Camila's Comeback!

Hey lady, i know your feeling after subway - just how I felt after the pizza place yesterday...I genuinely looove pizza...but it wasn't that great - and I felt like - it was not worth it. i was sooo happy to make my own lunch today!!!!

VS shopping sounds awesome! It must have felt great. There's a reward! :D

You are so close to 150 - you can almost smell it :) You will get there soon! You are doing fab!
 
Great job, Camila! I have to say, that getting looser in my clothes and stepping down a size is an AWESOME reward for doing well in our plans!

I shopped @ VS for undies for my wife and 18 yo daughter at Christmas (at their request). I completely felt like a perv sifting through the undies bin with the ladies. Especially since most of the time I was holding up brightly colored rubber band undies with a "What the @#&%!" look on my face.
 
Justina: I need to start making my own lunches...haha. That might make this whole eating healthier thing a heck of a lot easier.

Cory: Thanks, Cory!

Don: Haha :) That is sweet and funny at the same time! You are brave and I am sure they appreciated it. Looser clothes are certainly an awesome reward. Makes it feel like this whole thing is worth it.

Sorry I did not get around later Sunday or yesterday. I blame work. Also, yesterday was the only day I could see bf until Friday night. Our schedules are very opposite so sometimes that happens!

Yesterday was interesting. Had juice in the AM and only ate one meal the entire day; dinner. It was not the healthiest, that's for sure, and I even had dessert. (We went out.)...but at the same time I did not go over my calories...stayed at right around 1200. So I feel a little guilty but not too bad. Plus the scale did not move this morning so I'm okay with that.

I also finally bought into the local food co-op we have here. I've been thinking about it and it is only $25/year and they have some great perks and lots of sales on fresh, locally grown organic foods. And it is only a few blocks from me! So that was pretty exciting. They even offer different classes and speakers throughout the year so I am looking forward to that.

Work is crazy. In my organization there are a lot of "bosses" and on Thursday I have 4 bosses above me flying in for an event that I'm pretty much putting together by myself (yes, on top of my other work responsibilities I must worry about cake and room decorations for 100+ people....grr.) So...I cannot wait until Friday.

I will be back tonight to check in to all of your journals. So sorry for the delay!

~Camila~
 
Well today was another crazy day. It will be like this through Friday. Lots of bosses in town, a big event, just craziness. I'm trying very hard to keep my "healthy lifestyle" on the same pedestal of importance as my job. It is definitely difficult, but I am pretty satisfied with how I'm doing. Definitely not overeating by any means. Still getting my exercise in and drinking my water.

The new membership I have at the local natural foods store is a great solution to my eating at work problem. Since I can't add more hours to the day to prepare tasty nutritious lunches/snacks...I did some investigating at the store today after work. Everyday, they prepare tons of healthy, pre-made options. I studied the ingredients which the readily supplied...everything possible is organic. I picked up some latin quinoa soup for dinner this evening...so delicious! Nice and spicy and so full of veggies. And it really filled me up. Additionally I got some Thai pasta salad for lunch at work tomorrow. I tasted a small sample...again, delicious! They really have everything from kale salad to egg salad to delicious cafe sandwiches. The best part is...so cheap! Literally, most stuff is between $2-4. That is cheaper than buying a lunch at work (which I never do...always smells great but is so unhealthy).

One more thing...

I have even more motivation now to get lots of this extra weight off! At the end of May my boyfriend and I are going on a little weekend getaway with some friends...and we plan on doing lots and lots of swimming. Yikes! If I could be down another 10 lbs by then I would be extremely pleased...

My body has already changed so much with just 10lbs gone. I picked up some more work clothes today after work. I erred on the side of caution and stuck mostly with mediums but they are definitely big on me. I might have to shrink some shirts a bit in the washer. The best part? I was not afraid to go into the dressing room to try stuff on.

Okay, enough rambling from me. Hope you are all doing great!

~Camila~
 
Good job finding a work/life balance, Camila! Maybe I'm just overly cautious but watch out for those made salads and such... I get beat by the sodium & sugars a LOT when I eat them.
 
Excellent choice on the pre prepared nutritious food!! Sounds yummy! I know what you mean about balancing work and diet...trust me, you can do it...it is so worth it! These same challenges will always be there, so the earlier you can find that balance, the better! You are doing great! Keep it up Camila!
Sarah
 
That health store sounds amazing - you are so lucky to have that around!! (Your job sounds positively stressful)
Well done for being conscious about your lifestyle - way to go!!
Your weekend is a really good motivation. We are going to the beach - & I am nowhere near my goal weight....like lightyears away - not sure how am i getting away with it. You are in way better shape than me. & you have almost 2 more months to go - You gonna look fab!!!
Good job girlie!
 
Don - That is a very valid point! The thing I love about this place is that they list every single ingredient and the nutrition content on the package so I know exactly what I am eating. I also trust them...they have a very solid rep in the area. But don't worry I am very aware of that stuff :)

Sarah - Thanks! You are so right. I keep having to focus on the fact that while it might be easy to grab a greasy meal from the cafe when it is really busy...but that meal won't do me any favors, that's for sure. It pays off in the end, for sure.

Justina - The place is so amazing and I do feel lucky that it is a few blocks away. I tried it out a few times before I became a member and now that I am a member the perks are even better. I just can't believe that I am only discovering them now after being here so long. Also keep in mind that I am reallllly short (almost 5'1") so 150s on me is a heck of a lot more than 150 on someone taller. I have to reach 132 before I am even considered not overweight in terms of BMI. I have a ways to go yet!

Yep...another crazy day. I am so ready for bed...ha! Thankfully the week is almost over. I hopped on the scale this afternoon upon returning from work...151! Woohoo!! Plus I feel like I am retaining a lot of water for some reason so hopefully it is even a bit lower. Lately the scale has been flashing 149 at me before settling a bit higher. I feel like that is always a good sign...or at least great motivation.

Got my workout in and now I think I need a bit of a break tonight. It is funny...ever since I've made an effort to workout, things like watching TV or sitting idly just are not as fun to me anymore. Last night I couldn't sit still so I started to rearrange my closet and deep clean the apartment, ha! I have to move all the time now! Also, I've really been noticing lately how fast I get full when I eat. It is like my stomach shrunk.

Saturday's weigh-in will be...interesting. Haha. My bf and I have to wake up in the middle of the night to drive his family two hours to the airport, then two hours back here. I might try to weigh in before we leave (that will be so weird).

Food today:
Breakfast: Juice (kale, celery, apple, lemon, carrot)
Lunch: Thai salad (completely organic!)
Dinner: Chicken noodle soup (200 cals, low sodium) and some crackers.
Dessert/treat: A handful of bittersweet chocolate chips.

Now a cup of tea. I am exhausted.
 
Great job with your food choices Camilla! Your on a roll. Just for a little extra motivation, maybe u could make a little motivational picture/poster and keep it in your wallet or put in on your fridge. I'm thinking a picture of you heavier that you dislike and one of someone with a tight bod in a bikini, or something like that. Then when your craving something bad, u can look at it and remind yourself of your goals and your future bathing suit plans! I'm going to take my own advice and do this and carry it in my wallet. I usually make my bad food choices when I'm out with friends or in social situations and everyone else is eating yummy crappy food. Gotta keep our goals in the fore front of our mind!

Keep up the great work girl!
 
I know exactly what you mean about sitting still. I enjoy it, but not a whole lot of it. It's actually really hard for me to skip exercising now because I get to restless and antsy.
 
OMG!! Your food is sooo good and clean!! Go you girl!!

You gonna have an awesome weigh in!!

PS/ How do you like this week organic-challenge? I am lovin' it :)
 
Cory - Isn't it crazy how that changes? Seriously. I actually only ever want to be still, like sitting and watching tv right before bed. Otherwise I feel like there is so much to be done!

Justina - Haha thank you! I am trying! It is seriously difficult sometimes but when I start reaching for the "bad" stuff I just tell myself that my bad choices will follow me to the weigh-in. It helps! There is nothing worse than regret, that is for sure.

So my crazy event is over. And...
:party:

So many great things came of it. Not only did the event go off without a hitch, I networked a lot and...I must have impressed someone because the big boss personally delivered notice of a random salary increase for me. I was not expecting that at all so it made a great day even better.

I was a little stressed about a meeting with the big boss tomorrow, but that puts my mind at ease. I've heard whisperings that they are considering me for a different 'higher' position. I've only received my promotion a few weeks ago so this is pretty crazy.

Essentially, all of the hard work has been worth it. I am amazed that amidst all of the craziness I have kept up with my nutrition and exercise and have even managed to get the scale down a bit more. I think I deserve to celebrate a little bit this weekend (not too much ;) ). Honestly, I am super tired but all I want to do is clean my apartment. That is one thing I have let slide over the last week...woops! I also really need to go grocery shopping. That is my plan tomorrow.

Got my workout in, drank my water, but I did have a skim latte this morning so I do not get the 'drink no calories' points for the challenge.

Hope you have all had a fantastic week so far. Friday is right around the corner!

~Camila~
 
Good job girlie! Well done! Excellent job at work!!
Just as Cory said everything seems to be going your way! Fantastic!
Have a lovely weekend!
 
Thanks you guys! Sorry I have not been around. My Internet has been all messed up so I can only post from my phone! We are looking at it later tonight so hopefully I get back up and running! Hope you have all had a great weekend!
 
Go Camila Go! You are making tons of great choices girl...love you committment to the challenge! Glad your big event came off without a hitch...amazing what focus can do for us! Someone told me once that if we work as hard on ourselves as we do on our job, we will be able to write our own ticket one day...I think it's true! So go for it Camila..you are on your way to writing your own ticket girl!! Keep up the great work!

Sarah
 
Sarah - So true! My focus I think is what helped me stay on track through that crazy week. I can't wait to write my own ticket :)

So my Internet got fixed late last night...finally! My weekend was a little weird. Was a grand total of 2 lbs down on Saturday at 151 so that was nice. The scale kept flicking from 147-149...frustrating and motivating all at once.

Getting down to the 140s is definitely an emotional battle for me. Not to get all soppy but I haven't Been there since a bad relationship a few yrs back. My attitude yesterday was really nonchalant...like getting there doesn't matter that much. But, taking a step back, I realize it matters a lot.

It's funny...I can point to 30 pounds of weight gain and each 15 lbs aligns with a failed relationship. 130-145 was my first boyfriend and 145-160 was the previous. Sounds pathetic, I'm sure, but I want to turn it around. I want to be better than that. I'm trying to rise above all of the negative and strange emotions I have right now. I just have to tell myself that I am not perfect. It helps.

This morning I was upset at myself. I hadn't replenished my fridge for juicing so I stopped and got an organic kombucha ginger tea. The stuff tastes vaguely reminiscent of vinegar but I gulped it down. It helped give me some perspective. As I sat there in my car wincing at every sip, I realized that my attitude was starting to change about this entire journey. I realized that my relationships didn't make me gain weight, that I made myself gain weight. The weight gain was my reaction to a negative situation.

Can I change my mind that radically to finally allow myself to experience a healthy, happy life? My determination to prove that I can had been renewed.

Happy Monday, everyone :)
 
Awesome post, honey! I've just read through most of your diary and we are about the same age but I have a lottttt to lose and you are so close to you're goal! You've done so well, especially with a busy job. Be proud of being in the 40's, you've earned it :)
 
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