Cate's Diary

I have been enjoying the time with my sister & eating healthily & exercising by walking etc while we do touristy things mainly. Have been seeing Mum most days & will pop in again today & we're taking her out for lunch tomorrow. I may bring her out to our home for lunch & a few hours I think, for a change. I'm probably maintaining which isn't bad. My sis now has a mouth full of ulcers, which is how her allergies attack her. OUCH!!

We are going to Launceston today to do some op shop & health food shopping & then will go to the beautiful Cataract Gorge, which is in the heart of Launceston. I'll add some photos soon. Only 2 more nights & she will be going back home. :)

Lots of love to all, xoxo Cate
 
A79.5! :hurray:

You're a trooper. I just noticed in your ticker that you have your goal weight set for over a year from now. That is so totally awesome. xxx
 
Hi sweets. I'm not so sure that I'm still in the 70's, after my sister's visit & will stay away from the scales for a few days as we have eaten out often! I even had a lemon & passion-fruit cheesecake yesterday & I think it's still sitting in my stomach. According to Inge, my Naturopath, I'm meant to steer clear of dairy. It was YUMMY!


It feels strange now that my sister, H, has gone. When we visited Mum yesterday she was a bit sad. Not only was it the day that H was flying home, but it was also our late brother's birthday. I don't think any of us wanted her to fly back to Victoria. One day I think she will move over here. I hope so. We're talking about a return visit in Spring. :biggrin: Now that she knows that she can do it I think that it will happen again. There weren't many occasions when H had to wear her mask. It helped that I drove all the time of course. I wish I had put the trip meter on when we started back from the airport 2 weeks ago.


I'm in my exercise gear today & it's raining outside & fairly chilly. I'm going to hop on my bike at some stage today. I'm feeling very lazy & tired. Life will be back to normal again & I know that I will have to keep active & busy as I am really going to miss H & don't want to feel sad, if I can help it. I know I'll have to work at that.


Joh, I feel much better about having a long-term weight goal instead of being so obsessed. Some may think I'm a little overweight but I feel that I am at a healthy weight now & am feeling much better about my body. Losing that last 7kgs will put me at a healthy BMI as well so I will slowly get down to it. I'm in no hurry now & am feeling much more at peace with my body. My sister's visit helped with that as well.

Lots of love to you, Joh and to my other forum friends, xoxo Cate
 
Jumped straight back into it! 15km on my exerc. bike, healthy eating....Feeling positive! CHECK!!!
 
What a nice note to read in your diary Cate...so glad you had a good visit with your sister and Mom and the best part was reading you are at peace with your body and not obsessed with "that last 7 kg"...I must admit I'm not quite there yet, but I can see it coming! I am feeling much better about myself these days and feeling good in my own skin. This forum has really helped with that.

Good job on getting back on the bike today! Feels so good doesn't it?!

Welcome back!

Sarah
 
Hi Sarah, It has taken me a long time to get to this stage as I lost the majority of my excess weight back in 2007. I'm just glad that I am more at peace with my body now. The length of time that someone is overweight may be proportionate to the length of time the brain takes to accept that they are slimmer.(*NB to self that I never say that I am slim!) In my case I was overweight for a long time. I stop myself now when I start to put myself down & tell myself how well I have done & how much better I look now. I sometimes say "Not bad for an old girl" and mean it in the nicest possible way! I'm glad that you can see yourself getting to the stage where you are accepting how you look now Sarah. It's your new reality. I used to think feeling 'normal' & not standing out what was what I wanted the most but that changes too. Now I see all of these really fat people & am so glad that I am no longer like them. I also see really, really thin people & don't want to be like them either(eeuuw!) Happy in my own skin? I think I must be at last! No-one's perfect and I don't want to be anyway.

I'm feeling good today and the sun is shining again, thank goodness. Some gardening I think today.

Lots of love to all, xoxo Cate
 
Thanks Cate for your great wisdom! I think whoever told you about the length of time overweight being directly proportional to the length of time to accept yourself as slimmer was right on the mark. At this point in my journey, I'm about down to what I weighed in 1999...when I get into the low 180's I'll be at what I was in 1993-96 range...when I get to the low 160's I'll be what I was in 1985 (I have events in my history that I know these approximate weights...how strange is that?!). I think when I played basketball in highschool (late 1970's) I weighed the lowest and that was somewhere between 145 and 155 I'm guessing..I was listed on the official roster at 140 although I was never forced to weigh-in (Thank God..would have probably quit the team if that were the case!). All of that to say, where I am now in my weight loss, I am content with my progress, but I know I have more to go to get back to the weight I know I'm best at...and it has been such a long time since the 160's mark..I know I'll get there...I also know it probably won't happen as fast as I would like...and honestly, I'm not sure I know or will accept how I look at that weight because it has been so long ago...and I was much younger then and the weight distribution on my body is certainly not the same (gravity takes it's toll!).

Thanks so much for giving me your support and your experience..it means alot and is helping me!

Sarah
 
Wisdom? :blush5: Now I'm embarrassed! I wish! I don't think anyone told me that but it seems to make sense to me. Another thing, while I think of it. Sarah & Kate- you know how you both hate getting compliments & cringe & get all embarrassed, just like I do, prepare yourself for when you don't get many as people are so used to seeing you much slimmer & have accepted that is your new reality. Believe me, that can be just as bad, although it really shouldn't be. When the compliments died down I started doubting myself again. We women are crazy! Sarah, you WILL get down to your goal weight as you are not just trying to, you are saying that you will do it. I think when someone says that are trying to do something they are giving themselves an opt out clause and you are not doing that. Re: the time it will take- the longer the better really as you are changing the habits of a life-time and replacing them with new ones. The more time it takes, the more you will reinforce those habits and they should be stronger.

I'm a bit tired this morning & feel like I'm not making much sense so will stop now & come back later. I think it's good for all of us to share our thoughts in the forum. I would miss it greatly if I stopped. Bye for now, xo Cate
 
I'm feeling pretty good but am missing my sister. I took Mum out for morning tea & we talked about how we both missed her. Mum has never really expressed her feelings. I rang my sister tonight to tell her. I did some shopping & bought another light jacket. It is so much easier buying clothes these days. It's funny, but now that I'm slimmer so many of the clothes in op shops are way too big for me. The jacket I bought was a Black Pepper brand & only $5. I LOVE OP SHOPS!!

I'm tired tonight & haven't much to say really so will say goodnight. Lots of love to you all, xo Cate
 
AHeya Cupcake :)

I've realy really missed you and this place. You guys are such a massive part of my life now.
I've got a lot to catch up on so i am gonna comment as i read thru cos by the time i get to the end i have always forgotten what i was going to say (yep, ditsy :) )

I'm so pleased that you are happy with yourself :) and that you are losing the last little bit in your own time. I kinda feel the same about losing the last bit in my own time. I still struggle with self imagine issues but hopefully that will improve with time but i know that my clothes size is a healthy size so i must be 'normal' now. I really don't have a date that i would like to reach my target, maybe the summer would be good but i am really not too bothered. I just want to make sure that i don't start going back to my old habbits and put anything back on.

OMG 15k on the bike!!!! :hurray: :hurray: That's awesome my sweet, just amazing!!!

You saying that the length of time being fat being proportionate to how long it takes you to accept being 'slim' makes sence. I have been fat since i was 11 so i have never been slim as an adult. Hopefully i'll get my head round it soon enough.

The phrase 'being comfortable in your skin' is a good one. I kinda DO feel like that most of the time. It doesn't sound as extreme as 'i love me' to me If that makes sence :) I can cope with that one.

Wisdom!! :iagree: With Sarah, you are a very wise woman. You always manage to say and explain things that make perfect sence etc. Your awesome, Don't blush sweetie :)

I really don't think i will mind not getting compliments (well i hope not anyway) When i was in Winchester with Rob i met lots of new people (his school friends :) ) and they didn't know that i use to be fat!!! That was a real biggie for me, i felt that i could just be me and not have 'oh god, what are they thinking about me' screaming in my head. It was so so nice to not be so self concious. It really gave my confidence a boost. Rob was great and never said anything in from of others about my weightloss, we just talked about it and my issues when it was just us over a beer!!

Sending you lots of love and big hugs my dear dear friend :grouphug: :grouphug:
 
Hiya Hun, 'Being comfortable in my own skin' does feel much better than saying that you really love yourself! I also find that really hard. It reminds me of those awful women's cosmetic ads- "Because you're worth it!" Eeuuwww! I'm glad that you are feeling pretty much the same. It's a good way to be. I really do feel that losing this last little bit of weight slowly is going to be much more sustainable in the long run & I think it's much better for my mental state as well. I had just said to my LH this morning that I have lost the last 6kg by eating more. MFP & charting everything I eat & all the exercise I do has given me the permission to include 'treats' and I am learning to eat without guilt. When we have been overweight for so long eating without guilt is a BIGGIE. I do eat very healthily & am grateful that I loathe junk food like KFC & Maccas etc. Eating wheat-free feels so much better for me & also takes away the temptation to eat snacks when I'm out. I always have some Territory Jerky in my bag to have if I'm either tempted or just plain hungry. It's a great snack!

I found it interesting when you said that meeting Rob's new friends was really good because they hadn't known you over-weight. I really enjoy those experiences as well. It feels like you are meeting people on an even footing, without any baggage. My comment on the no longer getting as many compliments was not a serious complaint really. I still get nice compliments & can take them better now. It's time I started dressing up a bit more & having confidence with colours & styles etc, instead of being so unadventurous. I'll get there. I'm a bit of a dag, I must admit. I love hiking clothes!

I watched Catherine Tait & David Tennant in Dr Who last night & the night before. What a dynamic duo! Then I just had to look up "not bovvered" on youtube. OMG- that woman is so funny!!

So glad to have you back hunibun!!!! Sending you lots of love, xoxo Cate

PS Weight today is still 79.5, even after my sister's 2 week visit! YAYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!

PPS 15km on my bike is NOTHING compared to your runs! But I'm still happy that I can do what I do. :D
 
agree with sarah and kate you are wise!!!and say thing and explain stuff in a way that makes perfect sense!!!!!!

Its great you maanged to stay the same weight while having your sister with you!I know its not nice to feel like you miss a favourite person but she will be back you said probably by easter and thats not far away!!!!!!!

Thanks for coming on my diary and cheering me up!I havent been very happy these last few weeks!and i have been eating kinda bad.Need all the support i can get!!!!!
 
I feel really exhausted today but had an early start & have packed a fair bit into my day. Tai Chi yesterday was really good. Today we went & gave blood(plasma for me) & did lots of shopping & have just got home & unpacked & I'm about to pick up our OGS & take him to Taekwondo. I'm feeling fairly stuffed! Also we are having some hassles about something, which hopefully we'll sort out in the next couple of days. If not we both might reach boiling point & 'spit the dummy'. Let's hope it gets resolved! I had better skedaddle. Love to you Jess & anyone else reading my diary. Not interesting today, that's for sure & def. not feeling wise- more cranky than wise! xoxo Cate
 
The issue was resolved late last night, after much emailing & ringing. It was 8-ball related & involved us & both our sons. We stuck to our guns & won the argument.

I have a lot of things to organise today as my LH got called in to work. I'm his unofficial secretary anyway so I'm used to it. We will now be going to Hobart week-end after this to play in a State competition with 5 others & I will book accom. etc. for our team.

We went to Devonport yesterday & gave blood (LH) & plasma (me), did some shopping, went for a cheap but nice Chinese meal ($8.50 incl a glass of wine!) wandered around town, bought a light doona for our bed, trophies for the Golf Club (lovely stuff- kitchenware mostly on sale) and then got back home in time to pick up our OGS. He felt really tired & not up to Taekwondo so he & I stayed at home & my LH ended up going out with our OS to an 8-ball Calcutta. He was sooo grumpy that I didn't mind at all. By the end of the night(phone call on his way home) the issue was all resolved & we both woke up feeling much better. I'm without my car today so must stay at home :)biggrin:)& will hop on my bike very shortly. Very healthy day & week coming up. I ate about 300 cals over yesterday but didn't feel out of control. I ate mindfully & knew what I was doing but can't do that very often. I also had 2 pieces of pizza for dinner & am suffering for it this morning. Wheat- OUCH!! It wasn't even worth it but my LH was so down but was going to cook dinner for us & pizza for our GS & I said "Let's have pizza too, to make it easier. It won't kill me" I must remember to take my Oat bread to Hobart next week-end to have at breakfast time.

I just rang Mum to tell her I won't be in, but will take her out to lunch tomorrow.

Time to do some house-work I think, after reading the diaries.

Love to all, xoxo Cate
 
hi Cate sorry about the pizza. the good thing was you ate it really as a family thing and not out of a craving. This is always a good thing because i find when your eating something because you crave it you eat alot more of it. enjoy lunch tomorrow with your mom.
 
Hi Mark. You're right- eating pizza as a conscious family thing is so much better than eating mindlessly. It won't become a habit, that's for sure! I can't even say that I particularly enjoyed it! The same ingredients on top of some gluten-free oat bread would have been scrumptious! Cravings are a bugger. Mine are usually for dried fruit! Dried peaches- YUM. No Cate, don't even think about it. I'm going to grab an apple & another water bottle before I'm tempted!

Today-

I have ridden 17.75km on my bike in 33.3mins, split into 2 & FEELING GOOD!! :D
 
Went a bit craaazy today I think & just did another 8.25km on my bike, so a total of 26km for the day. Ate some cashews in the middle there as I was ravenous. Still can have wine tonight! YAY!!! My legs are aching already though!

:party:
 
AHey there Cupcake :)

First of all i want to say loving the profile picture :) That is a stunning photo of you, love it.

You said that it's about time you started dressing up a bit, well, i certainly think so!! :) That is the one thing that i have done!!! I am now wearing all the things that i would have loved to but never dreamt of wearing before. I lived in jeans and hoodies and stuff like that. Now i own mini skirts that i wear with strech leggins and knee high boots and fitted tops. I do love the compliments on my clothing these days. The weight compliments i struggle with but comments like 'wow you look so trendy' and 'you look great in that' really do make my day. It was hard to start wearing different styles of clothes and i had to take a deep breath and hold my head up high when i left the house in them but i'm good with it now. It's like i am actually living my teens now. Not 're-living' them because i never got to wear all the trendy, in fashion clothes back then. I must admit that i have said to Jack 'you will tell me if i look stupid or too old for something that i'm wearing' but he has always said 'naw, you're really cool mum' bless him :)

We llooooovvveeeeeeee Dr Who, especially David Tennant. He is so sexy in a geeky kinda way. Jack was obssessed with Dr Who and David was 'his' Dr. We have them all on DVD and he still watches them now. :) I do miss being curled up on the sofa as a family watching them though. He spends his saturday evening on the X-box playing online with his friends now. Oh, how things change as they grow up :eek:

Well done my lovely on staying the same weight while your sister was staying, that is amazing!! :hurray: :hurray:

Glad you got 'the issue' sorted sweetie. It's awful how things can really make us feel bad.

How brill that you went over your cals but still stayed in control :hurray: I'm really struggling with that the last few days! All i want to do is stuff chocolate and i ate at least 20 quality street chocolates last night :eek: and i have had that 'eat something bad!!, no, EAT!!, NOOOOO' conversation in my head all day today. I haven't had my dinner yet and i've only got about 100 cals left. I suppose it's cos i'm in a weird place mentally but i wish it would go away. Anyway, well done again on your self control.

I seem to have come onto your diary and just typed loads of crap about me me me!!! Sorry hun :blush5:

26KM OMG!!!!! that totally blows my run out of the water!!!!! TOTALLY!!!! You, my lovely, totally rock!! :hurray: :hurray:
I have not been to the gym all week, just not feeling it this week. I really need to get my act together. I really am all over the place this week mentally and i need to pull myself up, give my face a slap and get over it!!!!

Enjoy your wine sweetie, you have defiantely earned a few glasses :)

Love and hugs :grouphug:
 
Kate, I LOVE it when you come into my diary! You're so full of life & vitality, even while you're struggling with your work issue. I think you're an absolute darling. Jack must take after his Mum I think. How sweet that he tells you that you're cool. One of the best compliments I have heard in the last few years was one from our YS's young ex-boss, when we visited R at work. He was explaining to someone else who we were & I heard him say that "That's R's Mum. She's really cool." I certainly wasn't meant to hear it. At the time I thought "Me? Cool?" & felt really shocked & very disbelieving, but afterwards I thought how nice that was & felt really good about it. If he had said it to me I would have thought he was a b.s. artist.

I actually like riding my exercise bike & push myself to just go a little bit further & a little bit further. It's still nothing like your runs but I must stop comparing myself to others & instead focus on getting fitter & fitter & slimmer. So many people our age hardly exercise at all & they eat so much rubbish 'food'. My LH & I have a very healthy & active diet & lifestyle in comparison to most of our friends. I despair at some of them.

Going over my cals the day before is what pushed me to exercise extra yesterday. If I hadn't wanted a glass or 2 of wine last night (or any night for that matter) I wouldn't even go close to eating my daily calorie allowance, when I factor in my exercise. I do love red wine!

Thank you Kate for saying such lovely things. You really are a sweetie! Lots of love xoxo Cate
 
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