Casey's Diary!

I'm getting adjusted to my "new body" and I'm starting to see areas where I need to improve. For a few weeks I was so ecstatic about my weight loss and all the clothes that I could fit in that I put weight loss on the backburner. That's okay---I'm going through a stressful time and I'm just glad I haven't gained anything. As I get adjusted to my body, I realize I still have goals I want to achieve. The fat that was on top of my hips is pretty much gone, but I still have some "love handles" to get rid of. They're almost gone, but they're still there! My thighs could use a little work. They've come a long way but I would like them to look more athletic. I feel like this is a healthy way to look at things. I'm proud of all my accomplishments but I also know that to get to my ideal body I still have some work to do. I'm shooting for 140 by July 1. I'm not sure what I weigh now, but I think it's 148 to 147. I weighed 149 a few weeks ago after drinking the night before, and I know alcohol can do tricky things with weight. Here are my goals:

-Exercise five days a week
-Food balance of 55% carbs, 30% fat and 15% protein
-Trying to get under 2000 cals a day
-Start weight-training after finals are over and I get moved into my new apt
-Go for a treat (ice cream!) once a month
 
hey Casey I feel ya on this one. Isn't it crazy being within 9-8 lbs of your goal? I'm shooting for athleticism more myself--wanna run better/fsaster/longer. You go Girl, and so will I! RAH RAH RAH ;) :rolleyes:
 
I did great the first part of day--ate plenty of fruits and veggies, got lots of fiber, had a killer workout on the elliptical (45 mins on the alpine setting, level 7) but this evening was awful. My dorm threw a bash for the end of the semester and I ate more potato wedges and cookies than I'd like to admit. Oh well, tomorrow's a new day.
 
What does 15% cals coming from protein equate to in terms of grams?

Percentages are not the best way for determining macronutrient consumption.
 
CaseyAtMartin said:
I am getting really paranoid. I feel like I've gained all the weight back that I lost. I don't know what's wrong with me.
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Casey, if it helps any I had a looong period right after about 80% of my initial weight loss that I can only describe as "fear of food". It was like I sat down to eat with the underlying fear "is this going to be the 'bite' that starts the weight gain again?" Every random missed work-out induced a little illogical thought of muscles turning to flab. Taking an infrequent second helping of something led me to question "is this just a normal, occassional having a little extra or the start of a food free-for-all" and on an on. Start the day feeling on top of the world physically, go to bed feeling like Miss Piggy was inside waiting to come out in my sleep. Basically it came down to not really trusting myself or that the changes that had been made were lasting and real. I felt "fake thin" if that makes sense.

Even though I still had more to lose I basically had to start maintaining for a little while, just to firmly establish that yes, the changes were not fleeting and could not be erased from an infrequent missed work-out or high calorie meal. Seeing the scale stay within the same three pounds week after week ended up being more satisfying than seeing it drop week after week. Since then I've restarted and gone back to maint. twice - each time for a different reason, but always ending the "weight loss hiatus" with a lot more self confidence and with better control over my food choices.

I'm not saying I think you ought to start maintaining, just letting you know that I think I understand the weight-related emotional roller coaster you're on being this close to your goal, I think it's pretty common but just doesn't get talked about a lot, and since choosing to maintain for a while is the only thing I know worked for me - afraid it's the only suggestion I have to offer.:eek:
 
Thank you so much cym. Sometimes I try to convince myself that I haven't lost as much weight as I think---the scale is "lying", I guess. I look in the mirror and see the same body that I was 11 pounds ago, but I know I've lost weight because of the way my clothes fit. It's very strange.

Steve--I'd like to shoot for around 80g of protein a day. I have research to do before this is set in stone. Right now with all the stress that I'm under (finals, moving into my new apt, getting 2 new jobs) I'm just going to do the best I can. I DO greatly appreciate your input and I am very happy you stopped by my journal.

Oh yeah, I got another job! I'll be working the desk at night for the dorms. I've already been doing this for a year and a half since I was an RA for so long, so I won't have to learn any new skills. Yay!

Things to do:
Finish University Scholars journal (it's for my scholarship)
Finish Art take-home final
Study for Art in-class final
Write English paper
Study for English 440 final
Study for Philosophy 120 final
(and that's just before the weekend starts!)

If I don't stop by your journal, know that I wish you all the best but I'm EXTREMELY bogged down. Thanks for all the support!
 
Wow CYM sure is sweet--way better with the advice than my "just keep trying!" LOL!!

Congrats on the job!!

Celebrate the weight you've lost and your new body!
 
Well, I'm smack in the middle of finals. Got a paper to write and two finals to study for, and a little bit of Art work that I "forgot" to do. I am going to spend these next few days working out when I can and just trying to eat healthy. If I eat some junk, oh well. After finals are done I can concentrate on my eating and exercise and work off these last nine pounds. I will have my own kitchen, so the possibilities for food will be wide open! I just finished a yummy lunch of teriyaki rice and mixed vegetables...a total of approx. 700 cals but I am stuffed! It is when I eat fruits and veggies that I can concentrate the most and get the least stressed. Isn't it odd that food can have that effect? I am starting to see myself more realistically. I think the "newness" of my weight loss has worn off and I wasn't handling it in the correct way. I'm not sure why, but today I woke up with this new positive perspective.

The black bikini is here! The bottom looks really cute but the top is tiny (and I am very large up top). It still fits, I just look a little trashy, lol. I am only going to use it for laying out so I'm not worried.
 
Good luck on the finals! And, yey! on the black bikini...LOL at the "trashy" part because I personally have a deep afinity for the "trashy" look at times myself...I keep waiting to grow out of it 'cause I'll be 33 in a week...but nope, mini-skirts and belly tops still rule:eek:
 
Thanks for the kind words CG and cym!

Three finals down, two to go!

I have to admit that I had ice cream yesterday and the day before. I didn't have massive amounts either time. Today I did much healthier. I'm hoping to exercise tomorrow during my few hours off (my last weekend working as an RA! YESSSS).

So I'm learning about this whole "adult" thing...I'm trying to get all the details sorted out for my new apartment. did you know you have to pay a $150 deposit to get your electricity turned on? At least in this city. And the water company needs a deposit, and the trash company probably does too. Tuesday I get my keys, but me and my roomate have to pay our pro-rated rent first. I'm just so thankful that I've gotten to work throughout college and that I was intelligent and driven enough to get several really good scholarships.

Looking towards the future, I obviously have a lot of stuff to do for the apartment. I also need a haircut, and a pedicure. I'd like some highlights but we'll see how much money I have left after buying all my furniture and stuff. I start my new job May 16. I start classes June 4, and will probably start my other job around then. My boyfriend is staying here this summer and working too, so I'm looking forward to spending lots of good times with him.
 
Breakfast:
1.5 cups total
1.5 cups chocolate soymilk

Snacks:
1 banana
1 Nutri Grain bar

Dinner:
2 wheat tortillas
2 cups sauteed veggies
fajita seasoning
0.5 cups refried beans
0.5 cups Spanish rice
0.5 cups salsa
1 serving tortilla chips

Snack:
1.5 cups total
0.5 cup chocolate soymilk
1 banana

Exercise:
off day
 
Thanks Steve!!!! I need it.

Well, I had some ice cream from Sonic last night. Well, more than some. A lot. A large chocolate creme pie shake. I looked on dietfacts.com today to record it onto fitday and my jaw hit the floor. 1100 calories!!!!!!!! Jeez! I have got to kick this ice cream habit. Hoping for a better day today, but of course I have a pot luck to go to and half the people coming are bringing desserts. :(
 
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