actually i prefer talking to random strangers than seeing a shrink. they only care about the money and are pissing me off to the point of no return. the thoughts of suicide went from random to all time time once i started seeing this guy. the army idea is bad because if i was disfigured thats an easy suicide reason. Also now that i think about it i probably wouldnt kill anyone else directly, i mean i would maybe like to beat the crap out of some a$$holes here and there but to take someone elses life is wrong. I dunno why everyone defends the idea of life... its not wrong to defend the idea of death? ugh... i hear 'dad' upstairs i gotta close this before he sees it or asks more questions... well continue this conversation in like 12 hours...
Suicide - Once in a lifetime experience.
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Actually.... dude maybe you should join the armyThey'll feed you, pay you, give you a place to live where you can shower and charge your ipod, structure out your entire day so you don't have to think or expend effort on living, you'll be away from your dad, and you'll have guns handy in case you still hate life.
But are you too lazy to march around mindlessly?
I don't think this guy should be around guns
OP - If you really wanted to kill yourself you'd have done it already and not been talking to strangers on the net about it. All you need is something to care about. Start off by trying to distance yourself from as much of the stuff that makes you feel bad and try and get interested in something.
Maybe do charity work? Helping others might be something that helps you out as well
ok he just left good riddance. yeah its pretty funny to actually talk to someone as unique as me. I have no will to live. that is the best way to describe it. when things get worse, then i want to die. so im rarely 'happy' to be alive you know? and yes i do workout, if i dont then i feel really bad. past 2 weeks have been only hour or 2 workouts each day when it should be 6 hours. Now im hoping they dont call me with hours for work. so its like a real vacation again... workingand seeing shrinks are roadblocks for me to work out for a long time and get godly strong. why? i ask myself that question every day, it seems so pointless. im strong enough to beat up at least half of you without knowing just how strong you are... but who cares? all the strength in the world and im just like batman stuck in an interrogation room with the joker :/
haha, not overtraining.. even if it was i should feel better since ive been working out 1/4 as much as i used to for half a month.. ok, my friend gave me a lotto ticket told me his gf and him fought and he took the last ticket said he was giving it to me, so she got upset. then he gave it to me and i scratched off three "10,000" prizes. so i had won ten thousand dollars, i told my friend oh, i have three like amounts. i said its ok we will split it in half. then he told me to read the back of the ticket and it was one of those fake lotto tickets. but thinking that i won 10k and my reaction was no different then when i take a piss. he had to lie to his gf and tell her that i got all excited and then i was upset but i thought it was a great joke. so my attitude isnt the greatest. but i dont want to change my mind. you would love to hang out with me in person even though i wouldnt want to hang out with you... im cool the way i am now, i could become gay and then be happy but wouldnt i be better off dead?
i dunno im rereading everthing it sounds like ive already made up my mind even though there are suggestions coming from people who care... its not like you are getting paid to speak here...so this thread is dumb but at least its no more pointless then life. God forbid that God tell us why we are here and what he wants us to do. i must say i really do like the pay to keep me from dying soon, or bleed me dry so that i die. Its brilliant and a$$hole-ish at the sametime. think about this: you want to live all the time but when you get sick you fear death. if you want to die all the time, you will be glad to die. seems alot harder to live then die instead of death over life even though both are the same, both options you are dying and you can even claim time is relative and all sorts of crazy mathematical sht...which is maybe why God gave us emotions because pure logic alone = suicide. then again thats only an assumption because god forbid we actually know anything in life for certain. we dont even know what happens when we die.... i think ill just go to sleep and check back on this when im not as tired...im living the most unimportant life and me talking about suicide sounds even dumber than a girl killing herself because her 1st boyfriend dumped her, yet it still makes plenty of sense to me and myfriend(who looks out for me, he spent 5 days convincing me not to be homeless). just so i dont forget later... maybe i should flip a coin and leave it all to chance, heads i live, tails i do it right then and there, heck i flip coins to decide if i want to go outside or smoke a cigarette anyway...
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not what i meant
gay as in "oh look at that gay little kid running around" or "he likes to breed dogs in his kitchen, what a f*g" by gay i mean anything that i think is stupid... i just slightly changed the meaning of the word there because i am tired. and being gay is a sin man, its the worst possible thing that can happen to someone and either you believe this or you dont...If i was a homo i would have killed myself a long time ago. good thing you brought that up though, i most definately wouldnt want to kill other people in some kind of a cop chase or something and then have a bunch of people thinking im gay like that chinese kid who shot up Vtech. the whole putting my life in their hands is the best idea.
gay as in "oh look at that gay little kid running around" or "he likes to breed dogs in his kitchen, what a f*g" by gay i mean anything that i think is stupid... i just slightly changed the meaning of the word there because i am tired. and being gay is a sin man, its the worst possible thing that can happen to someone and either you believe this or you dont...If i was a homo i would have killed myself a long time ago. good thing you brought that up though, i most definately wouldnt want to kill other people in some kind of a cop chase or something and then have a bunch of people thinking im gay like that chinese kid who shot up Vtech. the whole putting my life in their hands is the best idea.
Oh, OK, you meant gay as in dumb.
Either way, being gay isn’t a sin because there’s no such thing as God. The bible was written by men, not god. All the ‘facts’ in the Bible are also wrong, like God creating man; we evolved, we’re smart enough to know this now, we don’t need to hang on to crap like organised religion anymore feeding lies and hatred down our throats
Either way, being gay isn’t a sin because there’s no such thing as God. The bible was written by men, not god. All the ‘facts’ in the Bible are also wrong, like God creating man; we evolved, we’re smart enough to know this now, we don’t need to hang on to crap like organised religion anymore feeding lies and hatred down our throats
its easier to be happy if your are stupid than if you can think for yourself.... smarter you are the easier it is to find flaws in things, for instance when your gf kissed another guy, took a picture with another guy, flirted with another guy, looked at another guy, every 5-10 minutes some old person drives 20 miles under the speed limit, pulls too far past the curb into your lane, changes into your turning lane, cuts you off, drives in the wrong direction of cars, pulls you over for seatbelt tickets, parking tickets while a$$es get away with horrendous driving, the fact that your boss is an idiot and makes a ton of money while you do all the work, and take all the sh!t and this is all because you don't enjoy doing "intellectual" work that you must obtain credentials for... Im just not a part of the system... I hate society, how it enslaves you, and makes people work jobs they hate to buy sh!t they dont need while technology costs people thier jobs, making everything all the more difficult when it should get easier.. but no government has to be greedy, you cant even leave the country forever without a passport or getting citizienship/green passes and whatever else... we put up with all this nonsense and then you get rewarded with a kid who says i love you for a few years then "leave me alone" then "i want to see you/pay for my wedding". the more you think about it the more you wonder why the heck are you alive if you dont like society which runs the world... cops would harrass the crap out of you if you were homeless, and living with nature sucks with all these useless insects biting you, dont you ever wonder why im alive, why i continue to keep myself alive? its not a strange question to ask... but people get used to living in a "gay" bubble doing all thier "gay" activities like bowling, or playing with dogs and all that other sh!t...
i know what you mean about religion, we cant say for certainty what happened, things could be made up, misrecorded, abused to get people to behave a certain way... no different than the media in society though... but i wont dismiss the fact that God exists because you believe in "the universe just exploded and then molecules attached to each other and then there was a planet with water and little 1 celled organisms which became us" that theory is more retarded than any kid riding the short bus
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