BikiniBound's Diary

[bikinibound]

Wow! When I drove into the office 3hrs ago, it was sunny and hot outside. So I cracked my windows a bit to keep the car from becoming blazing hot inside. Just a few minutes ago I noticed it was dark and raining like crazy--plus thundering and lightning. Then a little light bulb went off--"your car windows are down!!" So I ran out to my car, jumped inside, rolled the windows up, then leaped back out and ran back into the office. It is only about 20-25ft from the door to my car, and yet I am soaked.

 

[RadiantPebble]

But you got a quick sprint in

 

[Bellaryna]

How far is the Amish area to your house? That's nice that you and Bellaryna were able to meet. Were you each how the other expected?!

For me it is only about 45 minutes.
Kimberly far exceeded my expectations! Pretty, Funny and a World traveler too!

 

[Bellaryna]

Dawn--Sorry you couldn't sleep. I'd have thought all that food and walking would've worn you out. I know I didn't have any trouble hitting the hay last night. Funny you were up 2lbs, b/c I was too..lol

I'm pretty sure that it was the meds I was taking for my shoulder. I ended up being up for nearly 23 hours before I could fall asleep. And the same thing nearly happened the next night as well.

 

[bikinibound]

But you got a quick sprint in

And sadly that's about the only exercise I got today.

Kimberly far exceeded my expectations! Pretty, Funny and a World traveler too!

Yes, and I paid Dawn $50 to say that instead of what she REALLY thought... I'm gonna have to fork over double that to Margaret since the dollar is so weak..lmao!! hehe Thanks honey.

Sorry you had such a rough time sleeping--and when you needed it most! You must be dead on your feet, poor thing!

 

[bikinibound]

6/2—30 min bike, 10.45 miles, weight: 219, calories: 1,507
6/3—None, weight: 218.5, calories: 1,727
6/4—3hrs walking, weight: 217, calories: 3,237
6/5—30 min bike, 10.24 miles, weight: 219, calories: 2,049
6/6—35 min circuit training, weight: 218
6/7—28 min walk/run, 2 miles, weight: ??, calories: 3,330
6/8—None, weight: 221.5, calories: 2,114
Total: 5hrs 3min, 20.69 miles biked

Not a very good week. I need to do better. My average calories this week were about 2450. I don't know what the hell is wrong with me. I want to be thinner for my trip, and yet I can't stop eating. I have no self control. While I'm about to eat I tell myself I shouldn't, and remind myself of the trip. Yet I eat it anyway.

 

[SoSel]

About this trip and the little extra weight:
Are you a nervous eater? I am. Are you a little stressed and prone to hold onto some poundage? A lot of people are.
Don't let a few lbs keep you from having an awesome time. Go into this, no regrets, smile, and take a billion pictures.
I mean, what would you tell anyone else to do?
Relax and see if that doesn't help you more than worrying over the scale.


Oh yeah, and good job on all the biking!

 

[sammyboy24]

Hey Kimberly,

I've been MIA for a couple/few days... Kind of unlike me. Plus my computer is having weird issues with this forum (wide screen posts, red x's, etc.) so rather than being a joy to get on here and post it's been a little aggrivating lately

That was so awesome that you stepped up and were a MOH for someone who really needed one, and you got to re-use your bridesmaid dress. Everytime I see or hear about bridesmaid dresses it makes me think of that movie "27 Dresses"...

Sorry the scale isn't being too great. I'm scared to get on because of what I'm thinking it will say. I gotta get back to the gym for a couple days and then weigh in. Doing it now would probably just make me cry, LOL...

Happy to hear you extended your trip to England. I would have to do the same. My friend said when she went to Europe a few years back she pigged out on all the great food but actually lost weight because she was walking everywhere... She said she had a huge chocolate bar every single day too... Enjoy your trip, at whatever weight. You've got a hubby who loves you and you'll be in one of the most beautiful, fun places in the world I imagine So live it up girly! And please think of me when your drinking your most delicious pint

Take Care,
Sam

 

[yarmiah]

We all get in our ruts. The trick is to not stay in them. Reach deep down inside and focus on your goal related to your trip. Lots of little steps, sister!

 

[bmohearn]

I'm sorry that you are having a bad week. I hope it is better next week. Try portioning everything out before you start your day. Even a few treats, that way you don't feel obligated to finish icecream or chips or something.

 

[bikinibound]

About this trip and the little extra weight:
Are you a nervous eater? I am. Are you a little stressed and prone to hold onto some poundage? A lot of people are.
Don't let a few lbs keep you from having an awesome time. Go into this, no regrets, smile, and take a billion pictures.
I mean, what would you tell anyone else to do?
Relax and see if that doesn't help you more than worrying over the scale.


Oh yeah, and good job on all the biking!

Nope, not a nervous eater. In fact, when I'm nervous I tend to eat less b/c my stomach gets in knots..lol. I'm not nervous at all atm, maybe I should be..lmao! I'm just hungry and have an "oh fuck it" attitude. Not a very good one.

What would I tell anyone else to do? I'd tell them to get their ass in gear, and if they don't, it means they really don't want to lose the weight that badly. So what is that saying about me? Nothing good, that's for sure.

 

[bikinibound]

I've been MIA for a couple/few days... Kind of unlike me. Plus my computer is having weird issues with this forum (wide screen posts, red x's, etc.) so rather than being a joy to get on here and post it's been a little aggrivating lately

Sorry the scale isn't being too great. I'm scared to get on because of what I'm thinking it will say. I gotta get back to the gym for a couple days and then weigh in. Doing it now would probably just make me cry, LOL...

Happy to hear you extended your trip to England. I would have to do the same. My friend said when she went to Europe a few years back she pigged out on all the great food but actually lost weight because she was walking everywhere... She said she had a huge chocolate bar every single day too... Enjoy your trip, at whatever weight. You've got a hubby who loves you and you'll be in one of the most beautiful, fun places in the world I imagine So live it up girly! And please think of me when your drinking your most delicious pint

I was having the same issues with this forum. It finally stopped, but I know what you mean about being aggravating.

Weight was back under 220 today--219.5. That made me feel a lot better. Now getting to 216.5 or less in the next week doesn't seem so hard.

I am not too worried about gaining while in the UK for two reasons: 1. the same one you mentioned about your friend walking everywhere. I suspect we'll walk at least 5 miles per day, so I'll definitely be active. 2. the $ is so weak atm that it will make food expensive. Therefore, I highly doubt I'll be pigging out. I might be eating food that isn't really low-cal, but as I won't be eating huge portions of it, my calories should be decent. I might even get lucky and lose a bit while I'm gone. I got down to my thinnest adult weight the last time I was in England. I was 165 when I got home. While I know there's no way i'm gonna drop 50lbs in 2 weeks (oh wouldn't that be awesome?? ), it would be really cool if I hit a few new lows while I'm there (although I doubt I'll be weighing myself since Scalentino doesn't have a passport.. ).

 

[bikinibound]

We all get in our ruts. The trick is to not stay in them. Reach deep down inside and focus on your goal related to your trip. Lots of little steps, sister!

You are so right. I am trying really hard to eat well and I WILL get to the gym and work it later on.

Brandy--My biggest problem seems to be ravishing hunger in the evenings and an attitude that doesn't give a shit if I go way over my calories..lol

 

[Alta818]

You are so right. I am trying really hard to eat well and I WILL get to the gym and work it later on.

Brandy--My biggest problem seems to be ravishing hunger in the evenings and an attitude that doesn't give a shit if I go way over my calories..lol

Hey HEY hey!!!! HOW are YOU BEAUTIFUL!!! ....

I know EXACTLY what you mean ....about SCREWING things up AT night......and WHAT I don't understand is how SOMETIMES I care SOOO much and SOMETIMES...the DEVIL gets ME!!! WHyyyyy CAN"T I just be CONSISTENT and REMEMBER that the SAME food will be AVAILABLE later!!!

 

[RadiantPebble]

Have you tried the whole grabbing a handful of fruit or nuts when you are hungry/wanting to eat instead of just telling yourself not to? That way, you get less cals, good stuff in your body, and if you're still hungry, then you can still grab something else if need be.

 

[lusciouslemon]

I hear you on the "oh fuck it" attitude. I'm definitely in that boat lately. We've gotta kick it sooner or later. I hoping that I kick it today...so far so good!

Scalentino doesn't deserve to go to England because he's such a poop. I killed myself laughing at the passport remark!

 

[Blancita]

I know how ya feel Kimberley! After a full blown year of dieting, 2 years for me, it gets so tiresome and your just like "fuck it". Its hard to keep that motivation going. And its hard to dispel those urges to eat, especially when you're truly hungry. I have no words of wisdom for you unfortunately. Maybe that time of month coming up? I'm hopeful that you will get back into the swing of things after you return from your trip. Maybe you just need a bit of a maintenance break right now. No one over there will notice whether you lost 10 lbs before going. Can't wait to hear about all the new lows while away! Maybe you can hop on Margaret's scale to see! Its a pity poor Scalentino is not invited. But then again, he's been a naughty little jerk lately anyway.

 

[cinderelly]

I don't know what the hell is wrong with me. I want to be thinner for my trip, and yet I can't stop eating. I have no self control. While I'm about to eat I tell myself I shouldn't, and remind myself of the trip. Yet I eat it anyway.

Your not the only one honey, lol!That seems to be all I wanna do lately , well at least for the last two days...My saturday was really good in comparisson to my usual sats but sun and mon man , oh man...Ive been thinking the same thing what the hell is wrong with me...

I second what Claudia said

 

[Steve]

First, good morning. Glad to hear you dropped below 220 again.

Second, when I diet, I'm pretty much always hungry. That's part of dieting. I like to be tough and say things like "It's weakness leaving the body" of "It let's me know I'm doing the right things." But that's not enough to create consistency. The only things I've found to really work* for me to curb my appetite a bit is eating a lot of calorically-sparse foods such as veggies and fruits. I ALWAYS have a ton of cold fruit and veggies in the fridge. I buy in bulk, actually, when I diet. The fruit I chop up and make a fruit salad... right now I have a huge bowl with diced up watermelon, kiwi, grapes, blueberries and strawberries. I also have a huge thing of spinach and another of celery. If I'm hungry, that's what I eat. It's tempting to shoot for some shit b/c I get hungry, but I find that this desire subsides when after I eat a healthy portion of fruit or veggies.

Third, why do you think you have the "whatever" attitude? Why do you not care about going way over your calories? How much time do you spend thinking about your thoughts?

 

[Blancita]

The fruit salad is an EXCELLENT idea! I need to make one of those as I find fruit that's all cut up and ready to eat (rather than a pear or apple that's still in its "fruit shape") is such a yummy and very satisfyingly filling treat. Or rather not filling but all that natural sugar really seems to immediately address the hunger. Often fruit is a turn off because it requires preparation, like cleaning and cutting up or cutting off stems and things when that bag of chips is so much easier to grab HAHA. So with a fruit salad you're ready to go with your fruit for at least 2 days. By then it should be GONE. OK, now I need to get a bunch of fruit and follow my own (or rather Steve's) advice.