21st February Report:
Right, I suppose right off the bat I should really apologise for the horrors I'm about to unleash on you. I took a couple of current full body pics, and to be honest, it wasn't great. I guess the only saving grace is that I chose to exclude my face, which may have sent some people right over the edge when viewed in tandem with my pasty white, fat-arse body. Oh well, it may well serve as the kick up the arse I need right now, and get me working out harder than ever...... I hope! And to get a tan..... Honestly, I look like an uncooked cod fillet at the moment!
Right now I'm fairly pleased with myself, having put a lot of effort into my weights workout this afternoon, and managed some lifts that previously I would have been terrified of. I don't know what exactly happened to me today, but for some reason everything clicked just perfectly and the fear of going heavy just deserted me. I managed some personal bests which I am extremely proud of

! Now the following weights workout may seem a little chaotic in places, as I didn't plan it I just sort of winged it a little going with what felt best at certain times. It may not be the best workout, but I feel like I progressed a great deal mentally with knowing what I could handle physically. At times it was a case of one-up-manship with myself, I sort of thought to myself "I can handle this weight easily, what happens if I put more weight on (the bar)". I'm not going to lie, I surprised myself.
Weights workout:
Warm up: push ups 5 x 10, bench dips 3 x 10 with 10kg plate on my lap, barbell pull ups with legs raised 3 x 6.
Military press (front shoulders) 1 x 10 20kg, 2 x 10 30 kg.
Bench press 3 x 10 30kg, superset with 3 x 10 dumbell flys 10kg
This is where I started getting adventurous
Squats, behind shoulder 1 x 10 40kg, 1 x 10 45kg, 1 x 10 50kg
Deadlift 1 x 10 60kg, 1 x 10 70kg, 1 x 10 80kg, I went a bit mad here 1 x 8 100kg
Back to squats, holding barbell in front of body 1 x 10 80kg, 1 x 8 90kg, 1 x 3 95kg
Bench Press 2 x 5 50kg, 1 x 2 60kg
Back to military press 2 x 5 40kg
Side dumbell raises, 10kg 2 x 10, 1 x 6
Skullcrushers, 1 x 10 20kg, 1 x 10 22.5kg, 1 x 10 25kg, 1 x 10 30kg, 1 x 4 35kg
Barbell curl, 3 x 6 30kg
Hammer curl 3 x 10 with 10kg dumbell
Standing dumbell tricep extensions 2 x 8 20kg
And this is where my body literally gave up!!! But now I know I'm capable, I'm going to push myself harder each time I lift weights.
Food and drink for today:
Wake up: 7am
Breakfast, 7.30am: 4 x scrambled egg with 6 rashers bacon, 2 x wholemeal toast and black coffee. 1 x bottle powerade.
12 midday: Chicken breast in bbq sauce, and couscous, relentless juiced berry energy drink
1pm - 3pm: weights workout, 2 litres water and bottle of powerade
3.20pm: Pizza ristorante salami and pepperoni pizza (I figured the high calorie count and high protein/carbs would be a decent post weights meal) earl grey tea with milk.
Throughout afternoon and early evening: several cups of tea and coffee
9.30pm: veggie lasagne with lots of extra cheese 2 x powerade
Right, now to the photo's, I sincerely apologise, though do not take any responsibility for psychiatric counselling required upon viewing, once seen, these cannot be unseen, so please proceed with extreme caution!