Bedsy's Journal

Thanks Redneckwoman :) You know i'm really ejoying my exercise and I get really disappointed when i can't get out for a while.

Hey Tru! Can you believe Gower is out?!! And Brett Finch is in?? Now I'm a Roosters supporter and even I know that Finch isn't the best halfback to have in Origin. Our chances of winning game 1 is now very slim indeed. Oh well fingers crossed.


Yesterday it rained...and rained...and rained and rained and rained. So I didn't get to go out for my run yesterday, so instead i did sit ups and ate light for dinner.
Fish and veggies.
I was so upset I couldn't run and today is game day so i'll be at my sisters place and no exercise today either. So I will have to be reeeeeeaally careful not get into Footy mode and eat chips and drink beer while watching the game.
To be honest though I don't really feel like that today anyway. I don't even think i want pretzels.
But then it is only 8am in the morning and the game isn't until 8.30pm, so anything can happen between now and then :D
Other than that I've just been so tired. I honeslty have to stop myself from crawling into bed by 7.30pm. It's not like i'm doing anything strenuous, and i am eating well and exercising. Maybe it's just the cold weather.

I pulled out a pair of pants that i haven't worn in two years this morning and decided to try them on. So i closed my eyes, crossed my fingers and hoped for the best and they fit perfectly! So I wore them to work today.


So I hope everyone has a wonderful day and beautiful things happen to each and every one of you today! :D
xo xo xo xo xo
 
great work fitting into your old pants thats awsome. :D

Gower is a big loss and i will get such a ribbing from all the maroon fans around me up here if we loose. But is great news Danny will be fit to play tonight.

I will be eating very small portions and doing some extra cardio on the bike today because i am not watching origin without beer and chips lol
 
YAAAAAYYYYYYY!!!!
GO THE BLUES!

Well Buderus nearly cost us the game, but it took a Rooster to get us out of trouble! :p Nice work Finchy!
What an awsome game that turned out to be, but it ain't over yet. 2 More games!! i can't wait.

So the aftermath of origin and i'm happy to report that the only casualty of the evening which would normally consist of party pies, sausage rolls, nachos, potato chips and lots of beer went by with just 4 plain corn chips and a glass of Fanta Zero!
I didn't miss out on all the fun. I had my 97% fat free hotdog in my wholemeal roll with light cheese mustard and ketchup and it was just like the real thing, only better 'cause the whole thing was about 3grams of fat! For the first time I felt like i wasn't missing out anything last night and even though i woke up half a kilo heavier this morning for some reason, i'm not fussed. I feel soooo much better for resisting temptation and making it through Origin night (which is bigger than christmas at our hourse!) having made good decisions.
I hope I don't have to stay behind at work today! I am really pumped for my run today :D

Ok,now it's time to get back to work and face all the boys, who'll no doubt give me a ribbing about Buderus nealry losing us the game.

How hot is he when he's angry though??? :p

BTW Tru, How good was Grothe??!!! What an awsome player...Parra's future suddenly looks brighter if you ask me! :D
 
Well done with your food choices during the game :)

I am sooo glad the blues won and finch played well. It was a silly punch from buderus but grothe got in his fair share of punches earlier on in the game also.
 
I am sooo glad the blues won and finch played well.
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Trusylver! Im so confused :p if ur in Qld..why do u support the blues? lol am i missing something?
Sorry to interrupt...the aussieness of that conversation sparked my interest..gotta love a good footy night (especially when the blues win origin!) all that testosterone in one place... lol...anyways...
Good luck Bedsy81, well done for the origin food, have fun :)
 
mmm... for some reason, there is nothing better than two gorgeous men fighting over a friggin ball... *sigh* thanks for that pic, Tru :)
Bedsy- YAY for the pants!!! I am so glad to be able to fit in smaller stuff now, its rediculous how happy I am when I try pants on :rolleyes:
have a great day hunny!!
 
fatrapped I am originally from Bega in NSW and have only been living in QLD for less than 5 years.
 
Hi Guys!! Thanks for stopping by Fattrapped! Nothing Like Origin to get some motivation pumping through your veins :D Well it works for me.
I will come and say hullo, to your journal after this.

Thanks for the Pic Tru! How good was that fight! The game didn't start getting interesting until after that happened. Nothing like a bit of biffo to bring a dull game to life aye :D

And Hello my Jess! :D Yes the pants were very exciting. So exciting in fact I went out and bought two pairs of corduroy jeans which are a tad too small to give me some fire in my belly to push myself hard to get into those.
Here's hoping...

So my food yesterday went a little something as follows:

Breakfast: A carrot apple and ginger juice and a chinese food container of rock melon and watermelon. Plus a cup of tea.

Lunch: A HUGE tuna tomato, lettuce and lemon sandwhich on brown vienna bread...might have that again today that was yum!

Dinner: A weight watchers beef burgundy frozen dinner mmmmm yummy! Oh and a glass of light cranberry jucie.

I ran for about 45 mins when i got home as well.
I'm gonna try and leave work a little early today so that I can run for a bit longer when I get home. I really could push myself to go for longer, but it gets so dark when i get home and it's too scary to be out myself at the park.
I hate non-daylight savings :p

So far this morning i have eaten 2 weetbix with about 1/4 cup of skim milk and about a cup of fresh pineapple.
I will most likely have my tuna sandwich again today and a lean cuisine for dinner 'cause i won't be bothered to cook.

I am posting these up to look back at them and keep myself motivated.
I know i post him alot but he really does inspire me.
 
I just realised, that I never did my questions! Errr deeeer Bedsarus!


--How much weight do you want to lose?
I would like to lose (fron since i started) 35 kilograms or 77lbs yish!

-- What is the timeframe for reaching your target weight?
I'm not gonna put a time frame on it. I just prefer to think that i am doing it properly. And if I am doing it properly then it will just take as long as it takes...but not anything stupid like 5 years or anything!

-- How do you want to accomplish your goal (what methods do you want to use)?
Just healthy eating and exercise...like how normal healthy people do. I know this is not a "diet" I know it's a lifestyle change another reason for the slow goings. Have taken up running which i LOVE except for the whole getting a stitch thing. which i'm working on.


-- Who or what can support you in reaching your goal?
I'm trying not to depend on others for this. Unfortunately I am the only one who can change my life so it's all me...but support and encourgaement helps!! :)

-- How realistic is your goal?
Tres realistic!


-- When will you start?
Have started already! And everyday when i get up in the morning i start all over again. Until one day it's doesn't feel like starting over again, it will feel like i'm already on the movin' train and it never stopped in the first place :D
 
I am freeeeeezing my butt off! It's so cold and i wish i stayed in bed with a good book and a cup of hot chocolate. I had to work yesterday so I didn't get to run which really sucked!
Can't wait to run when i get home in 1 hr and i have eaten really well today.
I had carrot and apple juice for breakky as well as my usual watermelon and rockmelon and for lunch i had my tuna sandwich...which i didn't really enjoy today, so tomorrow i will have chicken.

Don't really feel hungry today but am forcing myself to eat.


I will post a bit more later on, after i get back from my run.

Hope everyone is well! :D
 
I'm cold tooo...brrrr.... Its been 90f the last two weeks, and today it rained, and was crappy, and its like 50degrees out there right now.. can't wait to curl up and go to bed :)
hope you have a great run!!
 
Hello my lovelies.
What's with this cold bizzo? Can't it be Autumn and summer all year round??
This weather is such a weight loss death trap.
See it goes like this for me.
When it's cold, I want to stay in bed, when I want to stay in bed, I want to cuddle, when I want to cuddle, I get depressed that i don't have anyone to cuddle, and when i get depressed, i think too much about why i don't have anyone to cuddle and get even more depressed, and then I just want to eat.
Winter is such a depressing season. No wonder people pile on weight in these months. But unfotunatley for me, that is no longer an option. I have to be backwards and lose weight rather than put it on in winter. This should be interesting.

Last night, I had this weird dream. I was at the beach sitting in the sand and i looked down at my legs and saw that they were slim. Not as in too thin like anorexic or anything, but just nice. Like how I would want them to look, but in my dream, I was sitting there saying to myself "wow I really have lost weight, but I don't like them, They look awful."
I really don't want to read into that too much, but am curious as to what it could mean.
I had my carrot apple and ginger juice and fruit for breakky today even though i was dying for a really hot chocolate.
I am over winter already and it hasn't even technically started yet!

Alright enough whining from me.

Hope everyone has a wonderful, wonderful day and i'll catch you all later.
 
Winter is the best time to loose weight. You can cover up your weight loss until summer and then have a big reveal and shock the pants off everyone :eek: :D
 
Well we are in the same boat...I hate winter and it is usually the time I gain weight and then spend the whole of summer hating myself and then gain so more weight....:p

You will have great legs and they wont be awful they will be great:D

I agree with rosered though because even though I have lost a bit of weight no one really notices with all the extra clothing....will be a good shock in Summer!

Keep up the good work;)
 
rosered said:
Winter is the best time to loose weight. You can cover up your weight loss until summer and then have a big reveal and shock the pants off everyone :eek: :D
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Ha haha, yeah i thought of that! :D It's actually becoming a bit hard to hide. One of the girls at work called me "skinny mini" today really loud in front of the guy i like today.
She said "Hello skinny mini! Look at you!" right when he was there, and i was so embarrassed! I really hate when people do stuff like that. I know i should be flattered but It really kinda freaks me out.
I was reading this book where the author felt the same way. She thinks it's because you kind of see it as being stripped away and not having anything to hide behind anymore. That kinda seems a bit deep for me, but she could be right. I am finding out alot about myself being on this journey and maybe i am alot more vulnerable than i like to think I am.
Really being fat was always the hidden excuse for leaving myself out of things. I was always washing my hair or i didn't feel well, or i had to work when i was asked to go out to clubs or parties.
The perfect example is the footy club i want to join but won't because i don't have the confidence. I know some people who i speak to think i am a certain way and i don't want them to treat me differently once i have met them face to face because i wasn't what they expected. And that would not be the first time it's happened. Total The Truth About Cats and Dogs syndrome I guess.
I know that losing weight won't be the answer to my confidence problems, but at least it takes away one of the biggest layers that i hide behind and getting me closer to the true 'cause of it.

By the way, Thanks Mumma! Your encouragement means alot ot me! :D
 
Oh I nearly forogt!
I ran for 45mins today thought of jess and tried to do crunches...did 40 and cried lol!
 
Bedsy81 said:
She said "Hello skinny mini! Look at you!" right when he was there, and i was so embarrassed! I really hate when people do stuff like that. I know i should be flattered but It really kinda freaks me out.
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I toooottttalllly agree... In my head I'm thinking, ok, I don't want people to think I'm losing weight, I want them to think, wow, I never realized how good she looks..lol.. but it is soo embarrassing... *sigh* oh well, when I'm skinny, there will be people who have just met me and hey, they won't know I've lost weight :rolleyes:

have a good day gorgeous!
 
It is like striping away the layers...for me it is like mummy layers...hee hee, the real me is emerging once again after almost 4 years of hiding and it is starting to feel so good, I am actually walking taller, and you will too!!:D
 
Jess393 said:
when I'm skinny, there will be people who have just met me and hey, they won't know I've lost weight :rolleyes:

have a good day gorgeous!
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I remember working with this girl who pretty much was the girl next door, beautiful, thin and just an overall nice person. A couple years after I knew her she told me that she wasn't always as thin as she was now. She told me that she use to be a size 20 and was currently a 4/5. I could not for the life of me picture what she would have looked like. It was just so beyond my imagination. I was dying to see a picture but she never did offer and I didn't want to ask. But you are totally right. When you meet people at your thinest they will never know who you once were. In a sense it's like wiping the slate clean and starting over fresh.
 
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