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Hey Amibaaaa!! Sounds like you have had an awesome day!! All that walking your legs will be sore. I suffer from a really bad back and have to go to physiotherapy i find the yoga is helping to though. Hope you get it sorted!! How many carbs are you eating in a day so we can compare see if i am doin okay. Hope your work out goes well. Koda is lovely he is only 10 months and weigh about 6 stone lol He's an alaskan malamue :) We have 3 cats too!! My Boy cat follows me too like a dog i think he thinks he is one
 
Hey Amiba!

Just wanted to say thanks for stopping by my journal! Sounds like you're kicking butt, yourself.

Back injuries or aches and pains are the WORST. If it bothers you during your workouts, you could always go for a swim instead. I hope it feels better!

Also, tried on my skirts again with my tops. New conclusion: I can't find anything nice to wear with them because all of my old tops are too big. Shopping trip it is. With someone genetically gifted with fashion sense.
 
atm1985 said:
Hey Amibaaaa!! Sounds like you have had an awesome day!! All that walking your legs will be sore. I suffer from a really bad back and have to go to physiotherapy i find the yoga is helping to though. Hope you get it sorted!! How many carbs are you eating in a day so we can compare see if i am doin okay. Hope your work out goes well. Koda is lovely he is only 10 months and weigh about 6 stone lol He's an alaskan malamue :) We have 3 cats too!! My Boy cat follows me too like a dog i think he thinks he is one
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hi hun!
actually my legs were already sore from yesterday's routine :p so it actually helped haha
yeah my back is hard to live with hopefully a chiropractor will help.
the calorie counter says I am eating between 60 an 90 grams of carbohidrates. I don't know if it is accurate because I hardly measure my meals but I know I eat a bowl (with a portion the size of my fist) of whole grain cereal most mornings and a slice of bread or another first portion of pasta or whole grain rice during the day. the rest are either carbs from fruits or from dairy. not ''bad'' carbs but still
I love my cat and yeah he thinks he is a dog. he sleeps with me and stays all day next to me on the floor or my bed. he is a small guardian cat haha
 
Bleuet said:
Hey Amiba!

Just wanted to say thanks for stopping by my journal! Sounds like you're kicking butt, yourself.

Back injuries or aches and pains are the WORST. If it bothers you during your workouts, you could always go for a swim instead. I hope it feels better!

Also, tried on my skirts again with my tops. New conclusion: I can't find anything nice to wear with them because all of my old tops are too big. Shopping trip it is. With someone genetically gifted with fashion sense.
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yes I've been living with back pain for a while now. actually exercise helps relieve some of the tension.
ow ow what a shame :p your tops don't fit. come on! huuuge opportunity to go on a shopping spree! I am so happy for you and jealous also, I can't wait to see the day I have to re-do my whole wardrobe.
xoxo!
 

I think now I am not eating enough calories :blush5:
but I don't really do it on porpoise. I don't want one of those low calorie diets. but my stomach actually hurts when I try to stick more food in it. what to do?

I check my calories in two different sites because you never know. it is an approximate but both say I am under 1000. I even had cashew nuts today on the hope of incrementing the healthy fats I eat in my diet as I don't use oil or butter to cook. it is just as if my mind programed the word ''healthy'' down deep and isn't letting me fall-- which is great because I know I can achieve my goals this way.

even in my ''guilty'' days I go for the healthier choices, like strawberries with a bit of dark chocolate, frozen yogurt with pecans, sushi. I actually love those foods and they are still nothing compared calorie-wise to chocolate fudge brownies or french fries!

as I am doing some homework and I am thinking- now that my cravings hit in at this hour, 11-12 pm, do I want oreos? mmh not really. ice cream? chips? candy? nope. I genuinely don't want any of that. even after all the exercise I did today and knowing I can- no.

what is really going on? am I really starting to gain control over my most desired cravings? it seems that way. Realizing it is just food and that I should go for those that don't bring just empty calories but nutrients, is now more important than satisfying my sweet tooth.

yay! well. now I should finish my homework and go to bed.
xoxo!
 
wow that is sooo amazing. i can honestly say im INCREDIBLY proud of you. getting over the craving for food is the hardest thing to do, no matter what ANYone says or thinks. yayy girl, keep it up, and keep inspiring people =D
 
hell yeah, cravings are like cigs. you have one then you want the next one even more than the first and so on. way to go!
 
surya said:
wow that is sooo amazing. i can honestly say im INCREDIBLY proud of you. getting over the craving for food is the hardest thing to do, no matter what ANYone says or thinks. yayy girl, keep it up, and keep inspiring people =D
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thanks hun! that is so sweet of you
and yes it is what kept me relapsing every time, those darn tasty sweets!
I am extremely happy indeed because not only that but I am noticing some weight loss! which just makes me want to stay on focus even more. and I am starting to enjoy exercise :coolgleamA: I am unstoppable haha
 
Mikez0rr said:
hell yeah, cravings are like cigs. you have one then you want the next one even more than the first and so on. way to go!
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you know the best part besides personal satisfaction is
that I didn't substitute it with cigs! I've never smoked and I wasn't going to start due to anxiety. I am not taking any diet pills or appetite suppresors either. it is all me baby :coolgleamA: haha
 

today I did something way better than shopping for new clothes:


I slipped into an old skirt.

I bought the little bastard a year ago and it never fit me. it was too tight and I looked like a half-way white salami trapped inside.
but now I thought ''what the hell I haven't do my laundry'' and tried it.

it fits me perfectly. I even have space to stick my whole hand in it!
I was so shocked and happy because I wasn't really expecting any change in a couple of weeks but I am. and I even cried a little, it might seem silly but I pictured myself 10 kg from now, buying cute little skirts and jeans. the ones I always wanted and never came in my size.

since a couple of years ago I went from a size 14 to a size 11.
now I am aiming for a size 9, followed by a size 7.
then 5. then 2. then ZERO!.. no, I am actually kidding. there is no way this latina hips would ever fit- or want to fit- a darn kid size. 7 is a good number, lucky number.

I don't know if I've lost weight because I hid the scale. it was truly messing with my head because I wasn't losing weight. then I realized it isn't an exact science and.. my house is all crooked. haha
 
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awww. hellz yeah. i bought an xl shirt yesterday. it wasn't as tight as normally. maybe it was a fluke who knows.

keep on truckin
 
Amiba said:

today I did something way better than sopping for new clothes:


I slipped into an old skirt.

I bought the little bastard a year ago and it never fit me. it was too tight and I looked like a half-way white salami trapped inside.
but now I thought ''what the hell I haven't do my laundry'' and tried it.

it fits me perfectly. I even have space to stick my whole hand in it!
I was so shocked and happy because I wasn't really expecting any change in a couple of weeks but I am. and I even cried a little, it might seem silly but I pictured myself 10 kg from now, buying cute little skirts and jeans. the ones I always wanted and never came in my size.

since a couple of years ago I went from a size 14 to a size 11.
now I am aiming for a size 9, followed by a size 7.
then 5. then 2. then ZERO!.. no, I am actually kidding. there is no way this latina hips would ever fit- or want to fit- a darn kid size. 7 is a good number, lucky number.

I don't know if I've lost weight because I hid the scale. it was truly messing with my head because I wasn't losing weight. then I realized it isn't an exact science and.. my house is all crooked. haha
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WOWOWOWOWO!! yayyy!! hi5!! if i ever meet you, you owe me a massive treat!! :D

i got out my old skirts too, recently, hoping to fit in them within a month or two, and actually look good, not a blobby thing hanging all over :p

i try them on every week(i can wear them at the waist now, lol), and SOMEday im going to be able to wear them outside my loo. yayyy!!

ur doing great!!!
 
You are doing so good girl! I am stuck right now and am not sure what to do! Maybe I am getting to much or to less not sure!:smash:
 
thanks hun!
haha I feel the same, don't really know if I am getting enough. I basically eat as healthy as I can ans until I am satisfied, listening to my body way more now. but yeah I am going slow, it is better than not doing anything at all right?
xoxo!
 
hey girl,
just thought i should check in on you. have read a couple of posts and i think your doing great! wow, being able to fit into clothes you couldn't before must feel fabulous! I'm hoping a few month's down the line i can say the same....can't wait!

was really sorry to read about your back pain issues...that must really suck! hope the chirporacter can solve it once and for all.

and i'm so jealous of your cat! a cat that follows you around just like a dog? priceless! where i live there's a cat but she's such a total snob! she doesn't like anyone getting within an inch of her...go figure! she only comes near when there's food in the vicinity. I've always been a dog person and when i move out will get myself a dog......OR a cat that thinks she's a dog lol!

all the best girl! xoxo
 

today is a good day but I feel emotionally tired.
maybe it is because I just exercised to ''the biggest loser'' finale. I know it sounds crazy but hearing their stories made me cry a bit. all that talk about self esteem, being proud of one self and other sentimental babbling brought up some memories.
I've always been chubby. the chubby ''best friend'' of the hot girls. the chubby, sensitive girl that was made fun of by the ''cool'' kids.
I know many people share similar stores in here and we've all had tough times, but I believe what hurts me the most isn't what they did, but that I let them.. that I didn't defend myself.
I didn't like myself. and that is the worst feeling in the world.

the constant pressure to lose weight really gets to you. I started binging, hiding food in my room, crying almost every day. I knew my relationship with food was emotional and that I had it in me to stop.


today is my 3d week without an emotional binging.
and I've been exercising regularly, at least this past week.

I know it is just a start but I feel really good, very proud.
I feel like I finally gained control over what I eat and not viceversa: I enjoy
every meal because I know it is healthy and that with time I will be the girl I've always wanted to be. I know she is inside, I just have to take off the extra pounds.

anyway.. !



today I had:

english breakfast tea with a little light milk and a bit of honey.
grapes and a slice of whole grain bread

tuna salad- with broccoli, a bit of cheese, cucumber and lemon.

snack: quacker granola pops and a fat free, sugar free yogurt with fiber

I just did 40 min on my stationary bike and 20 min on the fitness ball. I don't really want to eat but I have to, I've had like 700 cals only. that is crazy! I am not keeping myself hungry that's for sure.
well that's it for today.
keep going strong, guys

xoxo
 
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