Bedsy's Journal

I have to confess that it has been a while since i last walked. I have been very lazy indeed and i need to start again like now!
It's just so hard. I wish i could pull myself out of bed early enough to walk before i have to go to work, that would be awsome, but i'd have to get up at 4.30am to be able to walk for an hour then have time to come home, have a shower and get ready. So i can only really do it at ngiht when i get home from work and by then i'm so weak willed it's not funny.
My food is going great guns, but getting the motivation to exercise, even though i know how good i'll feel after it, is tough.
No excuses i know. Quit whinning and just do it.
 
Right, I went for a walk yesterday so i'm off the mark.
I walked for about 45 mins and then came home and watched the biggest loser and then just strolled around the neighbourhood for a while.
So today i'll do the same thing except this time i'm gonna try and incorporate some running into my walking.

I am so tired lately but i think it's just because i haven't been exercising?
I dunno.
24 days to the start of the footy season.
I can't remember how much i weighed when i said that i wanted to lose 4 kilos by the start of the footy season. I think i was 84.5kgs???
Anyway, 1.5kg to go and 24 days to do it in...might be able to get 2 down i hope! But i need to get off my butt and start walking again. So today, if i talk myself out of it somehow, you all have my permission to smack me.
 
walked today for an hour, and then after the biggest loser i went for another walk with my brother for twenty minutes up to the shops.
 
*Yawn* Nice day for a sleep in today. Ha! No such luck!
Got into work early today and eating breakky right now. I'm having a coffee flavoured Up&Go and some fruit salad.
Yesterday i ate the same for breaky.
For lunch i had a BBQ lamb shish-kebab with salad and lentils and chili sauce and for dinner i had chicken parmijana my way (no cheese, oil or fats) with veggies and chili...do you think i like chili? :p
I'm still so tired though i don't know what's going on. It's not like i'm not getting iron or anything.
Maybe i just need a holiday :p
Oooh that's another thing i'm gonna do when i reach my goal weight.
i'm gonna save my pingers and go to Hawaii to watch the surfing competitions! That would be awsome.
Anyways, a long day ahead of me now, I hope everyone has a brilliant day!
 
this is where my challenge begins.
I call it the Ten Kilogram Itch.

It's where you've lost quite a bit of weight, and people are at the point where, they keep saying things like "Can you stop losing weight, you're pi**ing me off." "Look how much weight you've lost!" and "See how much weight she's lost, don't you hate her?" Your weight loss slows down, and you start to feel a bit like "Meh, maybe this isn't as worth it as i'm thinking it is." (I don't know why i start to think that!) My brain seriously starts messing with me when i get to this pont and this is the point where i have failed and given up, so many times in the past. My motivation to continue just disappears. Not so much the eating bit, because that's a breeze. I haven't restricted myself at any point besides refines sugars and carbs at night time, which i couldn't do now, even if i wanted to.

But now i have welll and truly plateaued and my motivation for exercise has gone out the window.
I will go twice a week at best and even then i totally have to psych myself up to do it.
This sucks.
However i am thinking, that I have never really made it beyond this point before and if i get through it, i might be even more motivated than before?
Maybe everyone goes through the ten kilogram itch and youjust have to keep going until it's over?
 
Okay, over this whole Plateauing bizzo. This is so annoying and de-motivating.
Yesterday i ate nothing but fruit and veggies all day until i got home, and then i had some lamb in tomato sauce.
I went for my walk and came home and watched the biggest loser.
I feel like my body has just stopped responding to what i'm doing and now i don't know what to do.
I know i could exercise more, but i just feel so tired all the time, i'm lucky i get through my afternoon walks.
I don't know i feel a bit lost the moment.
Foods not a problem at least. I like eating healthy foods anyway so that not a drama.
I just want to lose 2kgs! Just to get back in to 70's.
 
the weirdest thing happened to me on the way to work this morning. Some guy stops me as i'm walking to the train station and tells me how much weight i've lost.
So weird!
 
sooo, im assuming you've seen this guy often, right?? lol... everytime someone says that to me, I get kinda embarrassed, like their sayin it just to make me happy, lol....good job bedsy!!
 
Lol He looked familiar...and he was kinda talking to me like i should know him...it was one of those "Hi....you!" moments.

I know what you mean about when people say that you have lost weight. I used to hate it, now i don't mind so much if they kind of say it quietly to me on the side, but when it's a bit more like "Attention shoppers! Bedsy's lost weight!!!! Everyone Look and point and her!"
That's not so good.

So I have lost another kilo. 2 Kilos until i am officially under the 80kg mark. I can't wait!
I have been sort of walking/running lately and even though it's kind of hard, i've been sticking to it.
I like the feeling you get while you're running i just have to get over that whole hyperventilation thing, which i know happens to everyone. I just gotta stick with it, and befor ei know it, i'll be running instea dor walking/running.

Hope everyone is having a great day.
 
Today my body has that weird clean and empty feeling, which I love! I really don't want to eat because it feels good, but I will have my toast and fruit salad like normal so i don't kill my metabolism.
I have lost another 0.5kg so i need to lose another half a kilogram in ten days to be under 80kgs by the start of the footy season like i said i would be. If that happen's I know i'm on target! :D Plus it's my birthday in 3 weeks so I want to lose as much weight as possible by then.
I've been going pretty good lately. Pants that used to be tight now either fit or are baggy and tops i've bought for work are getting baggy on me too.
I won't buy new clothes though until absolutely need to.
But when i reach my goal weight i'm do the doctor phil thing and throw out all of my big clothes, so that they're not there for me to grow back into. so excited! Apart from my clothes though, i notice that my hair is healthier and my skin is better too. today after work i will take my dog out for a bit and then bring him home and then i will walk/run for about and hour and then comme hom for the biggest loser. I love that show.
 
Looking Good With The Diet And Excercise Keep Up The Good Work!
 
I love clothes that are too big, they make me happy :) I'm at that point where I should just go find one or two pairs of pants and a few shirts that are a little more fitted, but I'm with you- I don't want to !! not until I'm able to go crazy with my checkbook lol :)
 
I can't wait for the time when i really seriously can't wear my clothes anymore because it just looks bad.
But thanks so much for youe support guys, I can't tell you how good it feels to get encouragement xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Been pretty busy and stressed out lately.
I haven't put on any weight, but i haven't lost any either. I seriously haven't even put my runners on for like 2 weeks. I've just had no motivation, and there's no real excuse i've just been lazy.

On the upside though, i can start to feel my motivation coming back now.
I walked today and my food was almost perfect (except for the white bread roll i had with my soup for lunch)
Tomorrow i'm gonna take a couple of my mates down to the park and kick the soccer ball around a bit.

The only way is up kiddies! :D
 
Glad to hear you've gotten some motivation back :) I haven't been to the gym at all this week, and your right, no excuse except for lazy... but next week WILL be better, and up is absolutey the only way to move :)
 
well, I hate to admit it friends, but i have been in some poor form lately.

Haven't gained, but haven't really lost either.

Every morning i step on the scales expecting to have gained at least
1kg. And every morning, my weight has been stable and i feel i have doged soooo many bullets.
Today I even woke up having broken my 80kg barrier and weighed in at 79.5kg.
But it kind of felt wrong. Like getting credit for something you didn't do.
So today i have had my peach, a mug full of cheerios and a coffee, i will have my ham cheese lettuce and tomato sandwich for lunch and when i get home i will put on my walking shoes and walk for at least an hour.

Time to try and get back on track.
 
I have been realy busy and havn't been around for a while, just checking in on ya. Just keep doing your best.
 
Hey Tru!

Thanks for coming by mate. It's been a while since i have been on too. I'm gonna try and get back into the swing of things.Not starting tomorrow, but right now.
I am still the same weight, but that's 'cause i go on and off being good and being bad.

I am most definately at that point right now, how i was saying when people start saying how good you look and stuff, and then i freak out and stop doing what i'm doing, Why do I do that? Does anyone else do that??

I hope I'm not getting too deep here, but maybe it's psychological???

I don't know...

Okay I have a choice here. I can do what I've always done, and quit or stay the way I am or, I can try and work out why I do that, deal with it and keep going.
*Note to self* Tomorrow is a brand new day and I wil start all over again.
 
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I'm so glad your back!! I've missed your beautiful avatar...lol, jk. Ya know what- some people do that- where they get somewhere and then quit. I did it last year, only kinda, cuz I was working out like mad, but not eating right, and I still lost a few inches, and as soon as I could see some results, I screwed it all up. Tomorrow IS a new day, and theres only one way to keep the compliments comin!! Can't wait to see you EVERY (haha)day in here :)
 
You Can Do This Work Yourself Through It And We Have Really Missed You!
 
Hi Guys, Thanks for stopping by, I have really missed you guys too. You don't realise how much support you miss out on when you don't post here for a while.
With your support and encouragement, I feel like I can do it and it's not that far away and without you guys posting and reading your journals I feel like I don't have the same focus and motivation.

I knew I dropped in and out of motivation. I always have, but I am go close to one of my goals now that to give up now woul be just stupid.

If i can lose 5 kilos, I will be 74 kilos which is what i was when i was in highschool.

One other thing I noticed, when I wa speaking to one of my friends last night was, when I am at work. I am mostly a food saint. Then when I get home, my junk food radar gets switched on and if there is anything bad in the house, I will track it down and eat it! Even having a little bit of choclate or something during the day didn't help.
It's something about being home that just makes me want to eat. Or maybe that's just a symptom of that whole thing about me trying to sabbotage myself everytime I get to a point where I am really starting to see results. Maybe I feel scared of losing weight?? I have no idea why I would be, but it is possible.

I don't know, at least I am off to a flying start this morning. Time to get back to basics and start all over again.
Have resolved to eat every three hours and have 5 meals a day.
Have started off the day with 1/4 of a mugful of cherrios with lite milk, some pineapple and a tub of fat free cheesecake yoghurt.
Have set my reminder on my computer to tell me to eat again at 10.30. will have a coffee a mandarin and maybe a muslei bar. Am going out for goodbye lunch today and will chose as healthy meal as possible. Will have another mandarin at around 3-3.30 so i don't get that urge to binge when i get home and on the way home I will buy some veggies and make a stir-fry for dinner.
Just wanna get through today!
 
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