Amiba's journal> it is time to make it happen.

Your Work is FREAKIN FANT-A-BULOUS!!! Are you going to or do you already sell it? Because you totally could...Yes? No?

So most of those are taken by camera and than re-constructed through an advanced type of Photo shop?? I would really like to know how to do that someday. I reallllyyyy Love Photography. You can do soo much with it!

My favs off of your page, are the mother and child, the lady hunched over through the trees, and the woman with the green eye with a dark figure in it. Well that's what I see. And the young girl with the see through leafs. I just LOVE how the color POPS out. Is that a White Oleander with the stomach shot?

Do you just ask ppl to pose for you? Or ask them to come to a student photo shoot? Or how does that work?

And I really like the way you've got your page set up. It's clean, and modern, and it's not got a bunch of mess on it. Great colors, black is always such a sharp look. Now I just wished I could speak/read Spanish.

I would like a simple and clean looking website like that too, guess I'd better get crackin!! ;) :D

Oh I almost forgot, are you going to watermark them as well, or do that thing to them when someone clicks on the pic to make it larger that they're not able to copy/paste it? You know when that little security thing pops up?​
 
Hey, you don't do it very often the social thing, and it sounded like it was a hoot! I've never had creppe...I know I need to get out more.

And it would be awesome to meet you someday. I bet I bet. Once I get going, and feeling better, and doing better for myself (such as not so sick anymore) than maybe when you're famous you can come see me...NAH who am I kidding, FRICK I am going to have to come to you, the Islands, or Mexico, or Europe where ever you'll be, I'll come. :D

Have you ever met anyone off the net from far away b4? I've met a few off of the net, but not too far from home.​
 
I am glad you liked them!!

yes I know you can't really see them too well but I will add a bigger version, with a watermark but you will be able to download. I like when people can save them, it makes me mad when I can't stalk people I like lol. and well they are all artistic/free I am not yet selling but I would love to at some point! or have bigger jobs like in magazines, even fashion photography. one day.

I barely know photoshop. what I use is an open source program called GIMP and I basically go through by clicking, messing up and tutorials. it is quite fun too!

yes they are mostly collabs. I have a model that charged me for the service but blah, even though she is gorgeous (the one in black wings) it wasn't an enjoyable photoshoot don't know why. the rest are just for fun and art.
I still have a lot more to add I have a lot of work to do but yes I want to keep it simple, nothing too fancy! and a place you can go through without a lot of things coming up and weird music haha. so if you need help def. let me know I'd love to.

oh and the portait with the green eye has a peacock feather

xoxo!
 
great job on the site! i like what i am seeing! i was just talking with a co-worker about getting me a real camera. i think i am willing to up to a grand including a lens at least. lol. While CG (3d art) is my job, photography is my hobby. i also got into a little retouching to make my imagery much stronger.

You ahve such a great attitude about losing this weight and since you are already a doll as you are i can;t wait to see what your final look will be when youa re satisfied with you self. keep it up!
 
awww thank you guys!
well today I feel like sharing some of my photos :D so you'll see where I stand
a little parody to twiggy.. for being too skinny. and one is from a 50s set in black and white, you will find them in my site soon.
and yes I am excited about being healthier and not caring too much on the weight thing! mmh exercise works.


today was ok. a lot of work with school and whatnots!

and after my spinning/ yes I did exercise today, I had mango and chilli flavored candy and I didn't even care. hah! close to my girly days I kind of stop caring what I eat for a while, but the rest of the day was ok>

whole beans,
and a veggie stew I make including zuchinni, corn, tomatoes, onions, mushrooms and soy meat with a hint of tomato sauce, chipotle and cream. delicious really and very hearty

I did have some sweet tea and a bit of a chocolate muffin, oh and whole grain cereal in the morning. but over all was a good day I think!


that's it for today hope the photos will help a bit on the shape/weight deal so you'll see where I stand. I kinda like my shape because I have womanly hips and nice legs. just have to take care of the usual bit of orange skin and flab most of us girls have to go through!

good night all
Di
 
Good Gawwwd You're one HOT mama, you exude confidence like nothin!

Someone knows how to take pictures of herself! Yummy Mummy!! :willy_nilly:

BOW CHICA WOW WOW!!!


:waving: :blush5:
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/blushes thank you gorgeous!! :D
I wasn't sure to share them on here but what the heck, that is the skin I am in!

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my head hurts so much today!
hopefully that will change with spinning. argh
just fell asleep for over 4 hours instead of doing my homework which means I have to do it when I come back. it is due thursday and wednesday but still I want to have my weekend free, maybe go to a couple of parties or something.

and well today I've kind of eaten a lot. I can't have enough!
thanks god it is just one day and hopefully tomorrow will be better. I so want cookies, ice cream all the yummy stuff. blah

I guess it is just the stress of having now to stay 3/4 hours longer at school and exams around the corner. my dad's economical situation doesn't help either, I have yet to cut back my expenses even more but I kind of auto sabotage to eat. and eating prevents me from losing weight ,oh well
at least my spinning is going strong and I am not gaining weight either.



anyway I bought a cool white crinoline skirt for only 1 buck! I love finding stuff like this. now I want to make new photos and incorporate it, sure not very original but it looks pretty.
well that's it for today! school, more school, head ache, food spinning. hah

also if anyone else is reading, do you guys know about cool art schools in the US? I have to start looking for one in a year and a half or so/ well before of course. I want a masters in art directon or to specialize in photography, maybe fashion too. let me know
xoxo!
 
ummmm....no... *smirkz* you don't wanna go to the States, come on up to CanadUH!! LOL Ehhhh heheheeeeee :jump:

Calgary Alberta: Sait , University of Calgary, Mount Royal College, University of Lethbridge,

Edmonton Alberta: Nait

okay really IDK, maybe Vancouver or Toronto would have a better selection, but no the States is most likely a winning bet....:leaving:

Fook a DUCK I don't have anything skanky to wear tonight!! LOL :willy_nilly:

Laterz​
 
Where is my Lovely Sweet Sweet Amiba?? :willy_nilly: Busy Busy Busy? Bzzzzz, makin honey? LOL​
 
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Where is my Lovely Sweet Sweet Amiba?? :willy_nilly: Busy Busy Busy? Bzzzzz, makin honey? LOL​
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I am here!
just haven't been around sorry

huge rant coming up. urgh

I had a very tough week emotionally, mentally, physically. gah

I was preparing myself for the exams, and that wasn't really the big issue I think, just an excuse I take, you know, excuses. anyway I didn't go to my spinning class all week which made me feel TERRIBLE, but I was feeling awful already as it had been raining aaaall darn week. I get the blues so hard everytime the sun just doesn't come up in a long time.

anyway feeling down and stressed just triggered my horrible eating habits yet again.. only this time I am positive I need help. I did one of those little tests to check if you are an emotional eater and I got like all of them> eating when you are not hungry, eating out of a emotional state, not knowing when to stop, eating until you feel bad and feeling remorse afterwards.
it is such a terrible little cycle I've had since I was a little girl and I hate that I inmmediately associate food with comfort. it is such a bittersweet relationship really, so I started looking up for an emotional eater help club in the area and I want to go to one. I don't know maybe i'll help..

so I am back on my two tired feet, trying to eat healthy again and going back to exercise while everything else seems to fall apart.
my dad is still in the same black unemployed hole he is been for around three years now. He's got a new job that pays like every three damn months which doesn't make any sense to me, as we don't have any money left and we are living out of family and friends loans. I haven't been able to work on my scholarship because there's no money left, what I had I basically used it to buy food and pay school and services as he doesn't have any money for me. I am a full time student so it is tough in general.

I know it is such a silly excuse to eat to try to compensate for it. I know, I do know that the answers aren't inside the refrigerator. so why do I keep sabotaging myself and eating until I feek sick? sometimes I think I am able to eat myself to death or something. or at least diabetes, you wouldn't believe how many sugar my body can take!

my social life has always kind of sucked. I don't know what I do but I drive people apart. they just kind of get away from me even though I try my best. sure I am not perfect and I make mistakes but for some reason I am never forgiven for them, and it always makes me sad. friend I try to have basically gets away and ignores me after a while, which makes me don't want to ever try to have friends again, it is draining my vital energy in many ways than one
I am not even getting into detail because there's no point.

I am just too tired of everything, of this financial situation, of feeling lonely and powerless, of my body taking control over me all the time. I am basically tired of myself and how little I think of me.
I am sick and I know it, but I just don't know what to do next.

I am sorry this took so long I kind of needed to vent out

I'll check with you guys soon, when the exam week is over

xoxo
Diana
 
I am starting to feel that writing on this journal is kind of pointless.. which is sad. I know it is boring when people tell how they make mistakes instead of reaching their goals but it is part of the weight loss process as well!

I am trying to get back to spinning today. still ate quite a lot yesterday but I am trying hard to cut down on the sweets again, not feel alone or depressed
anyway that´s it.
 
i know how you feel. when you don't get any support it puts a damper on posting. i do it becasue i know people still ready, but not reply. i'll be here to support you on your journey. i've been off in another world. by the way you are one sexy lady. I could say you look great the way you are, but you have to be happy too. keep it up. i'll be here reading and replying :)
 
thanks a lot kureransu!

yes I know people are busy and have better things to do than read some random rant :p but it is starting to feel like a fight with myself and food, and I am not getting anywhere. I am decided to go back to spinning today as I miss it a lot and stop using school and work as an excuse.
I want to be completely happy with how I look but more than that take care of my over all health. maybe 30 pounds don´t seem like much but I don´t want them to be 40, 50, 100 if I don´t change my habits today!

xoxo
Di
 
girl! Gorgeous pics! You are a very pretty girl! :) keep writing. its good for you to personally do. if people respond its very encouraging i know.. and ive felt the same as you have before too..... but you need to write because you want to and need to get your thoughts out. you will be glad because you will be able to look back on it and be so glad you wrote about all the good times and hardships... totally worth it! :)
 
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girl! Gorgeous pics! You are a very pretty girl! :) keep writing. its good for you to personally do. if people respond its very encouraging i know.. and ive felt the same as you have before too..... but you need to write because you want to and need to get your thoughts out. you will be glad because you will be able to look back on it and be so glad you wrote about all the good times and hardships... totally worth it! :)
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thanks sweetie I really appreciate it!
yes writing help in some extent, I think I was just letting myself feel depressed and down for having to start over .but that is what we hare here for right!
 
I am one hot mess right now.

24 hours of school plus 25 hours of social service
I barely sleep
and of course I don't eat properly.

Oh well.. school is just starting so I should better make it work.

5:00AM, no sleep, going to school at 7:00AM until 3.. then social work.. repeat
I feel like in a cheap version of fight club, without the fighting of course.
 
Hi Amiba,
I just started spinning too and I love it. Even if I'm in the worst mood when I get there, I always feel 100% better by the time the class is finished. Even just going for a walk puts me in a better mood so maybe you should just get your head clear and walk it off. Glad you haven't given up and are still pushing. Keep it up!
 
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