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April Banks 656 Pounds

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Day 1: 24th of June 2017:

Weight: 656 pounds.

Meals so far.
Breakfast:
5 grapes, 3 banans, steamed fish, and freshly squeezed orange juice.

Brunch:
1 banana, a boiled egg, 1 spoon of peanut butter, and 5 tomatoes.

Lunch:
Piece of watermelon, 3 oranges, and a glass of soy milk.

I need supplements with each meal. Plus I drink a lot of water.

Exercise is moving my arms. I can't walk and my arms are heavy.

Irony is what I've done to myself is torture dieting and exercise also feels like torture.

This is my second post here and both times posting I cry. It's so pain to talk about my size. My belly is so big it reaches my knees. My butt is so big I need help wiping it. I'm tired all the time. I'm in physical pain all the time. I sweat all the time. It's day one of my new diet and I feel so hungry. I have a nurse and a personal trainer. My older sister and younger sister are also starting their diets today. We all live together so we all need to do this at the same time. My family is very wealthy and when my mom died my older sister inherited the business. Our new nurse is not a yes person. We gave her permission to not give me nor my older sister unhealthy good even if we ask for it. My younger sister doesn't have that safety net since she can still walk but at least she doesn't have a driver's license.
 
Hello April
When i started i was in about the same same as you r. I was 500 pounds and could barely walk. When i did the breathing and sweating looked like i just finished a marithon. I pulled up my bmr and i think it said the calories to stay at my weight was around 4000 calories. I didnt drop down to like 1200 calories or so like some would because i have always had a huge appetite. Those type of calories i would feel like i was starving to death. I dropped down to about 3000 that way i still had plenty to eat. I started to lose weight almost right away. It's different for us compared to someone that needs to lose 40 pounds or so. We tend to lose weight faster at least for awhile. When we exercise we tend to burn more calories. All i did is as my bmr dropped so did my calories. As of today ive lost about 108 pounds since january so its going pretty well.
Now i changed my whole eating lifestyle cutting out sugars and keeping my carbs as low as possible because i was a sugar junkie. Sweets breads potatoes pasta were my weakness so i had to get away from them all together. To get our size there are normally some reason. Food addiction sugar addict emotional eater. Just something that tends to make us eats more calories than 2-3 should. Does it mean were weak or flawed no.... There is just something major in our life we need to sort out.
You can do this but its a slow process and just have to keep forward day by day.
Look forward to reading about your journey. If you ever need anyone to bounce ideas off of please let me know.

---Rebel---
 
Rebel lee said:
Hello April
When i started i was in about the same same as you r. I was 500 pounds and could barely walk. When i did the breathing and sweating looked like i just finished a marithon. I pulled up my bmr and i think it said the calories to stay at my weight was around 4000 calories. I didnt drop down to like 1200 calories or so like some would because i have always had a huge appetite. Those type of calories i would feel like i was starving to death. I dropped down to about 3000 that way i still had plenty to eat. I started to lose weight almost right away. It's different for us compared to someone that needs to lose 40 pounds or so. We tend to lose weight faster at least for awhile. When we exercise we tend to burn more calories. All i did is as my bmr dropped so did my calories. As of today ive lost about 108 pounds since january so its going pretty well.
Now i changed my whole eating lifestyle cutting out sugars and keeping my carbs as low as possible because i was a sugar junkie. Sweets breads potatoes pasta were my weakness so i had to get away from them all together. To get our size there are normally some reason. Food addiction sugar addict emotional eater. Just something that tends to make us eats more calories than 2-3 should. Does it mean were weak or flawed no.... There is just something major in our life we need to sort out.
You can do this but its a slow process and just have to keep forward day by day.
Look forward to reading about your journey. If you ever need anyone to bounce ideas off of please let me know.

---Rebel---
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Thank you I'm so touched you took the time to respond to me. I'm also embarrassed you read what I said. I don't have anything else to say right now since despite being over the Internet and still horribly shy. I'm just thankful you spoke to me and for not judging me.
 
April - my heart goes out to you, it really does. We are a friendly bunch of people here of all shapes and sizes and we will happily support you on your journey. It sounds like you've had enough - today is the first day of your new life! Yes, your family can do it with you but this is YOUR journey - it might help to make a list of all the things you'll be able to do/the way you'll feel when you've lost some of the weight. I know horse riding was something I couldn't do anymore because of my size so that was on my list :) Don't be shy - we are all here for each other. Would love to hear more about you! Hana x
 
Sunflower_ said:
April - my heart goes out to you, it really does. We are a friendly bunch of people here of all shapes and sizes and we will happily support you on your journey. It sounds like you've had enough - today is the first day of your new life! Yes, your family can do it with you but this is YOUR journey - it might help to make a list of all the things you'll be able to do/the way you'll feel when you've lost some of the weight. I know horse riding was something I couldn't do anymore because of my size so that was on my list :) Don't be shy - we are all here for each other. Would love to hear more about you! Hana x
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I have much lower standards. I want to do things like walk and take a shower.
 
April Banks 656 Pounds said:
Thank you I'm so touched you took the time to respond to me. I'm also embarrassed you read what I said. I don't have anything else to say right now since despite being over the Internet and still horribly shy. I'm just thankful you spoke to me and for not judging me.
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I was in the same boat as you. Im still not out of it so why would i ever judge? If someone judges you; and its never happened to me, just ignore it because they probably wont b around long. The men on this site i really dont know much about. Ive never had any male friends so i have trouble being open with them. The women i have met are wonderful. They r quick to point out if your doing something wrong. Not to condem but just to get you back on track. Dont worry about anything you say being embarrassing. I've walked into conversations about female problems and what they really want to do with the guy that just moved in down the street. Thats just them being real people letting each other know what going on in their lifes. You c they dont just talk about weight stuff. It's alot of just life in general.
 
Rebel lee said:
I was in the same boat as you. Im still not out of it so why would i ever judge? If someone judges you; and its never happened to me, just ignore it because they probably wont b around long. The men on this site i really dont know much about. Ive never had any male friends so i have trouble being open with them. The women i have met are wonderful. They r quick to point out if your doing something wrong. Not to condem but just to get you back on track. Dont worry about anything you say being embarrassing. I've walked into conversations about female problems and what they really want to do with the guy that just moved in down the street. Thats just them being real people letting each other know what going on in their lifes. You c they dont just talk about weight stuff. It's alot of just life in general.
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Talking to someone who is not judging me is a change for me. Talking about my weight is also a change for me. Socializing in general outside of family and Healthcare people is a change for me. I'm not good at communication.
 
Hi, April & welcome to our community. Honey, I can confidently say that the people in this part of the forum are not judgemental and are very kind, helpful & supportive. I read your first post & I had a little cry for you. Reaching out to us would have been a big step & you should be very proud of yourself. I know that you said your goals are basic ones & that is understandable to start off with. I still think to have something nice to look forward to would help when you're feeling hungry. Getting a nutritionist in would be a good idea I think also. I found that really helpful.
As you get more comfortable with us I think you will feel less embarrassed. We do talk about all sorts of things. Most of us have had self-esteem issues & that's why most of us gained weight in the first place. Know that, while we are all sizes & shapes, basically we have more in common than you may think. Once again, welcome April :grouphug:
 
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