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Hi guys! Well here I am.. once again. but for the first time I am not really mad at myself for not succeeding all those other times, I am glad I haven't stopped trying and that I am willing to achieve my goals this time.

I already had positive results while trying the last time. I ate healthy but normal and exercised daily in a curves gym. It wasn't extreme or anything.. but I did lost around 10 pounds. being finally under 160 made me the happiest woman, ever!
the sad part is.. I stopped. that was silly because I didn't continue to lose weight and I was nowhere near my goal.


I already took other steps not only took the decision but I already bought a static bicycle and yoga-pilates cds that are on their way
Also I am making a commitment to not buy any junk food and lower my carbohydrate and sugar intake.
that combining one hour of exercise a day, for two months.


it starts on the 23th.. monday
the day of my bday.

I will give myself the gift of health
thank you for reading!


 
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I am really excited because today my products arrived. Nothing is miraculous and I won't solely depend on them to achieve my weight loss but it certainly helps in an unconscious level.
my kit has natural fat burners, carnitin and artichoke drops.
I will also include a lot of water with chlorophyll too.

I took another step towards a healthy lifestyle and finally ordered a stationary bike. I tried spinning for a month and loved it! I know many people don't exercise when they are at home and the bike or gym ends up working as a cloth hanger of some sort, but to me it is better to have the bicycle in here because I don't have a car and it takes me forever to get to the gym I want by bus. also I don't particularly enjoy being surrounded by sweaty strangers.. oh my.


this will be the last weekend I indulge, for at least two months. I've been gradually taking the sweets out though, and today for example I ate zucchini, fresh mushrooms, low fat ricotta with a cup of risotto with asparagus. it was oh so yummy!
I start on Monday with my 24th bday. is there any better bday present than health and a better figure?

I can't wait!
 

Today is my bday.
and also the day I start the last diet and my healthy lifestyle starts.

I usually dislike it :nopity: but no more drama this time.

the reason I don't enjoy turning one year older is the fact I keep breaking the promise I make to myself to drop weight, but this time I did things a little differently: I started 0N my birthday, it is symbolic as I start a new cycle.

To avoid any excuses I made a quick trip to the grocery store and stocked my house with healthy food I love: broccoli, zucchini, nopal, apples, strawberries, lean chicken, tuna.. all the yummy stuff. I actually like all those things! so being surrounded by them will help me keep on track.

another great thing is that I bought a portion control plate so I'll be cautious of the amount of food I eat. when you use regular plates you tend to over eat because you want to finish everything on it, bad idea.

my day started like this:

morning: 4 whole grain cookies and a cup of light milk
afternoon: chicken with zucchini, mushrooms, chili and an apple.

and I am full already!
for dinner I'll have a coffee or a fruit shake- in Mexico dinner is our lightest meal and we eat the most ''heavy'' meal at 2-3 pm.

anyway I am very excited to finally start and I will report back after the week ends. xoxo!
 
I feel motivated and excited!

the diet drops I am taking are working on my appetite already. yesterday I made chicken with vegetables and spinach soup and even though I served a small portion I still returned most of it to my toppers. I wasn't inventing it, I was actually full.. before I finished. what a beautiful feeling knowing where to stop.

this is just my second day but I feel this is going to work.

my exercise routine starts next week, I wanted to have the first week to adapt to the diet first and then add the hour of cardio. also I am still waiting for my stationary bike to arrive and need to buy a couple of other things like a yoga mat and I so want a fitness ball. they are so big and fun! and ab work is amazing on those.

I am also trying to move more during the day, as I have a very stationary life- as a photographer-art student I pass a lot of time editing, sitting. the other day I cleaned the sofa and a futon I have and I was sooo tired afterward! I remember painting my house once and feeling sore for days. sometimes exercise comes in the funniest forms.

xoxo all!
 
Yay, I'm so glad you're motivated and excited!The prospect of being thinner in the world is very exciting! Thank you for visiting my journal and sharing your kindnesses.
 
HereIam! said:
Yay, I'm so glad you're motivated and excited!The prospect of being thinner in the world is very exciting! Thank you for visiting my journal and sharing your kindnesses.
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thanks sweetie you are too kind!
I love your journal and I can relate a lot. we girls should stick together and say stfu to anyone who wants to bring us down, lol!
xoxo
 

this is my new baby:

proteus.jpg



the bike name is proteus, which is hilarious. my artsy name is amiba- amoeba-proteus. so I kind of took it like a sign of the wonderful things I'll achieve with it. the bike also has 9 programs- so I can't cheat all that much. :blush5: by not adding resistance or speed.
I can't wait for it to arrive and torture me!

also I am starting my reward system: I am adding a little sticker star for everything I do- from taking my diet drops- to eating properly and doing at least one hour of exercise. in 3 weeks I'll reward me with a gift if I do everything, yay!
 
another day ends!

the second one only and I am going to bed before I jump over the fridge haha

I had to do the inevitable today and I measured myself.
I won't get a scale until a week or so due to lack of money- but it is a good thing I won't obsess every day about it.

my measurements at day 2 are:

waist: 32 inches
Hips: 43 inches
thighs: 25 inches
arms: 13 inches
calf: 15 inches

I want the hips and thighs to go down the most. and I also know they are the toughest, but I am very determined to make it work.

Today I had:

breakfast:
coffee and quarter of a sandwich in the morning

snack:
nopal with chili

Afternoon:
soy meat with chipotle sauce that I had left and an apple

Dinner:
two nopal and linseed dried tostadas with tuna salad, no mayonnaise

I think I am doing great! tomorrow will be a new day.
xoxo

 

Today my day started with coffee- the diet plan says no milk or sugar but heck I just can't do that.
I substituted the slice of bread to add 1% milk and splenda. I love my coffee sweet and it takes away the sweet cravings.
I also had a pear, awesome fruit with a lot of fiber.

I gave myself a star for my morning and afternoon drops

for lunch I had a bit of chicken with orange pepper, mushrooms and onion. no bread, pasta or anything. I am still hungry so I am having some jicama and cucumber with chili in a couple of hours- taking it to school as I have to stay there until 9 and it is a dangerous place for me! a lot of goodies on the snack store I have to avoid, lol

I feel great even though beating the feeling of hunger is tough. I know I need time to let my stomach adjust to the new portions of food and the very few carbohydrates. after all I was over eating and now my poor stomach doesn't know what's going on!

I walked a lot yesterday so today I am doing some yoga and still waiting for my bike to arrive. my next buy will be a scale for me to check every 2, 3 weeks how I am doing and my pilates ball.

xoxo all!
 


I had my first small ''test'' today,
spending 5 hours at my school and not visiting the store, not once. I used to go every day and buy cookies, a chocolate muffin or such.

and today, nada!
I am very proud of myself haha.. I know it doesn't seem like much but it took a lot of energy. especially because a very skinny girl is munching on a delicious chocolate chip cookie.. the soft kind. my ultimate favorite, argh I felt like basically sinking my teeth deep when she wasn't paying attention but.. I didn't

thankfully I am going home in a couple of hours and having a nice healthy meal for dinner and another day will be over!


le sigh

I had eggs with turkey ham- no butter or oil
2 nopal-linseed tostadas
some nopal and..

I just had a strawberry-banana HEB's light smoothie. (90 cal)
it is sooo hot and I was still hungry so it was a perfect desert

I can't believe it is only Wednesday and it feels like so much more. this day by day thing can be tough but also I know it is a better way to achieve my goal. I am totally nervous about weighting myself next week and noticing I am in the same place I started but I know it needs time and dedication.

good night!

 
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Howdy! I'm back again! I just looked up the places I've posted (which refer to "subscriptions), and thought I'd pay you a visit! Great job continuing posting!!!!!!!! That's the best part, I think there's something cathartic about it, don't you? It's saying, "I'm being intentional"! Hope all is wonderful!!!!!!
xo luv, Hereiam!
 
HereIam! said:
Howdy! I'm back again! I just looked up the places I've posted (which refer to "subscriptions), and thought I'd pay you a visit! Great job continuing posting!!!!!!!! That's the best part, I think there's something cathartic about it, don't you? It's saying, "I'm being intentional"! Hope all is wonderful!!!!!!
xo luv, Hereiam!
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haha you are too sweet!
I am spamming my own journal so I am constantly reminding myself of the process. it works!
and it is cathartic I totally agree
hope you are great hun!
 

Day 4.


breakfast: a light banana-strawberry smoothie
a slice of whole grain low calorie bread
an apple

my bicycle arrived, yay!! it is oh so gorgeous

school
I took some soy meat, chili and nopal tostadas oh an apple and broccoli to
and brought it to school in that way I wouldn't be tempted to buy junk
I didn't eat the broccoli or apple I wasn't hungry but I am having that for dinner.

I feel better than yesterday, I just didn't have that ridiculous hunger feeling.
I also don't feel guilty snacking anymore. of course you just need to learn how to snack.

I was able to get inside the seven eleven and NOT buy a single chocolate. I am so damn proud of myself haha

instead I bought a zero calorie sprite because it is so hot outside
and a 100 cal. granola bar that tastes like lemon pie
that and combining the nopal I prob. snacked 200 calories without actual fat so it is all very cool

I am making the diet jell-O tomorrow so I'll have that something sweet I want
I think I have a sweet and carbohydrate addiction I need to get rid off!
 

5th day:

today was a harsh day.
I can't believe it's been only 5 days they feel like a friggin month! of course having to change my diet and portions affects the first weeks. hopefully it will get easier with time.

I have to remain calm and remember this changes are for life, not a quick fix: those extreme liquid diets are useless def. not for me.

today I had:

breakfast: a coffee and a couple of oat cookies on the go
it was too early!

snack: a pear, yum.

afternoon: two tostadas with tuna and chipotle and broccoli

dinner: cereal with strawberries


I am still a bit hungry and I am having a fruit before going to bed.

oh also this is the first day I used my stationary bike. I love it but oh my god I am SO out of shape! I handled 15 minutes, had to wait and tried another 15 more. I need to slowly add more time to my routine. I also did a bit of yoga and it felt great especially with my back pain: I accumulate a frigg load of tension on my middle back especially around quizzes.. like, this next week.

I have to be strong and not binge when I get nervous or take my exams as an excuse to eat poorly.

tomorrow I might be going to a bday dinner. restaurants are tricky but I just need to know what to order and to never finish my portion- they almost always super size so you won't feel you are being robbed with those prices lol

it is a sea food place so it won't be hard. I'll order a fish with veggies for side order and maybe a little rice but that's it.


let you know how it goes
xoxo!
 

today I am feeling better

I did 15 minutes of cardio on my bike in the morning
it wasn't much but I am taking it one step at a time.

I want to go out for a walk later because the day is so beautiful! not too hot.


I had a special k cereal bowl with fresh strawberries, I was so full when I finished and it wasn't that much food- before I used to have two, three bowls of the sugary cereals.. oh my.

for my strong meal of the day I had tuna again, don't know why I was just craving tuna :p with salad and a bit of spinach cream I had left, I can't believe my food lasts this long now!
usually when I cooked I would eat everything- portions for 2, 3 people. so embarrassing

I feel soooo stuffed with so little I am proud haha
I can already feel the difference on my appetite and cravings


I might reward me tomorrow with a little pop corn or nacadamia nuts I've been wanting.
 

Today I've been anxious and wanting candy all day.
I had a huge fight and well the emotions are pouring in. It doesn't help that I am in my exam week. I had to be really strong not to binge.. thankfully instead of chocolate I bought a nature's valley sweet and salty bar with aprox. 170 calories and it was oh so delicious, it was way better than eating a snickers bar! no kidding. and with less fat and sugar of course so great

other than that my day started with cereal and 1% milk, I´ve discovered it helps me with the cravings during the day-

spinach salad with edamame, fresh mushrooms and a bit of fresh cheese

a pear

and the bar.


Also today is the first day I properly start my exercise routine- I've tasted the stationary bike but I know handling one hour is totally different, it will be tough at first because I am in terrible physical condition but I know with time and discipline I'll make it.

oh and I refused to have a french frie, I love those!
but I know if I eat one I won't be able to stop haha
 
I am so sad I can almost not handle it.

what is potentially dangerous is my relationship with food when I am like this, so it's been really hard not binging.

I seriously need time for myself, to think things through. currently not getting anywhere and I know it all depends on me and my willing to do so: school, art, relationship with myself and others. it all depends on me only.. but why do I keep screwing things up? why don't I trust myself?

I know there will be better times and this shall pass. it always does, on the other hand things are better at home, so why do I feel so miserable at times? I have everything to do the best I can and I keep stopping myself from doing so.

all the diets, all the failed relationships, the failed careers. I keep sabotaging my chances to be happy. why do I like to feel miserable?

who can live with all this personal generated drama?

well I am artist- guess we just can't help it.


on happier notes, I had a great meal: spinach, lean chicken and zucchini.
I went for a walk after that and I felt really good- then I had a granola bar
and I just had a whole grain muffin with low fat ricotta and a cup of coffee.

also I did aprox 30 min of spinning, hopefully next will that will be an entire hour.

controlling my binges is something to celebrate at least


that is all for now I better finish my homework!

xoxo
Diana

 


I feel a bit lost, and powerless.

it is always tough dealing with emotions and especially a diet if you are an emotional binger these just don't mix up.

but I've been trying to remain strong and fight it back.
today I had whole grain chips so I didn't feel as bad, and I've been taking to my mom a lot. she has a way to calming me that no one else seems to have. it is frightening when you realize you could be this alone.
was the rest of the year merely an illusion?

I hate being so emotional but in the end, I am an artist. I can work through my emotion and create. It is better being hysterical than a neurotic. keeping everything to yourself can't be healthy.


on other news I am still on my way to eating healthier. I had spinach, soy meat, a pear, a granola bar, jazmin tea. all good.

also I bought my exercise ball and a scale.. that is scary. now everything will feel more ''real'' because I'll know how much I weight and how I am doing. it is something I don't want but I need in order to know if I am doing things right.

I am not proud of cheating on my exercise this week but being on exams isn't helping. I am starting this weekend again though, and I have to be consistent. I do enjoy it, I just don't know why I struggle to find the time to just jump on my bike.
 

It's been a little while!

I am on vacation so I took this week off,
not entirely off my diet but I did slow things down a bit..

I know it's only been 3 weeks since I started this journey but I feel so desperate to see that I didn't drop one single pound, nada. I know my health comes first and eating healthier and introducing regular exercise is the best way to go but gah.. you think my body would get a hint already!

I do feel better, I like exercising and adding more activities to my daily life.
just wish I could start seeing the results. I don't ask for much just a pound or two would be amazing but.. well. I am still here.
it scares me that I might not be able to lose weight?
any tips..

also I believe it is my fault as I didn't weight myself until a couple of weeks after I started so I miiight have been a bit over 150. why is it so easy to gain weight but not to lose it, argh.

anyway.. I am still trying. I am trying anything, so hopefully I'll have the will to keep it on


also I've added some pics of me from different years
and my weight shifting. I am currently at my ''lowest'' in many years
but still nowhere near my goal.




today's achievments:

exercise
30 min of cardio in my elliptical bike
30 min frisky walking
20 min of yoga on a ball
15 min resistance/stretching

food

orange juice in the morning
an egg burrito that I couldn't finish

sushi! with a diet coke
a small yogurt ice cream with peanuts

a bit of tuna with apples
half a milk and cereal drink, it tasted funny
 
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how much calories etc are you taking in?

what are your daily activities and excercise?

never hurts to write it down and see what you might need or not need
 
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