Bellaryna's Journey

Just got back from the store getting the groceries. I was so stoked to see that they finally got in pre-made thin crust for homemade pizzas.
The day out on the lake turned out wonderful! I had an absolutely wonderful time.
Though I did forget to grab my suit so was unable to swim. Which in and of itself really wasn't to much of a loss as I really don't like swimming in lakes.
Didn't mind it so much as a kid but now that I am getting older it just seems to wig me out.
Not sure why.
I got a whole lot of sun today. Parts of me that hadn't seen sun in years got a bit red today. :smilielol5:
It was really nice to hang with the girls. It is such a rarity for me to get to do that. So many people I think, are afraid to hang out with me, since I am a minister's wife. It's like they think I will judge them or something.
So needless to say it was nice to be included in all the girl talk!
We did eat some junk but I am planning on getting a workout in with my elliptical before I go to bed.
I have been sleeping like crap for the last 5-6 nights and I am beginning to think it may have something to do with my lack of cardio. So I am going to try and wear myself out and see what happens.
Well I need to get supper on the table so will check in with everyone tomorrow.
Ciao:seeya:
 
HI Bella!!!

NIce to see you around!!
I see you came to a stumbling block in the road too. Never fear, just get right back on. You will come out even stronger!!

I definetely sleep better after a good exercise and it really helps me with food control. Silly as it sounds the days I exercise i feel like eating a lot less than on the non-exercise days!!

I see you are still going to the Y, how do you like it? Unfortunately I had to give up gym membership for the summer just couldn't work out our schedules with DH.

Gotta run.
Hajni
 
That's great that you had a good time with the girls out on the lake. I don't like swimming in lakes much, either. :D

Look at you getting hit on at the gym again. This time by a dirty sweet old man. :D How about a sugar daddy? :smilielol5: Anyway, I would be flattered to death if ANYONE hit on me. :D

Have fun with the running, and here's a little motivation. Just pretend rabid raccoons are chasing you. :smilielol5:
 
bikinibound said:
That's great that you had a good time with the girls out on the lake. I don't like swimming in lakes much, either. :D

Look at you getting hit on at the gym again. This time by a dirty sweet old man. :D How about a sugar daddy? :smilielol5: Anyway, I would be flattered to death if ANYONE hit on me. :D

Have fun with the running, and here's a little motivation. Just pretend rabid raccoons are chasing you. :smilielol5:
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Really how rabid could they be if they have their own food bowls! LOL
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hajni said:
HI Bella!!!

NIce to see you around!!
I see you came to a stumbling block in the road too. Never fear, just get right back on. You will come out even stronger!!

I definetely sleep better after a good exercise and it really helps me with food control. Silly as it sounds the days I exercise i feel like eating a lot less than on the non-exercise days!!

I see you are still going to the Y, how do you like it? Unfortunately I had to give up gym membership for the summer just couldn't work out our schedules with DH.

Gotta run.
Hajni
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Hola Haj!
It's good to see you again.
Yeah those stumbling blocks are a real pain in the butt. Honestly I am quite surprised that I hadn't hit one before I did.
I am still struggling to get back on track but at least now, as compared to before, I care more about the choices I am making. I still don't make all the right choices.
I like the Y still. In fact I no longer work in the pool. I work up in the fitness center which seems to give me more motivation to get moving.
Sorry to hear that you had to let your membership go. But at least you might be able to pick it back up again in the fall.
 
Today was another beautiful day!
Hubby and I, along with some other adults, took a group of kids to the zoo today. Weather was gorgeous. Not to hot and no rain.
The kids all had a great time.
I now look completely different due to my tan. And I LOVE it! I love how I look when I am tanned. Waaaay healthier.
Rounded out the day with the Wednesday night bible study with the high school youth group. Though tonight's meeting wasn't a study due to our fearless leader being on vacation. So we just all got together for some fellowship time.
Played water football, Sequence (it's a card game) and ultimate frisbee. I have never played ultimate frisbee before thinking that I couldn't possibly be good enough at it. I actually did okay and even had a blast playing it. It was definately a cardio workout. However we also had hot dogs, chips, homemade mac & cheese and cookies for supper. Sooooo :smilielol5: I am fairly certain that I didn't burn off nearly enough calories to make a difference.
But like I said it was fun. :)
I still haven't gone for that run. I did look up the C2K program online. Unfortunatly the computer got turned off before I could do much reading on it. I think from all I have heard about it that that may just be the thing I am looking for. Cuz' even though I am feeling like I want to run, even with Kimberly's gracious offer of her raccoons, I don't think I want to just jump into it.
So I am going to do some more research and see where it leads me.
Well tomorrow is clean up the house day so I can't say when if at all I will get online. There is soooo much around here that needs done and I really need to put all my effort into it.
So I hope that everyone has a great day tomorrow!
 
Good job getting that exercise in, and you didnt even clue all the walking I'm sure you did at the zoo.

I really like frisbee, tho have never tried ultimate frisbee.

Keep it up!
 
This morning started out waaaay early! LOL
Since I work the early morning shift now at the Y, I get up at a little after 4am on Tuesday's and Thursday's.
Which once I am up and there really isn't that bad. It's just like anything else......I always have to get up the motivation to get there.
I got on the elliptical when I got home from the Y burning off 305 calories. Or at least that is what it said since I can't input my weight I have to assume that I actually burned more.
That's the one drawback about my elliptical. Other than that the thing is AWESOME!
Well MIL is coming over in a bit and I need to get things picked up around here before she gets here.
So I will check in later.
C-Ya!
 
Bella,

Kudos for doing the elliptical!! I don't remember did you always have an elliptical or is it a new equipment?

I am working a second job now and made a deal with hubby that the extra money I am getting is going toward an elliptical machine!! I have a treadmill already and depends how long I will have this job, after the elliptical I will shoot for a stationary bike. Than I will have my own gym in my basement!! LOl

Have a great day!!
Hajni
 
Hey Haj~
No the elliptical is not a new peice of equipment in my house. Though for the first 8 months that we had it, it barely got any use. And then of course I went on my 6 week layoff. So all in all even though we have had it for about a year and a half, it has only had about 8 months worth of workouts! :blush5:

The day ended well. Had some round steak for dinner with some grilled squash and zuchinni as well 2 slices of low cal bread with a smidge of buttery spread.
The kids did not like the veggies but I made them eat 'em anyway. Of course they didn't finish them until 2 1/2 hours later but that was fine by me. The only reason they did finally finish them was if they don't ever eat the food on their plates (and I don't pile it on or give them junky stuff) they then can't have any night time snacks.
When it came down to it dd was just being picky and liked them okay. Where ds really did not like them but ate them anyhow. So I guess I won't be serving that again! LOL
I made it to the Y tonight to my Fit for life class. Hopefully I won't have such a bad "reaction" to it like I did last week.
I could barely sit down to go pee my legs were hurting so bad!
Well it is way past my bedtime so I think I will be headin' on outta here.
Catch ya all later.
 
Hello!

Sounds like you are having a fabulous time there in Indiana! ;)

Just remember that tans might look nice and healthy, but in reality they aren't that good for ya. Of course if you come by them naturally, that's different. I'm an advocate for the use of sunscreen. I did get a little tan while in FL, I think it's pretty much gone - but that was with the use of sunscreen. Funny thing is you can sure tell where you didn't actually get sunscreen once the redness shows up. You should've seen CMan's back, it was all wacky - and I put quite a bit on, maybe I wiped it on too good? LOL

I am just taking a small break from all the work right now - which is turning out longer than I had intended by the min. :D

TTYL!

P.S. WTG on getting back on track. I do miss the Y workouts as I'm sure that's why I got all the way down to 161. But I'm holding steady at 165 it seems it doesn't want to budge without that kick-butted workout. Tell Kelly I said, Hey! :)
 
Kudos to you for making your kids eat the veggies. :hurray: I would've done the same thing. :D

Hope you had a good weekend work-wise. :) I went into a Wal-mart for the first time in years the other day. I thought of you. :biggrinjester:

Sounds like you're back on track. Congrats! :hurray:
 
I love zucchini and any kind of squash. Sometimes I just slice it and sautee it with some herbs like basil or oregano or thyme or something. I absolutely love it!!

Glad to see you back on track and working at it at the Y.!!

gotta run
hajni
 
SweatPea said:
Hello!

Sounds like you are having a fabulous time there in Indiana!
Not as much as if you were here too!

Just remember that tans might look nice and healthy, but in reality they aren't that good for ya. Of course if you come by them naturally, that's different.
Naturally that's me! It takes all of 5 minutes outside and I start to brown up.
I'm an advocate for the use of sunscreen. I did get a little tan while in FL, I think it's pretty much gone - but that was with the use of sunscreen. Funny thing is you can sure tell where you didn't actually get sunscreen once the redness shows up. You should've seen CMan's back, it was all wacky - and I put quite a bit on, maybe I wiped it on too good? LOL
I can only imagine how funny that must have looked! LOL

I am just taking a small break from all the work right now - which is turning out longer than I had intended by the min.

TTYL!

P.S. WTG on getting back on track. I do miss the Y workouts as I'm sure that's why I got all the way down to 161. But I'm holding steady at 165 it seems it doesn't want to budge without that kick-butted workout. Tell Kelly I said, Hey! :)
I'll let tell Kelly you really miss her! LOL I miss working out with you at the Y too.
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bikinibound said:
Kudos to you for making your kids eat the veggies. :hurray: I would've done the same thing.
You'll make a great mom! You just gotta know when to be MEAN. hahaha

Hope you had a good weekend work-wise. :) Thanks I went into a Wal-mart for the first time in years the other day. I thought of you. :biggrinjester: Aww shucks! That must have been the day that I got the warm fuzzy feeling while I was in the freezer. LOL Now was Walmart better than you last remember it?

Sounds like you're back on track. Congrats!
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hajni said:
I love zucchini and any kind of squash. Sometimes I just slice it and sautee it with some herbs like basil or oregano or thyme or something. I absolutely love it!!
These were fresh from the garden. A friend of ours has a HUGE garden and her hubby was going in for surgery. With her having no time to pick and us having no garden we decided to help each other out. LOL

Glad to see you back on track and working at it at the Y.!!
Thanks

gotta run
hajni
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Thanks to everyone for stopping in to check up on me.
This weekend went fairly well. I didn't make it home on Friday until 4:30 in the morning, 2:30 in the morning on Saturday and Sunday was right around 1:30. So needless to say I am pretty tired. *YAWN*:sleeping:
I was doing pretty well as far as eating went up until last night.
I stopped to put gas in the truck, found it for $3.89/gallon!, and there were those stupid day old donuts. :piggy:
For whatever reason I bought them and then ate them. THREE OF THEM!!!
Stupid, stupid, stupid!!!!:banghead::banghead::banghead:
I actually was down to 202.8 yesterday morning. And I have to think had I been able to restrain myself I could have been lower still.
As it is I weighed in at 205.4 this morning. I do know that some of that is due to my not drinking water at work. To many layers to take off. LOL I would end up peeing my pants before I even got there if I were to drink all my water.
I also had left over spaghetti for lunch. Dh made it for supper the night before. I keep telling him to quit buying the cheap sauces because they are so high in salt but he doesn't see it the same as I do.
To him it saves money. $$$
So the weight could be up due to some salt.
Add in the donuts and I am back to where I started.
At least I am back to working out. Now I just need to get the eating under control.
Well the kids are starting to tear the house up so I better get going.
Catch ya all later! :waving:
 
HI Bella,

Slowly but surely you are gaining control. It is hard to watch what to eat when you have to cook for the whole family!!
I got used to cooking all kind of different dishes on the weekend and sorting it by what I can eat and what I can't. So I would make a dish, cut it into portions (so I would know how many calories are in one portion), put it into individual containers and tell hubby how many he can have and what is mine!!It creates a little more dishes I admit but then I don't have to wonder just really how much I ate from that certain food. Or I would exclusively cook something for him and DD and I won't eat it. Seriously sometimes I have dishes in the fridge with little sticky notes with my name on it, so hubby knows that food is off-limits!! LOL
sounds silly but it works wonderfully for us!!

Hope you are having a good day!!
Hajni
 
Hey Haj,
Thanks for stopping by. I really appreciate it. :)

hajni said:
HI Bella,

Slowly but surely you are gaining control. It is hard to watch what to eat when you have to cook for the whole family!!
I got used to cooking all kind of different dishes on the weekend and sorting it by what I can eat and what I can't. So I would make a dish, cut it into portions (so I would know how many calories are in one portion), put it into individual containers and tell hubby how many he can have and what is mine!!It creates a little more dishes I admit but then I don't have to wonder just really how much I ate from that certain food. Or I would exclusively cook something for him and DD and I won't eat it. Seriously sometimes I have dishes in the fridge with little sticky notes with my name on it, so hubby knows that food is off-limits!! LOL
sounds silly but it works wonderfully for us!!

Hope you are having a good day!!
Hajni
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The Ramblings of a Confessional Mind

I rarely if ever title my entry's. For one I would end up with the same title for the majority of them and for another it just takes to much thought really..........LOL

Last night I had reality do a firm slap on my face. It wasn't pretty and I certainly don't feel good about it.

Let's start with the confessions first.
I find it amusing that there are times that I don't want to put in the diary the things that I have eaten or the outrageous amounts thereof.
In the long run I am only "cheating" myself by not being honest. There have been times were I have totally pigged out on things that I should never have. The sad thing is, I was completely aware of what I was doing at the time.
Sitting down and eating frosting from a can is an awful thing to do. Worse yet is to get it into your mind that you want it and actually making that special trip to the store to by only it. And then lying to the cashier that "yep I must have forgot to get it the last time I was here". Disgusting I know. Then trying to hide it from everyone.
Waiting until after my kids are in bed to eat something because, "I don't want to share it." Actually letting that little voice in my head talk me into trying to make myself sick after eating something. For the record it never worked. I am just not a good thrower upper.
In the last year I gone from 230lbs to 184lbs. I wish that I could say that I was still at 184. That was an accomplishment. I hadn't been down to that size since like just after high school.
I can't quite put my finger on why suddenly things went so wrong. I have gone back to look over my weight loss chart and I can see a definate time frame for when it started. But I can't figure if it was MIL arrived and I no longer had the time that I use to to devote to my journey, summer arrived and things just got soooo busy so began to eat for conveinance sake, or the possiblity that my seasonal depression that I held off for the better part of 6 months finally overcame me. Maybe it was when I hurt my shoulder. Using that as an excuse to "take a break from exercising." And apparently from eating well too.

Regardless of any of those reasons/excuses something somewhere stopped.
And getting back on track has been ohhhh so very hard. I want to, I really do. But at the same time I can't seem to control what I am eating. I know all I need to do is eat less and of course better. But it is like there is this little me inside my head that just keeps going on and on and on about how good that McFlurry would be. And that it's not a big thing 'cuz I can always try again tomorrow. Except for it feels like tomorrow is never going to get here.

And maybe sometimes tomorrow does get here only to slip away a few days later.
Watching the number on the scale go up and up on a daily basis you would think that I could buckle down and "git-r-done". But not really I just continue to watch the number go up. Jumping off the scale with a sigh and a shrug.
Why can't I seem to get back to that place that I was 12 weeks ago? And why is it that the weight can go on oh so much faster than it came off.
It took me 12 weeks to get back to the number that I weighed just before Thanksgiving. That number is......207......*cring*. That was last October. In 12 weeks I put myself back by 8-9 months of work. Again disgusting.
Now on to that reality check that I told you about............
MIL likes to sew and has been making me a few really nice dress shirts. Now I know that I have put my weight back on in my belly/hip/butt area. I can still get into my size 16's that I was so proud of not so long ago. But let's just say there's more than one muffin top going on here! LOL I think I got the whole bakers dozen.
Anyhow I digress, MIL measured my hips 8-10 weeks ago and came up with the grand number of 48 1/2 inches. Sounds like alot I know. But when taken into consideration the size I started out as (I don't know #'s but can tell you there was no way at all I could even think of stuffing myself into those 16's) that was pretty darn good. Well she measured me again yesterday. I am so embarrassed the new number is 51 inches. In 12 weeks I "grew" 2 1/2 inches in my hips!!!!!
She also measured my waist. Now my waist by no means was tiny 10 weeks ago, but I didn't have all those muffins hanging around. Ten weeks ago I measured 43 inches on my waist. Yesterday I measured 48 inches!!!!!
How did I let it get this far?
Who knows.
But as of yesterday I laid down the determination to beat this back.........again. And this time I WILL WIN!
I can't keep going on like this.
I am miserable in my own skin. Feeling like a piece of fruit that is so ripe it is gonna pop. All I want to do is sleep. My back is hurting again. I am grumpy/crabby more now than before. I feel really aware of my size especially with working in the YMCA fitness center.
I want to be a better role model for my kids. Heck I want to stick around for them. And if I can't get this back under control than I will have failed at both of those things.
No more hiding food.
No more "special" trips to the store for that "forgotten" item.
No more getting up 15 minutes early just so I can run thru McD's so I can have that breakfast sandwich.
And definately no more lying to myself.
I am the only reason I am in the position that I am.
All those other things are not nescessarily in my control. But what I eat is.
And beginning right now I will be in control.
 
I laid down the determination to beat this back.........again. And this time I WILL WIN!
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Part of the "battle" of weight loss is to find this mind set and keep it! I, as well as many others struggle jsut as you do from time to time. But when you get to the good place, like you have . . go and RUN WITH it girl! Sooner or later it will stick!
 
Bellaryna said:
But as of yesterday I laid down the determination to beat this back.........again. And this time I WILL WIN!
I can't keep going on like this.
I want to be a better role model for my kids. Heck I want to stick around for them. And if I can't get this back under control than I will have failed at both of those things.
No more hiding food.
No more "special" trips to the store for that "forgotten" item.
No more getting up 15 minutes early just so I can run thru McD's so I can have that breakfast sandwich.
And definately no more lying to myself.
I am the only reason I am in the position that I am.
All those other things are not nescessarily in my control. But what I eat is.
And beginning right now I will be in control.
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That's the determination girl!!! YES YOU WILL WIN THIS TIME!!!.
 
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