Hey njoyable! Great to see you back! I will zoom over and check out your diary!
Tigs, i know what you mean. On an ongoing basis, there's no way I could go without chocolate - it is my favourite thing in the world. I just recognise that at the moment, its 250 cals per day that I can cut out and I really want to drop a few lbs before this big meeting in a few weeks. My friend and I have planned a shopping trip just before it to buy a new shirt or maybe a suit that I feel GREAT in and I'm so borderline between 14 and 16 at the moment...I would feel fantastic if I was wearing a size smaller. She has visions of persuading me into a pencil skirt or long sleeve woolen winter dress with a jacket (I'd LOVE to be able to wear one of those dresses - you know, the smooth knit ones with a little belt around your waist.) I guess at size 12-14 you can..but at 16 it feels like I'd look like a tree trunk on tree trunk legs! We'll see. This shopping trip will be my first real one since I got down into "normal" sizes that they carry in all of the shops in all of the styles...so I think my credit card might take a battering!!!!
I'm open to trying on whatever she throws in my direction and she has far better taste in clothes than me. I've bought some KILLER stilletto heels though which as long as there's no snow and ice, I think I'll wear for the meeting! It is with 5 men and 1 woman (the boss!!) LOL! So I have to ride a fine line between dressing so they all stare at me but not so much that she thinks that's why they are running around after me! Hahahaha.
I'm also bidding on a jumper that I've fallen in love with on ebay - its a UK size 12...!!!! I thought that if I manage to win it, it will be my goal piece of clothing for now. Its one of those pieces of clothign that fits your perception of "WHO" you want to look like when you lose weight - you know? This long haired slim athletic woman in a nice pair of dark jeans, leather boots and a grey expensive designer wool jumper (great brand, but no big logo).
So....got through DAY 2 of no chocolate. Now starting DAY 3!!! Now I'm gathering momentum with it, I'd feel like I was letting myself down by ruining my abstinance record! Another couple of days and I won't give it a second thought I reakon. Just got to find the energy to do some cycling in the evenings - been so busy lately that I literally crawl into bed at 9pm as I've been up since 5am and working like mad.
Back up to 183 at the moment PAH...BAH...DOUBLE BAH! I know its just daily fluctuations as my trousers are getting looser and a few weeks ago I would have been 183 on a good day and 185 etc...on a bad one. The winter makes it all so much more difficult. I really miss popping out for a quick 5km at 8pm at night. The only solution I guess is to be really strict with calories and jam in as much exercise at the weekend as possible.