A dairy from India

I think that piece of bread I ate when I got home was stale, stale, stale..didn't realize that when i was eating it (atho, i did think it smelled funny). Now my tummy feels funny. What is wrong with me? I can't tell stale bread from fresh. Ugh!
 
So the scale tells me this morning that I have lost about 2lbs. I haven't really weighed myself since TOM two weeks ago (when I was up by six lbs) and totally depressed. I had a few really bad food days over the week and didn't want to weigh last weekend. I did go on the scales two nights ago and it told me that I was up by a few lbs, which made me sad but then I realised I was exhausted and it was dark so I may have misread. I have been feeling great (except last night) this entire week, so I didn't want what I saw on the scales to disappoint me. I told myself I will only weigh myself over the weekend, but I just couldn't resist today. I am down to 132 lbs:party::party: Now I have 12 more lbs to go! yayay! This makes me totally totally totally happy. What a nice way to start the day.
 
YAYAYAY

well done Juni... I've been off line for a couple of days and was just catching up with your diary. You lost 2LBS thats awesome... and you didn't binge, and you've been running and dancing. That is all sooooo cool.

Definately :party::party:

ana
 
Ana: thanks. I feel pretty awesome today. You have been gone for a few days. Everything ok? How's the running coming along?

I was extremely good today.

B'fast- muesli and yogurt

Snack- cucumber (lots and lots of it)

Lunch- boiled bulgar, veggies and lentil soup

Snack- two crackers, one piece of chocolate some bread

Dinner: small bowl of steamed corn with lil olive oil, ginger and garlic (it was YUM YUM!)

Snack arnd 9PM- 5 almonds and some muesli

I had six meals today!! Whoa! First time that has happened. I feel satiated and happy.

So here's what I have been thinking since the morning. I was pretty down a few days back about weight gain. I was trying my best to stay positive, not go near the scales. I was feeling good about my body, but since I wasn't seeing the result in numbers, I was getting a lil depressed. I am being honest here.

I didn't get into this just for weight loss. I got into eating healthy and exercising coz I want to learn how to treat my body right for the rest of my life. And I keep telling myself that if I work hard enough, I will remain healthy. But I realised numbers have so much power over me. As soon as I saw the scale dropping my mood was totally lifted, I was happy and that motivated me to work harder (which is why I was so good at sticking to healthy diet). I absolutely hate that numbers, no matter how much I try, do play a big part in how I feel. Anybody else out there who feel the same way?

That said, I am not obsessing too much over the weight loss (although it does make me a lil happy). I know that it was easy for me to gain a few lbs last week when I wasn't eating that well, due to TOM etc, and it is was also not THAT difficult to lose those lbs. It may have been the hard work I was putting in, or just my weird body. I think as long as I am aware that I could gain much easily than I lose, I think I can stay positive and happy.

Am I rambling and not making much sense?

Dance tomorrow!!! I'm off to check out your dairies!! Later!!
 
JUNIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII! CONGRATS ON THE WEIGHT LOSS!!!!! im so happy for you!! after your tough week this has got to be a welcome relief! :party:

Congrats again!! I totally feel like doing a happy dance for you :) -but i am dancing on the inside :p

Great to hear that your dance classes are going well :) Although sweating buckets can be uncomfortable after the workout, it still feels great knowing your worked damn hard eh?

Way to go on your eating too!

I didn't get into this just for weight loss. I got into eating healthy and exercising coz I want to learn how to treat my body right for the rest of my life. And I keep telling myself that if I work hard enough, I will remain healthy. But I realised numbers have so much power over me. As soon as I saw the scale dropping my mood was totally lifted, I was happy and that motivated me to work harder (which is why I was so good at sticking to healthy diet). I absolutely hate that numbers, no matter how much I try, do play a big part in how I feel. Anybody else out there who feel the same way?
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You could have been talking about me here! You are definitely not the only one and you do make sense. I think since we have been associating the scale with our weight, rather than how we feel for so long-those numbers continue to have a strong hold on us mentally regardless of our best intentions. We wont give up though will we!! I know the scale wont bother us anymore once we get a firm handle on how our bodies work, but until then, the scale may still be able to alter our moods...BUT we will work through this!!! the scale will not win!
 
thanks for you well wishes juni :) and congrats for completing week one of c25k!! I'm sure with all the dancing you've been doing, week two will be a breeze for you :)

im off for now...
 
Hey Juni,

everything is good with me. Just crazy busy all the time. I'm really intent on getting lots of exercise in and it takes up my spare time!

I know exactly what you mean about mood lift and drop depending on the scales. I try so hard to just observe the weight and not let it affect my emotions... 'my weight is not who I am', I find it really hard though. I keep having to trust that I'm doing things right and that the scales will show it eventuallllly...

ps I signed up for the halloween challenge too, should be fun!
 
Hi Juni you seem to be doing great girl !Congrats on staying determined,you are a strong girl,am proud of you :)And it makes me much more happier to know that you are taking Bharatnatyam lessons! Good going :)I am so happy for you..Have you taken a session with dietician......you seem to be eating well....or its just that you have educated yourself more on eating right?Take care :)
 
Sugar makes me cranky.

I had a really stressful day. And I ate not so good today. I feel disgusting. I think sugar makes me feel ugh now! I know it, and yet I eat sugary stuff.

bfast- apple, pb and 4 crackers, a piece of toast with banana

snack- veggie croquette, small pastry

lunch- two small slices of pizza, some veggies, chocolate pudding

snack- cookies

dinner- chappati and veggies, an apple

snack- two crackers and a piece of chocolate

TOO MUCH sugar today. Not enough protein.

Thank god ITS FRIDAY!!!

Feeling cranky, so i'm off to bed.

Have a lovely weekend, everyone!
 
Hey Juni,
I've read parts of your diary! Looks like someone is doing well! Dont feel discouraged by one bad day, happens to everyone! Look fwd and keep up the exersize and eating well! =)

Take care and have a nice weekend!
 
lol i hear you-the night before last i came home late-must have been 11pm and i totally indulged in Nutella- straight from the jar with a spoon. the crazy thing is that i got to a point where i was starting to feel sick to my stomach but i kept eating! what the hell right?!?!

woot! its the weekend!
 
Hi everyone,

Just got home from work (its 10.30pm) and very very tired. Was an effort just to turn the computer on. Was working through the weekend. Just waiting for the 20th when the deadline is over and I can get my life back. Looks like I am going to have to travel a bit after that. *sigh*. I love travelling, but right now, I just want to jump in the shower and then go to bed.

Been eating not soo great (still under the calorie limits tho, I think). Haven't been able to do C25k week 2, which makes me really sad, but I have been going to my dancing classes. It makes me sweat, and it is hard and it is extremely difficult to get out of bed in the morning (esp when I get to bed it is 1am), but I have been going.

Thank you Jana, nightrunner, anna for your comments. I will write and respond in your diaries when I get my life back after 20 Sept. I miss you guys.
 
Hey Juni,

sorry you're having to work so hard. You can just get back into the c25k when you've got a bit more time. The dancing will be getting you really fit anyway.

It'll be fun to have you back on the 20th :)

Ana
 
aw Juni, my heart goes out to you. Sounds like you are really being worked to the bone. I hope these next 5 days fly by.

where are you going to be travelling?

Dont worry about c25k. You are getting regular workouts in with your dancing and thats really all that matters. (way to go for sticking to ur dancing btw despite your hectic schedule and lack of sleep) truly that takes some serious determination.
 
Hey Juni-2 more days until relative freedom!! last stretch :)

btw-thanks so much for directing us to the halloween challenge! i joined last minute and cant wait until next week already!!

its pretty cool, ana, splish and cg have joined as well! ana is on my team but splish and cg are on urs-the game is onn!!!!
 
I hope today and tomorrow fly by.

Been good with dancing classes (i refuse to succumb to work for this one), but just been crazy crazy busy. It will be over soon.

Nightrunner, i just posted my 18 sept weight on the halloween challenge forum. Off to a good start.

I haven't had time to read through diaries. Will do that as soon as Monday rolls along (I have a couple of days off then- woot!!).

Miss reading and writing here. Will be back soon!
 
The busy weekend is over. Report delivered. Deadline met. I think I did a good job. :hurray::hurray: Feels like a huuuuuge burden has been lifted.

Last few days haven't been very good, esp last night. I was up till 3am, partying and drinking. There was a lot of vodka involved (must have had seven shots) Thank god I am taking the day off today. Then I came home and i couldnt fall asleep. When I stress out I cant sleep, and I think my sleep pattern from last week totally messed up my schedule. I should be back on track from tonight.

Gonna take the day off, go shopping. Come back early, cook and sleep early. I am back at work tomorrow. *sigh*

Dance class tomorrow. My next few weeks are fairly light, so I should be back on track with C25k as well.

Have a good week, everyone.
 
thanks for stopping by juni :) its great to hear that you finally get to have a few weeks of a moderate level of workload-a messed up sleeping schedule messes with my eating habits as well-throw stress into the mixture and its bound to have not so pleasant results all around...enjoy your day off shopping! you deserve the treat!

it'll be great to have you as a c25k motivational buddy again :)
 
Hello hello everyone

So my day of shopping went really well. I woke up early but did stuff around the apartment, met a few friends for lunch, shopped a little, read. Was amazing. I got up early today in the morning, went for Bharatnatyam class. As I was about to get ready to work, I looked at the calendar and realized that yesterday was actually a public holiday here, which means today is the day I took off. I feel like such a dumbass- stress has not only screwed up my sleep schedule, but also my brain. Nevertheless, it was a REALLY nice surprise so I get today off!! YAY!

My food log for 21 Sept

B'fast- a little muesli

Snack- veggies and a little bulgar salad

Lunch (late)- chicken wrap with salad (i opted for salad instead of fries) :)

Dinner- basmati rice with chick pea curry (it was really yum).

I was so tired last night that i went off to bed at around 8PM and woke up at 6.30am- right on time for my Bharatnatyam class.

For breakfast today I had

1 croissant (big one- should feel guilty, but I dont)
1 cup of tea

I have a lot to do around the house today. Need to clean up the apartment, do laundry, clean the bathrooms. In the evening I am having some friends over for dinner. Gonna be a chill day.

Hope everyone is enjoying the autumn days!

More later.
 
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