back again...

hey guys,
so this morning i woke up with that sick feeling in my stomach again. i still miss him a lot but i know that at this point i need to just move on and that like i said a couple times before... it doesnt even matter because the man i loved doesnt exist anymore. mike is someone totally different now. and i dont love this new person he is.

in any case, i havent been able to eat yet today because my stomach has been bothering me and im actually going out to dinner with a friend of mine later tonight. we'll see i suppose. I do know that after i leave the office today ill be heading to go shopping with some girlfriens, so at least ill get some walking in!
 
it doesnt even matter because the man i loved doesnt exist anymore. mike is someone totally different now. and i dont love this new person he is.
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good attitude...

you have to do what's right for you and your future happiness... and that means loving someone who's right for you...
 
Hello! I just stopped in and wanted to meet new people on here. Sorry to hear about your trouble. I hope heart heals soon and try to eat a little even when you don't mfel like it!!:)
 
Shopping and dinner... what more could you ask for?!? And you don't have to worry about a man waiting for you or wanting to leave the mall... I think you have the best of all worlds right now! :D

Hopefully your stomach will calm down. You need to get some good nutrients. I haven't been too hungry with my cold... which is odd, usually I eat everything in site.

Hope you are having a better day!
 
today was a better day.
i still feel sick to my stomach a little bit about everything but i expect that to last for awhile. at least i was able to eat lunch- subway!

now one of my girlfriend broke up with her boyfriend of 5 years- drama, drama, drama. at least we can be there for each other through all of this and we can help ech other take our minds off stuff. she is dieting with me so at least were doing ALL of this together. all the tough stuff. she, too, loves biggest loser. im trying to get her to join the forum but shes not sure, yet.

so last night i was up with becky really late and then i had to be at work today early, then i worked for 8 hours and now im hanging out in my office until class starts in about 45 mins.. after the 3 hr class im driving 4 hours to my sisters house. what a long day. both my sisters will be there which will be good for getting my mind off things- probably not so good for my diet, though. The only thing is that the long car ride alone allots for WAY to much thinking time... i wish i had a book on tape or something!! haha.
 
oh and i forgot to tell you guys about dinner with my friend last night... it was weird for me at first to go out to dinner with a guy that wasnt mike when i was single and the other guy was single- even though hes been my friend for a long time (but years ago we both expressed interst in the other person). im not AT ALL ready to even THINK about flirting with another guy- but it was really nice to just go out and shoot the shit with someone and laugh and feel good about life in general for a few hours.
 
jerseygirl35 said:
oh and i forgot to tell you guys about dinner with my friend last night... it was weird for me at first to go out to dinner with a guy that wasnt mike when i was single and the other guy was single- even though hes been my friend for a long time (but years ago we both expressed interst in the other person). im not AT ALL ready to even THINK about flirting with another guy- but it was really nice to just go out and shoot the shit with someone and laugh and feel good about life in general for a few hours.
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Even if you are not ready for a new relationship it's a good thing to go out and find normalcy again after what happened. Take care of yourself first and when your ready you will find someone.:)
 
You haven't posted in a few days... is everything ok? I went on a bit of a binge this weekend... I think I needed it to help me get over this cold. I am feeling better, but not 100%. I am back on my plan as of tomorrow.

I hope all is well! Update when you get a chance.
 
hey,
sorry i havent beena round for a few days. i was visiting my sisters and trying to just get away. i wasn very good on my diet and i gained 1 lb back- whch really isnt too bad. Since im past the sick to my stomach phase ive moved into the eating my emotions phase but i think ive been pretty good abut doing it in moderation. Im gonna really start trying to be good again. its just really hard because to try to keep my mind off thing i lke to just go out and do stuff which as well all know usually involged eating, drinking etc. im just taking it one day at a time here and trying to get through as best as possible.
so ive been flaky guys, but im sure you understand. tiff, thanks for keeping tabs on me and trying to keep me in line. it really does help to know that you gus wnt me to be good and want me to succeed!
 
Hello! Its OK that you have been checked out a bit recently, we all understand. I find it hard to check in here on the weekends, but it does help me keep on track when I do. Hopefully you had a good day. I have had a few long days at school. We are officially in full swing.

Talk to you soon...
 
hey guys,
so i went out last night with friends and i had a great time. but this morning im super depressed again. its been a rough day so far. a lot of crying. i just wish this would stop. when i get like this i cant eat anything and getting up and moving around just doesnt even seem like a viable option at all. i try but i feel like when i move around EVERYTHING i see reminds me of him. i just want my old life back. i want back what i had. i want to call him so bad- but for what? hes already said everything he is going to and he needs to say. and i know he isnt going to say what i want to hear. so talking to him would jjust hurt even more. today i got a package in the mail from him- just some of my stuff... no note. nothing. oh my gosh, i was pacing around in my house bawling my eyes out. i just want the paint to freaking STOP. i know it hasnt been that long but it feels like it has to me. every day like this one is just an eternity. what hurts even more is to think that none of this is getting to him at all. hes not missing me every minute of every day like i am him. i just dont know what to do.
 
You poor thing, I'm so sorry to hear you're still feeling so hurt. The first love is the hardest to get over. I remember going through some bad pain in my college days from a break-up. The next one got easier and so on. Not that that helps any at all! Men can sometimes turn off their emotions somehow, I have this feeling he'll end up missing you down the road but for now he's convinced himself that he wants to be single. I think that is really mean that he sent your things back to you with no note or nothing. How awful!

How about posting your pic on a dating website and just seeing what interest comes your way. It'll occupy your time and you'll feel better about yourself as you see how many people there are to connect to out there. No need to go out on a date or anything, but just to get some attention and communicate with other guys.
 
hey blancita,
I actually thought about that. I dont know- i went out last night and a whole bunch of guys were hitting on me and stuff but it just makes me feel sick to my stomach. i mean on one hand i feel good about myself cause all these guys want me- but on the other hand i just miss him.
i wouldnt say he was my frist love. iw as with someone for 3 eyars before that but i was ready to be done with that realtionship when the time came. i dont know if ill ever be ready to be done with this one.
 
Hey! Sorry to hear about your ex being so mean. That is just uncalled for. Where do they get these ideas that doing something like that would be remotely ok??? I would love to meet these sources.

I hope you are doing better today than your previous two posts. Sounds like your weight loss progress is coming along. Go out! Get your mind of things... dancing always works for me :D. Speaking of dancing, are you starting the pole classes soon? Isn't that what you said you were going to take... I can't remember.
 
hey all,
well bad things dont come in 3s, they come in like 3,000s. my car broke down now too! not to mention i had jury duty today (who gets jury duty at 22?!) and i got selected for this jury- so i have to go back but i keep having to have people drop me off and pick me up while ym cars being fixed!! i feel like im 12 again. not to mention other stupid crap (mike has some chick writing him notes now on facebook- ugh!) and i have school and theres all this drama with me having to take off for this trial thats really not my fault! man, i just wish things would start getting better! i mean the phils won and that was awesome, but how bout something for ME?! ugh, murphy just sucks.

because of all this crap i havent been able to monitor the way i eat. im not eating enough at all.
 
Hey all,
moving on with life here one day at a time and the good news is im continuing to lose weight. i know ive been flaking out a lot here and im sorry about that. ugh.
 
jerseygirl35 said:
hey all,
well bad things dont come in 3s, they come in like 3,000s. my car broke down now too! not to mention i had jury duty today (who gets jury duty at 22?!) and i got selected for this jury- so i have to go back but i keep having to have people drop me off and pick me up while ym cars being fixed!! i feel like im 12 again. not to mention other stupid crap (mike has some chick writing him notes now on facebook- ugh!) and i have school and theres all this drama with me having to take off for this trial thats really not my fault! man, i just wish things would start getting better! i mean the phils won and that was awesome, but how bout something for ME?! ugh, murphy just sucks.

because of all this crap i havent been able to monitor the way i eat. im not eating enough at all.
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Obviously you're the type like me that loses your appetite when you're stressed or hurt. I wouldn't worry too much about it, its never slowed my metabolism down when I hadn't eaten much and really had no lasting effect except to help me shed a few extra pounds that I put on when I was "happy". I would be more concerned if this continued for a longer period of time or if I was purposely starving myself and denying my hunger.

Breaking down cars can be very stressful in themselves. I had a bout of bad luck this summer also, and it included very costly repairs to my car. I was without one for over a month too, but I live in the city so its very easy to get around with public transportation. But it did make me feel like I was on a bad luck streak, but really it just happens to everyone at some point. Once that's fixed and paid for and you're finished with that trial, just having a normal life again will start looking really great. You'll start to appreciate the actual low stress of your life without curve balls and things will be dandy again :).
 
hey blancita,
whats weird is that I normally am a stress eater. Just this thing with Mike has thrown me on my head and Ive never reacted this way to stress. Im starting to worry that my bodys about to give out under all this emotion and stress. In any case I got my car fixed but then theres always something new wrong with it. its a piece of crap and I need to just get a better used one but thats a matter on convincing my parents to help me out with that (cant very well do it on my own as a graduate student).
The trial is actually kind of fun. I love watching all those court room shows, but its more the fact that the people i work with anfd for gave me all kinds of crap about having to miss work when its honestly not my fault. I dont have a choice. Oh well, every day is a struggle and every day is different from the last.
In any case- one day at a time, but thanks for checking in! Its nice to hear people say thats its gonna get better, even if it doesnt feel like it right now.
 
Hey Jersey! Glad to hear that you are doing well! How long is the trial?? I think it would be interesting to sit on a jury. The one time I got the little thing in the mail was after I had moved for undergrad and didn't live in that city any more.

Vehicles are a pain! I swear I always hear something in ours, but my hubby thinks I am crazy.

Your almost in the 160's club! Congratulations! I am hoping that I will just continue to slowly loose this semester. The craziness has started, officially. I am in the library now and I won't be leaving until I have a solid rough draft of my lit review done. It is due tomorrow and I haven't done anything (including not reading articles!!... I have a bunch, just not read). I will be weighing in on Thursday... hopefully I will see a little drop. I have been eating good, so maybe that will pay off.

How is school going for you?
 
hey tiff,
I know im excitd that im so clase to being in the 160s, esp cause ive only been on this "diet" for a little over a month now. i need to start being more strict with myself about my eating but it hasnt been an issue cause i havent been eating all that much. right now for me, though, things are starting to lok up and once that happens i know ill start eating again, like, hardcore.
school/work is SO stressful. i feel like im stretched wayyyy to thin. im not sure if im gonna stay with this job after this semester. its just way to stressful and its not worth the money even with tution included. now the only thing is finding a JOB for januar. i think ill stay in school but im still not sure. UGH. it sucks that a bachelors is just not enough anymore.
the trial was on for 2 days last week and i think 1 or 2 days this week. depends on how long it takes the defense to present and how long it takes us to deliberate. i really do enjoy it though, its a nice break from work and its a really interested case that will actually take some real thought on our part.

anyways, good luck on thursday. being good with your eating is KEY so im SURE youll see a drop! :)
 
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