Ascendency
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I'd be fortunate if I can go to an area to get tanned. When I work, I work, when I'm off I stay home and relax 
. I'd like to go out to play tennis with my friends but theyre all busy with work when I get my days off, it sucks.
Anywho, time for my weekly Monday weigh-in.
Today, I weighed-in at 308!
308 has been the number i've been seeing for the past few days, and I'm glad It came thru on the official day. I am now 9 pounds from my mini goal for my Sept 1st visit with my doctor, I can't wait.
. I'd like to go out to play tennis with my friends but theyre all busy with work when I get my days off, it sucks. Anywho, time for my weekly Monday weigh-in.
Today, I weighed-in at 308!
308 has been the number i've been seeing for the past few days, and I'm glad It came thru on the official day. I am now 9 pounds from my mini goal for my Sept 1st visit with my doctor, I can't wait.
Wow...it's been a while since I visited this site. I had to reformat my computer and lost the forum address. But that wasn't my problem, I totally lost it the last month. I don't think I recovered from my trip to Boston, I just developed a bad eating habit.
My appointment with my doctor has been rescheduled, I never did reach my goal, and I've gained a lot back since the month or two since I fell off the wagon.
I'm trying to find my motivation I once had that was so strong that I had around last year, I was so determined. Nowadays, it's in my mind consiously, that I need to lose weight, but my actions has been preventing me from keeping on a steady plan.
I hope to get things started on the right track by reporting and revisiting this forum daily, and hopefully something will come up.
My appointment with my doctor has been rescheduled, I never did reach my goal, and I've gained a lot back since the month or two since I fell off the wagon.
I'm trying to find my motivation I once had that was so strong that I had around last year, I was so determined. Nowadays, it's in my mind consiously, that I need to lose weight, but my actions has been preventing me from keeping on a steady plan.
I hope to get things started on the right track by reporting and revisiting this forum daily, and hopefully something will come up.
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hey kinyo. Welcome back. Sorry to hear about you having a bad month. and about your computer. that sucks. I would be devastated if my baby had to be reformatted. *pats her computer's monitor*
I'm happy to see you're doing okay and is back though.
I was seriously lacking in motivation for the last month too. I think the best way I overcame it was to give myself very realistic, reasonable, specific goals. And not too many of them. Maybe just one or two and then build upon those as you get comfortable again. Also maybe do some deep emotional uncovery about why you wanna lose weight. what you find may motivate you.
I would be devastated if my baby had to be reformatted. *pats her computer's monitor*I'm happy to see you're doing okay and is back though.
I was seriously lacking in motivation for the last month too. I think the best way I overcame it was to give myself very realistic, reasonable, specific goals. And not too many of them. Maybe just one or two and then build upon those as you get comfortable again. Also maybe do some deep emotional uncovery about why you wanna lose weight. what you find may motivate you.
What more can I do by getting back on track? Creating a new forum signature of course! When I get back from classes I'm gonna make/post my top 100 reasons why I want to lose weight (Should've done this earlier when I fell off the wagon ).
Lately I've been feeling bloated :/, I hate this feeling very much heh. Uncomfertable.
P.S: Thanks M2M, looking forward to your comments and support, will return the favor, most defintaely.
).Lately I've been feeling bloated :/, I hate this feeling very much heh. Uncomfertable.
P.S: Thanks M2M, looking forward to your comments and support, will return the favor, most defintaely.
Hopefully back for good
Top 100 Reasons to Lose Weight, For Good
1. Because I turned 25 and I’m sick and tired of being fat.
2. Would want to be able to fit and look good in clothes.
3. To make my parents proud,
4. Although I want to make myself proud of me.
5. To be as athletic as I once before (high school).
6. To be able to each anything I want moderately and not feel regretful afterwards.
7. To be able to go out and enjoy warm and hot weather.
8. To go to the beach and get a tan.
9. To get a wonderful girlfriend and
10. To lose my virginity…
11. To make my brother feel proud of me.
12. To fit into tight spaces easily.
13. To not get tired so easily.
14. To not feel ugly all the time.
15. To realize that I’m 25 and that I should be married and have kids by now.
16. To feel comfortable and confident for a job/interview.
17. To better my self esteem.
18. To not have depression almost all the time.
19. To be able to fit in a NY Met jersey without having to buy a ridiculous XL size.
20. To shop at a regular department store.
21. To wake up to a better life every morning.
22. To make more real life friends.
23. To not be paranoid of people starring at me all the time.
24. To show a loved one a skinnier and more handsome version of me.
25. To fit into the tiny seats at Shea Stadium.
26. To look in the mirror and feel good.
27. To get real jobs and not have to worry about other peoples judging you.
28. To hang out with old friends and not be ashamed and embarrassed.
29. To not think about being fat all the time.
30. To not have dreams/nightmares about being fat all the time.
31. To finally rid my mind of conscious and unconscious thoughts of being fat.
32. Not have guilty feeling of all the weight loss products I’ve tried; that has failed.
33. To be a better person and not be miserable all the time.
34. To walk up a flight of stairs and not be out of breath.
35. Buy nice, new clothing! Have my parents spoil me for once, and not my brother.
36. To stop dreaming of being skinny.
37. To not feel like an odd person out amongst friends.
38. To not have people say that I’d be handsome if I lost weight.
39. To not feel helpless at times.
40. To not have to hear jokes about my clothes being the size of parachutes.
41. To enjoy outdoors more often.
42. To feel and know that I’m healthy and living a better life.
43. To not consciously think everyone is making fun of me.
44. To not be embarrassed in front of relatives.
45. To not feel embarrassed in front of acquaintances.
46. To be criticized for something other than my weight.
47. To fit in the tiny sized desks at school.
48. To be able to walk and run for long periods of time.
49. To be able to stand for long periods of time.
50. To have my parents respect me.
51. To show people the real me.
52. To play tennis for a few hours and not have pain in my knees and feet.
53. To not get blisters every time I do some physical activity.
54. To go on a trip to China and visit relatives, instead of making up excuses to not go for other reasons.
55. To not have relatives pity me.
56. To not have to wake up at night with a nightmare about never being able to lose weight…
57. And to not have to cry myself back to sleep because I feel hopeless.
58. To participate in neighborhood sports leagues and have fun.
59. To show people how athletic I can really be if I just lose this blubber.
60. Go for long jogs in the park…just because I want to, and can.
61. Not feel embarrassed when there is an attractive girl sitting next to me in class…
62. Or talking to me.
63. To be able to enjoy myself while eating out with friends
64. To be able to walk to home or to school instead of taking public transportation.
65. To not go through pants so quickly due to rubbing of thighs…
66. To get stronger.
67. To have nice muscular features that attracts people.
68. To have a six pack?.
69. To maybe fit in a size medium t-shirt.
70. To not feel sorry for myself when I watch reality weight-loss shows such as Biggest Loser.
71. To lose this damn weight on my own other than having surgery such as gastric bypass or liposuction.
72. To look younger, although people have said I look 20, when I’m really 25.
73. To enjoy my favorite foods once in a while instead of feeling disgusted.
74. To realize how potentially handsome I would actually be.
75. To not have to look at skinny people and envy them
76. To not look at my skinny brother and envy him.
77. To finally feel skinny. Gosh, it has been such a long time.
78. To have healthier skin.
79. To not have repeated failed diets anymore, this one is seriously it.
80. To not feel embarrassed and run for cover when an attractive guy takes off his shirt and the girls flock to him.
81. To feel comfortable sitting behind the steering wheel of a car.
82. To feel comfortable sitting in a public transportation between two people.
83. To be able to throw myself around in a crowded public transportation to get off and on a bus or subway.
84. To be able to take the stairs without being out of breath while others take the escalators.
85. To participate in more physical activity with my brother.
86. To be able to go shopping with family and be able to enjoy it.
87. To be able to finally enjoy life…
88. To finally purge myself of all the negative thoughts and feelings in my mind.
89. To be able to drink whole milk, because it’s delicious.
90. To be able to eat at a fast food restaurant without regretting.
91. To not die young.
92. To have the feeling that pretty girls will stare at me when I go out to public places.
93. To enjoy a night with friends maybe at a club.
94. To be able to travel to counties without worrying about plane seating trouble.
95. To be recognized as an American Stud in foreign land.
96. To become again the tennis player I once was in high school.
97. To be able to play another sport I love, baseball.
98. To yield a little more respect from family members than I currently get now.
99. To prove the doubters wrong.
100. To not have to beg to God to lose weight, because I want to do it on my own.
I’ve failed…many, many diets. I’ve disappoint many, many people, but most importantly, I have disappointed myself. I hate to be such a Negative Nancy, but it’s the truth. All my top 100 reasons are true. I’m pathetic. But I really want to change. It’s definitely been a long while since I have posted…and I feel ashamed and I let a lot of the forum members down, as well as myself.
I really don’t want to fail my diet. I strongly believe that I have finally knocked some sense into me. Starting today this is a new life. I will weigh myself next week Monday. My starting weight WAS 331. I’m lower than that now, but not by much. I got as low..as 303. My short term goal was 299. I was so…so close. And I FAILED. This time I believe I can overcome that and finally succeed.
I promise to read everyone’s journals. I remember when I did get down to 303, I stayed focus and had extreme determination. I checked the forums everyday…its just that one day I lost the connection, and I was in a downward spiral. I’m so disappointed. As I sit here with tears streaming down my face, I can finally believe that maybe, I’m back.
Top 100 Reasons to Lose Weight, For Good
1. Because I turned 25 and I’m sick and tired of being fat.
2. Would want to be able to fit and look good in clothes.
3. To make my parents proud,
4. Although I want to make myself proud of me.
5. To be as athletic as I once before (high school).
6. To be able to each anything I want moderately and not feel regretful afterwards.
7. To be able to go out and enjoy warm and hot weather.
8. To go to the beach and get a tan.
9. To get a wonderful girlfriend and
10. To lose my virginity…
11. To make my brother feel proud of me.
12. To fit into tight spaces easily.
13. To not get tired so easily.
14. To not feel ugly all the time.
15. To realize that I’m 25 and that I should be married and have kids by now.
16. To feel comfortable and confident for a job/interview.
17. To better my self esteem.
18. To not have depression almost all the time.
19. To be able to fit in a NY Met jersey without having to buy a ridiculous XL size.
20. To shop at a regular department store.
21. To wake up to a better life every morning.
22. To make more real life friends.
23. To not be paranoid of people starring at me all the time.
24. To show a loved one a skinnier and more handsome version of me.
25. To fit into the tiny seats at Shea Stadium.
26. To look in the mirror and feel good.
27. To get real jobs and not have to worry about other peoples judging you.
28. To hang out with old friends and not be ashamed and embarrassed.
29. To not think about being fat all the time.
30. To not have dreams/nightmares about being fat all the time.
31. To finally rid my mind of conscious and unconscious thoughts of being fat.
32. Not have guilty feeling of all the weight loss products I’ve tried; that has failed.
33. To be a better person and not be miserable all the time.
34. To walk up a flight of stairs and not be out of breath.
35. Buy nice, new clothing! Have my parents spoil me for once, and not my brother.
36. To stop dreaming of being skinny.
37. To not feel like an odd person out amongst friends.
38. To not have people say that I’d be handsome if I lost weight.
39. To not feel helpless at times.
40. To not have to hear jokes about my clothes being the size of parachutes.
41. To enjoy outdoors more often.
42. To feel and know that I’m healthy and living a better life.
43. To not consciously think everyone is making fun of me.
44. To not be embarrassed in front of relatives.
45. To not feel embarrassed in front of acquaintances.
46. To be criticized for something other than my weight.
47. To fit in the tiny sized desks at school.
48. To be able to walk and run for long periods of time.
49. To be able to stand for long periods of time.
50. To have my parents respect me.
51. To show people the real me.
52. To play tennis for a few hours and not have pain in my knees and feet.
53. To not get blisters every time I do some physical activity.
54. To go on a trip to China and visit relatives, instead of making up excuses to not go for other reasons.
55. To not have relatives pity me.
56. To not have to wake up at night with a nightmare about never being able to lose weight…
57. And to not have to cry myself back to sleep because I feel hopeless.
58. To participate in neighborhood sports leagues and have fun.
59. To show people how athletic I can really be if I just lose this blubber.
60. Go for long jogs in the park…just because I want to, and can.
61. Not feel embarrassed when there is an attractive girl sitting next to me in class…
62. Or talking to me.
63. To be able to enjoy myself while eating out with friends
64. To be able to walk to home or to school instead of taking public transportation.
65. To not go through pants so quickly due to rubbing of thighs…
66. To get stronger.
67. To have nice muscular features that attracts people.
68. To have a six pack?.
69. To maybe fit in a size medium t-shirt.
70. To not feel sorry for myself when I watch reality weight-loss shows such as Biggest Loser.
71. To lose this damn weight on my own other than having surgery such as gastric bypass or liposuction.
72. To look younger, although people have said I look 20, when I’m really 25.
73. To enjoy my favorite foods once in a while instead of feeling disgusted.
74. To realize how potentially handsome I would actually be.
75. To not have to look at skinny people and envy them
76. To not look at my skinny brother and envy him.
77. To finally feel skinny. Gosh, it has been such a long time.
78. To have healthier skin.
79. To not have repeated failed diets anymore, this one is seriously it.
80. To not feel embarrassed and run for cover when an attractive guy takes off his shirt and the girls flock to him.
81. To feel comfortable sitting behind the steering wheel of a car.
82. To feel comfortable sitting in a public transportation between two people.
83. To be able to throw myself around in a crowded public transportation to get off and on a bus or subway.
84. To be able to take the stairs without being out of breath while others take the escalators.
85. To participate in more physical activity with my brother.
86. To be able to go shopping with family and be able to enjoy it.
87. To be able to finally enjoy life…
88. To finally purge myself of all the negative thoughts and feelings in my mind.
89. To be able to drink whole milk, because it’s delicious.
90. To be able to eat at a fast food restaurant without regretting.
91. To not die young.
92. To have the feeling that pretty girls will stare at me when I go out to public places.
93. To enjoy a night with friends maybe at a club.
94. To be able to travel to counties without worrying about plane seating trouble.
95. To be recognized as an American Stud in foreign land.
96. To become again the tennis player I once was in high school.
97. To be able to play another sport I love, baseball.
98. To yield a little more respect from family members than I currently get now.
99. To prove the doubters wrong.
100. To not have to beg to God to lose weight, because I want to do it on my own.
I’ve failed…many, many diets. I’ve disappoint many, many people, but most importantly, I have disappointed myself. I hate to be such a Negative Nancy, but it’s the truth. All my top 100 reasons are true. I’m pathetic. But I really want to change. It’s definitely been a long while since I have posted…and I feel ashamed and I let a lot of the forum members down, as well as myself.
I really don’t want to fail my diet. I strongly believe that I have finally knocked some sense into me. Starting today this is a new life. I will weigh myself next week Monday. My starting weight WAS 331. I’m lower than that now, but not by much. I got as low..as 303. My short term goal was 299. I was so…so close. And I FAILED. This time I believe I can overcome that and finally succeed.
I promise to read everyone’s journals. I remember when I did get down to 303, I stayed focus and had extreme determination. I checked the forums everyday…its just that one day I lost the connection, and I was in a downward spiral. I’m so disappointed. As I sit here with tears streaming down my face, I can finally believe that maybe, I’m back.
My family is out of the country until the 24th. They left before Christmas, so I have had the apartment all to myself.
Proudly to say, I havent taken advantage of them leaving and then pigging out. I've had been consuming very very healthy food. Taking in a good amount of vegetables and fruit and having a balanced meal.
One thing I'm struggling to do is to have portion control. Anyone can provide any advice? Its one thing to eat healthy, but then I overeat and feel like crap.
Proudly to say, I havent taken advantage of them leaving and then pigging out. I've had been consuming very very healthy food. Taking in a good amount of vegetables and fruit and having a balanced meal.
One thing I'm struggling to do is to have portion control. Anyone can provide any advice? Its one thing to eat healthy, but then I overeat and feel like crap.
Had a good day today, started off with a protein shake for breakfast. After class I had some brown rice, small portion, with a big serving of boiled green peas and corn, with a sprinkle of sea salt. On top of the rice I had a nice piece of grilled chicken, seasoned with salt/pepper/hot peppers and some adobo.
After eating the meal, I was very satisfied and felt it was very healthy. I still need to cut back on the salt and some seasoning, but the chicken was absolutely delicious. (Made with the Foreman grill)
For dinner I had 2 oranges and feel pretty full.
So far, I have had a successful day.
edit: also wanted to mention that I had to skip a walk at the park due to having to cut out a huge piece a skin off my left foot due to blisters from the day before. Hopefully I'll be able to go tomorrow.
After eating the meal, I was very satisfied and felt it was very healthy. I still need to cut back on the salt and some seasoning, but the chicken was absolutely delicious. (Made with the Foreman grill)
For dinner I had 2 oranges and feel pretty full.
So far, I have had a successful day.
edit: also wanted to mention that I had to skip a walk at the park due to having to cut out a huge piece a skin off my left foot due to blisters from the day before. Hopefully I'll be able to go tomorrow.
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