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jerseygirl35

jerseygirl35

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Hey everyone. So im a litle embarrased to say that i was here about 2 months ago and then a new job etc, started and i didnt end up dieting like i should have. im just glad to be in a place where everyone here has been through it and they wont judge. So here i am. Now that i have started a new job and grad school, i feel like im settled and im starting my diet again. I started yesterday. Im about 184 lbs and Id like to be 150 by me and my boyfriends 3 y anniversary- which is 6 months from today. So i think my goal is reasonable, 34 lbs in 6 months. In any case- your support is much appreciated and much needed. im glad to be back, though. Thanks again!!
 
ok so day 2 is over and im feeling good. im still very motivated and im really pumped about my diet and about being good. tomorrow im about to have this really tested. my job is difficult for dieting because i work with a 34 yr old man who is mentally retarded. as part of his daily life he is taken to fast food for lunch everyday... (believe me, both me and the other 2 girls who work with ryan are not happy about this, but we arent allowed to change his program). In any case, i have to work from 8-4 and then i have class from 530 to 830. so i plan on packing a lunch and eating my own food throughout the day so as not to eat fast food. i am NOT going to lose my willpower. i need to keep reminding myself that there is absolutly no reason why i cant be good on my diet. its true that it would be much easier to just eat with him bt i refuse to do that.
aside form that i did some research on some better alorie options at those places so if i do decide to pick something up there- i know what my better choices are to stay under my calorie limit.

i realize im ranting. im sorry. haha. in any case, day 3- here i come!
 
Hey! I think we are in similar boats! Grad school... blah! You just started w/ a new job!?! You might be crazy... I am in grad school too. Just started my second year and I have pretty much the same amout of weight to loose!! Who set up this plan for this man you work with??? I used to work with people with special needs and often they are over weight because they don't exercise much. Is this guy not? Maybe his case worker needs to see Super Size Me.

Good luck with everything! What are you going to grad school for?
 
tiffany,
yea seriously, his parents always complain about how overweight he is and yet they insist he eat out everyday at fast food places- its really frustrating. the job i have is through my grad achool and its actually paying for my tuition. I did my undergrad work at Princeton University for Developmental Psych and im doing my grad work at Holy Family University for my masters in education with a teaching cert in elementary ed and special ed. im so ready to done with school!!its nice to find people in the same boat!

as for the daily diary...
i finished my first day with ryan today and i had to just wait till i was done work to eat- i could pack anything last night because i need to go grocery shopping. i know its so bad to wait all day to eat but i just couldnt manage to do it differently today. now i know though, and i can do it better. i lost my first pound of the new diet, and it only took me 2 days to do it so that a good sign. hopefully this keeps up!
now ive gotta go to class- blah!! but thanks for reading and responding!
 
Maybe you can pack snacks in a lunch bag or something?? Thats what I have been doing at school. I bring small snacks (veggie's, yogert, etc...) that I can eat between classes. Just enough to keep the hunger away but not make me full.

I have a hospital that is paying for my tuition... way better than taking out more loans!! Especially with private school tuition, it is horrible!!

Anyways, I wrote a lot to you in my diary...

Have another great day!
 
so i weighed in this morning and i lost 2.5 lbs!! the first week always sees weight coming off faster which is nice. im almost back in the 170s which will feel awesome. i went for a walk with my friend last night- we probably did about 2 and a half miles. im hoping to go out again later tonight when its not so freaking hot, but michael is coming to see me so we shall see.

i have to work with ryan again tomorrow. so im hoping to at least go grocery shopping today so i can pack some things for tomorrow when im working. well see. ill write later.
 
alright i just need to vent.
i guess this might sound stupid but i know for mself tht i need to really regulate- strictly- my calorie intake-ESPECIALLY in the beginning. any time i start "estimating" thats when i start falling off.
so my boyfriend came over and we made plans to go to saladworks for dinner because they post their nutritional info online. my mom came out and she was like- do you guys wanna go out to dinner. and i said well im willing o go somewhere like applebees that posts their info on the menu, or online. she shot that down and then my boyfriend chimed in " a salad is a salad". i understand thier points. i DO need to be able to step outside my box, but not 4 days into my diet! cant they just respect that for right now i need to be strict for myself?
 
Its hard going out to eat. We went out to eat twice yesterday with my mother-in-law. I had a salad both times, but I have heard that the salads can have a lot of calories. You just never know. The second one was a "weight watcher" salad and the menu said it had less than 590 calories. So that was encouraging.

I hope you are having a great weekend! Don't study too hard!
 
So this morning i weighed myself and i weighed 182.0. i think that myweigh in yesterday was a little bit of a fluke. it actually makes sense that way because its kind of hard to believe that i wouldve lost 3 lbs that fast. so maybe the scale was just sitting on a weird angle. i dunno. we'll see i guess.

i had a good diet day today and even saved up enough calories to have a vodka and diet coke when i go out with my friend tonight. after that ill probably just have water but, hey, ill take one!! haha.

i took ryan to the zoo today because its kind of a waork out to push him in his wheelchair all around the zoo. i felt like i got some calorie burning in. i hope tomorrows weigh in is more consistent. we shall see i suppose. happy weekend everyone!
 
Are you weighing in everyday?? I know it can be hard not to, but it might be helpful to do it once a week. Or maybe I am just doing that because of going to weight watchers in the past. I am a little OCD with the scale as well. I almost want my hubby to hide it and bring it out for me on Friday mornings.

Good for you for saving calories. I haven't really been counting. I think pushing a wheelchair can be great exercise! Good for you for getting him out and about.

Good luck going out tonight... strength be with you!
 
so in the past couple days crazy stuff went down.
my boyfriend and i might be breaking up. right now were like on a break or something but were still together. i dunno., he is just toally changing. i dont even know who he is anymore and now he just wanted to end things afte 2 and a half years. im so hurt, i didnt even know it was apossible to hurt like this, anyways...

i lost 4 lbs yesterday because of all this. im just exhausted.
 
What a horrible thing to be going through right now. I was wondering where you went this weekend. Hopefully it won't throw everything in your life off track. Men... ugh. :boxing:

I hope everything turns out ok. Check in when you are feeling up to it.:hug2:
 
hey tiff,
i met with mike tonight and we talked about everything. we're still together but im just giving him space right now. this is actually making dieting a lot easier. i was only able to eat 600 cals today and i had to force those down. I feel a lot better after talking with him tonight though. i really do think that once i give him a little space hell realize that he misses me and he wants to be with me. if he doesnt, i dunno, i guess i just have to accept that and move on. this just hurts is all.

anyways, i know this supposed to be about weight loss so i should stop talking about my personal life and everything i guess. i dunno, i just feel the need to vent.

im really proud of myself though. that this hasnt thrown me off my diet. i have to hold on to it for sanity though. something else to put my mind and energy towards while im giving him his space i guess. i just love him so much.

anyways, tomorrow i work with ryan again so im gonna be tested on this diet again. i still havent been grocery shopping just because all this crap went down. UGH.

anyways, tomorrow is the season premeire of biggest loser- im so excited. thats something to look forward to!
 
one day at a time here.
today was another rough day. im still having a really hard time eating and keeping food down. I know its not good for me to not be eating but i just cant make myself. oh well. i was 177.5 this morning. we shall see.
 
Sorry you are having a sucky go at it in your personal life. I just broke up with my boyfriend also. Good job on not eating your emotions! its not as easy as some might think. stay strong ;)
 
hey kaplooie,
yea we arent officially broken up and im hoping that we wont be, but im hoping for the best and preparing for the worst. but thanks for your support-i need all i can get right now.
 
Hey Jersey! We haven't heard from you in a couple days... so I thought I would check in. How are things? Are you surviving all of the stress (school, men, etc)? Hopefully you are still with us :D.

Tiffany
 
Hey Jerseygirl, hope you're feeling better :). That must've been a shock, all this BS about needing space right now. Sometimes it does help to go off and do your own thing, I'm sure he'd come back like you said. I also lose my appetite when I'm going through something with a guy. Better than overeating IMHO, though you start to get weak (get some liquid calories when you cant eat). Take good care :).
 
hey guys,
sorry i havent been around for a few days. this is just the hardest thing ever. mike and i like broke up because i said it wasnt fair for me to wait. this weekend is particularly hard for me because we had plans for every single day. monday is mikes birthday and i was taking him out this weekend to a concert and stuff. i might have written this already... i dont know. im just lost. waking up every day and trying to get through another day is so incredibly difficult. It sucks when you believe that youre building a life with someone and they just decide things have "changed".
i took a few days where i didnt really monitor what i was eating... i went out and got pretty drunk last night. i was expecting to have gained some weight bck but when i weighed in this morning i had actually lost another pound. ugh. i just want my life back.
 
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