Antonia's weight loss rollercoaster...

antoniak1423

antoniak1423

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So....where do i start? Well, my name is antonia. I am 24 yrs old. I guess it all started with my mom. She has always been overweight and has never failed to let me know that i have her body type and that there is just nothing i can do about it. :rolleyes: well, in high school i was not the thinnest girl, but i was healthy and muscular and athletic, despite being pregnant. yeah, u heard right, i had my son shortly after i turned 15. 2 weeks after having him, i was thinner than before i had gotten pregnant, without even trying. i didn't want everyone to treat me weird, so i resumed normal activities (swim team, track, gym class). i am sure that helped. it also probably helped that my son's dad broke up with me because i was "ruining" his life.:rolleyes: i lose weight after a break up. (i wonder if i could get my hubby to pretend break up with me????? :p j/k. lol. anyway, let's fast forward a bit....

I got married at the tender age of 19. we are still married and i have only just realized what a mess i could have gotten myself into had my husband been a different man than he is. luckily, we work well together :D . When we married he gave me this comfort and i knew that he would stick by my side through thick and thin...literally:( . the day we got married i weighed about 150 i think. i was about a month pregnant, we would later find. this pregnancy was the complete opposite of the first. James (my husband) would do anything for me, wait on me hand and foot. he'd go out at 3 am to fetch me some taco bell and pineapple chunks and pizza. i would make comments about my weight gain, and he let me know that he loved me and that the gain was beautiful and that i was pregnant and it was awesome and all that (he loved to make me feel great about myself). when i went into labor with our daughter i weighed 199. i struggled to lose the weight and used that 2 year time period, u know: the time they say u have to lose the baby weight before u r just deemed fat, yeah i used that to my advantage. whenever i would get disgusted with myself, i would remind myself that i have 2 years. well, it is five years later and i weigh 203 :( :eek: i have lost 10 pounds so far, but i am to the point where i am sick and tired of my weight. i really feel like a thin person trapped inside of a fat body. my friend and i gained weight at the same time, same rate, about the same amount. we talk about this all the time. we genuinely cannot believe that we have to shop in the plus size side of the store, and that we are at health risks we never even thought about. when i run into people from high school, i run to the opposite end of the building and hide. I DO NOT run up and give hugs!!!!:eek: well...i do give hugs if i notice that they have gained as much as me:eek: :( . i am ready to feel good about myself again. i want my kids to see a better example of what a healthy person should be. i am a great person, but i want to make sure that they have a healthy mom because i feel that i am their #1 role model, next to their dad.

i am so determined right now, but i have a problem with losing determination when i see something i want to eat. i need to know that i am not alone and that there are people who are watching me and counting on me and who will back me up. I also need to know how to do stuff on here. i don't really know how to navigate this place yet! i think i know how to do the ticker thingy, let's see here... isn't there a better way than to have to copy/paste every time??




why doesn't that work!!!!!?????
 
hi antonia - welcome to weight loss forum
i hope you'll find us all helpful in your weight loss journey.
what changes are you planning to make to your lifestyle in order to lose?
the ticker doesnt work because youve posted the URL. on the page of the website where it gives you the ticker there should a few codes beneath. the code you want is the one that says forums i think. you then copy this code into your signature in your user profile.
good luck with your weight loss - we'll be here rooting for you all the way. keep us updated on your progress :) xx
 
Hi Antonia :)
Good luck with your weight loss :D I've only just joined here as well and I think it's a lovely community. I hope you can find the strength to keep going :)
 
yeah sooooo

well sophie, here are some changes i've made:

i only drink water
i have cut out all carbs pretty much
i only eat meat twice a week
only skim milk and wheat bread (when i allow milk and bread, which is about twice every other week)
not eating late
1 potato a week

i will admit that i need to find the time to excercise more often. it is hard because i babysit eight hours a day, plus i have 2 of my own. i am also going to school 3/4 time soooo. yeah i KNOW that i can find the time, though, i need to work out a schedule. I used to walk twice a day, 1 mile each walk (except on sundays). i need to get back on that.

so, i have found that one of my biggest down falls is that i wiegh myself toooo often and when i don't see the results i want i get discouraged :mad:

since the 12th i have lost 10-11 lbs, though. that is a decent amount, right???? that is almost a pound a day. that is what makes me mad about not having lost ANY weight in the past two days!!!!! i just NEED to not cheat!!!!

nothing tastes as good as being thin feels
nothing tastes as good as being thin feels
nothing tastes as good as being thin feels
nothing tastes as good as being thin feels

i'll keep chanting that!!! :(
 
oh yeah!!!!! last night i went to my sister's house for a cookout and i DIDN'T cheat!!!!! i was sooooo good. everyone was eating and telling me that i could just restart tomarrow and that i didn't need to be so strict on myself. "oh, what difference is 1 day gonna make"????:confused:

they ate cheeseburgers, hotdogs, doritos, ruffles, egg salad, pop, koolaid.

i ate veggie soup, green beans, 1 baked potato (which is in my diet plan, not a cheat!!!), and water.

i am SUPER proud of myself.:D

IMAGINARY HIGH FIVE EVERYBODY!!!!!!!
 
soooo i lost three lbs as of this morning :D i just hope it is really a loss and not just a fluctuation. it is a good thing that i lost something, i was really getting discouraged. i need to stop that, i know, but it isn't easy. i get discouraged toooooo quickly.
 
Hey, Congratulations on your weight loss!
I have a similar plan, I don't allow any bread, red meat, dairy products, white sugar or anything containing refined sugar... and only water water water!
I have a much slower progress but I had a smaller start weight, so I am blaming it on that!
Good luck, xxMilaxx
 
sooooo...

I'm gonna change my diet plan. instead of being so strict on what i eat, i'm gonna limit the amount i eat. I am still going to cut down on a lot of things like carbs and red meat, but not completely stop eating them. i hope that the change works. i am definitely going to excercise more often, too. i lost 13 lbs and i am all of a sudden getting discouraged. i think i just feel this way because i am sick of not eating when everybody else eats, and not eating what everybody else eats. i am gonna try a new approach, but i just NEED to make sure that i am consistently working out!!!! wish me luck!!!!!!:confused:
 
Hello Antonia,

Don't lose hope and don't give up. You have gotten past the hard part and that is making a conscious decision to make a change. Now, this is not a temporary change, it is a life change. In doing so, habits have to change. Tastes have to change. But believe me, when you go experience the transformation that is possible, you will have more motivation, confidence and inspiration to continue on your fitness journey.

One thing you have to make sure you are not doing is starving yourself. You will find that as you start to exercise, you will need to eat more, to lose weight. You body is made so perfectly that it knows when you are limiting it's fuel intake. Now notice I said fuel... not food. You will need to see food as fuel instead of as a source of pleasure, comfort, etc. If you begin to starve yourself, you body will actually "turn down the heat" or lower your metabolic rate in order to keep from burning all of your stored energy (fat). Actually, what you will see happen, when you increase the frequency of your meals by eating five to six smaller meals per day divided into three hour periods, your body will think that it needs to raise the metabolic rate in order to burn this newly found fuel. What you have to make sure of is that you are eating "clean" calories and not junk.

When you exercise, you are also causing your body to raise your metabolic rate and you will burn even more calories. Soon after getting into the swing of this lifestyle, the pounds will melt away. I have seen people lose 45-50 pounds in just 90 days. Heck, I am coaching and individual that has lost 30 pounds in 30 days. I was able to lose over 10% bodyfat in just 90 days and I added lean muscle.

I can forward what I did if you would like. Just let me know. Take care and best of luck. You can do it. Don't lose faith!

Robert
MDB HarleyGuy
robert@freedomtobefit.com
 
dont be discouraged sweetie - you need to keep on fighting even when those pouds arent shedding so fast any more. this is a total change of lifestyle - not just a diet plan - it should be sustainable so we need odd things such as cheat days and snacks in order to make us want to continue with the lifestyle. it is a journey towards a slimmer, happier, HEALTHIER you! you want that for life right?
xx
 
thank u

yeah :D u guys really do encourage me! :eek:. i am going to sit down right now and write me out a schedule so that i can eat five to six small meals a day and excercise everyday (excluding sunday, we are sooooo busy on sundays). i don't want to be overweight anymore and i would feel really bad if, in the future, i look back on this and see that i lost 13 lbs in twi weeks and then gave up and put it all back on plus some!!!! thanks guys!!!!!!!!!!:)
 
Hey,
I know what you mean when the pounds stop shedding that is when I gave up last time, because for a week nothing changed and I had worked hard and why oh why so I don't care anymore bladibla...
In that documentary about fat (if you want to check it out it is in the On-topic section here, there is a dicussion with a link to watch the whole thing online) they said that most people who are overweight will never lose that weight, and most who start trying to get thin will fail, and most who succeed will gain it back. That was scary! But it made me determined! I am nto gonna be one of them!
And on the contrary of Harley guy I think you should see food as something pleasant! Man I would not make it through the day eating only veg and fruit if my diner wasn't pleasant! And life is too short (for me) to see food as fuel, I need to see it as something beautiful! Because for me it is like that! It is the best thing ever, I create it, it has great texture, great taste, great smell, it is wonderful for all senses! But that doesn't make me eat it like crazy, no! I don't need to eat more because I had a wonderful experience on all 5 senses with 1 plate full!
I mean whatever works for you, but I think seeing food as fuel would spoil the whole new lifestyle (and not a diet) for me!
Have a lovely day, xxMilaxx
 
yeah?? i can see the food as fuel thing and the food is pleasant thing. I have yet to really know what really works for me. I just need to do some experimenting to find out whats best for me.

I do like to eat good food!!!! i also know how hard it is for me to stop when i feel comfortable instead of getting stuffed. it's almost like drinking. u know how some people can take a sip every now and again and then there are those people who are alcoholics and can't stop drinking if there life depended on it?????? i don't drink, but i don't know which person i am when it comes with food. i do know that i can REALLY discipline myself! i never knew that i could control myself the way that i have for the past three weeks (with the exception of the last two days!). I did that sacred heart diet. it really worked, but now i am to the point where i can't handle eating that soup everyday. i just need a little break from that diet. i just can't stop disciplining myself, which is proving to be a VERY hard obstacle to overcome! i need help with this!!!!!!! I think i am going to start my mornings off with my regular "thank u 4 waking me up this morning" prayer and add in a little "give me the strength to be determined and strong today" prayer along with it!!!! seriously. at this point, i need divine help.
 
Hi Antonia. I'm really happy for you for making changes and getting slimmer. Like the others have said, it might help to view weight loss as a lifestyle change and NOT a diet. Diets begin and end, and when they end and you go back to eating as before you will of course gain all the weight back as before. No one can, nor should, live life starving and depriving themselves. I'm not into those diets where you have to have your baked potato dry (um..yuck), I like mine with I Cant Believe Its Not Butter and FF milk, thanks. Yes I like a good cheese burger, but I substitute turkey meat because it has much fewer calories than beef. You have to come up with good substitutions for your old foods that made you big. But you need to enjoy your food and be flexible to find something that works for your lifestyle and body. And you need to eat enough. Figure out how many calories you used to eat and cut from there, rather than going down so low your metabolism slows down and you get hungry and go back to your old ways (after all, we're human so we can't keep up really low calorie plans for too long).

Not to be a downer, but its unrealistic to expect a weight change down every day. Consider yourself blessed if a pound or two comes off every week, a bit more if your lucky (and young as you are). But if you keep it up, all of a sudden you'll be the weight you want!
 
thanks blancita!! i know that 1-2 lbs per is a great accomplishment! what makes it hard, is when u lose lots and then all of a sudden don't lose at all for a few days. i know that it is unrealistic of me to want to lose a pound a day or every other day. when i lost 11 lbs in one week, it felt so good that it was hard to accept not losing fast like that, that is all. that is definitely something i need to get over. i'll keep what u said in mind. thanks!
 
Sophie335 said:
every pound is a step in the right direction - whether it takes 1 day or 1 month. xx
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yeah, thnx sophie!!!!!!! i NEED to keep that in mind!!! that is my main problem. i get disappointed in the rate of weight loss, when i should be happy that there is any loss at all!!!!! I have been toooo busy to write lately, but i HAVEN'T given up! as a matter of fact i have been to karate class everyday this week!!!! thnxs guys!!!!!:hug2:

I LOVE THESE NEW ICONS!!!!! haha
 
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