Ladies and Gentleman.... 60.9!!!
The yesterday run was worth it!
Anyway while I was running I got a bit demotivated. At some point a totally fit girl ran bypass me. She seemed so agile and fit and strong and fast and light. Then I looked at myself. I felt damn slow and heavy. I felt like an hyppo with all the fat I need to carry around. I felt I shuould stop and walk home because I will never get as fit and agile as her. I thought of a video I watched yesterday with me on it... me wrapped in my thick layer of fat. It was from April. Will i ever be fit? Looking at that video just made me think that I have always been fat and probably no matter what, I will always be.
Now it's over 1 month I have been going running everyday and I know the process is slow and I am little by little meeting my goals (I set myself weekly goals that I complete every monday, they are realistic and so far I have reached all the goals I set). But yesterday, when I saw that girl, it just came to my mind that I am not like her... I am "the fat one", why don't accept it?
I was scared by those thoughts. I know those are the kind of thoughts that could make me give up and I don't want. I am so scared of giving up and give up the hope of being proud of what I see in the mirror.
I will continue, but yesterday my motivation shaked. I cannot allow that to happen anymore!