Hi, all. Delightfully, the WW scale did register me back down at 157. However, after today's workout, my own scale fluctuated all the way down between 156 and 154!!!!! OMGosh, that is crazy. It does give me hope, however, of continuing to etch my way down...down... The day I get to 149 will be an incredible shock. I mean, when was the last time I weighed that? In fact, the last time I weighed my current weight had to be just before my wedding over a dozen years ago!
EEK! How am I so old? Oh well - who cares how old I am, provided my body looks like it belongs to someone MUCH younger? =p
I went to see my doc yesterday about more lupus symptoms, and she was very proud of me for getting so healthy. In fact, she had many questions on how I have achieved my loss thus far, and asked for advice on how to motivate her DH to do likewise! LOL now that is a switch - me advising her!
I did appreciate her applause. I love it when people notice how far I have come.
Hope you all have a great weekend,
ABBA
EEK! How am I so old? Oh well - who cares how old I am, provided my body looks like it belongs to someone MUCH younger? =p I went to see my doc yesterday about more lupus symptoms, and she was very proud of me for getting so healthy. In fact, she had many questions on how I have achieved my loss thus far, and asked for advice on how to motivate her DH to do likewise! LOL now that is a switch - me advising her!
I did appreciate her applause. I love it when people notice how far I have come.Hope you all have a great weekend,
ABBA


Okay, after today's "mill time" my scale registered
However, my desire to save my marriage trumps my desire to protect his feelings, so I shall be a real grown up and tell the truth.
I am on a journey to a better life all around, and sorting out the yucky, hard bits is part of the whole process. 
Thanks Margaret - that was just what I needed to hear. I am hopeful that counseling is at least a step in the right direction. I think it will help just to have a neutral third party listen to what has been going on and offer their thoughts on it. I would like to hammer out some "rules to live by" that he really WILL live by, but I know that I cannot "make him" do a dang thing. He has to want to see change in our relationship. My doc scared me this last week by telling me that perhaps what is necessary by way of an intervention is actually for me to leave. That would give him the shock of his life, all right - but I am now willing to scar my kids like that. Their Daddy is faaaaar from perfect, but they love him, and he loves them, so we just have to work it out.
which is TOTAL
I am happy to say that our first meeting went very well. It was quite draining emotionally (90 minutes of he says/she says) but we both felt "heard" and are each looking forward to our individual sessions next week. My basic feeling is simply one of HOPE - finally. I really want DH to get help for his depression, and think it might actually happen now. DH seemed relieved to hear some of what I had to say, which was obviously contrary to what he thought. 
hee hee

scale continues to play 
