This will probably be one of my longer posts because there's a lot going on. Rather than tie it together into one cohesive narrative I'm just going to ramble on stream of conciousness style.
I talked to my sister over the weekend. She's back up 50 pounds and hasn't gone to the gym in awhile. She's using money as the excuse and she was spending a lot (every day she was working out with a personal trainer), but she had lost 100 pounds and was an inspiration to me. I hope she finds her way back, but regardless I know its a very uphill climb and I won't respect her any less if she doesn't. One of the reasons I haven't been too upset about the slowness of my recent loss is because I know I could just has easily put the weight back on myself. Its a victory that I'm stilling working at it and I'm still seeing progress.
Though my weight is slow to come off I am starting to notice muscles popping up in the strangest places. I can feel my triceps and shoulders getting considerably bigger as well. I think this is going to be key for me to adapt a healthy lifestyle as opposed to just going on a really long diet.
I'm home sick today and it bothers me. I woke up at 2 in the morning with huge stomach cramps, the sweats and what felt like food poisoning. I think I had picked up some bad steak. Anyway I had a rough two hours and then when I woke up I was still feeling kind of weak and kind of sick to my stomach so I called in sick. Soon after, I felt better. I don't know what happenned last night, but I hate using a sick day like this. My class is driving me crazy this year and this is one mental health day I won't be taking down the road. I usually allow myself 3 or 4 a year and one is being used up on that cruise I'm taking at the end of the month.
I see some physical changes in myself, but I also see some mental changes. I work out Monday & Friday almost totally with weights. Sunday is aerobic, but some light resistance is used. Wednesday is circuit training and I use some weights and some aerobic. I've been getting up at 4:45 to go work out, but when I miss a day I just make it up the next day. I'm pretty impressed with my ability to not lose a day. Exercise programs in the past simply got cancelled by me not rescheduled. So you see, I'm changing mentally too.