Ashys Diary

ashy

ashy

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So, I guess this is where I spill my guts and all the food in them. :eek:

I have a hard time getting myself to stick to a healthier life style. I often find myself suffering from the "I'll start tomorrow" syndrome. I have been exercising off and on for a while.
I have been gaining weight for a while now and now I can't wear any of my clothes anymore and I find myself buying bigger and bigger sizes.
I am a college student, and so is my husband.
We don't have a lot of time to cook on days that we are going to school. I enjoy going out to eat.
My school has a great gym, but I live 40 minutes away from it and after being at school for 12 hours in 1 day I seriously just want to go home.
Ah, I know I'm just making up excuses for myself. Im just looking for something to help me out a bit.
Changing lifestyles is so hard to do.
Is there a miracle?
 
day one

Omg. I wrote a huge freaking post and it timed out when i went to post it and i lost all of it.

So here come the cliffs notes version, enjoy:

Last night I slept 4 hrs, pretty sluggish. Im a night owl and its killing me.

Tip: Hate to carry around that notebook to record all your calories? Use a digital voice recorder then transcribe it later on. Thats what I did today. Its very nice to have something that fits in your pocket, and light weight. I also will be less likely to forget to jot something down.

Food Stuffs:
Chicken buiscuit - 420 calories 19gfat 4.5g sat fat
Mood: Just woke up, was pretty damn hungry and looking forward to it.

Diet lemonade - 10 calories
Boy is it yummy.

Nut and honey Wrap - 373 cal 18.5g fat 4.8 sat fat
Coke - 180 Cal
Mood: pretty hungry. lunch time. Could have done without the coke. I think I will from now on. Mostly because I don't like putting unnecessarily chemicals in my body. Which now makes me think about fast food in general (preservatives, eww).
I got this from Roly Poly
Great place to get filling, healthy, nutricious food at a realtively decent price. Half sizes will fill you up!!! A whole would be a good way to save money if you dine with another person and split it with them.
Check them out if you are someone who likes to eat out like i do.

1 water 20 oz
I will uptake this before the day is over.

1 coffee w/skim milk
approx 10 calories or less. Just a squirt of milk and no sugar. Sweetened coffee acutally makes me gag. Dunno why, don't care. Its one of the few unsweetened things I like.

When I leave school this evening and go home I will have a small dinner and a snack before bed time.

I'm feeling good, and feeling that I can do this.
Reading and being able to interact with other people doing the same thing will be very supportive.
I know that I have seen a few amazing people's diarys so far that are very inspirational. <3
 
Welcome to your diary and the site - we're glad to have you here and hope you enjoy your stay :)

What a great idea to use the voice recorder and I especially like how you're recording moods as well -that makes so much sense to do that.. :D well done for being aware of it.

that roly poly place sounds yummy they need more locations :)
 
Welcome to your diary and to Weight Loss Forum. It sounds like you have the tools to be successful. Maybe you can ease in to hitting the gym after classes. Or you could go before class if your classes don't start too early.

Good idea on the voice recorder and recording you moods that go with what you are eating. Keep it up!
 
*tiffany* said:
Welcome to your diary and to Weight Loss Forum. It sounds like you have the tools to be successful. Maybe you can ease in to hitting the gym after classes. Or you could go before class if your classes don't start too early.

Good idea on the voice recorder and recording you moods that go with what you are eating. Keep it up!
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Yeah, I think before I do that I am going to have to get my sleeping patterns worked out. Because today I felt so worn out from not having enough sleep the night before.
 
Hey Ashy! Looks like we're a bit similar in the diet department! I'm new and just checking out some diaries. I'm in teachers college, and certainly have very little time for exercise...and like you suffer the "tomorrow will be my fresh start" syndrome. Is your hubby looking to lose weight as well? I find the best first steps are less eating out...Not easy, but definitely a great way to start losing ;)

I like your idea of recording moods...I might give it a shot ;)
 
My husband is, but we have a way of just being lazy with each other. Hes very tall and carries his weight nicely, but he still isn't used to having a "belly." lol

We are both gaming nerds. :rolleyes:
I get home from school and all I wanna do is sit and relax.
I'm a 94 year old in a 26 year olds body trying to take over.

Very cool that you're going to be a teacher. I have substituted a few times, and all I can say is that I have a lot of respect for teachers now.

I'm in my junior year studying psychology.
I guess thats why I record my moods when I write down the foods that I eat.
Just think of the golden girls.
Cheesecake and storytelling was a ritual for them. lol. And what a yummy ritual that must be.
I guess I'm trying to see my patterns too, if there are any.
Probably most of it comes from being bored I think.
 
I find it's easier to lose weight when you have someone to do it with...who is motivating to you. I.E. NOT my fiance, lol. We too are 'gaming' nerds as you call it...He plays warcraft and I play sims. Definitely not a very active hobby. lol. Hoping it will get warmer outside soon as it's easier to get active when it's nice outside!!

After a day of chasing kids, I never have the oomph to exercise...but I figure chasing kids is exercise in itself. lol. So it's the healthy eating that i need to tackle...

Where do you go to school? I went to UW (waterloo, Ontario)
 
omg - we play world of warcraft too :p
that game does 1 of 2 things...
Make you fat from eating at your computer, or make you skinny from forgetting to eat.
So sad.... So... sad. lol

Im in Atlanta - GSU. Finished a final this evening! I did pretty well.
 
Ok today...
So far.. So good.
I had:
2 bowls of honey bunches of oats w/skim milk
320 calories
Mood: Hungry hungry.

1 cheesy bean and rice burrito
490 calories
1 Mtn Dew 12oz
165 calories
Mood: Was in a hurry to get to class after cramming for my lab final. Pretty hungry. The mountain dew craving was probably for something fizzy.
Wasn't too happy with the way the burrito tasted. It was a little too greasy and all the rice was at the bottom.
I like carbonated drinks with caffiene. Doh!
I still have room for a bedtime snack! Hopefully I'll include some vegetables because I haven't had enough of those today.

By no means do I feel like I am starving, feeling pretty good.
I'm planning on hitting the gym tomorrow night while my husband is in his lab class. :)
Still a bit tired because my body isn't used to sleeping like a normal person yet.
Ill get there!

Well, I'm afraid I won't be checking any more journals/diaries out this evening. I have another exam tomorrow and I have to go study for it and do all my other fun things.


Oh yea... I bought a new scale today. A digital one. I had a real cheap one that didn't seem accurate. Turns out that I weight more than I thought i did.
So my starting weight is 186.8 lbs. Ill fix my lil tracker tomorrow.
bah!
Cheers!
 
Today I kinda felt crappy. I took some pictures of myself and I cant say that I am too happy about them. :( I have avoided doing that for quite a while just because I I'd feel the way I am feeling right now. It sucks going to a college campus where there are so many thin beautiful women.
So right now, my optimism is in the toilet.
Any inspiring words, please?
I didn't blow my diet though. I stuck to it knowing that it was going to put me in the right direction.

Today:
Breakfast:
20 oz coke 220 calories (i know i know!)
1 strawberry yogurt with granola 250 cal 6g fat 1.5g fat

Lunch:
nut and honey wrap
373 cal 18.5g fat 4.8g sat fat
1/2 bag of baked lays
60 cal 1.5g fat

Coffee: Black with skim milk
10 cal

1 20 oz water
0 cal

Dinner:
Spicey chargrilled Salad w/fat free honey mustard
310 cal 14.5g fat 4g sat fat
diet lemonade

Total: 1223 calories :D
Ok I feel pretty good about that. Yay.

But seriously... Anyone have any optimistic things they remind themselves? At least that you had before you started to make any progress? Or when you get stuck?
Cause I could use some of that right about now.
 
Day 4:
Went to bed late last night because me and the husband talked for a few hours about random stuff.
So I ended up falling asleep around 4:30 am and woke up at 10am-ish. Not too too bad.

So far today...
breakfast:
1 big bowl of honey bunches of oats: 320 calories

Lunch:
1 grilled salad fat free dressing:
310 cal 14.5g fat 4g sat fat
diet lemonade
0

I feel like I am doing great. 4 days into my diet and not letting anything tempt me.
Nice to have some self control for once.
/pat on back.

More updates to come this evening.
 
well done on your successful days so far :) just make sure youre keeping away fomr those empty calories in sugarry drinks - drinking water saves you so many calories! glad youre in a better mood ... x
 
thanks Sophie.
I haven't had a soda yet today!
I think I realized how many calories it takes up yesterday. :D
Yes, I do feel better today.
I guess I have my moments. I just can't wait to see some progress. I know it isn't going to happen over night. And as of the moment I am feeling good about not giving in to junk food/greasy food. So until I see some success I guess that will be my mantra.

Update of todays meals:
Carrot and raisin salad:
340 Calories 12g fat 1 sat fat

Todays Total for calories (so far): 940.
So I have room for a snack later on tonight

Walked for about 30 minutes and stretched for about 10.
 
last update for meals today

Minestrone soup:
280 calories
1 pudding (no sugar added) 60 cal

Total for today: 1280

time to work on my project. im making a 15 minute video collage of movies for my psych class.
fun stuff.
 
So today I woke up around 3pm. I was soooo tired from the night before. Maybe Its because I haven't had as much caffeine as I have had in the past because I have cut back on a lot of my soda intake. I slept about 12 hours.
I had a really bad headache last night too.
I dunno if the headaches are from the diet drinks or the lack of caffeine. Time will tell I suppose.

So far today:
big boal of honey bunches of oats (320)
turkey club (577c, 34f, 7.5sf)
12 oz coke (155)

I have about 200 calories left for this evening.
Sounds like soup to me ;)
 
Hi Ashy,

I think it makes good sense to attach a mood and hunger sensation to your meals, will explain some of mine at times. When your sleep cycle balances out hitting the gym might seem more inviting.

As for the optimism, that can be a total mind blurring reality issue for me, right up your psych alley... I have a strange sense of humor. I ignore most mirrors and just go around imagining that I am still in good shape. That keeps me from being 'put off' by those real life thin/fit girls, especially at the gym. I just picture myself before my 5th child, 118lbs, cute and fit and ignore the rolls around my middle and unsightly jiggles. Exercising itself brings about a nice confidence and energy. Good luck with your goals and your finals.

I now need to put the sims game away and not check out this other war game that was mentioned.
 
mmmm prince. :)

Oh i hear you. I still buy clothes that are too small for me thinking that I will fit in them.
Then I get home and try to get them on and then pout about it.

I think I needed a little bit of that and the pictures I took of myself to snap me into reality.
 
Day 6

Well the scales are being kind to me today. I've lost 2.8 pounds and I am on day 6! Hot damn :)
I'm doing good, and I'm not starving myself.
You know... After cutting back calories I don't think I could function if I went any lower than this.
So I don't really understand how people can go through with that. I suppose thats a good thing.
Went to bed really late again though. Boo. Therefore I woke up pretty late too.

So far today:
cereal: 320 cal
propel: 30 cal (yummy water)
 
Sounds like you're doing great! I have a book, that the calories go down to 800 a day. I was thinking to myself how does anyone survive on that. But anyway enough of my babling.. You're doing good keep it up. :)
 
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