Better Second Life Diary

The meetings are helping! The cravings have not ceased but the meetings are helping. I attend every meeting that I can online.

I've done well today, not as well as yesterday, but better than in recent days. I can say I am still abstinent. I did not give in to my food cravings, I had larger portions than I would have liked. Not enough to make myself hate ME. Thats important for me right now.

I pray that I do not eat again before tomorrow. I know I'm not perfect, but I am determined and willing to give this new life a try.
 
I took time today to actually do my nails! Instead of eating I did something for me. I attended another meeting on-line and trust me, it helps. I am trying hard not to eat anything else until tomorrow at breakfast. And you know what? I'm not planning the next meal. I used to do that, anticipate my meals and snacks to the degree that I could not wait until the appointed time and ate and ate and ate.

Reading the stories on this forum have helped me so much. I have learned a lot. A lot of times I am right in the threads reading the hopes and dreams of others. I see what works what doesn't and I am encouraged. I am very happy I found this forum.
 
My mistake today...in my rush to get things done...I did not fill up on crystal lite and water! How did I miss that. I drank less than 1/4 of the water I did the past two days. Must do better tomorrow.
 
Day four. I had to RUN from the goodies at the store when I ran errands. Left with sugar free treats, but I plan to use them in moderation. I pop in a sugar free werthers or a nips when I just can't take it anymore.

Had oatmeal and water for breakfast. Found that I need to eat in the mornings or I will binge for sure the rest of the day. I was right. learned this in my training for the gastric bypass. I find that most of what I learned for the bypass is correct. Get in plenty of water and protein and I'll be ok.

I plan to attend the next on-line meeting of OEA. It helps. I practically ran to turn on my computer at midnight to get into a meeting. Now I look forward to the every three hour meetings. At least I'm not eating. I keep imagining how wonderful I'll look when these last 79 pounds come off. There will be a change when I return to the doctor in two weeks.
 
Attended another on-line meeting. I seem to have more energy and hope now. I also got through lunch. I'm drinking a great deal and when that sugar urge comes, I have my sugar free werthers, nectarines or cantaloupe to fill that void.

Day four huh? Didn't think I'd get here. Thanks for the support of this forum!
 
Ate a bit more than I would have liked last night. I am beginning to identify that my life is out of control and that night time is hardest for me. I think I'm going to work on what should be available for me when the cravings come. I have some hoodia spray that seems to work. Perhaps I should keep this in a place where I can get to it readily.

Anyway, on that note, I'm on DAY 5!!!!!!!!!!! I made it this far...too much work to turn back now. There is a pair of pants that I want to wear in two weeks.

I'm going to go into a meeting now and pray that I can abstain today.
 
Feeling a little down. But determined to make it on this journey of self awareness. Did pretty good today. Need more exercise.

Meetings are helping.
 
About to attend my first 9PM meeting. The cravings are here and I will need support through it. Writing in this forum helps as does reading the posts of others here.
 
Day Six...I made it. Don't know how but I did. I'm attending on-line meetings, reading the threads in this forum and moving through life. I need to take life's lessons as they come, and on this journey I've learned lessons.
 
I want so badly for me to have lost at least one pound my next doctor visit on the 26Th. I'm working hard toward that goal.
 
Just left another meeting. Day six is going well. I'm drinking lots of water. Remembering what I learned for the gastric bypass helps. Lots of water, then the protein.

The special k protein water really does work, as does my hoodia spray for cravings.
 
Day 7

No breakfast. Bad habit.

Lunch Nectarine

Attended another on-line O/A meeting

Let's see what the evening brings:bigear::leaving:
 
Struggling with evening cravings.

Had clam chowder for dinner along with cantaloupe.

Drinking plenty of water. Plan to go into an 0n-line meeting. I average five OA meetings in a day. Pretty good I'd say.
 
Day 7!!!

I did it. I made day 7. I didn't think I could stick to this a week.

I made a morning on-line meeting. Breakfast decaf coffee. I know, I know I should have had breakfast, but I really was not hungry.

That could come back to bite me in the behind.

I'll be drinking plenty of fluids today. That seems to help.:party:
 
Day 7

RobertaLee said:
I did it. I made day 7. I didn't think I could stick to this a week.

I made a morning on-line meeting. Breakfast decaf coffee. I know, I know I should have had breakfast, but I really was not hungry.

That could come back to bite me in the behind.

I'll be drinking plenty of fluids today. That seems to help.:party:
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It appears my body is "fasting". I remember this mode from my gastric bypass. I am eating less food and it is requiring less right now. I'm drinking loads of crystal lite/water. I think it is making a huge difference. Plan soup for dinner.

Must go into a meeting. They really help this process I tell you. I used to live for the next meal. Now I live in the moment...from meeting to meeting.:seeya:
 
Day 8!!!

I'm on day 8 and I never would have made it without holding myself to blogging here, reading the stories of others on this forum and above all finding on-line oa meetings! I'm finding my body is going into modified fast mode...only takes in liquids like water, which I am drinking in the form of crystal lite by the gallons and soups.

Let's see what today brings. Last evening was difficult for me with the evening craves, but I made it. Evenings are a dangerous time for me with food. Glad there are on-line oa meetings. I'm no longer focusing on food, which had engulfed me.:auto:
 
Day 8-still struggling

I now have an interim sponsor in OA!!! Ordering the requisite books.

Decided to add slimfast to my modified fast. I need the vitamins. It's not difficult. I belive my body needs to go back into this state of shrinking. I get CRAVINGS, no doubt about that, but I can usually calm those with sugar free werthers.

I cut out sugar and flour from my diet altogether today.

Let's see how that goes.:party:
 
I really want to have a weight loss when I visit my doctor next week. It will have been two weeks since my last weigh and I am anxious to see if my efforts have paid off.

One pound is the goal!! Let's see.
 
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