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[juni]

Keep it up lady! I really want a Java plum now--they sound YUM! xx

Thank you Sun. I loooove Java Plum. My friends say its an acquired taste but they are sooooooo good and full of potassium. Good for indigestion and if you have high blood sugar.

 

[juni]

Hooray, another June baby! xD
My birthday's on the 10th. I'm turning 21!
Keep up the good work!

Yayay! My birthday is on 4 june, when is yours? 21? wow! You are such a baby. I feel ancient!!!

 

[juni]

Hey, how's it going? I think a lot of us had a bad weekend. Monday was part of mine because I was still off. For some reason, i seem to have good week days and crappy weekends. I'm better off at work because i can keep up with when I eat and what I eat. It's like I clock everything and am more aware because I cannot wait to get off and go home to a little life. New week for us all though! Have a great day.

I sooo know what you mean. As much as I love my weekends and really really look forward to them (I start dreaming about the weekend on monday itself), I do wish I had a little self control during those two days.

This is all a learning process, njoyble. I hope we learn to keep a reign on our temptations. I hope I start gaining control sooner, rather than later though.

 

[juni]

hey Juni, Great day yesterday! You made a great come-back from your weekend! Your runs are awsome and really insipring! You seem to really love your fruit, I do too. But just be careful with the sugar intake with all of that fruit since sugar turns to fat in the body. But great job, Keep it up!

I do love my fruits, and they are going to be the reason for my downfall. Ok, im being a little melodramatic, but I really need to start eating more proteins in my breakkie. Fruits are filled with all kinds of amazing nutrients but they also have sugar and LOTS of carbs. I am going to try to be better.

 

[juni]

Hi folks, happy tuesday!

I had another good day food and exercise-wise.

B: small homemade crepe, 1 peach, 2 plums, Java plums
S: one hard boiled egg with cucumber, carrots, parmesan cheese and a dash of olive oil
L: sauteed cauliflower, split pea soup
S: 1 big mango
D: 1.5 cups of rice pilaf and some spiced yogurt. (I mad the pilaf with peas and carrots and it was soo good- if i may say so myself)
Dessert: one small piece of dark chocolate.

I loooove ending my day with a piece of dark chocolate, especially when I have a good food day.

Exercise: Walked for 60 mins (brisk walk)- must've burnt 150 cal (not much, but still soemthing).

Tomorrow is my day for longish run. I hope the weather is good. I wanna run for about one hour tomorrow. If i feel good, I'll run one hour, otherwise 45 mins.

My cousin is leaving next week and I am travelling from 10 June. I am really nervous about what I am going to do about food and running while on the road. Yikes!

 

[Verobc1]

You are doing good Juni!!!

I agree with you that protein at breakfast is important! When you are on the road it must be so hard to eat well and have time and energy to work out but you can do it!

 

[juni]

You are doing good Juni!!!

I agree with you that protein at breakfast is important! When you are on the road it must be so hard to eat well and have time and energy to work out but you can do it!

Thanks Veronique. I am trying soo hard to add more protein but how much chicken, eggs, cheese and yogurt can one eat? Don't get me wrong, I loove dairy products and chicken and fish and eggs but its really hard to get 40 percent in my diet everyday. I am really trying. I feel that I need more protein too, as I am running more and working out 5 days. I need to get me that protein powder, but I can't find them here so gonna have to wait until I get to the new world.

 

[njoyabl]

This is all a learning process, njoyble. I hope we learn to keep a reign on our temptations. I hope I start gaining control sooner, rather than later though.

Absolutey, absolutely. We will, and we'll have much to celebrate when we reach our goals!

 

[juni]

Hello everyone:

Today was great exercise wise, food wise, I don't know. I think it was ok. Its getting to TOM so I have been having sugar urges so had two small choc chip cookies and two pieces of choc (in addtion to my daily fruits). I feel really bad, but I went out and ran extra hard today.

WED
B: watermelon (was grumpy again today)
S: 1 hard boiled egg with cucumber, carrots, a lil olive oil, feta and parmesan cheese
L: Stir fried veggies (carrots, zucchini, onions and cauliflower with parm cheese)
Sugar attack- two cc cookies and two small pieces of chocolate
S: one low-fat whole wheat crackers with pb and 1 mango
D: 1/2 cup chicken and 1/2 cup rice, two chicken nuggets

Ran for 50 mins today (burnt over 300 cal), very proud. I have been extra good about exercise this week (and food, until today). But it is TOM soon, so I am feeling extra bitchy and craving sugar like mad (although after i had the cc cookies and chocolate i immediately regretted it because i could feel my mouth getting really sweet and knew it was gonna stay like that for a while- yuck- i did go and brush my teeth right away). Gonna start ballooning soon, im sure because of TOM. Just hoping that I don't get it before my weigh-in on friday. Ugh! Been drinking close to 5 liters of water everyday. Hopefully that'll help.

So today something happened that kinda made me sad (I am really being a baby about this so please feeel free to ask me to shut up because I know this is soooo elementary school drama ). My cousin (who makes all the remarks about my weight) was invited to a party. She usually wears long shirts and stuff. She's of small frame 5'1" and when I saw what she was wearing I had a little knot in my heart. She was wearing my size six jeans with my really nice top (which I don't get into anymore but had saved because i want to be that size). She looked incredibly nice and I hope she has fun at the party tonight, but it just made me sad to think i could fit into that before and i don't anymore. I was jealous, of course, but i was also so sad for myself because it has been months since I bought outfits that fit me. I don't enjoy going shopping at all anymore and i have clothes in size six lying around (not a lot but a couple of pairs of jeans and some really nice tops, skirts and mini skirts). She came to show me how she looked and I said she looked nice and she asked if i looked like a teeny bopper and i said no, but I'm feeling just so sad. When I see myself in the mirror while walking about the market with her, I feel like a whale.

I hate PMSing like this and I really need to get out of this funk. Thanks for listening.

 

[Janvier]

So today something happened that kinda made me sad (I am really being a baby about this so please feeel free to ask me to shut up because I know this is soooo elementary school drama ). My cousin (who makes all the remarks about my weight) was invited to a party. She usually wears long shirts and stuff. She's of small frame 5'1" and when I saw what she was wearing I had a little knot in my heart. She was wearing my size six jeans with my really nice top (which I don't get into anymore but had saved because i want to be that size). She looked incredibly nice and I hope she has fun at the party tonight, but it just made me sad to think i could fit into that before and i don't anymore. I was jealous, of course, but i was also so sad for myself because it has been months since I bought outfits that fit me. I don't enjoy going shopping at all anymore and i have clothes in size six lying around (not a lot but a couple of pairs of jeans and some really nice tops, skirts and mini skirts). She came to show me how she looked and I said she looked nice and she asked if i looked like a teeny bopper and i said no, but I'm feeling just so sad. When I see myself in the mirror while walking about the market with her, I feel like a whale.

I hate PMSing like this and I really need to get out of this funk. Thanks for listening.

Hi Juni,

I'm sorry your feeling down, I know exactly how you feel! For christmas 2008 when I was at my biggest and had just started my diet I went to Texas and I have a cousin there and we honestly look like twins and at the time I was a size 12-14 and she was maybe a 5-7 and we would go to stores and she would find cute little outfits and I wouldn't find a darn thing that could fit me so I would just go with her to help her find things and she looked cute in everything she tried on and I would tell her that but I kept thinking I am never going to be her size, I am never going to look cute in clothes and I am never going to just be able to go to a store and find things that fit me...but I was wrong, I worked hard, ate well and now I'm smaller then she is. Not that it was a competition with her and your not in a competition with your cousin but you are going to get back into all of your size 6's! Your eating well, your working out hard and thats what it takes! Your going to do this and your going to be sucessful. Keep all of your size 6's because you will need them! Just keep doing what your doing, you'll get there I know it.

 

[chubbygirl]

Aww Juni I feel your pain! I also understand the funk! Sometimes you just need a little cry - I did anyway. I promise the feeling won't last so you just have to stay positive that it will pass.
You are doing so awesome! Running for 50 min!! And eating really well this week! You will get back into those clothes - just don't ever give up! Maybe you should hid those clothes you want to wear so you don't feel bad seeing her wear them. I'm a jealous person too and that would make me upset. Just remember you are working hard and you will get there! It's going to take some time but it will be well worth the wait!

 

[Want2Lose]

Juni, I am sorry you are feeling low. Just remember you are doing what you need to do, and soon you will be able to fit back into those clothes.

That is impressive about the 50 minutes running. I am still stuck at half a mile. But I haven't been pushing myself so that is my own fault.

 

[Flumes]

Hi Juni,

Hope you feel better soon. Your happiness around here is like sunshine.
Hope your clouds pass soon.

Take care

 

[hanabi]

Aw, sorry you're feeling down, Juni!!
That's a really hard situation. I know it'd make me feel bad, as well. :'(

I hope you can take heart in the fact that you are doing really, really wonderfully, and I'm sure you'll be back in those cute clothes in no time at all!

The other thing is, maybe you could try going out and buying yourself a cute new outfit NOW, whatever size you are! When I first started getting super depressed about how horrid I looked, having gained about 20 kg (up to 170 pounds!), I did feel awful for a long time, but eventually, I took steps toward trying to at least accept how my body was and that I could still dress well, bought some nice outfits that fit. And it really upped my confidence, even helped me get more motivated to slim down again!

Wishing you the best~

 

[jjjay]

Hey Juni, sorry that it made you sad - it won't be forever, you will get there and achieve your goals, just keep on going like you are going! Try not to compare your successes (and failures as you see them) with other people around you - in this world there are always going to be people smarter, thinner, more toned, more beautiful, perfect hair, more cash to buy lovely clothes...the list goes on and on...I try to focus on the things that I VALUE about ME. Honestly, when you walk into a party, no matter who you are with, there will be people there who look beyond the size 6 skinny cousin and go "oooh actually, that one looks far more up my street" because if we all liked the same thing there would be one huge crowd of unloved people who never get to procreate and one very small group of perfect individuals who walk around loving themselves all the time. Hmmm, off on a tangent there I think but nevermind!!

Keep on running!! I'm up to 40 mins now and it doesn't seem much of a stretch to keep increasing it...i.e. I'm not desperate to stop after that.

 

[Verobc1]

Hey Juni

You are doing great this week! Take it one day at a time and eventually you will be back in your size 6. Your cousin.....how do you think she would do if she tried to run for 50 min???? You have worked hard for your accomplishments and when you get to your goal you will be fit and toned and healthy...! At work there is this girl who is about 5"9 and she weight 105lb and she is very unhealthy, she had a stroke when she was 17 or 18 and her colesterole is so high that if she eats fries her arms and legs go numb, skinny doesn't always equal healthy! Keep you focus on your health...it's ok to cry you have to let it out!!!!

 

[juni]

Hey Juni

You are doing great this week! Take it one day at a time and eventually you will be back in your size 6. Your cousin.....how do you think she would do if she tried to run for 50 min???? You have worked hard for your accomplishments and when you get to your goal you will be fit and toned and healthy...! At work there is this girl who is about 5"9 and she weight 105lb and she is very unhealthy, she had a stroke when she was 17 or 18 and her colesterole is so high that if she eats fries her arms and legs go numb, skinny doesn't always equal healthy! Keep you focus on your health...it's ok to cry you have to let it out!!!!

Crazy about the girl at work. Thank you Veronique. My cousin definitely can't run 50 mins for sure. We went running the other day, and while I was really slow, I did more than 40 mins and she tried to run really fast and she couldn't. Later on she was complimenting me on how strong I've become. Thank you soo so much for your reply, Veronique, means a lot.

Hey Juni, sorry that it made you sad - it won't be forever, you will get there and achieve your goals, just keep on going like you are going! Try not to compare your successes (and failures as you see them) with other people around you - in this world there are always going to be people smarter, thinner, more toned, more beautiful, perfect hair, more cash to buy lovely clothes...the list goes on and on...I try to focus on the things that I VALUE about ME. Honestly, when you walk into a party, no matter who you are with, there will be people there who look beyond the size 6 skinny cousin and go "oooh actually, that one looks far more up my street" because if we all liked the same thing there would be one huge crowd of unloved people who never get to procreate and one very small group of perfect individuals who walk around loving themselves all the time. Hmmm, off on a tangent there I think but nevermind!!

Keep on running!! I'm up to 40 mins now and it doesn't seem much of a stretch to keep increasing it...i.e. I'm not desperate to stop after that.

You are right, Jjjay. Coming from you, who has been through so much int he process it means a lot. I was thinking yesterday, in less than three months I have become stronger, my endurance is better, my mood is fantastic. If I continue to do that, it can only bring good results. I will keep on running and adding interesting things to my exercise routine and eat really really well. Thank you sooo much for encouragement.

Aw, sorry you're feeling down, Juni!!
That's a really hard situation. I know it'd make me feel bad, as well. :'(

I hope you can take heart in the fact that you are doing really, really wonderfully, and I'm sure you'll be back in those cute clothes in no time at all!

The other thing is, maybe you could try going out and buying yourself a cute new outfit NOW, whatever size you are! When I first started getting super depressed about how horrid I looked, having gained about 20 kg (up to 170 pounds!), I did feel awful for a long time, but eventually, I took steps toward trying to at least accept how my body was and that I could still dress well, bought some nice outfits that fit. And it really upped my confidence, even helped me get more motivated to slim down again!

Wishing you the best~

Hana, I went and bought this really really cute top (i took your advise). That's my birthday present to myself. Its dark red (my favourite color), and snug and really really cute. Its perfect right now, but if I lose a little weight, it will look even better. Thank you for the idea and encouragement.

Hi Juni,

Hope you feel better soon. Your happiness around here is like sunshine.
Hope your clouds pass soon.

Take care

You cheer me up! Thank you so much, Flumes. You are a rockstar, you know that? We are gonna so rock this weighloss thingie. Means a lot that you cared and left a message.

Juni, I am sorry you are feeling low. Just remember you are doing what you need to do, and soon you will be able to fit back into those clothes.

That is impressive about the 50 minutes running. I am still stuck at half a mile. But I haven't been pushing myself so that is my own fault.

W2L, you are one of my WLF heros, and your encouragement means a lot. Thank you so much. I'm gonna rock the pedometer.

Hi Juni,

I'm sorry your feeling down, I know exactly how you feel! For christmas 2008 when I was at my biggest and had just started my diet I went to Texas and I have a cousin there and we honestly look like twins and at the time I was a size 12-14 and she was maybe a 5-7 and we would go to stores and she would find cute little outfits and I wouldn't find a darn thing that could fit me so I would just go with her to help her find things and she looked cute in everything she tried on and I would tell her that but I kept thinking I am never going to be her size, I am never going to look cute in clothes and I am never going to just be able to go to a store and find things that fit me...but I was wrong, I worked hard, ate well and now I'm smaller then she is. Not that it was a competition with her and your not in a competition with your cousin but you are going to get back into all of your size 6's! Your eating well, your working out hard and thats what it takes! Your going to do this and your going to be sucessful. Keep all of your size 6's because you will need them! Just keep doing what your doing, you'll get there I know it.

Thank you sooo much for your kind words, Janvier. I am hiding the clothes for a few months (have washed them and as soon as my cousin leaves I'm gonna wash them and pack them away so I can take them home with me. The emotions that yesterday's event brought were very very strange to me. I felt jealous of my skinny cousin, and I was so embarrassed. But I'm feeling much better today because I came on the WLF and read your posts. Thank you for listen and being there. Hugs.

Aww Juni I feel your pain! I also understand the funk! Sometimes you just need a little cry - I did anyway. I promise the feeling won't last so you just have to stay positive that it will pass.
You are doing so awesome! Running for 50 min!! And eating really well this week! You will get back into those clothes - just don't ever give up! Maybe you should hid those clothes you want to wear so you don't feel bad seeing her wear them. I'm a jealous person too and that would make me upset. Just remember you are working hard and you will get there! It's going to take some time but it will be well worth the wait!

Lisa, thank you soooo much for your message. It cheered me up. I was soo jealous of her, it was so strange. And I was sooo mad at being jealous. Her visit this time has brought A LOT of strange emotions within me. In a way, I am sooo happy she's leaving on Tuesday. Then I feel like I can get back to my life. The emotions yesterday totally wore me out and I slept for like 9 hours straight through the night. I woke up feeling sooo blah and grumpy. But I came to WLF and saw all your message and it cheered me up. Lisa, I cried a little and it made me feel good. I was basically crying for all the years I just didn't care for my body and for being jealous of my cousin. But I felt better after that. Thank you so so so much. You are a really good friend. I am so glad you are here. Means a lot.

 

[juni]

Hello folks,

So after yesterday's meltdown, I woke up with puffy eyes and felt more grumpy than ever. I am also PMSing right now and I am not a very pretty sight when I start getting all emotional and shit. I decided that it was a day my cousin would make breakfast (which she didn't) and just logged on here. Then I saw your messages. That totally cheered me up and I was ready to start a new day.

Work was a major bitch today. I had meetings after meetings. I am handing over a lot of responsibilities to various people. Next month my replacement is gonna come (they just hired someone), which means I have to prepare him before I leave. I was meeting with a lot of the people today who I established relationships (networks). After work my cousin wanted to take me out to have dinner to celebrate early birthday. She chose the place and invited the people she knew so I would get to know them also. I played along (it was really nice of her to make the effort, really). But I had tooooooo many glasses of wine (four glasses). Then I suddenly realised that I was not driving (my cousin was), and did a few shots,and drank another glass of vodka with tonic. Yikes. Since I was in meetings all day, food was alright, but we kinda had a huuge dinner so I am not even sure what's gonna happen at my weigh-in tomorrow.

THUR:

B: 1 toast with butter, some java plums
S: leftover zucchini and carrots (1/2 bowl)
L: sauteed cauliflower with a ricecake
S: two small pieces of brownie and a small pizza roll (was in a meeting)
Came home and had a mango
D: Burger with fries (gosh I never eat burgers so I don't even know how many calories) and all the darn drinks. Then they brought a small piece of carrot cake (my favourite) with candle on top so I ate that as well.

Now I have a bitch of a headache (from all the drinks- oh btw, its only 11.30 pm here- we started drinking by 5.30 and most of the drinks have worn off my system- also my alcohol resistance has always been really good). I am gonna wake up totally hung-over tomorrow. If I do, I'll take a couple of advils and go for a run. That's a cool way to start my bday, no? Hahahah....

I'll visit everyone tomorrow. I hope everyone's having a wonderful wonderful week.

xoxo

 

[juni]

Down by 0.6 lbs this week. A loss is a loss, so I'm very happy. Now on to another amazing week!!

 

[hanabi]

Yay yay yay, .6 pounds is great!
And, happy birthday!!!
: D