<3Cerella's Restarting, Refocused and Remotivated<3

hi hun! just wanted to stop by and see how you are! looks like you're happy!

I hope this new system/meditation works out for you!
 
Well that is a lot of stuff you are dredging up there girl. I'm also more the avoider type.. Hopefully you will feel better and realize that of course you deserve to be happy. You're a great person and a sacrificing mother. You put your kids first. That's what counts in life, don't you see that? That's the only thing, the most important thing. If you've had parents that have let you down and didn't take care of you all the way through and who definitely didn't always put you first, then you would very much understand how important what you've done and continue to do for your girls is. Being that they are always with you show's you give them that focus. You must start telling yourself the truth about yourself and not these lies you have created about yourself. Its not nice to lie.. :cry:
 
First I wanna say this: FINALLY :)

I am proud of you for finally being completely honest with yourself. It is hard to do that especially after so much time spending avoiding certain emotions. Felici is right. Being honest with yourself will help you move on.
And you know...you don't have to accept these emotions. you don't. you let them out. if you need to let them out some more. but eventually you will let go of them and move on. You have changed in the past few years. You started paying attention to yourself (as felici said, by getting a better job, doing yoga, meditating) more. Don't be scared of the things resurfacing...they should...in order to leave or to become less harmful to you.

i'm here for you girl. write all you want and need :)
hugs,
Lena
 
Honesty is a virtue, and recognizing that in yourself is one of the biggest steps anyone can take. Sometimes when I'm not honest with myself, I ask "Who am I really lying to?" The answer is always: me. I'm so glad that you are taking ME time. ME time is the best time to really order your life, consider what you want and what you have and give yourself the time you deserve!! I'm so glad you are meditating on this, because you are building a foundation to build an overall healthy YOU!

GOOD JOB!

The deal with your ex, you did the right thing. It is hard, I can't even begin to imagine what you are going through but you are STRONGER now than you EVER were. The more you confront some things head on, the less weight you will be carrying on your shoulders.

LOVE YOU GIRL! STAY STRONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 
wow... lots of drama =T
but you are pushing right on through!
the meditation seems a bit intimidating to me...
i would be afraid of what might come out 0__o
good luck cinderelly. it may be hard now...
but things will get easier.
 
Hey hun,

I just caught myself up on your journal. I'm very sorry to hear that you're coming across so much negativity in your life, but I'm very glad to see you opening up about it and taking steps to make positive changes.

One of my clients was speaking with me this morning about how unhappy she is about the direction her life is taking, and about how she has been waiting around for her life to get better. She told me that she has recently come to the understanding that when it comes to her life she is in the driver’s seat. Sure, bad things happen and will continue to happen, but she’s recognized that she is the one who controls how she reacts to any given situation that life throws at her. Its sounds like you’ve come to a similar conclusion, and I applaud you for it. You’re in the driver’s seat baby! :driving:

I haven’t had the opportunity to read any good studies related to the efficacy of alpha and theta audio waves on the brain, but I hope the Holosync thing works for ya. :)
 
cinderelly said:
Ok
Everything has been resurfacing and being dragged back up, stuff I have worked hard to deal with...Im stressed out and anger and emotional and hurt...

Im a rock and I am falling apart...I hate talking abt my feelings and i hate having emotions and now all i need and want to do is talk abt how Im feeling.

I have a very big overflowing plate full of stuff.

I have put myself aside for 14 years being a mother.For 14 years I haven't matter, there has never been enough money for me or enough of anything to go around for me.Things were better with just my oldest and I but when I had the youngest and was single things got so much harder...

I rasied the girls off of so little it is crazzzy.I have put so much of myself aside for so long and i have lost myself, i though ti was refinding that person but appearantly as my issues are showing i ahvent, LOL.
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Wow. :eek2:
Cerella, darling, I understand. You're a Giver. You give and you give and you give....and the lack of funds.....children are expensive! Being a mother is dedicating your LIFE to your children. I can't do that. You're stronger than me. However, I'm trained in anthropology, for thousands of years humans lived in bands and tribes and extended family ALWAYS helped raise children if the father wasn't around. Now in the past hundred years it's more like single moms and that is COOL, rock on, my mom was a single mom--BUT! we had both pairs of grandparents around and honestly, THEY helped raise me. Totally. What you're doing....is above and beyond. And I don't blame you one bit for being at the breaking point. All I can say is, I offer my love and support, and positive vibes--WHICH AIN'T SHIT. LOL! But, hell, it's better than nothing maybe........

HUGS to you :grouphug:
 
Hey Everyone:)

I am feeling much better thanx:hug2:

I wanna thank everyone from the bottom of my heart for your wonderfully supportive posts and for reading all my big long winded heafty posts.

I truly do feel loved and supported here:hug2:

I dont have the time at the moment but i will sit down and respond to posts when I can:hug2:
 
=D arent you soooo sweet!
im happy you are feeling better.
today i have this unique tranquil outlook.
its nice im soooo calm and collected...
(and sore >=D )
 
Hi Cerella, how are you today. Thank God you're better. I was all over your diary last night and wrote my own post to you but I lost it. Thanks for stopping by my diary and noticing my big accomplishment.

Tell me what happened that made you better today.
 
You are supported!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Love you girl and keep trucking along!
 
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