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:ack2: *WHEW!* About 1.5 hours on the treadmill (I just looooove Star Trek Voyager marathons!) plus sit-ups and push-ups. Now I am going to have some ACV and relax for a few minutes. I weighed myself this morning, and saw NO loss from the last three weeks. My scale is not so fancy as to measure ounces, though. I am determined to bust through this ridiculous 176 lb plateau this week!

My emotions continue to be all over the map, largely due to stress with DH. I have pasted on my :) for the children, though it is a load of :icon_bs: and what I really want to do is :smash: their Papa a few times! LOL Yes, it may be time to make an appointment with a counselor...For now, I just need to get through Christmas, which normally is my very happiest time of year. Things will get better eventually.

At any rate, tomorrow I am to deliver the eulogy at my neighbor's mother's funeral. Oddly, I never met the woman. However, I am quite sure I can read the kind words he has written (I've been practicing) without too much trouble. We do love our neighbors; I've known him since I was 14, and he introduced and married me to DH (Ummmm...thank you, I think?) 13 yrs ago. How time flies!

All for now. At least the exercise has helped with my mood some. I no longer feel a desire to plunge a sharp instrument directly into DH, nor even to hit him over the head with the shovel! It's just plastic, anyway...;)

cheers
 
True to form, this morning I feel quite sane and pleasant. In fact, by the time I hit the sack last night, I didn't even scrunch into a little ball waaaaaay far over on my side of the bed, as is my usual position when I am PO'd at dh. This up and down emotional bit has me wondering if my hormones aren't at least partly to blame. Aunt flo is still here for a couple of more days, and I usually am only on the emotional rollercoaster B4 she arrives!? Something is up, for sure.

FOOD
As for food, I (oddly) wanted a cookie this morning, but resisted. I would flip if my kids had a cookie for breakfast or anytime in the a.m., so I didn't dare have one myself. Cold cereal & my usual cuppa java had to suffice.

WEATHER
Warm temps and lots of rain has turned all of our beautiful fluffy white stuff into slushy grey poo. Lake-size puddles lurk everywhere. BEWARE of speeding vehicles, threatening to drown you in their wake! :auto: I suppose I will stick with the treadmill, since I don't own a lifejacket...

Even though I truly do not feel like exercising this early, I guess I'd better. The funeral is at 1pm, and then I'll head out for a few hours at work. I just KNOW I won't exercise when I get home, so it is now or never.

Cheers
:seeya:
 
HI

Ok how long on the treadmill? 1.5hours well done you!!!

Great restraint on the cookie i dont think i could be that strong!!! when i get something in my head its there and i have to have it!

I hope the funeral went ok

Sarah
 
Hi Janice

I am sorry that you are less than content currently. However we acquire our feelings they are our honest feelings and if they make us down then that is how we feel.

I know that I have spent many years on a bit of an emotional roller coaster ride - I have often used the term "living on a knife edge". I have experienced feelings of great delight or great despair. Things that rationally do not really matter have taken on the guise of being of great importance. Both my husband and I have tended to put all this down to my hormones. If Mrs Average can put her grumpiness and snappiness down to it via PMS - how realistic is it that ours will not be messing us around something chronic. Our hormone levels are so much higher than theirs.

And we have every right to feel "picked on" as it really isnt fair the things that happen to our bodies.

My husband is convinced that I have become much more tranquil since I started doing the excessive walking. I certainly feel calmer. Quite why and how and whether it makes sense - I do not know. This would tend to indicate that you are doing exactly the right thing when you go for a walk.

Whatever the origin of your feelings - I do not think that it will do you any favours to ignore them. Seeing a counsellor may well help. It may also be a good idea to speak to a doctor about your hormones and any effect that they may be having.

I know that you have moments where your marriage appears less than the good idea it once seemed. It may help to remind yourself that your children would be very different people if they had a different father. I know how much joy your children bring to you - and this concept may make a difference to how you feel.

You have done well to maintain your control of your food and continue exercising while you felt down.:hurray:

Take care
Love
Margaret
 
True to form, this morning I feel quite sane and pleasant. In fact, by the time I hit the sack last night, I didn't even scrunch into a little ball waaaaaay far over on my side of the bed, as is my usual position when I am PO'd at dh. This up and down emotional bit has me wondering if my hormones aren't at least partly to blame. Aunt flo is still here for a couple of more days, and I usually am only on the emotional rollercoaster B4 she arrives!? Something is up, for sure.

FOOD
As for food, I (oddly) wanted a cookie this morning, but resisted. I would flip if my kids had a cookie for breakfast or anytime in the a.m., so I didn't dare have one myself. Cold cereal & my usual cuppa java had to suffice.

WEATHER
Warm temps and lots of rain has turned all of our beautiful fluffy white stuff into slushy grey poo. Lake-size puddles lurk everywhere. BEWARE of speeding vehicles, threatening to drown you in their wake! :auto: I suppose I will stick with the treadmill, since I don't own a lifejacket...

Even though I truly do not feel like exercising this early, I guess I'd better. The funeral is at 1pm, and then I'll head out for a few hours at work. I just KNOW I won't exercise when I get home, so it is now or never.

Cheers
:seeya:

Hey you!
I am sorry you have been so down... I just read through ...

Did you end up getting the tree yet?

We bought our tree about two weeks ago ...
It was fun ..all women's work ... we met my step father on top of the hill with the tree ..he was shocked.. lol
do you cut from a farm?
or do you cut from the woods?
or do you buy from a person who pre cut them?

Anyway .. I love our tree this year ... I put new decs up ... bright azul and hot green snowflakes ...

I thought of you today and than went for a walk!

You got me motivated! lol and I was thinking of Margaret, Sarah ..

I just wanted to thank you for inspiring me so much ...


thanks!
Hope you have better days to come hun

love yas
always
natalie jo :seeya:
 
Hi all!
THanks for the pats on the back and hugs and good advice!

MARGARET:
I am quite certain that exercise makes a great difference in helping keep my moods stable. Truly, this past month is the first time in about half a year that I have had trouble; since starting my WL journey, I have been (no joke) ecstatic most of the time! It just feels so good to actually LOSE weight, shrinking down to a healthier size, one I feel better about.

NJ:
Yes, we did get our tree on Sunday! A beautiful, aromatic, fluffy tree - with needles that are so painful, none of us wanted to put more than 2 ornaments on ! LOL I have no idea what kind of tree it is, but I surely do not recall real trees being so painful! :dupe: So, come boxing week, I will be looking for a good deal on a fake tree, I think...

RAH:
Yes, I am really spending lots of time on that treadmill! The trick is to put it in front of the tv, with a really good, engrossing show on! Mine is pretty rickety, and I have it on a very steep incline. I keep my water right at hand, and also my kleenex - since whenever I really hoof it, my nose just pours! :ack2: it is disgusting! Why does it do that? I also keep my remote close by, since you just know those commercials blast your eardrums!

My treadmill workouts are quite intense; by the time I stop, I am literally dripping in sweat - just like the folks on The Biggest Loser! Then, when I can't take another step, I start my sit-ups and push-ups. I can't do very many yet, but I try to do another couple every day. Afterwards, if there is another good show on, I am just as likely to get back on the treadmill for a nice *leisurely* stroll.

Hope you are all well. The funeral was fine, I felt glad for my friend that so many folks attended to help send his Mom off with good memories. But I am glad it's over - giving a eulogy is a little nerve wracking!

cheers
:biggrinjester:
 
Hi Janice

I see a great deal of similarity in how we speak of moods. I use the term "great delight" whereas you use the term "ecstatic".

I am convinced that our hormones are involved in this.

I certainly know that I get more from my walks than the weight loss alone.

Are you doing as much walking as ever now that you are pretty near goal weight?

Do you keep records like I do of how much exercise you do each day? It could be worth analysing it to see if there has been a reduction that could be having this effect.

I know that your illness and lesser illnesses in the family will have diverted you from your exercise routines - and indeed the extra work involved with Christmas will be doing the same.

I would certainly be trying to do a little extra walking and seeing if that made a difference. After all - it may help how you feel and can only help your weight loss.

By the way - I am pleased that the funeral went well. It is always good to get these things behind us.

Take care
Love
Margaret
 
Hi Margaret
Lately I have been doing much more walking than usual, on my treadmill. The roads were just too icy or the weather too frigid to walk outside, so it has been indoors. I work much, much harder when on the treadmill! I do think a big part of my moods is hormonal, though there are other factors involved. But the extremes are hard to bear, for me and DH I am sure! How I can go from this :cuss::reddevil: to this :):Angel_anim: is beyond me!

I definitely will keep up with the mega treadmill workouts, for both of our sanity! (ewww - poor English, but you get my point!).

Tomorrow is weigh in day. Though I have worked out lots this week, and my clothes feel looser, I don't hold out much hope that I have broken the 176 barrier. Will let you know.
 
Hey Girl :) I'm such a bad supporter!! I don't make it in here as often as I would like to... You'll get thru that plateau soon enuf, just push a litttttle harder. And by the way- your picture looks great! Good job chica :D
 
Hi Janice

Good luck at the scales. I hope that you break that plateau. You deserve that weight loss. Be sure to let me know.

As far as the work-outs go - all I can say is keep on walking. I am off out for walk #2 of the day in a minute.

I hope that everything gets more tranquil for you soon.

Take care:hug2:
Love
Margaret
 
:cuss:
Even though my own scale shows a loss, the WW scale only showed ounces. I have been fiddling around with this one stupid pound for about a month, now. My workouts have definately been more intense over the past couple of weeks, so it must just be my food! A few too many gingersnaps, perhaps? Time to get back to solidly WRITING IT ALL DOWN. I don't know why I have such an aversion to doing it, but if I truly want to shed the rest of my excess poundage (and I DO), I had better just get on with it.

I did my work out today to Biggest Loser again. Love that show! So inspiring.

Hope you all had a more productive week at the scales than I did! :angelsad2:
 
:cuss:
Even though my own scale shows a loss, the WW scale only showed ounces. I have been fiddling around with this one stupid pound for about a month, now. My workouts have definately been more intense over the past couple of weeks, so it must just be my food! A few too many gingersnaps, perhaps? Time to get back to solidly WRITING IT ALL DOWN. I don't know why I have such an aversion to doing it, but if I truly want to shed the rest of my excess poundage (and I DO), I had better just get on with it.

I did my work out today to Biggest Loser again. Love that show! So inspiring.

Hope you all had a more productive week at the scales than I did! :angelsad2:

Hey Janice,
maybe you need to replace the battery in your scale or need a new scale. We notice that when our scale goes off, if we replace it...well its time to replace it usually. WE try to get the scaled that will hold up to 320 pounds. Thats the one we have ...

but anyway ... Youll lose this weight! I believe you can!

I actually got my butt out for a walk ..hmm...

keep treacking hun ...

love yas
natalie jo :):seeya:
 
Hi Janice

It is better to lose a few ounces than nothing at all. I know that this is very little comfort when you know that you have earned a loss that has not materialised. These things do catch up eventually. Do not become disheartened.

We all hit plateaus every now and again.:grouphug:

Some I resolved by increasing my daily mileage - but it sounds like you have already tried that.

In September I had 2 plateaus with a mere 5 days where I lost any weight between the two.

It was really wierd. I had got to the stage where I thought that it was silly to just keep increasing the daily mileage. I was not sure how many miles I would end up doing........

I even went to see my doctor and she was useless. She didnt even put me on the scales. I know for a fact that I was 205.4 pounds that morning and 5 ft 3 inches tall. She told me that if I was eating carefully and doing the walking that I was telling her that I was doing and had stopped losing weight - I must have lost all my fat and I needed to improve my muscle tone. My husband was there at the time and he agreed that he wouldnt have believed it had he not heard it himself.

It was when I was searching the internet for ideas as to how to proceed that I found this forum.

There were some interesting threads on plateaus - I think in the harsh truth section.

I know for a fact that I solved the first plateau by stopping my daily weetabix and replacing it with something else. I got 5 days worth of loss and then it all stood still again. I then started my weetabix up again and started losing again. I never understood why it seemed to make a difference - but it did seem to.

Some people wonder why I eat such a repetitive diet - but even slight alterations can make a huge difference for me.

Writing everything down could be a good idea. I think that I would do that if I were you. It helps us to focus on both the quantity and the balance of the diet.

Take care:seeya:
Love
Margaret
 
Thanks for your suggestions, gals! I will check out the Harsh Truth section of the forum to see what Plateau Bustin' advice is offered there.

Our WW meetings are held right next to a Salvation Army thrift store, which I frequent after every meeting! Yesterday I bought a lovely size 12 skirt, which I wore out to dinner and then to work. It is very flattering to my *new* svelte figure, and when worn with a fitted sweater, certainly caused DH to take notice! The gals in my office are very supportive and encouraging of my weight loss efforts, and at least 2 others have started their own WL journeys as a result. It is nice to know that we are inspiring/impacting other folks.
Here's to a better week. :seeya:
 
Thanks for your suggestions, gals! I will check out the Harsh Truth section of the forum to see what Plateau Bustin' advice is offered there.

Our WW meetings are held right next to a Salvation Army thrift store, which I frequent after every meeting! Yesterday I bought a lovely size 12 skirt, which I wore out to dinner and then to work. It is very flattering to my *new* svelte figure, and when worn with a fitted sweater, certainly caused DH to take notice! The gals in my office are very supportive and encouraging of my weight loss efforts, and at least 2 others have started their own WL journeys as a result. It is nice to know that we are inspiring/impacting other folks.
Here's to a better week. :seeya:

Size 12 ... You go girl! I am so happy for you!

You are just ...wow ...you go girl! lol

I want to reach a size 14- 16 .. I think thats the smallest size I will go ..
my step sister doesn't want me to lose to size 12 ..she says I will look anorexic and I think I agree lol she has the right idea ...lol

but anyway .. I am so psyched for you! Wowser!

Thanks for inspiring me even more!

love yas
always
natalie jo :seeya:
 
Hi Janice

I hope that you sort out your plateau soon.

Have you tried eating salmon as a main meal. Definitely try it!

It sounds silly but it is my best meal. I could almost want to eat it every day - I lose weight so well with it.

I take a salmon fillet and rub the sides with a little olive spread. I wrap it in foil and cook for 25 minutes at 180. I serve with 3 boiled new potatoes (with a little olive spread) and sweetcorn.

With the olive spread melting everywhere it doesnt feel like you are dieting much at all.

Anyway I weigh every day and have registered a loss the next morning on 11 of the last 12 times that we have had it.

The new skirt sounds lovely. I am quite jealous. There are no charity shops that I come into regular contact with. I am currently living in 2 leisure suits, a few T shirts and there is my red dress that I seldom have the occasion to wear. I begrudge buying new clothes when I still want to lose quite a lot of weight. I still have big rolls of fat that need to go - the lament of the small boned!

Take care:seeya:
Love
Margaret
 
Dang Janice... i certainly would be jumping up and down for joy if i could fit into a size 12. I haven't been in a size 12 since i was in middle school if not elementary school. At least i am going back down in sizes but that may all change here in the next few months if my test comes out the way i am thinking it will. I took one today but it was extremely light so kinda hard to tell if its positive or not so we are waiting another week or so before retesting.. haha.. well i'll let you know. i guess we will find out one way or the other come next week.

hope you are able to break through your plateau soon. I have been bouncing around from 234 to 238 the last few weeks so i am hoping on saturday that i see 233 if not lower.

heather
 
Hi gals:seeya:
NJ::
It seems to me that size 14 is a very normal, average size in North America. I gather you are somewhat taller than me, so it could very well be just the right size for you to aim for!

MARGARET:
Thanks for the salmon tip! I loooooove seafood, and do try to frequently have salmon and tuna in my daily diet. You know, when I got on my scale this morning, it read 174 -- but I generally only go by the WW scale at my weekly weigh in. I am curious what it will be this week!


HEATHER:
Hmmm... I remember those days well when hoping to conceive! LOL Still at times when Aunt Flo is late, my heart skips a beat. I would so love another little one around the house. I hope you have the answer on the PG test that you are looking for!

It has been a hard weekend emotionally, but I have not done any binging, which is very good. I am just very tired and drained and trying to find some sort of solution for my marriage. We are on a wait-list for counselling in January, so I just really need to hang on a bit longer.

Hope everyone had a good weekend and has an excellent week!

Janice
 
I'm sorry to hear that you've been having a tough time... Keep on holding on, things will look up for you. Also- good job on no bingeing. I have a small problem with that here and there... Keep going, your helping us more than you know :)
 
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