A brand new start

I sooooooo feel you on this one Scrappy....and this is my take on it.

When you have been non dieting for ahwile and then when that lil something "clicks",..and you decide to diet and take control, its a big rush, you are pumped. Its this determined mind set, and nothing can shake you. You are so strict and watch everything you put in your mouth. Mainly because you have to be soooo conscious of what you are doing.

Then real life settles in, and you eat things that you may not have at the beginning. Sometimes its hard to make the fine line between,..enjoying life a lil and making sure you dont deprive yourself too much,.... to a full blown "fall off the wagon and cant get back up".

If you have dieted before, you know its easy to start the diet but following through to the end is the hard part....and when you see yourself
missing a weigh in,..saying to yourself "oh this one lil cheat means nothing,...I am doing so well"....missing a few work outs, you fear that you are going to follow previous dieting history.

To me its all about that fear of loosing control,....and not being able to maintain the momentum never mind as a new lifestyle, just even reaching the goal weight. That fear is in the back of my head all the time, so for me no matter what I feel about the diet, I weigh in, write here, and it keeps me focused on the goal, and I feel as long as I am doing that I wont totally fall off the wagon, the wagon may slow down but its still rolling.

To think that we wont indulge once ever,...or at least while on the diet is unrealistic. While on the other hand diets end by making lil slip ups here and there until it becomes more consistent. Thus there needs to be a happy middle, life with boundaries. Eat M&M's... one small bag per week. Not a bag everyday.

I think it works to plan the indulgence,... for example ...(friday night you go out for cheese cake with some girlfriends and you have corporated it into your diet plan) or, (hubby brings home a cheese cake and you eat half it at midnight),..
Both instance you ate the cheese cake,..one instance you had control, and the other you didnt.

By reading what your journal ,..you are being more realistic, you are consistent and found your flow,....and your most importantly you are conscious of what you do...and its working! What you are experiencing is a natural progression of the dieting. Your still in contol. :)
 
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If I crave anything I have it but like Jennifer said plan it into your day so you don’t feel guilty. Your doing wonderful.
 
Thank you, Ladies for helping me! I think you summed up what I was thinking in my head, Jennifer. I like what you (and Rosered) said about incorporating the less-than-healthy choices into my diet. I'm hearing what you are saying about being in control of my eating!

Fuunkymonk, perhaps an evening out with a planned "cheat" worked into the evening would be beneficial. At first I thought about my Valentine's Day No Diet Day when I ate what I wanted to and I had a very hard time pulling back and getting back in control, but then I thought about making a planned "cheat," (I'll have french fries with my dinner). I realized the difference of making a conscience decision to eat something treat-ish rather than a no-holds barred attitude is control.

In regards to Valentine's Day, If I had made a more specific plan like, "I'm going to eat 4 chocolates" rather than "I'll eat whatever goodies come my way" I would have remained in control and would have had an easier time "recovering."

Last night, after typing the message, I printed out my diary, the whole thing. (100+ pages). I wouldn't call it, "inspiring," but rereading did help me see how far I've come. I can't agree more that this site and you great group of buddies has made such a difference!

Thanks!
Totallyscrappy
 
Had to share a DH story! The other afternoon I was in the bathroom helping my middle son use the toilet. Hubby says, "Hey, turn around." So I turned around and he said, "Yup, you can tell you are loosing weight. Your legs are looking thinner." :)
 
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Food
1 piece whole wheat toast with peanut butter
1/4 cup oj
chicken fajita (chicken, peppers, onions, salsa, cheese) on half a tortilla
grapes
diet cherry pepsi
water
a small handful of alphabet cookies
water
angel hair pasta with homemade sauce
casa salad
diet coke
vanilla ice cream

Exercise
2 mile dvd
 
You are right, there, Rosered!

Mondays are Mondays aren't they? Today's weigh in:184. No difference from last week. I've maintained and that is a good thing.

I'm making a quick entry because I have to finish making a book for my class. We read Dr. Suess' The Foot Book and now I have all the photos to make our own book, Whose Shoes.

Food
1 slice whole wheat toast with peanut butter
water
thin slice of birthday cake (with strawberries)
water
chicken fajita (tortilla, chicken, peppers, onions, cheese)
diet coke with lime
handful of goldfish crackers
3 jordan almonds
diet cherry pepsi
mashed potatoes
hamburger gravy
peas
sugar free pudding
water
water

Exercise
2 mile dvd
 
I was very tired yesterday and fell in bed before typing. So here goes yesterday...

Sam was sick so I stayed home with him. Honestly, we had such a great morning. Even though he was sick, we sat on the floor and played and did some Sam and Mom stuff. Usually I would have spent that time doing extra cleaning and such, but I decided that I wanted to enjoy Sam's company.

I did watch Supersize Me yesterday. Anybody else see this? It was very eye-opening. A lot of things I already knew, but in one place! I want to buy it and when I feel myself slipping off the wagon I'll just pop it in the player...

Forgot to share a funny penis story...
On Sunday I took Aaron and David into the ladies' room to use the bathroom before church. We try to use the handicapped stall so that we all can go in at once. Well, I wasn't sure if David was tall enough to use the tall toilet, so I said, "Davey, are you tall enough to use the toilet?" He said, "I'm not sure. Let's see if my penis is tall enough." LOL

Anyway...

Yesterday's Food
brown sugar and spice oatmeal
milk

1/4 peanut butter and jelly sandwich
Ritz cheddar cracker/chips
water

mashed potatoes
hamburger gravy
peas
1 cup milk with chocolate drizzle
water

reduced fat blueberry muffin
2 slices of chicken
water

egg muffin (whole wheat English muffin, ham, cheddar and egg)
fruit salad (green grapes, peaches, strawberries)
water
chocolate kiss

Exercise
2 mile dvd

Well, I better get a move on. I've already done today's exercise because I'm having my SIL and 2 nieces over and a friend and her son are coming too. Then I have dinner and church tonight. busy...busy...busy
 
You're such a busy girl! LMAO Kids are just priceless! I love hearing your funny kid stories. haha! Mmm your menu made me hungry hehe! Keep up the great work!
 
Thanks for checking in on me, Coastergirl. I'm glad my menu makes you hungry! I sure do like to eat and I want to eat good stuff!

Yesterday's Food

Cranberry and almond breakfast bar (wasn't bad, I'll stick to the special K ones, though.)
water
1/2 Chick-fil-a sandwich
side salad with honey mustard dressing and sunflower seeds
3 chicken nuggets thrown on
1/2 fruit cup (oranges, apples, grapes)
diet lemonade
diet cherry pepsi
square of lasagna
salad
water
big chocolate chip and mini M&M cookie
5 ritz bitz (smore flavor)
1 spoonful of peanut butter
water

Exercise
2 mile dvd

Gotta lunch date with my 3 year old...gotta go!
Totallyscrappy
 
Yes I definitely like to enjoy my food as well!

LMAO I thought you posted that you had 3 chicken nuggets, thrown up...I was trying to figure that one out. I'm glad I read it again to be sure. :p Oh maybe I'll have Chick-Fil-A tonight. We're going out to dinner (SOMEWHERE) because Greg is leaving tomorrow for spring break. I'm letting him pick hmm need good choices.
 
Went to bed last night after watching a movie, (The Day After Tomorrow), so here is a list of yesterdays eats...

Food
whole wheat toast with peanut butter
water
salad with lettuce, tomatoes, ham, chicken, cheddar, and fat free honey mustard dressing
reduced fat blueberry muffin
water
handful of pretzels
two slices of chicken
water
pizza slice (mushrooms and pepperoni)
pizza slice (green peppers, sausage, onions)
1/2 cup chocolate lovers' trash
diet cherry pepsi

no exercise yesterday

Totallyscrappy
 
Hey, Buddies!
Just got home from scrapbooking. A great evening out and I got two pages done ("No, no, no" - Sammy doing all the things he should not, and "Drive-by Santa-ing," Santa drove through the neighborhood on a firetruck). Love that hobby!

Big moment in my weight loss journey that I forgot to write about... I gave away some of my clothes. I had two pair of capri pants that were too big and my SIL was happy to take them off my hands! Boy, that felt good. :)

I've got to type quickly because tomorrow morning is a big moment in my weight loss journey. A friend and I will be walking in a 5K walk to raise funds for the school. I'm not doing this to race or to get there first, but to prove to myself that I can do it! Afterall, I think these walks are for fit people and fitness fanatics. Now, I am neither, but I am on my way to being fit and healthy. Wish me luck!

Food
cranberry almond breakfast bar
water
5 animal crackers
2 slices of cheese pizza
water
2 handfuls of goldfish crackers
Scicillian sausage soup
small slice of beer bread
small piece of tres leche cake
diet cherry pepsi
small handful of M&M's (food of the scrapbooking goddesses)

no exercise today

DRINK MORE WATER!
off to sleep... gotta get up tomorrow to walk in the 5K walk!
Totallyscrappy
 
I'm working on the journaling for my weight loss scrapbook. I want to include it here. Any thoughts or ideas???

There are two pictures that go with this- one of me standing by the tv taking a huge swig of water (the dvd is showing on the tv), the other pic is of two of my boys exercising along to the dvd on tv. I may take a third photo showing the dvd box.

EXERCISE
I've never liked exercise. I don't like anything about it... the heat, the sweat, the tiredness, the strain... none of it.

In elementary school p.e. was such a chore. I was always picked last (such a cliché thing to say!) and I never felt I could excel. I never felt like I was adding much to my team. I wasn't a fast runner or a good hitter or a strong kicker.

As I got to high school and college I thought that maybe I could play the sports that are traditionally acceptable for "fat chicks" to play, like softball and volleyball. And while the whole "team"/social side of things seemed great, the fact that a ball was going to be thrown at me was not great. So, I usually chose not to do anything "sporty."

Somewhere along the line I have come to the realization that in order to lose weight and to be healthy I need to exercise. A necessary evil, if you will.

But the question was finding an exercise that I could live with. I'm not coordinated enough to lose weight with aerobics tapes. I'm not fit enough to jog. I don't have the extra cash to splurge on a gym membership or a weight room's worth of equipment like exercise bikes and treadmills. So, what is a girl to do?

WALK!

Where we are living there are no sidewalks. Chris can't always be available to watch the boys and they are too small to keep up a decent pace. I can't go for walks if it rains or gets really hot. So, again, what is a girl to do?

WALKING DVD!

I know. It sounds silly to do a two mile walk in your living room, but it is working. I can tie up my walking shoes and pop in the dvd. Leslie Sansone and her group of "walkers" accompany me on 30 minute walks (2 miles). Sometimes a quick 15 minute walk is great if a 2 mile walk doesn't fit into my schedule.

I still wouldn't say that I enjoy working out. I get hot and sweaty. My muscles are pushed. I feel like flopping on the carpet after the walk.

But, there is one part about working out that does feel good. For thirty minutes I don't do anything else but walk. And at some point during the walk my body takes over and my mind is freed up to think about whatever I'd like. It is almost as if I'm giving myself some daydreaming time and prayer time. I frequently think about and pray about my goals, my family, what the future holds. With the exception of the time right before falling asleep, there is no other time like this during the rest of the day.

So, I may be hot, sweaty, and tired, but I am giving my mind a chance to wander and I am giving myself the moments to talk to God.

And, oh, yea, the workout is helping me lose weight and to get fit.
 
The walking dvd sounds tough. I have never tried it before. I have her stability ball tape though. It is fun as well, my daughter does the tape with me. She uses her princess bouncy ball, while I use the big one. Sounds like you are doing well, very inspirational!!! :)
 
Meshellibel,
Thanks for your input! I love when my kids join me with the exercise tape. The mental picture of you on your exercise ball and your daughter on her "exercise ball" is very cute!

yesterday's food

cranberry almond bar
water
water
1/2 chocolate chip bagel with cream cheese
1 twizzler
water
chilli
cheese
1/2 reduced fat blueberry muffin
diet cherry pepsi
1 beer brat with a bun
1 cheddarwurst (no bun)
sun chips
grapes
water
frozen margarita

Exercise
5K walk!!! I did it!

massaging my sore shins!
Totallyscrappy
 
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