2008: The Best Version of Myself

i like brick oven pizza - my two best choices are
Patsys - which is under the brooklyn bridge on the manhattan side - the pictures on the wall are worth the trip down.
or totonnes on coney island - definitely a day trip - i wouldkn't go there at night... :)

Or Johns in greenwich village but that's a little trendoid..

I had always wanted to see him in concert but with his failing health I hadn't gotten the chance.
I saw him a few times... but the best show ever was a christmas concert at Lincoln Center where he sang Ave Maria... no one does it better... :D though hearing him to Nessun Dorma can give me chills... it's happy music D:
 
Thanks Sweatpea. Daily dilemma solved!!

Also, I usually get to the gym about 30 mins before my class because I go straight from work. I was sitting there wrapping my hands on Monday waiting for the 5:30 class to be over and the trainer had them doing crunches... and in these classes the last ten minutes are devoted to ab work... for ten minutes straight... i will seriously have "Abs of Steel"... anyway as people are working through the time with the task at hand some ppl take a few seconds rest and they really try to motivate you through that... so the trainer yelled out, "This isn't easy... this is why your friends aren't here!!!" And I thought to myself.. uh yeah... I only have one friend right now who is concerned about his fitness and everyone else is on the tomorrow diet or just doesn't do anything. I thought it was quite a brilliant thing to say!
 
and if you do go to Patsys - if you cross the street and head over towards the water - there used to be (and I don't know if it's still there) an amazing place that served home made ice cream :)

Or go to coney island and have a hot dog after your pizza - Nathans is there and the grill hasn't been cleaned in like 100 years :) yummy hot dogs :)
 
When I started to work out seriously (years ago), I realized that you don't have to be skinny to be fit. I worked out more than any of my skinny friends (except maybe one.) And I also found that the majority of people just don't care to exercise - no matter what the size and shape. That's why it's good to have forums like these where you can relate to one another and seek motivation from your "peers".
 
I always prided myself in the fact that despite being obese I was in better shape than most people. I played sports at a high level overweight and after I stopped playing I got fatter and fatter, but I could always surprise people by just how athletic I still was. About 2 years ago I had to walk my students about 9 blocks and by the end I was winded, sweaty, and miserable. I went from being the inshape fat guy to the fat guy. I'm back to being the in shape fate guy and I want to soon be the in shape guy. Its better to be fit and fat than unfit and skinny--they've done studies.
 
Lemon Chalet Creme Diet

Thanks all for stopping by over the last few days. If I can crawl out from under this mountain of work, I hope to get to diaries later.

The weekend was great. Met up with Jeff's cousin and her boyfriend. Awesome people to hang out with, I just hope his cousin doesn't hate me. She made it very clear that she has high standards and she's all about getting close with people right away and I'm kinda quiet until I get used to people. Carnegie Hall was excellent. Jeff met the parents and brought me roses. I got to see a lot of people I haven't seen in a long time... it was really nice to do that. However the weather sucked and we honestly did very little. Friday was exhausting and Saturday we ate pizza, slept, had dinner at his cousin's and then went bar crawling before heading home at 4:40 sunday morning.

But it's Monday and I am exhausted and ambitionless. When I don't get my pre-week stuff done over the weekend the whole week just goes to shit while I try to play catch up. And this week I am on the Lemon Chalet Creme Diet. Basically you replace your five servings of fruits and veggies with five servings of LCC cookies. It's an advanced pilot program for people who have 30 or more pounds to lose. This is not for the occasional dieter who has a mere 10 vanity pounds.

So earlier I was looking at church choir director job listings. It has nothing to do with my current employer... I'm just looking to do something that's more my speed where I can use my talent. So I did find two postings for full time choir directors with very nice sized salaries, however, this two places in particular seem very very very religious. The one church even had a guide on how to be a good follower of that particular sect. I however am not that religious. And I was raised Lutheran and we're all pretty laid back about the whole thing so it feels awkward to me to be very religious. That coupled with the fact that I do occasionally peak at what science has to say about history and it does make me question it. I don't believe in blind faith. You should always question the validity of something before deciding on your personal beliefs.... morally, socially or otherwise. Knowledge is power. So I do not know how I feel about applying for those jobs. Not to mention it's the South and if something is going to be anti-gay I want nothing to do with it. I've never understood how the universal church teaches acceptance and love... except for gay people. I'm not going to say too much about that other than, if there is a God I think he will be much more forgiving of someone who led a good life that was homosexual, than someone who paraded around with their noses in the air judging, instead of letting God judge. I, on the other hand, would be accused of being anti-smelly. That's a story for a different time.
 
this new diet sounds fascinating :) can you replace the lemon chalet cremes with double stuffed oreos? :D

So earlier I was looking at church choir director job listings. It has nothing to do with my current employer... I'm just looking to do something that's more my speed where I can use my talent.
that's a beautiful thing - and one you should pursue... :D atta girl :D
 
that's a beautiful thing - and one you should pursue... :D atta girl :D

I hate to say it, but I'm just not the best person for this job. Granted it's not a hard job and if you can read, use a computer and are polite you can also do this job... it's not brain surgery. But ever since we got back from vacation I am just bored to death. And that means I procrastinate too much and I'm not getting enough done. Plus, I just want something to build on. I can't push papers forever.
 
you're going to do what you do for a very long time -it shoudl be something that you enjoy doing and gives you satisfaction...
 
Hi BG! Welcome back from your weekend.

That diet sounds yummy, in fact so yummy I looked it up (yeah in case you didn't know I'm blond!) :biggrinjester:

I say as long as you are fitting the cookies into your eating plan, and not eating the whole box at once, they you are doing just fine.

Good luck in your career pursuits. I love the church we go to. I love the people. I'm pretty much sure our "choir director" doesn't get paid anything though. LOL So the churches you are looking at must be huge!
 
So it's Wednesday which is disappointing because yesterday felt like Wednesday. I am not looking forward to the gym... I'm just in a funk about it this week. And I'm disappointed that I was hoping for a one pound weightloss this week and then I just didn't pursue it. I knew I should have planned meals and cooked before I left for the weekend. Just last minute running around and then we were supposed to get back at noon on sunday and didn't get home until 10pm... the flights were all screwed because of the weather in Ohio and planes not arriving. So blah... and I'm pmsing so the TOM is on approach for next week and I usually don't go to KB during those days because an intensely elevated HR for 60 minutes once shall we say highly embarrassed me when my cotton pony didn't hold up. Those are the things you never live down!!

In other news though I have been feeling rather good about myself lately. I usually have low self esteem but getting my shit together has made me feel very positive about myself:) And I'm loving this daylight savings time thing. The extra light at the end of the day has already made a big difference!
 
Can I just say that the 60-70 degree weather plus all of the sunshine has made me uber pumped? Singing last weekend really rattled my can to get back on the horse, not to mention I could use some extra cash to boot. But I also want to design my own website for doing events, bake tons of cakes and cupcakes, make gourmet dinners, decorate my apartment, clean & organize my apartment, learn french and a lesser learned 3rd language and go visit all of my friends. Now I'm off to do tons of work and then head out to the gym... yippee!
 
hey website sounds cool! send me a link whenever you are done! 1 pound loss is great with TOM coming---i would have gained---i'll warn you i will gain whenver it happens lol.

have a good weekend - don't excercise too much ;)

x
 
Time to dig this thing out of storage! Some days I just don't feel like writing here and some days I'm just too boring to write anything here:)

I'm frustrated with myself. Just not in the WOO GO WEIGHTLOSS mood... and each weekend I get myself stoked about the next week and then I just kind of dog it. I guess going to class a few times a week is better than nothing but with 50-60 lbs to lose I should be hitting the gym a little harder... seeing so many other ppl on here losing 3x that amount or more my goal is so close... I feel like I'm standing on my own sideline looking at the daisies instead of doing anything... and I'm starting to get bored with my meals. I'm just getting bored with food in general... one of those phases where nothing sounds good... not even tastes-so-good-but-oh-so-bad for you... I'm just not hungry for anything except I need to eat if I want to workout to lose weight. I also overcooked the chicken for my pre-made lunches and seriously, it's so bad that you have to really gum it up to get it down which means i don't want to eat it. I'm sorta in the sandwich mood but lunchmeat has all those preservatives and sodium... I need to get myself a whole chicken or turkey breast and make sandwich meat out of that... I just hate spending more money at the grocery store this week.

Also I finally bought a scale for my apartment... a digital one. It was one sale for $25... nothing fancy and I'm sure the brand was fairly generic... however it made me very frustrated... last night I took it home and promptly stripped down to my birthday suit to weigh myself... the floor in my apartment is fairly uneven but the alcove where I keep my bathroom extra seems to have an even floor so I placed the scale there... last night after dinner i weighed 195... seemed fine... I've been weighing between 190-192 on Jeff's scale so I figured the difference was just with the new scale and I usually am 3 pounds heavier at night after a day's worth of food and drink, etc. But this morning how much did it say i weighed... 194.6... what the hell... why was I only .4 pounds lighter after 7 hours of sleep and my morning pee? It just made me frustrated and it made me feel fat and like living the last two months five pounds lighter was all a lie... granted five pounds isn't THAT much but now I just feel like I'm either back at where I started or maybe I was 200lbs and didn't know it... ugh:(
 
Oh, and I finally have the Hawaii pics in an album online... if you wanna see them just PM me and I'll send you the link. Even if you just ghost read my diary I don't mind sharing my pics... I just want to distribute them with caution... aloha!
 
you're using a different scale - if you stepped on 3 different scales you'd have 3 different weights- you've got the point you're at now - and it's only going to go down...

yay for your beautiful self in hawaii pics :)
 
I think my frustration was more that I wasn't three pounds lighter after my initial readings last night. I expected the scales to be a bit different. But I've always weighed less in the morning no matter what scale I use... I guess I just need to deal with it and get over it because I can't change the past.
 
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