BikiniBound's Diary

Paul--shake it baby, shake it!!--in a manly way, of course!:jump:
Griff--I'm up for some celebratory frolicking tonight...lmbo:jump: :rotflmao:
Sara (fatsuitgoing?)--Hmm...the bikini (my old one) I was planning on getting into, I discovered the other day that the underwire in the bra is shot---damn, why does that always happen? I hate underwire for the sole reason that it always gives me trouble. I loved that bikini! :mad: So I guess I will have to buy a new one. I do have a very sexy teddy that I am looking forward to getting into again...lol...perhaps I should take a pic of that and post it. It is black and sheer.:jump: :jump:
Jenna--Thanks for the congrats--you'll be hitting 40lbs soon with your awesome workouts.
Selena--My secret is no excuses. I get my ass out there 6-7days per week and exercise hard--until I'm sweating my ass off. And eating 5-6small meals per day with around 1500-1700calories. Read my diary--I've been logging my eating and exercise. I don't cheat--or if I do, it's a very small amount.

This morning when I went for my walk, I had to really remember that no excuses motto--and my sig below. It was incredibly humid--100% as it was drizzling out most of the time. I thought about just going 3 miles instead of 4, but did the 4. Then after almost 2, I wanted to quit with the IT b/c I was so damn sweaty and tired. I heard myself saying, "I just can't do it." Then I remembered my sig--if I think I can't do it, I can't. But I realized I was just making excuses to quit. So I powered on and did the IT, even though I felt like taking it :jump: easy. I dont know what's gotten into me--I've never had this much will-power and determination before in my life. I think I'm having a mid-life crisis!:rotflmao: :rotflmao: :rotflmao:
 
Congrats on hitting the 40lb mark!!By the way it is rediculously hott here
as well 2 days with highs around 100-102 humidity 110 it literally makes ya sick to be out in it.Have a gr8 weekend Tammy
 
:cry: well damn... I was one of the first to post a reply to congratulate you with the 40lbs loss.... damn site for crashing like hell today... hahaaa But honestly, congrats to you, honey! :hug2: Love yas....

-Sheryl
 
Hello,Your diary looks liek a happening place to be lot's of fun,I want
frolick,I miss frolickinh lol.Congradulations on losing 40 pounds that is
what I need to lose to be at my happy weight again.I need to make more
trips to the gym and less trips to burger king.Hope to hear from ya.
 
Exercise for the week:
8/6--30min of circuit training, 2 mile walk in 30min with IT
8/7--4mile walk in 60min with IT in humid as hell heat
8/8--30min of circuit training
8/9--4mile walk in 60min. and 100% humidity (begging for sympathy again)

Food for today:
meal#1--2eggs, 3 sausage links
meal#2--1 tbsp organic peanut butter, 1oz cheddar cheese
meal#3--grilled chicken salad, blueberry muffin
meal#4--2slices of roast beef, corn
meal#5--low carb protein shake
meal#6--fresh strawberries and cottage cheese
 
bikinibound said:
Exercise for the week:
8/6--30min of circuit training, 2 mile walk in 30min with IT
8/7--4mile walk in 60min with IT in humid as hell heat
8/8--30min of circuit training
8/9--4mile walk in 60min. and 100% humidity (begging for sympathy again)

Food for today:
meal#1--2eggs, 3 sausage links
meal#2--1 tbsp organic peanut butter, 1oz cheddar cheese
meal#3--grilled chicken salad, blueberry muffin
meal#4--2slices of roast beef, corn
meal#5--low carb protein shake
meal#6--fresh strawberries and cottage cheese
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You can have my sympathy... I would have had my ass right in front of the A/C .... damn humidity screws with my asthma... not breathing = no fun:rotflmao:

You're food as usual looks yummy... I havn't had a muffin ins o long ... I gotta make some home made whole wheat/grain ones... mmmmMmmm I want banana nut muffins now... I'mg onna have to work on makign a recipe for some:) Damn i get cravings everywhere I go around here.

Lots of Love Girlie:hug2: :hug2:

P.S... I totally vote for dying your hair:)
 
Boam46 said:
You can have my sympathy... I would have had my ass right in front of the A/C .... damn humidity screws with my asthma... not breathing = no fun:rotflmao:

You're food as usual looks yummy... I havn't had a muffin ins o long ... I gotta make some home made whole wheat/grain ones... mmmmMmmm I want banana nut muffins now... I'mg onna have to work on makign a recipe for some:) Damn i get cravings everywhere I go around here.

Lots of Love Girlie:hug2: :hug2:

P.S... I totally vote for dying your hair:)
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No, not breathing is no fun...lol Well, the blueberry muffin was kind of a no-no. I had lunch with my gran after driving her to the podiatrist. The muffin came with my salad--and it was too yumming looking to pass up--i love muffins..lmbo (get your minds out of the gutter!).

And I'm totally losing my nerve about dying my hair!! I'm not thrilled with the current color, but I'm afraid of making worse. I mean, I've dyed it black before, and I think it looks good. Just not sure how I'd like it with current hairstyle. Ok, I'll stop talking about my hair b/c I know no one gives a sh*t..lmbo:rotflmao:
 
Ok. I'm totally in a foul-ass mood today.:mad: Here comes a big rant--brace yourselves!

I spent 4 hot sweaty hours cleaning a house. I used to do some house cleaning back in the day, and this couple that I cleaned for quite some time recently asked me to start up again every 2-3wks. As I can always use the money, I've agreed. So I got there, (and I hate cleaning anyway, so I was already in a fairly foul mood). The wife knows my H b/c he sometimes helped me and sometimes cleaned on his own when I was busy, so she asked how things were since I haven't seen her in about a year or more. And asked about my H of course, said I must be looking forward to him coming back, to which I replied, "Yeah, I guess." My enthusiasm is quite astonishing. So of course she wanted to know everything. We didn't just clean for them, they would invite us over for dinners, and they live on a lake so they take us out on their boat sometimes. So she knows us fairly well. I spilled my guts, and she began "shrinking" the whole situation. She is happy that I'm losing weight and getting my shit together, etc. But she shrinked me until I felt shrinkwrapped..lol And now I'm in a worse mood, and feeling down on myself even though I don't know why I should be. She thinks that my H will get it together and there will be no divorce. In fact, we now have a bet on it! I can't believe I bet on my marriage. If we don't file for divorce within 6 months, I have to clean her house for free. That alone is enough to make me get divorced--she underestimated how much i hate cleaning!!!:rotflmao: Anyway, I asked her what made her think H would get it together. Nothing in the last 10yrs makes me think so. She said b/c I will make him--that he will do anything to stay married to me. Well, I think even if he wants to, he may be incapable of giving me what I need. And besides, I don't want to have to kick him in the ass everytime he needs to do something. Hell, we would never even have gotten married if I hadn't told him that I was leaving him unless we did. And I waited 5yrs to tell him that. I don't want to be his mother. I feel like he is a teenager who needs a kick in the ass in order to get anything done. It's not that he's lazy--if there is work to be done--he does it and works hard and doesn't complain. It's taking inititive that he lacks. If someone offered him a great job, he'd take it--but he has a very hard time going out and seeking one. Then there is more crap but I will spare you all.:rotflmao: :rotflmao:

I have a hard enough time with those things myself--so two of us doing it is just a recipe for disaster. Anyway, she said he will surprise me. We'll see....

So after cleaning I went to my gym and worked out--even though I was already tired and sweaty. So when I got home I was tired, hot, hungry and crabby. Usually my mom would have dinner ready--but tonight she only made enough for her and dad. Thanks...lol Yes, I am spoiled. I was sooo not in the mood to cook. So I had a frozen dinner and a bowl of cereal. Carb overload--but oh well. I just don't give a crap today. :rotflmao: :rotflmao:

There. My rant is over. You'd think George was geering up for a visit!:rotflmao:
 
Well Kimberly , after a rant like that I think I can only do one thing for you
:hug2: :hug2: :hug2: :hug2:
:hug2: :hug2: :hug2: :hug2:
and shake them pom poms atcha without making my pants fall off! :eek: *L*
Go relax and give yourself a breather . It sounds like you certainly deserve it after the day you've had !
 
Ah, honey. I know a lot about that. I hate cleaning and I have a mother-in-law who thinks the world of my H [baby of the family]. I mean, she knows that things are bad, but she's constantly bribing me to stay with him. It's hard to explain how she does it, but she does. The implication is always there. Even my H has told me that if I hadn't told him [about a year ago] that I wanted a divorce, his Dad would have bought me the Camaro I've been lusting after. Insane. It's nice to think that they find me a great match for such a difficult man, but I'm not out there to clean up after anyone but my kids. The bigger they are, the bigger the messes.

So... *hugs*
 
MidGaGuy said:
Well Kimberly , after a rant like that I think I can only do one thing for you
:hug2: :hug2: :hug2: :hug2:
:hug2:
and shake them pom poms atcha without making my pants fall off! :eek: *L*
Go relax and give yourself a breather . It sounds like you certainly deserve it after the day you've had !
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Ha! Shake it baby! I wanna see those pants slide off--and so does Sheryl! She'll give you a buck if they do!:jump:

Thanks for the hugs. I need all I can get! You are such a sweety, Paul. This woman you're going out with next week is a lucky woman.:) :hug2:
 
Awww honey.... I'm sorry that you're in a pissy mood. I think it's the weather because earlier I was in such a pissed off mood that I went next door to tell the ranting hillybilly broad sitting on her porch to shut the fuck up before I shove her ottoman up her country loving ass. (All she does is bitch.. bitch.. bitch from sun up to sun down at the top of her lungs, mind you) Today was just one of those days where it became too much. And no, I'm not PMSing.. LOL But anywho.... whatever happens betw/ you and the H happens. You're a big girl and you can handle it... just whatever you do, don't end up being miserable. It's not worth it. Love yas, girl..

-Sheryl
 
bikinibound said:
There. My rant is over. You'd think George was geering up for a visit!:rotflmao:
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You're rant wasn't too bad... it was bareable LOL j/p!! I agree with Sheryl... whatever you choose don't let it be a choice that will leave you miserable! You deserve soo muc more than misery:hug2:

MsGhettoBooty said:
Awww honey.... I'm sorry that you're in a pissy mood. I think it's the weather because earlier I was in such a pissed off mood that I went next door to tell the ranting hillybilly broad sitting on her porch to shut the fuck up before I shove her ottoman up her country loving ass. (All she does is bitch.. bitch.. bitch from sun up to sun down at the top of her lungs, mind you) Today was just one of those days where it became too much.

Did she ever shut up? Is she bitching to someone orjust to herself... if its just toherself I can see how that can be comical on some days... But overall would totally draw me over the deep end!
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There must be something in the air tonight because I am about to go off the deep end on anyone who may cross me!!! I am just feeling insane (can you feel that:confused: ) Out of control emotionally I guess would be the best way to say it.



Lots of love to ya girl! You'll figure it out:)
 
MsGhettoBooty said:
Awww honey.... I'm sorry that you're in a pissy mood. I think it's the weather because earlier I was in such a pissed off mood that I went next door to tell the ranting hillybilly broad sitting on her porch to shut the fuck up before I shove her ottoman up her country loving ass. (All she does is bitch.. bitch.. bitch from sun up to sun down at the top of her lungs, mind you) Today was just one of those days where it became too much. And no, I'm not PMSing.. LOL But anywho.... whatever happens betw/ you and the H happens. You're a big girl and you can handle it... just whatever you do, don't end up being miserable. It's not worth it. Love yas, girl..

-Sheryl
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So do you have a make kimberly snort quota each day? I swear...:rotflmao: :rotflmao: I cannot believe you said that to that woman!! You say the things I think--but don't dare say. I love you for that. You are one ballsy woman! lmbo

Well, my whole problem is that I don't want to be miserable. So I don't know what to do. I feel like if I divorce him, I'll be making the worst mistake of my life. And if I don't divorce him, I'll be making the worst mistake of my life. So basically, I'm totally facked. lol I'm giving him a couple of months to get working at things. And after 2 months, if I don't feel like any progress has been made, it's over. I refuse to turn 40 and have things be the same as they are now. Because if you think you two are crabby ass biotches today--it won't be anything compared to what I'll be!!:rotflmao: :rotflmao:
 
Kimberly- So sorry to hear that you are having a bad day. :hug2: :hug2: I speak from experience when I say I truely know what you are going through regarding your H. I know that I was miserable especially at the end. We were going to counseling but there were times that I ended up going by myself since she would come up with some excuse to not go. I felt like I was the only one working on the marriage. I finally decided to get a Half-My-Stuff-Ectomy when I found out for certain that she was having waaaay more sex than I was!

I hope things become crystal clear for you one way or the other soon.

Griff
 
bikinibound said:
Well, my whole problem is that I don't want to be miserable. So I don't know what to do. I feel like if I divorce him, I'll be making the worst mistake of my life. And if I don't divorce him, I'll be making the worst mistake of my life. So basically, I'm totally facked. lol I'm giving him a couple of months to get working at things. And after 2 months, if I don't feel like any progress has been made, it's over. I refuse to turn 40 and have things be the same as they are now. Because if you think you two are crabby ass biotches today--it won't be anything compared to what I'll be!!:rotflmao: :rotflmao:
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I think your two month ultimatum is a great idea. It gives your H a chance to try and take action on some of the things that are making you unhappy. You shouldn't have to take the initiative all the time. You're putting the ball in his court... its his turn to make a play.

oo0ooo ummm... i don't think anyone could be more crabby than me

Griff said:
Half-My-Stuff-Ectomy when I found out for certain that she was having waaaay more sex than I was!
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I love that half-my-stff -ectomy... its perfect description of divorce:rotflmao:
 
Griff said:
Kimberly- So sorry to hear that you are having a bad day. :hug2: :hug2: I speak from experience when I say I truely know what you are going through regarding your H. I know that I was miserable especially at the end. We were going to counseling but there were times that I ended up going by myself since she would come up with some excuse to not go. I felt like I was the only one working on the marriage. I finally decided to get a Half-My-Stuff-Ectomy when I found out for certain that she was having waaaay more sex than I was!

I hope things become crystal clear for you one way or the other soon.

Griff
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Thanks for the kind words, Griff. Hopefully the marriage counselling will prove beneficial. He would never go before--I've tried for a couple of years. Now that I"m threatening divorce, he's willing to go. But I'm not sure how long he will be willing..lol. He has no direction in life. Very frustrating. Lots of ambition, but no drive.

Sorry to hear about your cheating ex. How could she cheat on such a sexy nice guy like you?? At least I don't have that to worry about.
 
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