Bellaryna's Journey

Feeling like poo today.
Dh and I had a bit of a tiff this morning. It seems that I needed to take some papers to the high school last week for my step-son to be registered for his Senior year. Only thing is the school sent the paper to be filled out but never said what day the registration was to be. I just assumed that since he was a Senior this year that things may be different this year.
Guess I was wrong.
So dh was miffed at me.
As well as I forgot to get some medicine for his mom this past Monday. Remember we were camping? Well on Monday I had to travel back home to an openhouse for my son who was going into Kindergarten.
In the process of trying to get to the school and get back to the campsite as well as get supper for my little guy I just forgot.
I didn't even remember it until this morning when dh questioned me about it.
So now not only did I feel stupid for flubbing up my step-son's first day of school but I also had incrediable guilt about my MIL not getting her medicine.
*Sigh*
So to make it all better with my MIL I spent the entire day with her today. Which was not bad. So don't think I am complaining. Cuz' I am not. It's just I was looking forward to having the day to myself. As well as getting my house back into shape.
So now I will have to do that tomorrow. And try to get it done before 2:30 in the afternoon since I have to go to work tomorrow.
Soooo long story short I felt yucky and ate some things I shouldn't have.
And now I know that I am going to pay the price for it.
At least I keep thinking to myself how on Monday I can start riding my bike out to the church. Round trip it will be 16 miles. And I plan to do that on Monday and Wednesday this week. If all goes well I am hoping to do it Mon-Thursday until the weather changes.
I did go and talk to my family doc on Tuesday when I took my son in for his throat.
He put me on something for my nerves and something for depression.
Honestly it scares the poo right out of me to think about taking either of them. I am so afraid that they are going to make me gain the weight back. Like I am not doing that enough on my own! LOL
That and as much as I want to feel better, I want to still feel like me.
I don't know if anyone can understand that but there it is.
So as of yet I have not taken the meds.
I plan to start on Monday when no one is home that way if I don't like the way I feel at least I will be by myself.
That is if I can get up the nerve to take them.
So here's to hoping that tomorrow is a better day.
 
Just for the heck of it I thought I would post a few pics that I have so here they are.
These are my kids Isa and Trev.
And of course my fur baby Snickers.
 
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Aww..your kids are so cute! Is that blue tongue a genetic thing? :biggrinjester:

Sounds like you had a pretty good camping trip despite a few glitches..lol. If you have even the slightest bit of a sore throat, get right into the doc's to get anti-biotics.

Don't feel too bad about forgetting those things. I forget stuff all the time. No one's perfect. Just remind your H of that. :)

Maybe you could take one med at a time, you know, start off with just one and see how it goes. I know how you feel, though. I don't like the idea of taking stuff like that either. But if it helps.....;)
 
Aww..your kids are so cute! Is that blue tongue a genetic thing? :biggrinjester:
Nah! Just a seriously blue slushy!!! I think she even pooed blue the next day. Which of course she thought was pretty awesome! LOL :smilielol5::smilielol5:
Sounds like you had a pretty good camping trip despite a few glitches..lol. If you have even the slightest bit of a sore throat, get right into the doc's to get anti-biotics.
My throat is feeling fine. Must have been my allergies that and a lack of sleep.
Don't feel too bad about forgetting those things. I forget stuff all the time. No one's perfect. Just remind your H of that. :)

Maybe you could take one med at a time, you know, start off with just one and see how it goes. I know how you feel, though. I don't like the idea of taking stuff like that either. But if it helps.....;)

As for the meds I don't know. I feel fine now. I am thinking it has something to do with my cycles.
Even though I don't really have them anymore I still have all the hormonal side effects.
When I was talking to the doc both kids were there and it was hard to keep a convo going. So the next appt I have I will sit down sans kids and really talk to him.
 
Getting the camper all cleaned up and ready for our final campout of the year today.
Won't take much but I am really being lazy about it. Today is the first day in a long time that I have been all by myself. So I have been just basically hanging out.
Even though I really need to get things done.
Feeling much better today than I did yesterday. I think that between the allergies and a general lack of sleep due to the allergies, as well as the camping trip, I just got really run down.
I have to go to work today. So I am not generally looking forward to that. But at the same time I am feeling very Blessed as I know there are lots of people losing jobs right now due to the economy.
Just wish it was a job that I liked more that is all.
Really looking forward to riding my bike on Monday. Can't wait to see how I do.
I did weigh myself this morning and after some bathroom action :sifone: I came in at 204 even.
So considering all the camp food as well as my yucky eating yesterday I did fairly well for the week.
I seem to be doing better at work these days as far as eating is concerned. I don't take any money with me anymore that way I can't buy anything from the machines.
So I should start out Monday with a really nice number and it will be interesting to see how it goes day by day.
Right now I think that if I could get a really nice downward trend going I would be more motivated again to keep the eating under better control.
I just need to get back to where I was at when I started.

Well since the camper is not likely to clean itself I guess I better get to it.
Hope everyone has a great weekend!
 
Well I actually ate out yesterday at Taco Bell.
Bad I know but I was craving it badly and figured it was better to go with it instead of ignore it and have it come to bite me in the butt later. Literally! :smilielol5:
So I had a Nacho Bell Grande (mmmm my fav!) and my taco on the side was El Fresco. I guess they are at least trying to get some things on the menu that are better for you. Plus I tried one of their new slushy things. Strawberry Mango and sooooo delish. But now that I had it I don't want it. Funny isn't it. *shrugs shoulders*

To offset the high calorie lunch I had 2, 100 calorie packs of popcorn for snack and dinner at work. And before anyone yells at me about not eating enough I also had junk eggs for breakfast yesterday morning. Junk consists of eggs, bacon and cheese. All mixed together. Plus toast w' butter.
Hubby was cooking and I didn't want to hurt his feelings so I went with it.
He seems to think that he wants to cook the kids a special breakfast on Friday's before school. So next week will be bull's eye pancakes.
Which if you have never had them you take a pancake cook it like a big circle and then crack an egg in the middle. It looks like a bull's eye.
But since I know ahead of time what he is cooking I will be politely eating something else. I think it is great that he wants to do that for the kids. It is something they will always remember daddy taking the time to do for them.
So you see I didn't starve myself yesterday. Besides that I don't like eating past 6pm at night anyway. So I wouldn't be doing anything different at home except for I wouldn't be up until 2 in the morning!

I jumped on the scale this morning and it was down AGAIN!!! :hurray::hurray:
I am now sitting on the verge of getting back into "Onederland"!
I came in at 201.4!!!!
Soooo close.
And with my new plan to ride my bike I think I should be back down to my low weight of 184 in no time at all.
Here's to seeing 184 by my birthday! That gives me just about 38 days to lose 17-18 pounds. I think I just may be able to do that. If not I sure will come close!!! LOL
Well I promised Isa that we could take Snickers swimming at the local lake so I gotta head on out of here.
I just wanted to drop in and let everyone know my good numbers.
Have a great Saturday everyone!
 
Hey there!
I am so HAPPY to hear about your weight loss!!! You are almost beyond the 200's forever!!! :hurray: :hurray: :hurray:

I think that now that school is back in session, & you are working, you will be able to find a groove that you can settle into. Just try not to let those sneaky emotions get the best of you. Like I said, though, once you get back into your groove, you will feel better & be able to eat better! This journey is like a long dance... we just gotta keep moving.

You are doing great! Hang in there & don't beat yourself up too badly about eating things that don't necessarily fit with your healthy lifestyle. I am a strong believer that we can't deny ourselves everything all the time. Just gotta balance it with a big 'ol bowl of salad & try to eat healthy the majority of the time.

Next time you are craving something yummy like nachos, try to make them at home so that you can add lots of lettuce & tomatoes.

Good luck today. Have a great Sunday!
 
LMBO@blue poo! :smilielol5:

Hope your weekend's been swell as can be with work and all...lol. Monday is almost here and some more time to yourself.

Congrats on being so close to Onederland! :party: I have absolute faith that you'll get back to your old low soon. :)
 
Howdy, Howdy, Howdy Everyone!
Thanks Kimberly, Yarmiah, Sweetiepea and Stacy for stopping by!

Weekend went well at work. No major blow-ups. That's always a good thing! :smilielol5:
I haven't weighed myself this morning yet. I didn't come rolling in until 3am and got up at 7am. Knowing that a lack of sleep will not show good numbers I thought to wait until I have gotten up from my nap.
Ate really well this weekend. And I would love to see "Onederland" before this week is out.
Allergies are bothering me...........AGAIN!!!! :banghead:
I guess they are pretty bad this year. Though I have noticed that it seems to be worse for me when I don't get enough sleep.
Planning on going for a bike ride when I get up from my nap.
I had planned to ride out to our church but dh really doesn't want me riding on those roads. He is afraid that I will get hit by a car.
So I will need to figure out a new plan of action. As long as I get the mileage in I don't care where I ride.
Feeling pretty sleepy right now, so I am going to head off for that nap.
I will swing by people's diaries later on.
Ciao
 
Allergies are bothering me...........AGAIN!!!!

My youngest is suffering from them too. They are usually the worst in the morning, but sometimes, just before bed she will start sneezing and get a runny nose.

Hope it clears up soon . . for BOTH of yas!
 
I am now sitting on the verge of getting back into "Onederland"!
I came in at 201.4!!!!

And with my new plan to ride my bike I think I should be back down to my low weight of 184 in no time at all.
Here's to seeing 184 by my birthday!

:party: YAY!!!!

I certainly want you to get to 184 by our birthday--crank up the exercise and enjoy your bike riding! No starving! Good food! Taco Bell in moderation ;) LOL!!! :D
 
My youngest is suffering from them too. They are usually the worst in the morning, but sometimes, just before bed she will start sneezing and get a runny nose.

Hope it clears up soon . . for BOTH of yas!

Thanks!
I always feel better after I get some sleep.
I remember having allergies when I was younger but for whatever reason Mom never gave me meds for it. So I was pretty miserable most of the time.
Hope yours gets to feeling better soon!
 
:party: YAY!!!!

I certainly want you to get to 184 by our birthday--crank up the exercise and enjoy your bike riding! No starving! Good food! Taco Bell in moderation ;) LOL!!! :D

Me? Starving?
No way!!!!!!
I like food waaaaaaay to much for that! LOL
Hence the obvious in being so over weight.
I can't even remember the last time I had Taco Bell before the other day so I think I'll be good on that front as well.
Here's to lots of good eatin' and lots of biking! :cheers2:
 
Well I feel human again!
That was by far one of the best naps I have ever had. Well or at least one of the best ones since 1999. That was the year that my dd was born! LOL
Since then there hasn't been much me time. But now that the kids are all in school...........woohoo!
I wasn't able to go out on the bike ride as I didn't get up from the nap until 1pm! :blush5:
And since I have to "get in line" at the school to pick up the kids at 2:20 I figured I best just hold off.
I did however go for a really nice walk. Not as long as I would have liked but a walk is a walk right?
There is a real nice path out by the hospital that is 2/3 of a mile round. MIL was with me so we only did 2 laps. But I am thinking that I may be heading back out there at some point this week. It is so peaceful because there is a pond in the middle of it and they made it to be all curvy so it is not just the same old loop.
Ate really well today.
Since I didn't eat when I got the kids up for school I figured I could have something a bit more in the caloric department for lunch.
Went with 2 pbj sammies. YUMMY!!!!
That put me at about 520 cals.
Add in my 1 ounce of cheese/ 110 cals and that put me at 630 for the day.
I did have coffee with creamer later on adding in about 120 cals.
Total before dinner 750.
That gave me like 900 cals to play with for supper.
We had Portabella Burgers with Garlic Olive Oil drizzled on them. Mmmmmm.
With a HUGE, and I mean HUGE, salad. Was all loaded with more mushrooms, red onions, green bell peppers, cherry tom's and cucumbers.
Added to that was 3 TBSP bacon pieces as well as about 3/4 a cup of shredded cheese. Plus the dressing.
All in all it came to...............1500cals
leaving me room for a treat later on.
A slice of homemade banana bread with about 1.5 ounces of McD's ice cream on top.
So rounding out the whole day food wise I came in at just under 1700 cals.
And that doesn't even figure in the walking.
Not bad!
 
Great day! Glad that you are feeling better. Your mushroom burgers sound yummy. Makes me want to plan that on the menu next week. Maybe I should go eat some breakfast, cuz I am starting to drool... :drool5:

Have a great day!
 
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