Bassackwards diary

Yea Me!

I just looked at the calendar and realized that today is my one year anniversary!!! It has been one year since I last smoked a cigarette. 365 days smoke free!:hurray:
 
Congrats on that Judy! I know cigarette smoking can be very difficult to give up, my parents were both smokers and many of my friends were and still are, and trying to give it up. That is a great accomplishment for sure. Your adding life to your years and years to your life, and probably saving tons of money not buying them anymore either :)

-Sam
 
Woot!! :hurray::hurray:


Well done! That really is a big achievement...you should be very proud of your good self! A whole year smoke free :hurray:

Was catching up on your diary and saw the freaky 3lbs bit...that happens to me too and i have no idea why??! Usually its gone after a few days so hopefully it will just disappear. It def wasnt the nachos!

Well done again!

xx
 
Thanks guys. I sometimes dream that I'm smoking, but it's not enjoyable. I'm always horrified by the fact that I'm smoking. I know how easy it would be to go right back to being a smoker again....one cigarettte is all it would take. I still get the occasional craving...but it passes as quickly as it hits.
 
Judy, My husband smoked for 20 years..He quit 3 years ago..A year and a half ago he had an Aortic DIssection and had emergency open heart surgery.. He was on a ventilator for more than a week. They told us flat out that had he still been smoking he would have been on it for much, much longer..
It's such a great thing that you quit..There are just so many ways the smoking can impact your life in bad ways
 
My dad told me right after he quit he had dreams he was smoking. He always felt bad about it in the dream and then woke up and still felt weird about it. He smoked for many years, as did my mother. My mother wasn't so lucky... She ended up getting diagnosed with smoking related lung cancer in 2001. She had surgery and they removed 2 lobes of her right lung, and made a rather speedy recovery considering that it was a pretty serious surgery... She was fine for about a year, then they found tumors on her brain. She fought that with radiation, and they said the prognosis was pretty good, the tumors were shrinking.... Shortly after that though it spread to her liver and her pancreas (she was a pretty severe alcoholic for many years as well)... She fought that with 2 hardcore rounds of chemo but by then it had pretty much got her... It was pretty tough to watch and go thru as a family, and it reminds me of how awful smoking is in the first place. I've never smoked cigarettes really (I think i've smoked the equivalent to 1 or 2 when i was drunk...) It's just not for me. I did recently quit smoking something else though ;), and I've felt really great about it since I quit.

Your a tough gal, and I would imagine a lot of quitting smoking cigarettes is the mental aspect of the whole thing. Many of my friends have smoked and quit and all used different methods. I've had some use patches, some go cold turkey, and some even start using that drug called Chantix to help them quit...

-Sam
 
Thanks Jenny...I did quit smoking once before, but forgot I was an ex smoker, not a non smoker. Ex smokers can't have that occasional cigarette in the bar. This time around I know better and I will not smoke again.
 
My dad told me right after he quit he had dreams he was smoking. He always felt bad about it in the dream and then woke up and still felt weird about it. He smoked for many years, as did my mother. My mother wasn't so lucky... She ended up getting diagnosed with smoking related lung cancer in 2001. She had surgery and they removed 2 lobes of her right lung, and made a rather speedy recovery considering that it was a pretty serious surgery... She was fine for about a year, then they found tumors on her brain. She fought that with radiation, and they said the prognosis was pretty good, the tumors were shrinking.... Shortly after that though it spread to her liver and her pancreas (she was a pretty severe alcoholic for many years as well)... She fought that with 2 hardcore rounds of chemo but by then it had pretty much got her... It was pretty tough to watch and go thru as a family, and it reminds me of how awful smoking is in the first place. I've never smoked cigarettes really (I think i've smoked the equivalent to 1 or 2 when i was drunk...) It's just not for me. I did recently quit smoking something else though ;), and I've felt really great about it since I quit.

Your a tough gal, and I would imagine a lot of quitting smoking cigarettes is the mental aspect of the whole thing. Many of my friends have smoked and quit and all used different methods. I've had some use patches, some go cold turkey, and some even start using that drug called Chantix to help them quit...

-Sam

I'm sorry to hear about your mom Sam. Lung cancer is a devastating disease. Very few people survive it for more than a year or so. Today, BF's co-worker lost her husband to lung cancer. He was only diagnosed a couple of months ago. The doctor gave no hope for a cure, just managing the symptoms and they chose to not know anything further. He was still working last week and died last night. :(

I quit cold turkey the first time but couldn't find that same strength this time and I used Chantix. I only took it for about 6 weeks though and then I felt I was good to go w/o it.

BTW...congrats on quitting your own thing. BF quit smoking that stuff too, only he did it a long time ago. He had to give up his best friend to quit because he knew he couldn't hang out with him and not smoke.
 
Thanks Judy.

I hear Chantix is the way to go. My friend is starting it this week sometime, and many people I know have used it at my work. My dad basically went cold turkey when he quit, and hasn't smoked since.

My own thing :) is so far so good. I used to feel like I wouldn't be able to live without it, and now I know thats not the case. It was an all day everyday type of thing for me for about 3 years too, so to now not be doing it feels great, and I feel really clear. It does sometimes get hard around certain friends who still partake though... Wadaya do, mind over matter, right?

-Sam
 
Just poking my head in to say that life has gotten crazy on me. I'm not entirely sure why...but it will likely be Saturday or Sunday before I have time to breathe.
 
Hang in there Judy. I've been really busy this week with work, so I'm definitely looking forward to the weekend.

Take Care,
Sam
 
Well, the weekend is here...I'm still running behind my life and I'm exhausted. I'm working on a complete reprint of my karaoke song book. It's been updated so many times since the last reprinting that even I get confused trying to find new songs. So, I'm trying to do it right this time...fix all the typos, mutliple listing of the same songs, etc...and I'm still working on it. It's amazing how hard this mental work is for me...it's just concentration, nothing too challenging...but it's whipping my butt.

Oh..and my garden has needed some serious weeding, and a little picking. We've been enjoying some fresh lettuce, snow peas and zucchini though. I've got green tomatoes on the plants, green beans will be ready to pick enough for dinner tomorrow...etc. I will catch up with life, sooner or later....

Sam...did I see you on the Darlie Routier thread over at ctv? That's one case that fascinates me..but I haven't had a chance to bring myself up so speed on everything.
 
Congrats on quitting smoking! That is a huge accomplishment. H wants to quit but needs some sort of kick start, maybe the Chantix.

Sam, I'm very sorry to hear about your mom. That is very scary considering my father is a lifelong chain smoker. He even quit once for 10 years then went back. His current wife smokes so he will never quit since she cant be bothered to quit.

I am envious of your delicious garden. Fresh veggies taste so yummy as compared to commercial.
 
I actually have some spare time tonight! :) I'm sure enjoying my fresh veggies from the garden. I think I had 2 cups of broccoli and 2 cups of green beans to accompany my chicken sandwich tonight.

I got my exercise ball out with it's web and resistance bands....now I just gotta figure out how to make use of it. :)

I hope everyone is having a fabulous beginning to their 4th of July weekend.!
 
Today might be the official holiday, but tomorrow is the day I'll be hosting the bbq, so I spent most of today cleaning house and preparing food. I dug up the first potatoes of the season for potato salad, but we had some with dinner tonight too. Yum!!! There is something about a potato that doesn't have time to dry out.... You dig it out of the dirt, wash it, boil it and eat it. :)

I got in my usual workouts today (Abdominal exercises, butt exercises and push ups) along with 90 minutes of cardio....and was on my feet fixing stuff all day long.

I just love cooking with produce fresh from the garden. Pasta salad made with broccoli and carrots from my garden (tomatoes aren't quite ready yet). Lettuce, green beans, onions, zucchini, etc... I'm hoping I don't put on weight from pigging out on the fresh veggies.

I'm grilling chicken quarters for the meat course and I found some 98% lean turkey franks for hot dogs. I'm hoping I can please all the different palates that will be in attendance tomorrow.
 
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Hey there Judy :)

You probably did see me on a Darlie Routier thread on CTV... That case is very interesting. I just remember seeing a few datelines or msnbc specials on it. For some reason in my gut, I think she is guilty... I dunno. I guess the evidence is questionable tho... Who knows. She reminds me of a Susan Smith type.

My holiday is basically tomorrow too. I'm at work overnight tonite, so the diet coke and coffee is in full swing. My dad's side of the family is hosting a huge BBQ tomorrow night at my aunt's house in Draper. That is the Mormon side of the family, so you better bet the green jello salad will be there, lol... No alcohol either, so it will be water and pink lemonade... I'm still excited to go and see that side of the family though. My dad is the baby of 13 kids, who each had 6 to 8 kids of their own about, so the amount of cousins I have is ridiculous ;)

That's so cool about your garden. I need to work on one of those next year. It would be so nice to have my own veggies to eat up, instead of going to the store and spending a fortune on them. The Farmer's Market here has been pretty shitty this year so far, according to my dad.... Enjoy your homegrown fresh veggies :)

-Sam
 
Hey Sam...I'm conflicted on Darlie's guilt/innocence.. She looks really bad sometimes, but that throat slit was pretty darn close to killing her.

I have Mormon family too and the rule we follow for family gatherings is that you don't bring alcohol to the Mormon's turf/home. Any meeting on neutral ground or at the Jack/ex mormon's home is alcohol friendly. :)

The bbq went well today...everything came out super tasty. I've got way too many leftovers but at least I sent home the leftover Oreo pie that my step daughter brought. I didn't need that nasty crap sitting the the fridge or freezer calling my name.

I did eat more than I should have, but overall not terribly bad and I stuck with watermelon for desert instead of the pie. At 480 calories per serving (1/8th of the pie) I could almost eat the whole watermelon for the calories in one slice of pie!

Oh...my skinny little step daughter ate 2 slices of pie, in addition to a heaping plate of food) It's just not fair. :(
 
Glad the barbeque went off without a hitch. Good job getting rid of that Oreo cake. That indeed sounds EVIL! haha
 
Glad to hear your holiday gathering went well Judy. We basically have the same rules at our mormon family get togethers. We actually snuck some beers out in my aunt's summer house thing... It was kinda fun. Some of my relatives are so damn weird on that side of the family. I know I'm probably preaching to choir here, lol... There was jello salads abound... I also have some cousins who are really into yoga and are raw food ists, so they brought this raw apple crisp thing that was sugar free, etc... It was so good, I had two helpings. Then, my aunt who hosted the thing had cake and ice cream. She always buys too much (I can't blame her though, our family is so big, there were 90 people at this party and it wasn't even close to all of our family...).... Anyways, she had these extra cakes from Costco. They are the chocolate decadent ones and they are insanely rich, I can't hardly even eat any of it because it's so rich. She tried to send one home with us but I wouldn't let her. I told her with my little bro being so overweight and addicted to food, imo, that it would be like giving heroin to a heroin addict... So, we didn't take any home, and it helped me out too because now I won't have any.

-Sam
 
Yippee!!:hurray:

I just finished putting together my last song book. It was a beast as it was my master copy....300+ pages. Printing up new song books is such a task that I only do it when I must...it's been 3 years since I totally redid them, instead of just adding updates. I should be good to go for a few more years now.

My beans are coming on like gangbusters. BF picked up some sweet corn at the farmer's market on his way home from work (mine still looks like it's a week-10 days off) but it was seriously disappointing. It tasted like it was picked too many days ago (starchy) which is hard to believe this early in the season...but that's what it tasted like.

I confess I'm a little worried about what all this fresh produce will do for my diet. Green beans and squash probably won't kill me...but sweet corn and freshly dug potatoes might.

Anyway...life should be slowing down for me now that I got my songbooks done. :)


Oh.... I thought y'all would want to know that I got stung on the butt by a hornet. At least I think it was a hornet...a little bee looking thing that seemed to live in the creek bank. Silly me, I thought it was flies I heard buzzing as the water is low....my dog yipped and acted like he'd been bit on the butt. I asked him if he had been bit and then yelped myself as I got bit/stung. It hurts!! And it's been hours! :(
 
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