Amanda2010
New member
I'm "rejoining" as I can't find my old diary..been atleast 3 mon. since I was here last 
It's been a whirl wind of ups and downs.
Our "biggest loser" contest is over. I am not the biggest loser. Could have been though. Did not like how it was run. 22 people signed up, 5 of us weighed in weekly. Lots of speculation on what percent people lost which was inacurate. Thinking I didn't stand a chance, I gave up. I shouldn't have but was very frustrated with the whole thing at this point!
I have rejoined SFL (simply for life). I had joined it in 2008 and lost 70+ lbs (not my goal weight). When my membership ran out I gained 40+ lbs back, not because I didn't rejoin but because again..I gave up on me. With my Mother's bypass and drama from my sister..I put me on the back burner. I'm not the only one whose suffered though. I was much happier at 180lbs than I am now, and although I'm not a tyrant..lol..my family knows I'm not happy now and they have to put up with me being frustrated......
I joined SFL this past Thurs. for a year. Hopefully, I will be able to lose the weight I want and go on maintenance, so I can learn to not "fall off the wagon".
It seems to work for me because I see my nutrionalist once a week. Someone keeping me accountable for my actions/food intake. I know how to eat right, I know what foods to avoid and all that but I'm my worst enemy and can convince myself "this time won't matter" all the time!!
My starting weight as of Thurs. (my scale, not theirs) was 219.2lbs. Not a number I'm proud of considering I was (at my lowest) 175lbs. I swore I'd never "go back" but I did.
Looking forward to weigh in, so far on my scales I'm down 5.2lbs (214.0lbs)
I have all of my size 12 jeans packed away..some of my shirts. I have one pr of size 14 jeans that I wear..refusing to pay for another pair (I wear a lot of lounge pants and exercise pants..lol). This depressed me.
So this is where I am in my journey. Taking a lot longer than planned considering it originally started the last week of April '08 but I'm restarting now the last week of February '11
Yesterday was 4yrs since my oldest sister passed away. She was overweight wearing a size 5x, had a heart attack at 31, diabetes and then a massive heart attack at 50yrs old. This runs in my family. My father has had a heart attack and by pass surgery, my mother has had a heart attack and by pass surgery, also has diabetes. I'm the baby in a family of 10 and I have two brothers that have had heart attacks, and one with sleep apnea.
If for no other reason, my health is the main reason for getting back on track.
I feel horrible, my attitude is horrible...I have 3 gorgeous children I want to be around for and the world best husband who deserves a better/happier (if not sexier) wife.
So, good days or bad days..2011 is going to see a happier, healthier, skinnier me!
It's been a whirl wind of ups and downs.
Our "biggest loser" contest is over. I am not the biggest loser. Could have been though. Did not like how it was run. 22 people signed up, 5 of us weighed in weekly. Lots of speculation on what percent people lost which was inacurate. Thinking I didn't stand a chance, I gave up. I shouldn't have but was very frustrated with the whole thing at this point!
I have rejoined SFL (simply for life). I had joined it in 2008 and lost 70+ lbs (not my goal weight). When my membership ran out I gained 40+ lbs back, not because I didn't rejoin but because again..I gave up on me. With my Mother's bypass and drama from my sister..I put me on the back burner. I'm not the only one whose suffered though. I was much happier at 180lbs than I am now, and although I'm not a tyrant..lol..my family knows I'm not happy now and they have to put up with me being frustrated......
I joined SFL this past Thurs. for a year. Hopefully, I will be able to lose the weight I want and go on maintenance, so I can learn to not "fall off the wagon".
It seems to work for me because I see my nutrionalist once a week. Someone keeping me accountable for my actions/food intake. I know how to eat right, I know what foods to avoid and all that but I'm my worst enemy and can convince myself "this time won't matter" all the time!!
My starting weight as of Thurs. (my scale, not theirs) was 219.2lbs. Not a number I'm proud of considering I was (at my lowest) 175lbs. I swore I'd never "go back" but I did.
Looking forward to weigh in, so far on my scales I'm down 5.2lbs (214.0lbs)
I have all of my size 12 jeans packed away..some of my shirts. I have one pr of size 14 jeans that I wear..refusing to pay for another pair (I wear a lot of lounge pants and exercise pants..lol). This depressed me.
So this is where I am in my journey. Taking a lot longer than planned considering it originally started the last week of April '08 but I'm restarting now the last week of February '11
Yesterday was 4yrs since my oldest sister passed away. She was overweight wearing a size 5x, had a heart attack at 31, diabetes and then a massive heart attack at 50yrs old. This runs in my family. My father has had a heart attack and by pass surgery, my mother has had a heart attack and by pass surgery, also has diabetes. I'm the baby in a family of 10 and I have two brothers that have had heart attacks, and one with sleep apnea.
If for no other reason, my health is the main reason for getting back on track.
I feel horrible, my attitude is horrible...I have 3 gorgeous children I want to be around for and the world best husband who deserves a better/happier (if not sexier) wife.
So, good days or bad days..2011 is going to see a happier, healthier, skinnier me!
