BmOhearn's diary

I woke up late today, so i think i'll move all my foods down a meal. So i'm about to eat my orange now. I havent exercised yet. But thats cuz i'm trying to wake up a bit. Not much else is new. i have a bunch of homework to do today though.And exercise today. (of course)
 
i ate 1/4 of my orange. Then i realized i wasnt in the mood for it, so i ate my apple instead. So a total of 70.5 calories today so far.

i have a problem with eating too much. So i found advice online. i will drink a bottle of water before my meal, and a sip of water between each bite. that way i'll fill up faster.

i'm going to play a game before i do some exercise. 1st exercise of the day = 15 minutes on the nordic track ski thingy thingy.
 
i had a mini lunch.
on a mini roll i had a slice of bologna, and 1 stalk of celery with ranch dressing on it.

123 + 59.5 + 35 + 6 = 223.5 + 70.5 (cals from ealier)= 294 calories.

pretty good. i dont know what i am going to snack on next. (I'm trying to drink water, so i wont want to snack as much) Ummm..yep. no clue. maybe some more celery.

i realized bologna isnt really that good of a food to eat. So maybe i'll have tuna in my mini sandwiches from now on.

I asked Dan's mom to buy wheat bread so i can start having sandwiches.

Right now i want to keep myself busy, so i dont want to snack.
1. English Homework
2. Exercise (25 bench lifting thing, sit-ups, 15 minutes on the nordic track)
3. Shower
4. Lowe's to look for a storage bin
5. Stop and shop to buy Mac and Cheese

So that should do. (i'm doing good so far today! yay for me!)
 
i've only done part of my exercise.

nordic track- 15 mins= 135.5 cals burned. i'm dripping sweat.
I did 25 lifts on the weight bench

i still havent done any sit ups. I have to calm down for a bit first. i really am dripping sweat. good thing i am taking a shower soon!

i'll have to do another 15 minutes later tonight. After dinner or something.

i definately need to calm down!
 
are you doing that mini meal thing ... where you eat like about 6 meals a day and theyre all really tiny?
if you are could you poss explain it (not in great detail just skim over it) .. im really curious about it :)
hope the rest of your exercise et al went swimmingly
 
sophie: i'm not really truely following any specific diet. But today i decided to try it out. I just try to make myself really small meals (i.e- 1/2 grilled cheese, apple for breakfast, sandwiches on dinner rolls, and celery stalks) that make me content. I get munchy a lot throughout the day. So when i get munchy.. i can just make another meal thing. I consider them more of snacks. But i try to have a normal size meal at dinner. I drink at least 4 water bottles a day. (and before a meal that i think i might over-indulge i drink a bottle of water so i will be partially filled up) Ummm...it has seemed to work so far. I've only eaten a total of 495 calories. and i've had an apple, celery, a mini bologna sandwich on a dinner roll, 1/2 a grilled cheese sandwich , and an orange. i have a problem eating things that are healthy for me. I have to scavenge around the house for the few things. I have very unhealthy bread, and well... everything else too. (i dont buy my own food)

If you have any questions feel free to ask. what do you do?
 
i just had a half of a grilled cheese sandwich. It was delicious. And just the thing i wanted. unfortunately the bread was 110/slice, and the cheese was 90/slice. i didnt know what was for dinner. So i figured i should keep the cals low. Thats a total of 494 for the day now. But i worked off 135.5 already. 358.5 calories that havent been burned off yet. Of course that doesnt include the calories you burn just by living, showering/etc. My meal plan has definately been working for me. I've been allowing myself to pretty much just snack. Everything has been really small, so when i get munchy (you all know i have a problem with the munchies) i can have more food w/o worrying about calorie intakes. YEY. i might have actually found something that works for me. I dont have a scale to do weigh-ins. I will weight myself when i go somewhere that has one. Dinner is probably in about an hour or so. Hope its something good. But if not.. i have a back up plan- another grilled cheese. But i might have a whole sandwich. 400 calories (with all that bad crap) Still only a 900 calorie total for the day. So i'm set.
 
i was forced to eat bad for dinner. i had a meatball sub. (small, probably the equivilent to a 6in sub at Subway. with 5 meatballs. i'm sick to my stomach now. And i'm miserable now. I should exercise a bunch. But its the first day of TOM and i dont have the energy. UGH. Well, i dont think i went over my limit today because i did so well in the beginning of the day. But i am seriously bloated and mad b/c i was forced to eat it. i dont even know why. Tomorrow i'll be with my mom. YEY mommy! haha.
 
494 calories... plus the 910 calories for my forced upon supper. so a total of 1404 calories. But i worked off 135.5, so thats 1268.5 calories for the day that has not been worked off. I guess its still good. I have a headache and i'm all achy. No more exercise unless i feel better later. I drank all 4 water bottles today. So i guess over-all i still did pretty good. i had a little from each food group. yay for me. i hope i stop feeling so bloated- TOM could be doing that though. BLAH. I hate it.
 
Ok.. last month i lost a bunch of weight, but then i gained 10lbs back. So my goal weight for the end of February is 189. Just because i believe i can lose it again.
 
i haven't spoken with my father for 2 weeks. And i finally emailed him today. i missed my family. I'm not ready to go back there. But i didnt want to be on a non-speaking term. So i emailed him. even though he changed the locks on me so that i couldnt go in. Sorry, thats not about dieting.

But it did make me feel a bit better. i miss my lil sis though. She is only 3 years old, but she's helped me through a lot of hard times. just because i love her, and i know she looks up to me, and i have to do the right things.

i uploaded a pic of her. thats her. my cute loveable baby sis. the only person i would give my life for.
 
OOOH.. i like sharing pictures.

Here is a pic of Me..Dan...My dog at my father's house(Charlie)... and another pic of Gillian (pronounced the same as Jillian.) I'm not sure what order they will come up, so you can figure it out i'm sure. lol.
 
now.. which pics do you think i should use for my icon, and for my profile pic. I dont want people to think gilli is my daughter.. she's my little sister. haha. But i love her all the same. What pics do you think i should use?
 
your little sis is very cute :]
well i have the same probs as you with not buying my own food due to living with the parentals still but i tend to supervise mums shopping at the weekend so she doesnt go crazy with the cakes and all that jazz.
i think your little snacks throughout the day idea is really good as theres never really that much scope to get binging hungry if you get me.
due to being at school 9 hours each day i find it quite easy to control what i eat as i just make what i think i should eat the next day in the evening (after my dinner so im not hungry and put loads in.)
and then i have a snack like a piece of fruit or sumthing when i get in and then i train and then i tend to have high carb evening meals or high protein depending on the intensity of my training.
its worked so far.. well last week .. but this week i think i mightnt have lost - although i dont thin ki will have gined either (a one day splurge kind of set me back)
anyway keep up the good work hun!
 
Stopping yourself from getting crazy hungry sounds like a great move!

I love the pictures. Your sister and boyfriend are very cute - and you look gorgeous!! No kidding. I hadn't realized what a pretty girl I have been talking to all this time.

I can relate to how you feel about your little sister. My brother was adopted as a baby, when I was 17. I didn't live at home for that much longer after that, but he was always very special to me just the same.

Anyway, I hope you have a good day - Sunday (?) - should be a good day! :)
 
Thank you for everyone who left me comments. I decided to email my father b/c we weren't talking, and that killed me. But you know.. i can tell right now that nothing will get resolved. It is a terrible feeling. But i want to be strong. So i'm going to grow up and lose weight so i feel confident, and do what i want to. I'm scared that i won't talk to my sister. I really am. I'm mad that i don't have a job yet! I'm going to look again tomorrow.

Food today:

breakfast- grilled cheese (400 cal) and a few bites (4) of fettachini alfredo.
Lunch- Nothing
Dinner-(very early dinner)- 6 steak tips, a spoonful of home-fries, and 5 pieces of brocolli.

I'm not sure how many calories that is. But its not all that bad i dont think. I'm going to eat much else. i'm upset about my dad being so dumb...

I am totally determined to lose all the weight. I dont want to let anyone or anything get me down, and stop me from feeling as best as i can.

Sophie335 - youre plan sounds like it would work. And all the things my bf's parents buy.. could make ANYONE gain weight. I dont shop with my boyfriend's mother... she's nice, but i dont think i'd feel comfy spending time with just her and me.

felici- I'm not gorgeous! at all. I do think Dan is cute though. haha. thankyou for the complement though.

m2m- again, thank you for the complement. you're very generous. haha.

I have a lot of work to do. i have to clean, and do homework,and exercise. Maybe its not A LOT, but i'm so out of energy... it sure feels like it.
 
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