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I got through my much needed nap and another call from my sister, and still no binges.

I am drinking water and had some sugar free werthers to calm me.

Strange how food can "calm" me like a tranquilizer. I must work on that during this time.



xo
Berta
 
Dinner was uneventful, with the exception of my wanting to talk myself into scapping the diet until another day. Then I remembered, this tape plays over in my mind all the time. So I turned off the tape.

Now to get through the evening when it is most dangerous without binging. Crossing my fingers.

xoxo

Berta
 
I made it through the day! Now I have to get through the night. As a precaution, I got rid of all the bread and anything else that can tempt me. I also re-arranged the fridge so that what I realy should snack on is in front for me to get should I need it.

I'll let you all know tomorrow how it went.

XO

Berta
 
I made it through the night and evening!!!!!! yay!!!!!

I'm about to start day two. Let's see what it holds for me.
 
Good for you for rearranging the fridge. You are on a roll and doing great!!

Before you know it it'll be second nature to avoid the snacks. Day 2 already, keep up the good work!
 
I know i eat when i am frustrated, angry or feeling depressed. Food is my drug of choice, I have an addiction and am into 12 step programs. I have not been to any personally, but I read the books.
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Overeaters anonymous does have online meetings... if you check their website.. you'll see when they have the meetings listed -it might be a help for you...
 
Food will not control me.

Breakfast

1/4 cantaloupe
1 cup decaf coffee
2 glasses crystal light

Did very well.

Let's see how the rest of the day goes. Plan to have fish for dinner.
 
Over eater's anonymous!! Yay! on line meetings

maleficent said:
Overeaters anonymous does have online meetings... if you check their website.. you'll see when they have the meetings listed -it might be a help for you...
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Thank you so much for the information. I will attempt to find them today. I really could use them right about now.

I'll let you know.

XO Berta:grouphug:
 
Thank you Dawn!!

dawnkyung said:
Good for you for rearranging the fridge. You are on a roll and doing great!!

Before you know it it'll be second nature to avoid the snacks. Day 2 already, keep up the good work!
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Thank you so much for the encouragement. Yes rearranging the fridge had to be done. If I could reach for healthy snacks, it would go a long way to keeping me on track. So far it has worked.

But can I make it past day 2? It will be a struggle, but in the back of my mind, food will not win!

Again, you don't know how much the encouragement means to me. Thank you again.

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XOXO

Berta
 
Took a nap, awoke with serious cravings. Ate some sugar free werthers and dranks water.

Got up for lunch. Had salmon salad and nectarine. Now working on drinking plenty of water.

Note weak point for me..upon awakening...cravings are strong. But I so needed that nap!

Let's see how the evening unfolds.

Good luck to all of us.
 
Still doing well. Had a cup of decaf. Looking forward to dinner of fish and veggies.

I should not be looking forward to food. This behavior I must change.
 
Found on-line over eater's anonymous meetings which meet every three hours 24/7. Thank you guys. This has helped me. I'm on my way into a meeting now.

Did well as far as dinner. Ate and now will join the meeting with my trusty water by my side. I really do want my weight to reflect a change when I see the doctor again in two weeks.
 
I just finished my first on-line OEA meeting. It was very enlightening. I know I can do it this time, with support and behavior modification.

I'll be working my steps. The best thing about this group is that they meet every three hours, just when I feel I'm getting a craving!

Now if I can abstain for the next three hours.
 
I'm trying so hard to keep from eating. Dinner is done. I need to not fall into the same traps that normally tempt me. I don't want to start over on this path of recovery. I am two days abstinent and I want to go on to day three!!!

How do I get past this point?

Well another on-line OEA meeting is in 8 minutes. Writing in this diary will help until the meeting starts. I hope it can get me through until morning. If not, there is always another meeting three hours after this one.

Please, please pray for me.

Berta
 
Had a nectarine, decaf coffee and plenty of crystal light. Attended an on-line meeting which helped a lot.

Now no more eating until tomorrow.

Pray for me.
 
I made it to day three!!!!

Last night was a real struggle, VERY HARD. But I decided to snack on a nectarine and took in plenty of crystal light. But it was so hard I wanted to cry. I struggled with the food addiction the way I've seen drug addicts on TV fight against the urge to use. How could this happen?
 
I did it! I overcame the very strong urge to binge while I was out today! McDonalds was across the street and I normally order two double cheeseburgers, 2 pies, a sundae and fries. I wash that down with a calorie laden soda. The urge was strong but I made it without going to McDonalds. Then while I was completing my errands, looking for sugar free candies, my favorites were on SALE. I literally got on my hands and knees to look and pray the calorie count could be factored into my diet, but I knew if I brought these into my home they would be gone in no time

I made it through my errands without bingeing. Yay! I will make it to the next OEA meeting and get through day three somehow.

Must have lunch or I'll backslide (lol) Let's see how this goes.

One thing I noticed, I've been so concentrated on food that I neglect my appearance. My nails were a mess! What have I done to myself. I don't care about the clothes I wear, or my hair. I've got to get my life in order. It is clear I have no power over food.
 
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