Cate's Diary

Keep up the right mood Cat.

“Please remember that sometimes the diet we need to be on is a spiritual and emotional one. Be cautious with what you feed your mind and soul. Fuel yourself with positivity and let that fuel propel you into positive action.”
 
having a glass of wine before you go to bed is actually supposedly healthy for you, i don't remember where i heard this but it came up in my mind just now lol
 
Thank you Benny for that well-timed reminder. I don't know why I am so hard on myself, when I am not hard on others. I appreciate your input! xo Cate

Hi USMC- I'm sure a glass of red wine is good for me, but unfortunately it is not helping me shake off the few excess kilos I am carrying. I wish! LOL

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If you saw what food I am eating you would know mine is one of the healthiest "diets" around. Metabolism, metabolism, metabolism. The older you get, the harder you have to work at it, I'm afraid. I'm 60 now & my metabolism seems to have plummeted.
My typical day-
Breakfast- usually a piece of oat toast(used to be 2) with 1/2 avocado, 1 hard-boiled egg, sometimes with some bean sprouts or asparagus, a little fat-free mayo, a little rhubarb chutney, no spread + filter coffee (black, no sugar)
Mid-morning- an apple
Lunch- usually low-fat cheese, tomato, celery, cucumber, black olives (2) Gluten-free crackers(4-6). Sometimes a soup, with GF garlic toast(1 slice)
Mid afternoon- a banana or an apple or share a small fruit platter (1.5 fruit)
Pre-dinner- a glass of red wine, sometimes 2
Dinner- Lean meat & about 5 vegetables, mostly steamed boiled
After dinner- another shared fruit platter
Supper- if still hungry a couple of GF crackers, sometimes with vegemite.
Exercise-
Average about 15 mins a day vigorous riding on my exercise bike. Often do 10km in 20 mins.

I do believe that if you were once fat your body has a tendency to regain that fat very easily, but I can't be bothered with all the science of it. I know that I regain weight very easily & it is always hard to get the scales moving down again, when they start to go up. It's a bugger, but that's how it is.
My aim is to get back down & stay down. If I have to count calories for the rest of my life & weigh myself every day, then so be it. I hope not though.

Because I lost my weight by going basically carb-free for 6 months I think that carbs are my downfall. By carbs I mean the starchy carbs, like bread, potato etc. I mean I did not have a grain of rice, or a 1 piece of bread, a morsel of potato etc. I ate from a very restricted list of food incl. fruit, veg & meat & weighed everything, including lettuce. It was not easy, but I did lose 36kg in 28 weeks. I felt fantastic! It is not sustainable to do that forever unfortunately.
If anyone has any advice I'm happy to hear it. I am at a bit of a loss, other than going back on my original program for a while, to know how to get back to where I want to be. I would ask my doctor, but I'm afraid she would think I am being obsessive or worrying unduly. At least my husband understands. He eats much more than me, is shorter & weighs less! He knows how much it hurts me to see weight go on again.
It's time I got moving I think. Bye for now, Cate
 
Drinking a glass of water after every meal helps you control your hunger, cause it makes you feel full. so try replacing wine with water.
 
Sorry, I should have said I probably drink between 2-3 litres of water a day! I also drink herbal tea every day- about 4-5 cups.
 
OK. I am starting to feel better. I am back to exercising every day & have upped my calories to 1500, but am not putting my exercise in. Any exercise I do is then a bonus, rather than me eating or drinking my exercise (if you know what I mean.) I have run out of time to type much in here this morning but will come back later.
Feeling positive, feeling active, feeling good.
xoxo Cate
 
Had a bad day, mainly to do with my mother not being too good. I had advice left, right & centre & came away totally exhausted & down. I did eat some GF choc-chip biscuits that had been in Mum's room & only just went over my cals for the day. I am ok now that I am home again.

We have had a lot on our plate lately, trying to work out if we can see if our younger son can buy a business that's for sale locally. I don't think it will be possible as his money is tied up in a house he bought with a friend so can't be uses as collateral. The only way he can get a loan for it is for us to "gift" him over $100K, unencumbered, & also he would need to have a full-time job to guarantee to be able to pay back the loan, in case the business could not. I now have to let him know. I am not looking forward to doing so. We are at an age where we do not want to risk our home to finance it & we also have another son who's financial state is probably more precarious as he has separated from his wife & will need to somehow pay her out.

I have been worrying a fair bit lately but thought I was doing ok until today with my mum.
I so want to lose some weight before we go away in October as I know how hard it is to eat as well as I do at home while we're at the championships. You don't have much time or choice unfortunately.
I am very determined to lose though & I will put today's glitch behind me (hopefully not literally!)
I am home on my own tonight but will not eat anything else at all!! Katehunibun- if you read this, you will know & understand how hard this is, especially when you're feeling a bit down!!
'night all, xo Cate
 
& I failed! I ate a bowl of nuts& some dried fruit & then had a mandarin to make myself stop!

Did not weigh.
Quote-
"Believing in yourself is an endless destination. Believing you have failed is the end of the journey."
I do believe in myself, but sometimes after a bad day I self-sabotage.
I must stop rebelling against myself! I'm the one who suffers, no-one else & nothing changes.
I'm fine. I'm not worrying about anyone else today.
Lots of love to my forum buddies xoxo Cate
 
Hello Cate! :waving:

I have been reading your diary, however, I rarely post if I feel I can't bring anything useful to the table.

Try not to feel stressed about today, don't let it affect how you feel about tomorrow. I used to feel very bad when I failed, that made me try to compensate on the next day, making it even harder to stick to a plan. I would get frustrated because of that, and then I would just gave up. I kept telling to myself; "I will start tomorrow", but since I was trying to compensate for all the time lost, the cycle would start again, and that tomorrow eventually became weeks, months and even years.

You lost 36 Kg in only 28 weeks, that's a lot, and I'm sure you can do it again.

Don't feel bad and try face tomorrow with good attitude and a pace you are comfortable with. Good luck, I hope tomorrow is a better day for you. :)
 
Athala, Thank you so much for making that effort for me. I'm feeling a bit fragile at the moment, but I will not let myself be derailed. My health is much more important than that. Thank you so much! I have had a much better day today & have coped much better. I am lucky to have a very supportive & loving husband. We have had a lovely day. My diet today has more than made up for yesterday & we went wood gathering for a couple of hours so I have also worked hard!
That was very sweet of you xo Cate
 
Cate,
It sounds like you are on a real roller coaster and I don't envy the financial decisions...don't beat your self up too much...especially over having healthy foods like nuts and dried fruits! You might consider putting some healthy snacks (apple slices, deviled eggs, blue berries, walnuts, etc) to keep you from all of the chocolate cook busquits!
We'll keep you and your family in our prayers,
Sarah
 
I think your doing fine, we all have bad food days at times but you are doing great, keep the focus.

GF, I'm wondering, what are the health benefits or its something specific for you? I ask because here in France I never hear of it but in nz all the cafes offer and advertise GF cakes and biscuits etc.
is it better for you or just something kiwis and Auzzies do?
 
Hi Sarah- It's hard to explain but it was a choc-chip cookie saga regarding my Mum & the home ended up handing me a heap of her biscuits to take away as they think they're making her sick. They are lactose-free so I think they're fine for mum but I ended up with them & felt really down. It has been an ongoing saga trying to eliminate lactose as she buys stuff from the kiosk like milk chocolate & they give her soy milk & soy yoghurt & I actually think soy may be the problem. The problem the other day was I had about 10 different staff members all talking to me about the same thing. It can get overwhelming! I also had to take my mother-in-law to another appointment & my mum was a bit weird about that I think. She just doesn't understand of course.
I sat in my car, down by the river for a while, looking at the floods & then went to the boot of my car & got out 2 biscuits ate them & then got another 3 & ate them & could have eaten the whole bloody packet, but didn't. I haven't had one since. I do have yummy, healthy snacks at home.
Re our son & the finances. I sent him a message today to tell him the news but have not heard back since. I think he's been working. We have to step back again. We can't do things for him. He'll just have to get back & organise his own life & preferably not run away to another country when things don't go 100% his way. Thanks for caring Sarah, xo Cate

Hi Suz- We noticed how hard it was to eat gluten-free in France. Cafes seemed to not even have an idea what I meant.There was more of an awareness in Italy & Switzerland I noticed. I gave up gluten as I am intolerant to it. I used to feel like I was a blimp, but had no idea what caused it, until I went on the diet in 2007. When I reintroduced wheat in particular back into my everyday diet I bloated up & had awful stomach pains, wind & constipation. I have seen doctors & a naturopath & have almost totally given up gluten. I have felt much better because of it. I am not sure why so many people in Aus & NZ go gluten-free. I'm not sure if it is an awareness thing, a fashion for some (?) or what. I know that my body is much better without it. As far as I know I am not Coeliac, but I am definitely gluten-intolerant or at least wheat-intolerant.
I know that everyone has bad days, but I think it was the fact that I ate badly on purpose almost. It scares me when I eat mindlessly. It's like I'm being mean to myself! Thanks for your visit Suz xo Cate

Just got back from a visit to Launceston & feel very tired. I'm about to share a pot of herbal tea with my LH (lovely husband).
Bye for now xo Cate
 
Right- Drastic things call for drastic measures. My weight has stuck on 84.5. It doesn't seem to matter what I do. My body is hanging on to this fat like grim death & it must be fixed.
On Monday I am going back on my original weight-loss program foods, rules etc, but without actually weighing the food. I will take it day by day. Once the weight starts to come off I will be right again, but I need to get it moving downwards!!

About to go get some dry wood for our older son at his place. I'll prob have to keep an eye on the youngest GS while they cut wood.
I will be very tied up this week-end as I have the 3 GK's. I hope it doesn't rain as I will most likely go up the wall if we have to stay inside all the time!

It's sunny today thank goodness! Come on Spring!! Almost there!!!!!
xoxo Cate
 
Had a great time at our son's. I spent lots of time with our younger GS, but we went walking through the bush & then I ended up attacking the blackberries. Actually they attacked me back fairly vigorously.
Score Cate 4/ blackberries 2. Next time I go back with my little clippers & they are history!
 
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