I just had a big plate of tuna and veg sauce, the rest of the cheese I had, and pasta. I feel a tiny bit better now, but so so tired. (I'm almost glad that i don't have any money, because I feel so overwhelmed that I would probably rush to the liquor store just to get the thoughts to stop if I had any money to waste on alcohol). I try to remind myself that as I have therapy on Friday, it's normal that these last few days before it are as fun as pulling teeth because my subconscious is starting to push stuff to the surface.
Maybe I should try to reverse these thoughts: it's only going to be what little is left of today, and then Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday that I'm going to feel bad, but as long as I make it to Friday, I can dump these emotions out in therapy and then it will get much better after.
I might make more spring rolls today, I fried and marinated some tempeh earlier today, that should do great as filling with veggies.