ok! Good and bad yesterday!
4km run = good
Food = not SO good, but not so bad...
Food:
iggy:
brekkie - cheese on toast - 350 cals
4 cups of tea - 40
1/2 slice of brown pitta bread - 60 cals
salmon and prawn salad, no sauce, 1/2 slice of brown bread - 500 cals
3 tea spoons of my daughters icecream - 50 cals
1 bread stick - 20 cals
snack - small amount of left over pasta - 150 cals
Dinner - 1/2 naan bread (260 cals), 1/4 poppodom (13 cals), tandoori chicken (300 cals), chicken/lamb tikka pieces (100 cals) and salad (30 cals?) = approx 700
Total - 1870
Still below my daily maintenance amount and I DIDN'T eat any bombay potatos or aubergine bhaji or mango chutney or all of the naan bread or 1/2 of the tikka meat that came with the meal or the beers that everyone else was guzzling whilst they watched the world cup football. In fact, if I measure the evening by what I didn't eat, I think I did pretty darn well. Plus, I went to bed feeling stuffed and like I didn't want to eat all that again

(rather than oooh I wish I had been able to eat more of it), I wonder if my stomach isn't used to all the bready and spicy stuff - infact, I've not been eating THAT much meat lately.
The real willpower failure was stealing some of my daughter's ice cream and finishing off the last of her pasta dinner - I usually allow myself a nibble or two if she's left brocolli or carrots or other pretty low damage veg, but not her pasta! Nevermind!
When I weighed myself this morning, I was 190.4 so that's ok with me - first day I've had in the high 1000s cals for quite a while so I don't think it will set me back for Tuesday's weigh in as long as I keep on the straight and narrow today and Monday.
My Clothes Dilemma:
I need to sort out my wardrobe situation! I can no longer wear most of my UK 18 trousers to work - unless I stop working in the financial services industry and run away to the CIRCUS!!!! They are like clown pants! W00T!!
Plus, I have some stuff in storage at my mum and dad's which I used to wear when I lost weight in 2008 and got down to 195...so they shoudl fit me again...and therefore I need to clear space to bring it all back! It feels very strange though, clearing out some of my favourite "reliable" items. Logically I KNOW that I didn't look that good in this size 20 shirt (and heck I look really stupid in it now as its way too big!!), but I looked the best that I could have looked at that weight in it...if that makes sense? And getting rid of it feels like a real commitment to NEVER being that weight again....what if I give it away to charity and then need it in the future?!?!? Logically I know I don't ever want to get to that point so I should just bite the bullet and CHUCK IT OUT!! In fact the fright of knowing I had no larger clothes than size 18 was what made me go EEK at Xmas when I went up to 210lbs becuase I didn't have anything else to wear and refused to go and buy bigger clothes again.
So...if I "reset" that level to now...and then lose more weight, I'll go EEK if I start not fitting into the clothes at size 16...surely?!! Still feels weird loosing some of the old reliables though!
I'm thinking of putting some of my work suits on ebay as a couple are only 6 months old or so and really nice - one double breasted which I've worn ONCE and decided that it really was not flattering on me...dunno why on earth I bought it...wasn't cheap!
And...its only a month and a bit until the Next sale (hahah big event in the UK) - for some odd reason a few years ago I got added to their VIP list so I get a VIP sale slot online 3-4 days before the actual sale starts and everything is half price, so twice a year at Xmas and in July, I stock up on work clothes and jeans (and haven't done so before, but...maybe...even dresses this year!!), and I want to be doing this in size 16 and 14 this year! Previously I've bought work suits in size 18 with a pair of additional trousers in 16 which is why I now have a load of trousers to "move into" whilst the jackets still look ok...so I plan to do the same with size 16 and 14 to last me a while.
I think its going to be AGES until I get from a 14 to a 12 given my hips and bust shape - will probably have to loose seriously substantial poundage for this to happen - I'm guessing size 16 now until maybe 180-175, size 14 in the 170s and 160s, size 12 at 160-150s?
Plus, and I am really glad about this one, going to have to buy some new lingerie!! I have shrunk! W00t! And before any guys go, aww nooooo you can never have enough of a good thing....believe me guys, YOU CAN. Running = self-inflicted black eyes?!? Not good!! hehehe. I think I've gone down a cup size on top so going to have to swallow the cost and go spending - can't believe a good bra costs £25 now days. Oh well, all worth it!
The Canoe...
I'm meant to be bidding on a new canoe on ebay - the auction ends today and i've just been lurking so far...although I'm dubious as someone with (0) feedback has been bidding and I just have a feelign that its the seller trying to push the price up with another account. However, i have set a maximum that I'm willing to pay so I should just be willing to bid up to that and if I win, I win, if I don't then I don't. In reality, if someone turned around and offered to sell me THAT canoe for THAT price I'd say yes so what does it matter it they are shrill bidding it up if I get it for that? Just FEELS a bit wrong. I want it though!! A good 2+1 seater but inflatable yet tough so it will fit in the car boot and we can go off to different canals/lakes and paddle around.