A long time coming ...
Well, looks like the pregnancy might have distracted me from these forums a little bit! I am happy to say, however, that I am just a few days shy of 37 weeks (full-term) and I am still fluctuating between 305-308lbs. most days. I was about 307lbs. when I found out I was pregnant, so I have essentially maintained my weight the entire way through so far. I am still under my weight at the time of conception too, and well within sight of achieving my goal of staying at 310lbs. or less throughout the entire pregnancy.
The end is in sight! I have been having a few medical issues toward the end here ... my heart rate keeps jumping up and making me feel very strange and uncomfortable ... I can walk across the room and I will feel like I just sprinted 50 yards. I have undergone some tests, and although I am still waiting on results for one of them, the rest have come back relatively normal ... so the doctor's aren't really sure what to do. It may be something I just have to "suck it up" and deal with for these final few weeks.
A lot has happened in my life in the past few months. My daughter turned 3 years old and my father passed away very suddenly on her birthday at my parent's home where we were having her birthday party. He suffered a massive heart attack and the coroner found that he had undiagnosed coronary artery disease. He was 54 years old. His father was 55 years old when he ALSO passed away very suddenly from a massive heart attack due to the same condition. Age-wise, they were only about 7 months apart in terms of when they passed. It has become a huge awakening for my whole family in terms of making sure that we are actively choosing to make healthy decisions. I know that some of us still aren't ready to fully commit to changing our habits, but I am anxious to continue on with my weight-loss after this baby comes and I am cleared for physical activity again.
The massive life-change since the passing of my father coupled with the stress of the impending new addition to my life and household has really done a number on me. I have shown symptoms of depression which I have struggled with in the past, and still continue to show some signs, although overall I feel like my mood is improving. There were some days in there when I was so afraid to have this baby ... simply because I felt like I just couldn't handle anymore CHANGE in my life after my father's sudden passing. But, it seems that everyday it gets a little bit better and I get more excited about the arrival of my little boy.
I was placed on an anti-depressant for a very brief period, but once I started having issues with my heart rate, I was told to discontinue using it because it might have been exasperating that issue. However, I have had no significant improvement since I have stopped taking it 6 days ago. I guess we will see what happens ... I am glad that I stopped it though, because I will not be able to breastfeed if I am on it, and that is something that I was really looking forward to being able to do. If necessary after the baby, I may have to go back on the anti-depressant and discontinue breastfeeding, but hopefully that is not the case.
Anyway, I just wanted to update for any of you out there who even remember me
I will try to keep you posted as time moves on, and will obviously make a post once the baby is born ... and then you will hopefully see me around a lot more often around November when I will be cleared to start working out and getting back into my regular groove!
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