Hehe, I am here to teach you great things, grasshopper!
Ok, folks. Confession time:
I am sabotaging myself ridiculously... my stomach seems like ablack hole that can't be filled. I'm not motivated to make healthy meals, so the less nutrient rich "whatever is there" food is really having an effect on my overall wellbeing... I am craving more refined, sugary, fatty foods, the more I eat them. Well, DUH!!!
And then I go and make fudge... SERIOUSLY girl??? It's like I'm two different people:
Anke 1: I am a runner. I love eating whole foods to fuel my body well for my daily exercise. I am passionate about life and all the opportunities awaiting me. I am organised and tidy up around me as I go. I do SELF-CARING things, such as grooming (do my nails, dye my hair, pluck my eyebrows), drinking herbal teas, doing stretches and breathing deeply often.
Anke 2: I love the couch. It doesn't really matter that there's nothing on, I just sat down and can't seem to lift my butt. I feel depressed about all the goals I am not busy working towards, and wonder why I set such "lofty" goals, as I could NEVER accomplish them. My boyfriend tells me that his matress was just fine before we started sleeping together... there is seriously a HUGE indent where my ass lies... no really... and I was informed that UNLESS I LOSE WEIGHT we'll have to buy a high quality (read: expensive) bed later this year when we plan to buy one. Ok, check. I'm the girl who eats a bowl full of ice cream with chocolate fudge in it (after already capping the daily calorie limit) after being told I need to lose weight. I don't wanna hear it! I want to lead a slothful life, and be skinny and pretty like Britney Spears. WHY IS IT ALL SO UNFAIR!!!??
Ok, so the Anke 1 is a lot quieter... and a lot weaker, and easier to lose than Anke 2... she's always in the background at the very least. How have I dealt with Anke 2 before?
I have told her to relax, everything is going to be ok. Look at what you have accomplished. It proves what more may be accomplished in future. Slip ups are ok. Just because you went mad this weekend doesn't cancel out the whole next week or 2. Remember, you care about you. You don't like feeling moody, grumpy, stuffed with food and yet still empty. You KNOW you want to make friends with Anke 1, come on now! She's a lot happier!
Ok, so, hands up, who thinks Anke is LOCO!!!??? (read: crazy) ... and that is referring to either Anke, by the way.