Marsia's Diary
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This is so true! I think it's very hard to stick to a solid plan when you're in a transition period. Maybe the goal should be to maintain until the move happens.
Thanks LaMa, Cate, and Em! Yes, LaMa, I really like when I figure out how to make things go more smoothly and it actually works well! I'm very glad I was only 2/3rds unpacked. It really helps having a good head start. It's also nice to be enthused about moving! The sellers sent us a list of things in their garage they were wondering if we wanted to buy including stand up paddle boards and kayaks, and I can't wait to see if the prices are good and then I don't have to buy these when I get there. It's going to be wonderful going out on the river with them!
The visit with the new owners of our old house was so nice and I showed them a bunch of stuff about the property while helping with the fish pond filter. She's such a great person, and I love her kids. I invited them to come visit when we move to SC.
Em, you may be right about just trying to maintain. My weight is all over the place and I just need to stabilize it, I think. Even though I am excited to move, it's still stressful hoping the house sale closes ok and that we have people to help us move, and even saying goodbye to everyone on such short notice is hard to schedule in.
I managed to track all my food today, and I went over calories, but it's just good to record everything and put some order to my chaotic attempts. I keep blanking out on what I ate, and I know it's some part of me resisting the process. So my goal for the next few days is just to record everything!
The visit with the new owners of our old house was so nice and I showed them a bunch of stuff about the property while helping with the fish pond filter. She's such a great person, and I love her kids. I invited them to come visit when we move to SC.
Em, you may be right about just trying to maintain. My weight is all over the place and I just need to stabilize it, I think. Even though I am excited to move, it's still stressful hoping the house sale closes ok and that we have people to help us move, and even saying goodbye to everyone on such short notice is hard to schedule in.
I managed to track all my food today, and I went over calories, but it's just good to record everything and put some order to my chaotic attempts. I keep blanking out on what I ate, and I know it's some part of me resisting the process. So my goal for the next few days is just to record everything!
Ah, self-reflection... Difficult, but worth it.
I'm so excited to hear about all the cool stuff you'll get to do once you get to your new place! Not having to buy everything new would be so practical.
Cate
Long term member
"I managed to track all my food today, and I went over calories, but it's just good to record everything and put some order to my chaotic attempts. I keep blanking out on what I ate, and I know it's some part of me resisting the process. So my goal for the next few days is just to record everything!"
I think my brain is resisting the process too. I might just try to hold on for a week & then try again to refocus. Stress makes it so much harder.
I think my brain is resisting the process too. I might just try to hold on for a week & then try again to refocus. Stress makes it so much harder.
Thanks all! I had a good weekend. Yesterday we all went for a 5 mile hike at one of our favorite state parks with K's best friends' parents (her best friends are twins) and another close friend and her mom. The friends have all been very close for 8 years, so K moving away is a huge thing for everyone. We met at a wonderful bakery/cafe and talked a long time and then hiked and then took everyone out for dinner because over the years their parents have treated K to a lot of meals out and sleepovers and would not take reimbursement. So we're making plans for them to all visit together this summer at our new place so we can show them around our new city. This will motivate me to get the guest room and public areas of the house nice quickly. I really want to make our new house a welcoming place for all our friends and not let myself go back into social anxiety again. I feel like it's time to finally do what I want in life and share good times with the people around me.
The event at school was so nice. It was advertised for adults only (so I've never gone because our baby sitter graduated long ago), and it turns out I could have brought K, which made me sad, but she was displaying her graphic design work and had her booth set up so she could talk to parents about it. So she snuck me in to the event (and a nice teacher turned the other way and let me in) so I could see her booth and I got to see the other artwork of the kids in the school and them presenting it. It was so nice, and there were jugglers, nice catered food, and theater and music. I just peaked at everything. Then we went to the open mike night place, but they changed the time, so we didn't get there in time and the doors were locked. It was a screening of a documentary made about their lovely music community. It is by a well known documentarian, so we can order it online once it's published. We'll try to go to lots of open mike nights before we go. I love that little community so much!
I am feeling melancholy about leaving, though also excited about the next adventure. It will be wonderful living where our expenses are normal and we can do nice things in our spare time instead of being so stretched thin all the time.
I decided not to let the awful political friction in my country get to me anymore. I am just not going to allow myself to get twisted up in knots over that sort of stuff. If it's an issue I can do something about, I will, and if not I am going to view it as a lesson in sociology. I had been getting so stressed over things, and it just doesn't help anyone. I read about this idea of a parallel culture where you create the life you want and include others who also like that way of life. Basically you can create a little tiny renaissance in your own life and hope that you can attract others to do so, as well. This is so how I dreamed my life would turn out. I used to read about people who opened their homes to artists and sent them off sketching with a hunk of cheese and a loaf of bread for the day, and at night everyone would come back and sit at dinner and discuss all sorts of amazing things. Well, now that we aren't so stressed, there is nothing stopping me from creating little get togethers of that sort! Maybe I can make a mini-salon!
I did talk with the moms about us all doing a FaceTime coding group for the kids, and the moms all want to do it, too! So we have a beginning mini-Renaissance project already set up! I really need to get our house out there nice quickly - so many fun things to do once we're settled!
Food - not great, but not terrible considering we walked 5 miles yesterday. Today back to recording and big salads!
The event at school was so nice. It was advertised for adults only (so I've never gone because our baby sitter graduated long ago), and it turns out I could have brought K, which made me sad, but she was displaying her graphic design work and had her booth set up so she could talk to parents about it. So she snuck me in to the event (and a nice teacher turned the other way and let me in) so I could see her booth and I got to see the other artwork of the kids in the school and them presenting it. It was so nice, and there were jugglers, nice catered food, and theater and music. I just peaked at everything. Then we went to the open mike night place, but they changed the time, so we didn't get there in time and the doors were locked. It was a screening of a documentary made about their lovely music community. It is by a well known documentarian, so we can order it online once it's published. We'll try to go to lots of open mike nights before we go. I love that little community so much!
I am feeling melancholy about leaving, though also excited about the next adventure. It will be wonderful living where our expenses are normal and we can do nice things in our spare time instead of being so stretched thin all the time.
I decided not to let the awful political friction in my country get to me anymore. I am just not going to allow myself to get twisted up in knots over that sort of stuff. If it's an issue I can do something about, I will, and if not I am going to view it as a lesson in sociology. I had been getting so stressed over things, and it just doesn't help anyone. I read about this idea of a parallel culture where you create the life you want and include others who also like that way of life. Basically you can create a little tiny renaissance in your own life and hope that you can attract others to do so, as well. This is so how I dreamed my life would turn out. I used to read about people who opened their homes to artists and sent them off sketching with a hunk of cheese and a loaf of bread for the day, and at night everyone would come back and sit at dinner and discuss all sorts of amazing things. Well, now that we aren't so stressed, there is nothing stopping me from creating little get togethers of that sort! Maybe I can make a mini-salon!
I did talk with the moms about us all doing a FaceTime coding group for the kids, and the moms all want to do it, too! So we have a beginning mini-Renaissance project already set up! I really need to get our house out there nice quickly - so many fun things to do once we're settled!
Food - not great, but not terrible considering we walked 5 miles yesterday. Today back to recording and big salads!
That's marvelous. The last couple of years have been SUCH a wild ride for you: I don't think there's anything you can't do.Thanks LaMa, and Hi Cate! That's very nice of you to say, and makes me happy!
So today I went for a walk first thing. There were dolphins right off the shore, playing in the waves which were very close. I got nice pictures of them. Just did errands and researched the kayaks and things the seller of the house is asking if we want to buy. Also did some wash and cleaning and shopping and the day is gone already. Don't know how that happened. I ate well but didn't record calories today. I seem to be either able to exercise or record things, but not both! I am feeling very happy about moving and will finish packing up my books tonight so tomorrow I can take the huge bookcase down and dis-assemble it.
People were so happy today and so many people said hello to me. Not sure if it's because Covid restrictions are lifting (though most people still wear their masks, so I do, too) or if it's because I am getting happy about the move. But it's so funny how much I am loving the area again, so it's bitter sweet that we're going. I am still very much looking forward to being at the new house. Just the thought of being 4 houses down from our community boat dock makes me feel giddy with happiness!
So today I went for a walk first thing. There were dolphins right off the shore, playing in the waves which were very close. I got nice pictures of them. Just did errands and researched the kayaks and things the seller of the house is asking if we want to buy. Also did some wash and cleaning and shopping and the day is gone already. Don't know how that happened. I ate well but didn't record calories today. I seem to be either able to exercise or record things, but not both! I am feeling very happy about moving and will finish packing up my books tonight so tomorrow I can take the huge bookcase down and dis-assemble it.
People were so happy today and so many people said hello to me. Not sure if it's because Covid restrictions are lifting (though most people still wear their masks, so I do, too) or if it's because I am getting happy about the move. But it's so funny how much I am loving the area again, so it's bitter sweet that we're going. I am still very much looking forward to being at the new house. Just the thought of being 4 houses down from our community boat dock makes me feel giddy with happiness!
Maybe it's because you're feeling happy again rather than perpetually stressed. The world always seems kinder and more open to me when I'm feeling enthusiastic about life.
I think you're right LaMa. Hi Cate and Alexistrophic! I got a bunch organized today and am waiting around at K's band practice now. I'm looking online at a seed catalog site a fellow gardener online told me about, and there are all kinds of wild medicinals and amazing plants I never thought I'd find seeds for like marsh mallow. I am having fun dreaming.
I did well with food today. The more disgusted I get with US politics, the less I care what people think of me, and the less stressed I get. So I enjoyed my lemon and hot water drink today when I was good for calories for the day and was fine after that.
I did well with food today. The more disgusted I get with US politics, the less I care what people think of me, and the less stressed I get. So I enjoyed my lemon and hot water drink today when I was good for calories for the day and was fine after that.
Cate
Long term member
I think getting into growing your own medicinal herbs would be fun. There's a new seed bank in our local town & I'm going to check it out when I'm in there next. Maybe tomorrow. It's a no money thing so I could donate some jam or laurel berry Worcestershire & leave some recipes in exchange.
Good thinking. I wish I had cared less about what people think of me decades ago. I like me. I like you too
Thanks Cate 
! I am feeling so much better about myself, and I think that will help for losing weight. If not, it's just nice to feel freer!! A seed bank sounds wonderful and I bet they would love your recipes and yummy food trades! I am bringing a bunch of seeds I saved from our last garden to the new property. Some are wildflowers, but most are heirloom seeds. I have enough peas for a small army, so will probably do pea shoots with some.
! I am feeling so much better about myself, and I think that will help for losing weight. If not, it's just nice to feel freer!! A seed bank sounds wonderful and I bet they would love your recipes and yummy food trades! I am bringing a bunch of seeds I saved from our last garden to the new property. Some are wildflowers, but most are heirloom seeds. I have enough peas for a small army, so will probably do pea shoots with some.Enjoy the feeling of being freer Marsia. I think it's natural to feel sad about moving away, but it's also a really exciting time. Life is all about the goodbyes and hellos, as far as I can see. There's something new and different waiting for you in Charleston, something that you need probably.
Cate
Long term member
I think feeling better about yourself is key to becoming healthier. It's so hard to do the right thing for yourself when you are being self-critical.
Hold that thought & try not to over-commit or accumulate too much when you move. I love the feeling of being free to do what I want. I really cherish it.
Thanks Em! I think moving to where expenses are half of what they are here is going to be a massive improvement. And people are generally less stressed there, I think, and more friendly. I think this is going to be a really fun adventure! This morning the realtor asked if I am looking forward to moving there, and I told him all the things I'm researching about the area from the gardens with all the different plants and crops there to the arts culture, and told him I'd miss the nature here like the dolphins swimming so close to me on the beach the other morning. He sent back a video of tons of dolphins off a wharf where you could see down into the water so clearly. He says they are everywhere. I love that this place is very ecologically minded and is so pristine.
Thanks Cate! I don't know why lately I am more patient with myself, but it feels a lot better!
This is a good warning - thank you! I know you are right. I'd like lots and lots of time to myself in our new place!
I tried noodles made with cauliflower flour as the first ingredient and they were actually good. They were fettuccini style, so I made an Alfredo sauce with chicken and veggies and a lot of garlic and parmesan, and proceeded to eat too much. I got halvah for dessert for J and K, which I should not have done, because I adore halvah. So tomorrow is another day, and I will hide the halvah and fettuccini from myself!
Did better with food today and made up a big batch of roasted root veggies with lots of really nice veggies like the kabosha squash and parsnips. Got some fresh oregano from the big flowerpot of it I brought here.
I know I am struggling lately because I am sort of an extreme plant lover, and the neighbor just chopped down a huge hedgerow of massive beautiful agaves that were ready to bloom, and then dug their roots out for good measure. Then S had her gardener severely prune her trees on the hill. It really affects me, and I need to meditate a lot more I think.
I made quite a mess in the kitchen the last few days and just spent the day cleaning and cooking and organizing. I want to do some yoga tonight and pack up all the stuff in the rest of the big bookcases. I need to get out into nature this weekend. Listened to a bunch of excellent podcasts today, and am feeling ok except for the sadness over the trees.
I know I am struggling lately because I am sort of an extreme plant lover, and the neighbor just chopped down a huge hedgerow of massive beautiful agaves that were ready to bloom, and then dug their roots out for good measure. Then S had her gardener severely prune her trees on the hill. It really affects me, and I need to meditate a lot more I think.
I made quite a mess in the kitchen the last few days and just spent the day cleaning and cooking and organizing. I want to do some yoga tonight and pack up all the stuff in the rest of the big bookcases. I need to get out into nature this weekend. Listened to a bunch of excellent podcasts today, and am feeling ok except for the sadness over the trees.
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Thanks LaMa! I am going to water some of the trees I can get to with the hose tonight so they don't go into shock so badly. It's the end of rainy season so they won't get water again for 3/4 of a year. I will be so glad to have my own property!
Well, I weighed myself this morning and I am up 4 pounds. I keep losing and gaining the same weight over and over, so I need a better plan. Meditation instead of reaching for food needs to be a part of it. Actually everyone is still asleep, so I'll start now.
Well, I weighed myself this morning and I am up 4 pounds. I keep losing and gaining the same weight over and over, so I need a better plan. Meditation instead of reaching for food needs to be a part of it. Actually everyone is still asleep, so I'll start now.