Cannon's Journal

Wow. I'm sorry to hear about this. Lately I've been fairly removed from those sorts of incidents. I taught in one of the most poorly managed urban school systems for four years before I moved on to the private sector. (We'll avoid discussing the overbearing guilt I sometimes feel from "abandoning" those kids.) I still keep in touch with some of my old students and a few colleagues from the city system. Anyway, last year, one of my old students was shot nine, yes, NINE, times. And he survived. I saw his grandmother at the Farmer's Market by my house and talked to her for a long while. Anyway, I eventually ran into the student at Barnes & Noble. When I asked him if he staying straight he was honest with me. He said he couldn't because he was involved in gang stuff. I gave him a hug and then told him to be careful, and that was that. I still get upset when I think about him.

I know you said the shooting happened outside of school. No one would dare pull a gun where I used to work because everyone knew half the kids were carrying.
 
Our school has very good discipline. The school I was at last year was in a slightly better neighborhood, but the discipline wasn't as strong. My homeroom is just terrible, but I'm very impressed with how much the faculty and administration here care about the kids. The problem is when they have deeper issues there isn't much we can do.
 
Its a weird combination right now of genuinely sorrowful mourning students and kids trying to use this situation for their own benefit. Unfortunately, I don't feel like I'm in any position to judge anybody else's greif so I give them all the benefit of the doubt. In general its a hard day teaching this week for completely different reasons than it was last week.
 
:hug2: I hope each day gets a little brighter for you,
I know it is hard and my heart goes out to you and
the studen and students,that has to very rough on
them as well.:hug2: Tammy
 
Hi Cannon, sorry I haven't been around, but I'm back now -- at least for a while. Hope you're doing well. I know you're in the middle of your teaching year. Hope you have a great class this year!
 
Well my weight stayed rather stable this week which isn't great, but it could be worse. I really feel I'm making progress with my working out especially after I reallized that I was putting weight on the bar that didn't move for the leg presses :). The tragedy is still on everybody's minds, but its getting easier to deal with.
 
Howdy Cannon,
Good to hear it's getting easier,takes some time
and definatlry an eye opener of being aware to.Way to go on the weights
your doing awesome and like Curvie asked how's your eating been?Have a great weekend Tammy
 
I'm eating really well for half the week and not as well for the other half. The problem is I never know which half I'll struggle with.
 
Understood. Claudia and I were talking about how hard it is to have a deficit, and how easy it is to have one at the end of the day, then gobble it away. Do you ever track your calories and stuff?
 
Hi Cannon.

I'm just catching up on things here and at home a little at a time, and reading this thread I see I was more in touch than I'd remembered, I have been needlessly slow and now I wish I had not been.

I'm sorry to be commenting out of step, but it's hard to read about the shooting and its close links to your own students and not say how shocked and disturbed I am.

I feel for you with the sometimes long days. I now and again have copped a class and situation that has seemed endless. I so hate to check the time to see if it is nearly recess and find out it is only 9:15 am, and then much later on, that it is only 9:25 am ...

The movement of forum members is bound to be an issue for us all at times too. There is probably even more reason for people to drop out of a board like this than if it had a tv show theme or something - and equally more reason for them to stay!! I will be around a long time yet. It's really clear to me that coming online here helps me a lot to manage my weight, and that posting helps more than just reading! So expect to see me staying back in this thread now I'm here. :)

It's good that you are feeling in better shape than you'd expect just using scales. Do you use measurements as well?
 
I haven't really used measurements because I'm pretty poor with them. They're never the same twice :). I don't mind you commenting "out of step" and all those things still affect me. The class was a lot better last week. I'm hoping that this week I can keep their behavior up. I overslept today so the question becomes whether I work out two days in a row or can motivate myself to go in the evening. Just so I get it in and I know I will.
 
I have that exact same problem with measurements myself. I figure they're probably of interest but only if I do them so infrequently that the genuine change is relatively large and that minimizes the measurement error.:)

If you are managing to get some early morning sessions in, I take my hat off to you - getting up early to do anything energetic is a test I've failed so far. I bet you feel great afterwards though - I can imagine how energized an early morning session could leave you. And it certainly sounds like you need that energy!!:eek:
 
I got up today and exercised. Now I just have to do it Wednesday and Friday and get up early Thursday for a meeting at school. I ate such garbage this weekend and I'm less than I was on Friday. I have no idea how, but I'll take it. I know its stress related. Work is so rough this year. I have a bad class. The kids are testing me because I don't have the rep I had at my old school and I'm nervous because I don't have the rep with the administration I had at my old school. How bad was the eating? Friday - Four brownies. Saturday & Sunday - Six little cherry pies. Sunday - Halloween candy. This is total self-medicating with food. I'm better than this and I want to see 275 this week or at least 276.
 
Aww! Chin up Joe! You're exercising, and that will help you through it. I'm sorry about the brats. I dunno how you deal with them, but I guess just be cool and they'll respect you eventually. Actually I have no good advice to give right now. Hopefully Mal or Felici will....I have to clean my room for my parents' visit!
 
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