A Little More than Useless

Sounds like you have a plan in place. That is good. It is easier when you have a goal. Remember that losing weight involves some sacrifice from you. Whether it is not eating what you want, when you want or having to do some exercise - it really is about compromise and sacrifice. Sounds like you are going to do just fine with that. Good Luck on the interview!!
 
I applied for that job, I hope it works out. I'm getting very frustrated looking for work because I have virtually no experience. My first job ever I was fire from, my second job was seasonal, my third job I quit but the managers weren't communicating well so they thought I just disappeared and then I went to hairschool and haven't had a job since November. I don't even know how this happened.

I am hoping that if I don't get a job before I get on with the college classes then at least I can tell people I'm going to college. I think it will look better than me just saying I'm not doing anything at all.

Finding a job really sucks right now, and I'm only qualified to do the thing I honestly dislike more than any other job. I will do whatever. Stock shelves, run the cash register, clean bathrooms, arrange displays...as long as I don't have to be responsible for someone's bloody hair. >.<

Anyways, that was a bit of a rant. I'll find a job because there really isn't any other way.

I have decided to write though. No matter what I am doing I want to write. Not with the focus of being published, but to be a good writer and to make people laugh, cry, think and all that jazz. If I am a terrible writer now I will get better through schooling.

It always been my dream and we only have one life, right? ^.^
 
the_walrus0 said:
I applied for that job, I hope it works out. I'm getting very frustrated looking for work because I have virtually no experience. My first job ever I was fire from, my second job was seasonal, my third job I quit but the managers weren't communicating well so they thought I just disappeared and then I went to hairschool and haven't had a job since November. I don't even know how this happened.

I am hoping that if I don't get a job before I get on with the college classes then at least I can tell people I'm going to college. I think it will look better than me just saying I'm not doing anything at all.

Finding a job really sucks right now, and I'm only qualified to do the thing I honestly dislike more than any other job. I will do whatever. Stock shelves, run the cash register, clean bathrooms, arrange displays...as long as I don't have to be responsible for someone's bloody hair. >.<

Anyways, that was a bit of a rant. I'll find a job because there really isn't any other way.

I have decided to write though. No matter what I am doing I want to write. Not with the focus of being published, but to be a good writer and to make people laugh, cry, think and all that jazz. If I am a terrible writer now I will get better through schooling.

It always been my dream and we only have one life, right? ^.^
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I hope it works out for you too. I have to tell you though ( not to discourage you or anything) but sometimes we have to do the things we don't want to just to get by. If you hate cutting hair that much but can't find anything in the meantime - cut hair until you do find something else. You know it is just temporary so that may make it tolerable. Believe me I did I job I hated for a long time simply because I had to pay the bills and put a roof over my family's head. That is why I push people to find their passions and then follow them. Sometimes we can't just jump into them though- we have to do things we may not want to while we get some training or go to school. It took me 6 years of working full time and going to school at night to get out of my other job - but I did it and you can too.

I was just thinking maybe you could volunteer at the newspaper doing something or when you go to college they must have a school newspaper. It will kind of give you an in, plus help you hone your writing skills - just a thought?

You will find a job, hit your goal for weight loss, finish school and find your dream job. Big dreams, but you can and will do it!!
 
^.^ Thanks Cowboy.

The thing is, if I decided to cut hair I have to go take the exam for 200$, and they only do it every month, so the next one would probably be sometime next month. So that would still be awhile longer of unemployment.

Basically I'm just struggling right now.

I weighed myself this morning and it was amazing! 223.2
It's exciting, but I really didn't know what to expect. I think my increased exercise is really helping. =) It's fantastic.

Also, I learned this morning that I enjoy dipping apple slices in peanut butter and it's incredibly filling. Even though 1 tbs is 100 cals, it goes well with the apples.
 
the_walrus0 said:
^.^ Thanks Cowboy.

The thing is, if I decided to cut hair I have to go take the exam for 200$, and they only do it every month, so the next one would probably be sometime next month. So that would still be awhile longer of unemployment.

Basically I'm just struggling right now.

I weighed myself this morning and it was amazing! 223.2
It's exciting, but I really didn't know what to expect. I think my increased exercise is really helping. =) It's fantastic.

Also, I learned this morning that I enjoy dipping apple slices in peanut butter and it's incredibly filling. Even though 1 tbs is 100 cals, it goes well with the apples.
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I get it- didn't realize you had to write the exam for it. I am sure you will find something else if that is what you want. Keep your spirits up!! Great job on the 223.2- That is fantastic. There is a carmel dip you can get for apples too- I don't know if they have it in Alaska but it comes in individual cups and has no fat but is all sugar so you have to be careful but is a nice treat. The only thing with the peanut butter is if you have one apple and you cut it into 4 or 8 and you dip each piece in peanut butter from the jar you can get a lot of peanut butter in a hurry. Unless you put a tablespoon on a plate and then dip each piece in it-lol.
 
Today I did something I don't think I've ever done before. I prepared a meal, and then only ate half of it, and put the other half away. It was really amazing, because generally even if I am not hungry I'll finish the meal just because I made it.

Anyways, I've been doing really good lately. Soon I'd like to grab a Badmiton set and play that on the weekends. Summer is really revitalizing me, but I want to keep reminding myself that even in winter I've got to be active, even if it's gloomy outside.

The fridge is stocked with good food and I'm not worried. ^.^
 
the_walrus0 said:
Today I did something I don't think I've ever done before. I prepared a meal, and then only ate half of it, and put the other half away. It was really amazing, because generally even if I am not hungry I'll finish the meal just because I made it.

Anyways, I've been doing really good lately. Soon I'd like to grab a Badmiton set and play that on the weekends. Summer is really revitalizing me, but I want to keep reminding myself that even in winter I've got to be active, even if it's gloomy outside.

The fridge is stocked with good food and I'm not worried. ^.^
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Good for you!! Congratulations on not eating the whole meal. Yeah I know what you mean about having some nice weather for a change. The warmer weather, I think revitalizes everyone. Keep doing what you are doing- you are doing GREAT!!
 
I've lost another lb! I think exercise has really given me a rock to grab onto in this journey.

Each day I was constantly worried about what I'd eaten and if it was good enough, but now that I've been exercising I don't care so much about the number on the scale. I just want my body to become stronger so I can do more.

I want to run, and play, and climb, and bike. I want to enjoy the things my body can do, and have a good relationship with food. It's fuel for my body, not some demonic thing.

I made a fantastically delicious breakfast shake this morning, and it was so good I couldn't believe I'd never had one before. And my chicken salad yesterday was just amazing.

Food, healthy food, is amazing. I'm just now starting to realize that. Yesterday I had a choice between a hundred calorie pack or a greek yogurt with strawberry in it. I chose the greek yogurt, not because it was healthier, but because I actually like the way they taste better than the cookies in the 100 cal pack.

It's amazing, and I'm just really feeling good these days.
 
I think the worst is really over with.
I don't want to be too optimistic but these past few weeks:
-I've exercised A LOT. The past week I decided to do Yoga everyday, except Sunday, and to do cardio everyday except Sunday. I have kept up with that, and I decided to alternate some upper body workouts with abs and leg workouts. I've also been keeping up with that.
-There has been a ridiculous amount of pizza in the house and I have only had one serving size a few days ago, which counted into my calories.
-I'm starting to crave veggies and fruits. I've been learning simple recipes and loading up everything with vegetables. My snacks have a lot of fruit now too.
-I've been cutting back on sugar and have actually been viewing it as a treat instead of something to have everday. I have started choosing fruits over a sweet snack to keep my sugar intake lower.
-Today my dad brought home steaks, which I usually work into my calories, but today I really didn't crave it. I don't see it as bad for me, just not the best.
-I was thinking about what I'd feel like if I suddenly went back to the way I was eating and I realized I just couldn't do. I honestly don't want to do it.

Tomorrow is weigh in. I've been trying to weigh in at least three days apart, and I resisted today and decided I would just do it tomorrow, because what's one day? Hopefully that will pay off by giving me a slightly lower number.

I've found a great group of people on tumblr. Girls who are trying to lose weight or get fit the healthy way. I like to write a lot, as you can all see, but I felt like I was updating this too often and it probably makes my journal hard to follow, so I figured I would just update every once in awhile. And I can post random inspirational thoughts and stuff on there, a lot of people appreciate it. Not that this website hasn't helped me a ton! Anyways, I'll get my foot out of my mouth now. ;)

So at the end of the week will mark my two months of eating better and losing weight. I'm looking forward to taking an inbetween picture at the end of May! 199 is still a goal in my mind, but I've been working to not put a date on it. Putting a date on it makes it a pressure, and I always worry what if I don't get there by that date? I know, logically, that nothing bad will happen, and I'll just get there later, but for some reason I've put 199 on a pedastol, and I'm just waiting for it. I'm trying to get it off the pedastol and put it back where it goes. It's a number on the scale and I'm not racing to get to it, it's going to happen, and I can't control exactly when it happens, I can just try my best to get there.

And that was a bigger update than I had planned. Oh well. ^.^
 
Its great to read through your last few posts and see how postiive you are about your food and your exercise. I think when you get to the point of really enjoying healthy food, you get it!

It still is possible to slip back though so try not to ever get casual about it.

I agree that putting a date on lose weight by is something of a mistake for exactly the reason you said. If you do the right things the weight will come off.
 
Today was weigh in!
221.4!!!!
I was really happy to see that. I've been keeping up with my 2 lb per week weight loss, and I'm really crossing my fingers that maybe that will continue at least until I'm fairly close to my goal weight. Maybe forty lbs. I don't know though, my body is weird, it might come to a screeching halt around 190. I've never actually reached a plateau before, but I think I'm pretty well prepared to handle it when it does happen, so I'm trying not to worry about it.

Secondly, today is rest day so I've been sitting around on my fat ass watching the telly. I know I'm trying to make my lifestyle active, instead of just squeezing in a half hour of exercise, but today was nice to just relax. I had some tacos from Qdoba. They have a cool nutrition calculator on their website. I passed up cheese even, which is hard for me to do. In fact, cheese was such a staple in most of my meals that I often won't even want something if I can't have cheese with it. Today I decided it would be just as good if I had some lettuce, salsa and a bit of sour cream. It cut the calories drastically and I feel tons better about the meal overall.

I'm also noticing that sugar=bad. I was a firm believer in enjoying foods as long as they are in calorie budget, and I still am, but I think I had a scewed vision of what 'enjoying' actually was. Every once in awhile does not mean everyday, and a treat also does not mean everyday. A little sugar here or there can turn into a large amount if I'm not careful. I've basically just been trying to eat things that have a nutritional benefit to my body. Teriyaki chicken might have a lot of sodium, but if I go light on the sauce and have broccoli on the side then it's a pretty good meal, I think. Eating an apple with some brown sugar and cinnamon baked into is a better deal than eating a cookie, because at least with the apple I get, well, an apple out of it.

So that's what I've learned. Today I granted myself two Marshmallow Peeps, and noticably the sugar made me feel really sluggish. Those things are basically all sugar, lol. I felt better after having some carrots though.

Not weighing in again for at least three days, so for the next few days I am really going to focus on getting the most out of my workout. I'm going to do my yoga first thing in the morning, do my thirty minute walk after breakfast, then do about ten minutes of jumping rope and maybe, hopefully, possibly get in twenty minutes of biking. I think that is sufficient. In evening I'll do some arm workouts and that will be that.

I'm not trying to be a bikini model, but damn it, I'd like to wear one someday! ^.^ I never in my whole entire life have ever once even thought about wearing a bikini. Even at my smallest I was overweight.

One thing is certain, Edorphins=Free drugs.
 
the_walrus0 said:
Today was weigh in!
221.4!!!!
I was really happy to see that. I've been keeping up with my 2 lb per week weight loss, and I'm really crossing my fingers that maybe that will continue at least until I'm fairly close to my goal weight. Maybe forty lbs. I don't know though, my body is weird, it might come to a screeching halt around 190. I've never actually reached a plateau before, but I think I'm pretty well prepared to handle it when it does happen, so I'm trying not to worry about it.

Secondly, today is rest day so I've been sitting around on my fat ass watching the telly. I know I'm trying to make my lifestyle active, instead of just squeezing in a half hour of exercise, but today was nice to just relax. I had some tacos from Qdoba. They have a cool nutrition calculator on their website. I passed up cheese even, which is hard for me to do. In fact, cheese was such a staple in most of my meals that I often won't even want something if I can't have cheese with it. Today I decided it would be just as good if I had some lettuce, salsa and a bit of sour cream. It cut the calories drastically and I feel tons better about the meal overall.

I'm also noticing that sugar=bad. I was a firm believer in enjoying foods as long as they are in calorie budget, and I still am, but I think I had a scewed vision of what 'enjoying' actually was. Every once in awhile does not mean everyday, and a treat also does not mean everyday. A little sugar here or there can turn into a large amount if I'm not careful. I've basically just been trying to eat things that have a nutritional benefit to my body. Teriyaki chicken might have a lot of sodium, but if I go light on the sauce and have broccoli on the side then it's a pretty good meal, I think. Eating an apple with some brown sugar and cinnamon baked into is a better deal than eating a cookie, because at least with the apple I get, well, an apple out of it.

So that's what I've learned. Today I granted myself two Marshmallow Peeps, and noticably the sugar made me feel really sluggish. Those things are basically all sugar, lol. I felt better after having some carrots though.

Not weighing in again for at least three days, so for the next few days I am really going to focus on getting the most out of my workout. I'm going to do my yoga first thing in the morning, do my thirty minute walk after breakfast, then do about ten minutes of jumping rope and maybe, hopefully, possibly get in twenty minutes of biking. I think that is sufficient. In evening I'll do some arm workouts and that will be that.

I'm not trying to be a bikini model, but damn it, I'd like to wear one someday! ^.^ I never in my whole entire life have ever once even thought about wearing a bikini. Even at my smallest I was overweight.

One thing is certain, Edorphins=Free drugs.
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Great job on the weight loss!! 2 pounds a week is perfect- you don't want to lose too fast. Remember you might plateau at 190 pounds or where ever but you just need to stay focused and power through it until the scale drops again. Imagine how you will feel at 188 pounds or 148 pounds-lol. Keep focused on that!! I found that if I ate pure sugar like that I felt sluggish too that is why I stopped doing that-lol. I didn't like that feeling very much and it wasn't worth it in the long run. You will be wearing a bikini before you know it. Stay focused and keep doing what you are doing.
 
Oh god my ankles have been sore for so long.
I thought it'd be a cold day in Hell when I would be complaining about not being able to exercise!
I need to exercise! Bwahhh!
>.<
 
the_walrus0 said:
Oh god my ankles have been sore for so long.
I thought it'd be a cold day in Hell when I would be complaining about not being able to exercise!
I need to exercise! Bwahhh!
>.<
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Watch the injuries- sometimes you can overdo it. Make sure you are taking rest days- believe me when I say they are needed. When I first started out I ran everyday- not a good thing. Take care
 
I'm good! I've been out living life. ;)
The healthy way of course.
I've lost some more weight and let my ankles heal up.
I'm gonna start doing some less intense cardio. Jumping rope can come later when I'm smaller and have stronger ankles.
Everything's been going well! I've been eating lots of fruits, veggies, multi grains and all that jazz.
 
It is good to know you are doing well. Sometimes when people stop posting in the forum they go back to their old ways. It is nice to see you are just busy but have been still vigilant on your weight loss- GOOD FOR YOU!!
 
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