a lazy'ish day. I'll get on my bike at some stage & maybe do some weights.
Cheers, xo Cate
 
No bike, no weights, but have had a nice day. Went for a good walk searching for the ewe & lamb. Had a good day, but it was way too lazy for me. Of to town tomorrow & will do lots of walking. My husband has an appointment to see the lawyer with his sister re their Mum's will & then another visit to organise a memorial plaque & I'm shopping & then meeting them for lunch. I think I'll buy a pair of hiking boots.
Bye for now, xo Cate
 
Imagine, just for one minute how frustrating it would be to try to lose weight & your husband, who does not need to lose any loses a kilo! I can laugh about it, but it happens always. When I diet he also eats less & loses weight in an instant!

Feeling good today- off to town. I need some new clothes, but so hate shopping! My preference is hiking stores, rather than "ladies fashions". UGH!
Cheers, Cate
 
New clothes- One very light, Summery,fitted 3/4 sleeve colourful top (Corfu). one black/grey/white stripey Summer top, 1 light black sleeveless vest, that matches stripey top, 1 new bra & 1 ordered & paid for. What a day. It was exhausting & not much fun. I hate trying on clothes & getting fitted for a bra is daunting. I didn't get hiking boots as had spent my money on clothes. I had a look at them & think I'll end up buying good Goretex ones, next time there's a sale.

Last night I tried on 2 pairs of slacks( a stripey, stretchy pair & a pair of Exofficio slim-fitting pants) that I couldn't wear comfortably at the start of Winter (couldn't breathe or move in them) & they fit beautifully! "D
I also tried on my skinny jeans (vintage Corfu) that haven't fit since about a month after getting to my lowest weight in 2007 & I can do them up & move & breathe, but they are pretty tight. I have been given some extra motivation! :D

It's a very full-on week this week, but I really must get back into exercise! Golf tomorrow Cate!! Then Cardio in town afterwards. My LH said he'd drive me in & back. I usually drive but will be tired after golf I reckon.

Bye for now, Cate.
 
Awe, yay for the baby lamb!!
Great job for getting some new clothes! I wore something yesterday that I had in high school, cause a lot of my clothes are multiple years old (the last time I went clothes shopping was last november when my mom and I went on vacation!). I really need to update my clothes but I don't like spending my money and I don't want to buy clothes for my fat body haha. I want skinny body clothes!
I commented on your pants NSV on MFP!
 
cate said:
Last night I tried on 2 pairs of slacks( a stripey, stretchy pair & a pair of Exofficio slim-fitting pants) that I couldn't wear comfortably at the start of Winter (couldn't breathe or move in them) & they fit beautifully! "D
I also tried on my skinny jeans (vintage Corfu) that haven't fit since about a month after getting to my lowest weight in 2007 & I can do them up & move & breathe, but they are pretty tight. I have been given some extra motivation! :D
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That reminds me, I have to go through my closet and cull all of the mid-stage clothing. About eight months ago I hauled out five garbage bags full of the original stuff. But now I have to get rid of the stuff from in between. I'll take a few nicer things down to the second hand store, but mostly it's off to goodwill.

And as for the husband's golf shot, that's _really_ close. The pitch mark is closer to the hole than the ball. On Thursday a guy I was playing with had a ball disappear behind the flag and we all thought it went in. Three inches away.
 
Things seem to be looking up for you and yours lately. Your picture is lovely. You are quite pretty and the LH is dashing.
 
Vee-Culling your fat clothes( & your middle clothes) is liberating as its' accepting that you will never be that size again. I've not been able to sustain the absolute low weight that I got to & have had to be realistic as staying there would require me to be absolutely obsessive & probably not drink wine, which I am not prepared to do.
3" from the hole? Wowsers! I get incredibly excited just hitting a tee shot onto the green, without it being that close.My husband was pretty chuffed!

Q- Thank you. That's sweet of you. I had no idea at the time that I was even remotely "pretty". I can think of only one other person that has told me that in my life. There's no point looking back, but I do wish that I had liked how I looked when I was younger. I would have had much more confidence & not suffered from such low self-esteem. Things do feel pretty good with us at the moment. If our YS settles down & is OK, then we'll be OK mentally especially.

It's time for me to head to golf so had better scoot. I will try to just relax & enjoy it!
Bye for now, xo Cate

 
I have had the best news tonight. I played golf today (was Runner-up in Division 2) & then we went to see the Cardio. Basically, he said that because I have brought my blood pressure right down, by drastically cutting my salt that he does not need to see me for 2 years. (At first he said 4 & then he changed his mind & said 2.) He is also suggesting to my GP that she might consider reducing my BP medication. He seemed really impressed! I am over the moon!:D I got around the golf course better today too & wasn't short of breath. I feel so much better!
Cheers, xo Cate
 
Thanks Q & V (I can't get the 2 initials confused this time :D) I am so relieved! We're ticking off some boxes this week so far, in a good way, & hopefully we will get more good news tomorrow after my LH sees the Urologist. Today we saw a financial advisor & got some very good news about finances. It's a bit of a minefield heading into retirement age & we were worrying about that. Today's ap't left us with some very sound advice & info.
I have pulled up really well after my round of golf- no aches & pains & am playing again on Saturday.
Cheers, xo Cate
 
Hopefully more good news this morning Mystic. My husband feels confident that there's nothing wrong, so fingers crossed! We are both feeling pretty good.
I had to look up NSV(Non-scale victories for anyone else who may not know) on Google the other day as I had never heard of it. I'm looking forward to the scales catching up. I am so hoping to be at least 2kg less than I am now when we go to Darwin in October. It will be incredibly hot & humid! This year I'm going to aim at coming back weighing the same! I am!

Nearly time to go. :grouphug: (That's to give me some strength. Hopefully, I won't need it, but a hug never goes astray!)
Love to all xoxo Cate
 
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